Then she was positive that his face was too stiffly sober, but she ignored it--ignored, too, the tinge of whimsicality in his voice.
"If I weren"t so sorry for you I might not be so sure; but I am sorry.
If you weren"t so dismayingly cheerful about it, I wouldn"t feel so badly. But I"ve begun to understand how very long you have been playing your cards and smiling over them, no matter what might be dealt you. And that is some improvement over the girl I"ve been, isn"t it?
For I"ve never had to struggle very hard for anything I"ve wanted. I want to be friends, but I"m not silly enough to think you won"t tell me again that you--care. I want to be friends, but not at the price of your heart-ache and disappointment, and--why, I wonder, do I get all tangled up when I try to explain myself to you? It"s just this: I"m not going to be unkind to little Steve any more, Mr. O"Mara, or--or big Steve, either. But I--I want to see you sometimes, too, and--and I just won"t let myself cry any more this morning!"
Her voice had grown very small toward the end. It trailed off into a stifled but unmistakable sniff. And a moment later, when she ceased fumbling with the reins and glanced with resolute brightness up at him, the film of hot tears in his eyes brought her hands to her throat. But even then in the face of that light which she had never before glimpsed in any man"s eyes for her, she was conscious of his use of her name--vaguely conscious of how different it sounded on his lips.
"Barbara," Steve faltered, "Barbara, you blessed child, you!" And there, dumbly, he shook his head over his stumbling utterance and tried to laugh to cover it. "Sorry? Sorry for me? Why, G.o.d bless you, girl, you refuse me whenever you want to--whenever you have to! I"m not asking you to help. And don"t you suppose after last night I know how near to losing out I am? I understand. Why, you"re going to get quite a few refusals ahead of me, no doubt, before--before I catch up with you! But don"t you waste one bit of worry on me.
"It would be your telling me that you did care, and then telling me that you didn"t, that would about break me. I have to keep on asking you; I have to keep on trying, but you can tell me "no chance"
whenever, in your heart, you believe it to be the truth, and I"ll take it smiling. Just don"t let it become mechanical, that"s all I ask, will you? And--and if some day after I"ve gone, you suddenly begin to wish, even the tiniest bit, that you hadn"t made the last refusal quite--quite so final, you needn"t let that worry you, either. Because I"ll be back! You can know that I"ll come back, next day--next month--next year--thirty miles or three hundred--oh, just to see if my chances haven"t improved any! That does make you smile, doesn"t it? I reckon experienced match-makers would tell me that that isn"t the way for me to talk if I"m going to win out. But it"s the way I like best.
I want you to know that there is one person you can be sure of, all the days of your life. I began a dozen years ago--I"ve only started loving the whiteness of you."
She rode with wide eyes fastened upon his now wholly smiling face; rode with lips parted, all else submerged in that wonder which quickened her breath. Once she leaned toward him as if to speak, and then shook her head at the inadequacy of the words. They topped the last rise in the dusty, winding road and raised the river basin and the town itself in that long period of silence. There, once more, she checked the roan mare.
"If women could care like that," she told him quietly. "If I believed that I could ever----" She shook her head with a sad little smile.
"Since you have come home you"ve made me feel very insignificant and petty at times. You"ve made me wish I might have been as--as wonderful as you say I am to you. But I know, you see." She lifted one slim arm toward the newer Morrison stretched out along the river front. "Do you remember the first day you saw the village it used to be, that day when you first came down river?"
Steve knew what she was going to say. She read amused antic.i.p.ation in his eyes and grew self-conscious at it.
"I thought yours was a perfectly good parallel," she a.s.serted stoutly.
"And you"ll have to admit that you did believe it was wonderful then.
Uncle Cal has told me how breathlessly you called it the "city." But is it as wonderful, now? Hasn"t familiarity with real bigness dimmed its wonder a little?"
For the first time that day his att.i.tude was frankly challenging.
"Maybe," he agreed, "maybe! And maybe I like it better than ever, for the others I"ve seen!" He frowned and shook his head. "I"m quite likely to stick to first conclusions," he finished, "and your inference is basically wrong. I do not need to look at other women to make me surer of the wonder of you. A man doesn"t have to live in a desert all his life to know what thirst is, you know. And it"s not bad--not bad as cities go!"
As they had begun the morning they now finished it, on a plane of thorough comradeship which years and years alone cannot achieve.
"Not bad," she echoed throatily. "Not bad, at all! It"s marvelous too, how towns and people and--and things in general can improve, once they awake to their own importance in the scheme of things, isn"t it?"
Quite on a mutual impulse they clasped hands and laughed into each other"s eyes; quite unnecessarily it may have appeared to the small group on the veranda of the stucco and timber place halfway down the slope between them and town. And there on the crest of the hill, suddenly conscious of those eyes, the girl drew back as swiftly as she had swung toward him.
"What in the world will they think!" she breathed. "I"ve been gone since daybreak, without saying a word that I was going. And it must be noon by now. Come--no, don"t hurry! It"s too late to hurry now!"
Her chin came up; the line of her lips lost its soft fullness. It was his hot face which made her aware of how surely her imperiously quick orders had stung him. Then she was back, knee to knee, at his side.
"That wasn"t fair," she said. "That was most unfair, to me. You didn"t think, did you, that I----"
His interruption surprised her.
"If I shouldn"t inquire," he asked, "will you please tell me so, and forget I asked the question? May I know when you--you and Mr.
Wickersham are to be----"
Barbara"s face went slowly crimson, flushed to the nape of her neck.
"It"s not a certainty yet, the date," she answered kindly. "Just late in the spring, I think."
He nodded. Again she knew how wholly unreadable his eyes could be.
"Late in the spring," he repeated, so softly that he might have been talking to himself. "Late in the spring I"ll have two time limits run out on me."
