"I made up my mind I"d let them all see I could do the work as well as anybody, though I am the youngest," she said to herself. "They don"t sneer at me now."
Her translation from the Lower School was beginning to feel quite an old remembrance. Her thoughts went back sometimes to that first day in the Fifth, the day when Netta had taken her into Miss Roscoe"s private sitting-room, and she had broken the box of china. That was a recollection which always stung, and which she would thrust away uneasily into the lumber-room of her mind. So far she had heard nothing more from Parker"s, but the consciousness of the debt was there, and she knew that sooner or later she would be called upon to face the difficulty.
Nor was she mistaken. One Sat.u.r.day morning, when she was taking a little vigorous exercise with the lawn mower before breakfast, she saw the postman coming in at the gate, and obeying a sudden impulse, ran to receive the letters, instead of allowing him to deliver them as usual at the door. There were four circulars for Father, a postcard for Beatrice, and one thin business envelope addressed to "Miss Gwen Gascoyne, c/o Miss Goodwin, The Thorns, Manor Road, Stedburgh," and re-directed in Netta"s handwriting to "Skelwick Parsonage, North Ditton". Full of apprehension Gwen turned it over, and saw the name "J. Parker & Sons" printed on the flap. So it had come at last!
Without even opening it she knew perfectly well what must be inside.
She wondered they had waited so long before sending in the account again. What a mercy she had intercepted the postman that morning and taken the letters herself! If Beatrice had got hold of this it would have been impossible to conceal the matter any longer. Why had Netta sent the letter on by post instead of giving it to her at school?
Surely it was a piece of spite on her part. Gwen turned quite hot as she thought of what Beatrice would have said. She hastily put the postcard and circulars on the breakfast-table, and ran down the garden to a retired place in the orchard, where she could open her ill-fated envelope in privacy.
Yes, it was just what she antic.i.p.ated--a bill for ten shillings, and a polite but urgent request that the amount should be paid without further delay. She crushed it angrily in her hand, then stuffed it into her pocket and stood thinking. What was she to do? What could she do? All sorts of desperate schemes came running through her mind, and she gave each its due consideration.
"If I were a girl in a magazine story," she thought, "I suppose I"d disguise myself as a pierrette and go and sing on the promenade at Stedburgh. I dare say I"d get heaps of pennies. But--oh! I wonder if girls ever really do such things out of books? Father"d rather I owed pounds than went singing for pennies. He stopped the Sunday School children going round on Christmas Eve, but then they went into the public-houses, and of course I shouldn"t. No, I couldn"t risk it, and besides, I"d be too shy to sing, and somebody would be sure to find out. Shall I ask d.i.c.k to lend me half a sovereign? He would in a minute. No! I"ve not sunk to sponging on my boy friends, at any rate.
I"d rather do a day"s charing than that. A good idea! Why shouldn"t I turn charwoman? If Beatrice would let me clean out the schools every Sat.u.r.day, instead of Mrs. Ca.s.s, and pay me the money, I"d work off the bill in time. I wonder if I dare suggest it?"
The breakfast bell ringing loudly and clamorously at that moment put an end to Gwen"s meditations, and she went indoors, but she was much preoccupied during the meal, so that she never noticed how Giles was peppering her piece of bread and b.u.t.ter till she incautiously took a bite and choked.
"You hateful boy! You"re always up to some monkey tricks!" she exclaimed indignantly.
""For she can thoroughly enjoy The pepper when she pleases!""
jeered Giles, adroitly dodging the smack she designed for him.
And the rest of the family laughed--yes, laughed, in a most heartless and inconsiderate manner.
"Your wits were wool-gathering, Gwen!" said Winnie, quoting a local proverb. "Stumps did it so deliberately and openly that anybody could have caught him who wasn"t absolutely dreaming. We were all watching to see if you"d notice."
"The absent-minded beggar!" piped Basil.
"I think you"re all very horrid and unkind!" complained the victim, still sneezing.
"Don"t be grumpy, Gwen!"
"You must learn to take a joke, childie!" said Father, pushing back his chair and going away to his study.
Father so generally stood up for her that Gwen felt aggrieved. She had always flattered herself upon her capacity for accepting "ragging"
with equanimity, but this, she considered, was beyond a joke.
"It might have got into my eyes and blinded me," she declared with plaintive dignity, and leaving the peppery remains on her plate, stalked off to the garden. She had certainly been too busy thinking during breakfast to notice her plate. It had struck her that if she really wished Beatrice to allow her to do charwoman"s work at the school, she must give some proof of her capacity in that direction.
"Mrs. Ca.s.s never begins till one o"clock," she thought. "I"ll go down this morning and get it all done before she comes, and then I can show Beatrice."
It seemed the only possible way of earning money open to her, so stealing one of Nellie"s coa.r.s.e ap.r.o.ns and a tin of soft soap from the kitchen, she hurried off to the school. She knew where Mrs. Ca.s.s kept the bucket and scrubbing-brush which she used for her cleaning operations; they were in a cupboard at the end of the pa.s.sage. Being Sat.u.r.day, the place was, of course, empty, and no one would disturb her. She had brought the Parsonage key to unlock the door, and after filling her bucket at the pump in the yard, she put on the ap.r.o.n, tucked up her sleeves, and set to work. And it was work! Gwen had never in her life before tried to scrub a floor, and though her arms were st.u.r.dy and strong at wielding a tennis-racket or the lawn mower, they soon began to ache at the unwonted exercise which she had set herself. The room seemed most enormously large, and she was sure it was abnormally dirty. The school children"s boots must have been caked with mud. She began to have a wholesome respect for Mrs. Ca.s.s. She grew stiff and cramped with kneeling, and was obliged to stand up occasionally and take a rest.
