Chapter 20.1 - To want and not get
“How?”
“... To want and not receive.” This was more interesting than when they lived a life horrible enough to beg for death.
She wanted to see Lou Lianxin climb step by step to the position that she wanted the most dearly.
Then see her fall down.
Didn’t she want to marry Li Jingsheng?
Then Lou Qingwu would grant her wish.
But in this lifetime, she wouldn’t let her proudly and majestically marry into the Li family.
She wanted to see her covered in dirt and ashamed as she walked into the Li family.
Three years later, then she’d see Lou Lianxin become Li family’s youngest widow just like in the previous life time.
And half a year later after that, she’d see her be tricked by a scholar into adultery, trick her into losing her fortune and again, be covered in grime and dirt as she gets kicked out of the Li family.
But this time, she’ll close off all her exits.
She’ll let her understand completely what real pain is and how it feels.
-- The longer the grudge grows, the more she begs and won’t receive, the more she won’t forget about it.
When she received it and loses it, she’ll remember it for the rest of her life.
She’ll live a life of dissatisfaction because no matter how hard she tries, she’ll never gain it again.
Finally, she’ll torment herself until the day she dies.
Tang Er thought about it for a while and still couldn’t think about what would hurt the most.
But if eldest miss said so, then she would obviously have her reasons.
“Your subordinate understands. Tonight, your subordinate will complete eldest miss’ orders, step by step. Your subordinate will not bring shame and dishonour.”
“En.” Lou Qingwu’s fingers drifted across the small black box in the cloth bundle. Her expression indifferent.
But when she lowered her eyes, they flashed coldly.
“Eldest miss, your subordinate …”
Tang Er hesitated but couldn’t restrain himself from speaking the words he had hid at the bottom of his heart for so long.
But just as he was about to speak, the Leaning Wind Pavilion’s courtyard door was suddenly pushed open.
Lou Qingwu’s expression changed as she turned around, lifted her chin towards Tang Er.
The latter quickly lifted his head and disappeared in front of Lou Qingwu.
As she turned around, she pulled open the door and walked outwards.
Just as she reached the door, Lou Qingwu saw eight maidservants walk in, each carrying an exquisite tray.
On top of the trays were makeup powders, hair pins and a beautifully magnificent brocade robe …
The maidservants lined up perfectly as they all looked towards her, respectfully and upright called out, “Greetings to eldest miss!”
Behind them all, second madam Ruan Zhen sashayed her hips as she walked in, her beautiful face displaying a warm and gentle smile.
“Qingwu ah, look at these items, do you like them? You didn’t even say a word when you came back so second mother couldn’t even prepare things for you. Because everything’s so last-minute, second mother could only temporarily find something ordinary for you. I hope you don’t dislike it too much.”
As she spoke, she blinked at Lou Qingwu, her expression motherly and affectionate, as if she was really a benevolent mother who was just concerned about her loving daughter, it’s a shame that …
Lou Qingwu’s eyes swept over the items displayed and finally settled on a gauze gown.
The embroidery was fine and exquisite, the silver embroidery forming lilies and the lapel of the gown was embedded with many shining pearls.
The gown dazzled with light and brilliant colours, it really was a soft silver lily gauze gown.
The fact that she gave such a beautiful gown for her to wear was really a cause for suspicion.
Lou Qingwu looked at the second madam’s motherly eyes as her own lip corners curled up in a naive smile, not tearing apart her fake facade, “Did second madam come to my Leaning Wind Pavilion just for this?”
Once Ruan Zhen (second madam) heard the words “second madam”, her brows furrowed immediately.
Her lowered eyes flashed with disgust and resentment.
This feral girl, she didn’t even call her ‘second mother’ but it won’t be long until she will become the head mother of the Lou residence.
At that time, watch how she’ll torture Lou Qingwu and give Lian’er the chance to avenge her for the humiliation she received!
Furthermore, it’d be doubtful if she could even live past tonight.
Ruan Zhen used her handkerchief to cover her mouth as she smiled, her expression becoming even more soft, gentle and virtuous.
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TL note
Second madam addresses herself as second mother because she’s LQW’s step mother.
The ‘soft silver lily gauze gown’ sounds like it’s an awkward description but it’s actually a type of dress. This detail will be important in a few more updates.
Leave a comment and for more evil step-mother scheming. What is she up to this time?
Again, be wary of strangers bearing gifts xx
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