Wickersham himself was coming across the lawn to meet them when they drew rein at the head of the driveway. With a deliberation so proprietary that it set Barbara suddenly to gnawing her lip, he unbent his long legs and straightened from his place on the top step of the veranda; and even though the wicker chairs behind him were filled he stood forth quite alone, extremely tall and straight, perfectly poised and entirely immaculate. And without one outward sign of animosity to give it ground, that other man sitting loose-thighed upon Ragtime"s back knew that he was wondering where she had been--why she had chosen to go alone. Without exhibiting a trace of it upon his long face, Wickersham still radiated a swift and chilling jealousy which, now that he saw it again, Stephen O"Mara knew had never been entirely absent from the face of the Archibald Wickersham he had known many years before. Just as Miriam Burrell, with a studied deliberation that matched that of the tall figure ahead of her, in turn detached herself from the throng and came down the steps, Barbara"s eyes raised to Steve"s. She did not stop to reason it; she couldn"t have made it sound reasonable had she tried, but she did not want those two to meet again just then--those two whose boyhood quarrel had centered about herself.
"Won"t you keep Ragtime until you come back to Uncle Cal"s to-night?"
she asked. "I"ve kept you loitering for hours and hours on the way.
But it will save you a little time."
And this time Steve understood. He nodded in reply.
"Not a chance?" he asked her quietly. "Not a chance?"
She was wheeling the roan.
"Not a chance," she whispered. "Not a chance in the world! But we--Mr. Elliott promised to show us the works this afternoon," she added in the next breath. "Can you--do you suppose you can come?"
And then, as she turned the mare and went skimming up the drive toward the stable, she wondered why he laughed.
In his turn Steve set Ragtime"s head toward the town in the valley.
And therefore he did not see that Archibald Wickersham was left standing alone a moment in the middle of the lawn. But Miriam Burrell saw and understood the black rage that shadowed his face. Long before then she had penetrated to the layer of vanity beneath his air of boredom. More than once she had used that knowledge maliciously, to stir him. And she knew how unending could be his hatred for anyone who had ever made him appear ridiculous.
CHAPTER XI
I NEVER DID LIKE TO BE BEATEN
Stephen O"Mara found Hardwick Elliott lunching alone in the East Coast Company"s main Morrison office, a big unpainted shack that stood half lost in a maze of high-piled ties, midway between the saw-mills at the river edge and the first snarled network of switches converging on one reddish streak of steel that lanced into the north. With moodily indifferent interest Elliott scarcely more than glanced up at the horseman"s approach across the open plot of raw earth, hard-packed to a cement-like surface by the endless pa.s.sage and repa.s.sage of countless hob-nailed, heavy-booted feet, but with that first glance his forehead began to smooth a little. His face had lost something of its hint of gauntness, even before his chief engineer had swung down from the saddle. Elliott had been exhibiting scant appet.i.te for the cold food half buried in the pile of papers on his desk top; and though he smiled his characteristically courteous, mildly abstracted greeting when Steve loomed in the doorway, his att.i.tude was still very patently that of a man who attempts to conceal his own perplexities lest they compound those of another whose perplexities are already more than enough. He rose and held out a finely tapered hand.
"Now, this is fine," he exclaimed. "This is really fine, Mr. O"Mara.
Rather odd, too--coincidence and that sort of thing, I mean. Because I was just this instant wondering whether I had better send for you or wait until you just happened down river again."
In many ways the president of the East Coast Company reminded Steve of Caleb Hunter, even though there could be no two things more in contrast than the latter"s calm and comfortable bigness and Elliott"s thin and wiry and extremely nervous exterior. It was a similarity due entirely to the innate honesty of both men--such honesty as makes of every attempt at dissimulation an a.s.sured non-success. And Miss Sarah had never antic.i.p.ated her brother"s clumsiest finesse with greater ease than did Steve sense, that afternoon, the weight of worry behind his employer"s first effort at jauntiness. He nodded, hopefully, it seemed.
"Something else gone wrong?" he asked. "Or are you going to tell me that McLean is still having trouble with that curve of his."
Elliott, too, shook his head, but his negative nod was less brisk, less hopeful.
"No," he replied. "No, we"ve got that laid, or at least practically so. It"s not anything so satisfyingly material that I wanted to talk about. I wish it were, because--well, the fact is, now that you are here it appears I may have considerable trouble in making you believe that I"m not merely developing a most womanish case of nerves. Cold feet, I suppose, might not be far from correct, if we put it in the proper gender. No, it"s not the work itself. You know the first few miles at this end afford pretty plain sailing. We figured on that: or we wouldn"t stand any chance of finishing the job. And we are quite nicely ahead of our schedule, so far. But have you--I was wondering if you, by any chance, have noticed any signs of discontent in your own squad at Thirty Mile?"
Elliott eased himself back into his chair at the finish of the question. Repugnantly he jerked a thumb in silent invitation toward a plate of sandwiches. It indicated most clearly the state of his appet.i.te--that gesture--and Steve could not help but smile a little as he refused.
"No more than the usual disturbances," he answered. "I have more or less trouble holding them--some of them--over the week-ends, of course.
But then that"s always to be expected. They aren"t the sort of men that go to make up the general run of construction squads. One of my main reasons for wanting them was the fact that they were rivermen, hardened to swamping and white-water work and that kind of thing. In a pinch they"re good for twenty-four hours a day, over stretches that would take the heart out of most gangs. I don"t know of anything that can beat a lumber-jack on a squeeze job, once you get him to realize that he"s up against long odds. It"s this ten-hour-a-day thing and too much ready money every pay-day; it"s a town too temptingly close that makes them a--a trifle temperamental, Mr. Elliott. Is that what you mean?"
Elliott pondered for a moment.