"There are the two cla.s.srooms to do yet," she thought ruefully, "to say nothing of the pa.s.sage. I"m getting rather fed up with scrubbing."
But she was only half through, so she set grimly to her self-imposed task again. She had very nearly finished the big room when the door softly opened, and who should appear but Beatrice! At the sight of Gwen and her occupation she nearly dropped the books she was carrying.
"Gwen! what"s the meaning of this? You do look an object!" she exclaimed.
Gwen jumped up hastily, well aware that she thoroughly merited any aspersions on her appearance. Both her dress and the ap.r.o.n were soaked with water, her face had acc.u.mulated some of the dirt, her hair ribbon had fallen off, and her hair was dangling in her eyes. A more untidy young person could not have been found in the whole village. She flung back her hair with a wet, grimy hand, and finding her pocket handkerchief, tried to wipe her face.
"What freak is this, Gwen? Whatever will you do next?" continued Beatrice.
"I didn"t expect you here till I"d finished," answered Gwen, sitting down exhaustedly on a form.
"You know I often come to practise the hymns, now Winnie takes the mission-room at Basingwold. That doesn"t explain why you"re washing the floor."
"I wanted you to see that I could do it. I thought perhaps you"d let me scrub every week, and pay me instead of Mrs. Ca.s.s," said Gwen, blurting out her scheme in the baldest outline.
Beatrice took another comprehensive glance at her sister"s disreputable figure, then sat down hilariously.
"You needn"t laugh so--I mean it seriously," protested Gwen. "I want the money."
"Oh! oh! You look so funny!" screamed Beatrice; then, suddenly sobering down, she changed her tone. "I couldn"t help laughing," she continued, "but it was a good thing it was only I who came in and caught you in this dirty mess. What prompted you to be so silly?"
"I"ve told you already."
"Gwen, don"t be idiotic! How could you scrub the school every week.
Besides, we couldn"t take the work away from Mrs. Ca.s.s. She"d be most indignant She needs the money badly, poor body, with that large family to keep."
This was an utterly new aspect of the case that had not before occurred to Gwen.
"I want money too," she groaned.
"So do I, and so does Dad, and so do we all, but we can"t get it,"
replied Beatrice rather tartly. "We have to make up our minds to go without. You"re no worse off than the rest of us."
Gwen paused. A half impulse was stirring within her to tell her sister her difficulties. If only Beatrice looked a little more sympathetic!
"How do you know I"m no worse off?" she began.
"I"ve no patience with you, Gwen! You"re always thinking about yourself! You"ve done a silly, mad prank to-day, and I don"t know what Mrs. Ca.s.s will say when she arrives. Really, at your age you ought to know better and remember your dignity. You"re not a child now, though I"m sure you behave like one. Go and put that bucket and scrubbing-brush away, and wash your face before you walk home. I shall have to explain to Mrs. Ca.s.s, or she"ll think I"ve been giving her work to another charwoman. It would be enough to make her leave the church! She"s fearfully touchy. I wonder when you"ll learn sense."
Very crestfallen, Gwen turned away. No, it was quite impossible to confide in Beatrice. Beatrice never understood, never even seemed to want to understand. In her superior, elder-sisterly position she simply condemned everything without hesitation.
"I wonder if she used to do silly things herself?" thought Gwen.
"She"s always been six years older, and preached to me since I can first remember. Shall I ever catch her up, or will she seem those six years ahead to the end of the chapter?"
And having performed some very necessary ablutions, she walked home, looking tired and woebegone.
Beatrice, with a sigh, opened the harmonium and chose her hymns for to-morrow"s Sunday School, wondering on her part why this particular sister was so difficult to manage, and so utterly different in disposition from the rest of the family.
"I"m sure I do my best," she thought, "but Gwen has always been a trial. I can"t imagine whom she takes after. If the ugly duckling"s ever going to turn into a swan, it"s time she began!"
All Sunday Gwen was haunted by a horrible black shadow. She kept Parker"s letter in her pocket, and the remembrance of it never left her. Gwen generally enjoyed Sundays, but this particular day was like a nightmare. How to get out of her sc.r.a.pe she could not imagine. The debt felt like a heavy millstone tied round her neck. In the afternoon, when the others sat reading and chatting under the trees in the garden, she mooned about the orchard by herself, too miserable even to be interested in a book. How was the affair to end? She did not dare to go to Parker"s and explain that at present it was impossible to pay the bill. She supposed she would simply have to let things drift and await further developments. What steps Parker"s would take next, she could not foresee. They would probably wait a week or even more before further pressing the account, and any respite was welcome. Trouble was ahead, doubtless, but it was better ten days off than to-morrow, because there was always the faint hope that some circ.u.mstance might arise at the eleventh hour to smooth over the difficulty. On Monday morning Gwen seized an opportunity to catch Netta alone.
"I say," she began, "it was awfully mean of you to send that letter of Parker"s on to me by post. Why couldn"t you have brought it to school instead?"
"Why should I?" retorted Netta. "I"m not going to act postman for you, I can a.s.sure you! And look here, Gwen Gascoyne, you"ll please not have any more letters directed to you at our house! We don"t want to receive your bills, thank you! You must give your own address to the shops. Haven"t you settled that affair with Parker"s yet?"