"His brother died four years ago when Wesley was five. He got shut in an old discarded refrigerator and suffocated. Wesley was out playing with him when it happened."
"I see."
"But he"s all right now. He"s a perfectly normal little boy and he knows that I"m always here for him and that I love him ..."
"It"s only five days," Wesley told Joy, "until the school holidays, and then we can play together all the time."
Joy was very full of herself lately, but it seemed like the more success she had with her high-handed techniques and her bullying, the less content she felt about things.
"Wesley," she said, picking at the blister on her ankle until white plasma squirted out of it and slid into her sock. "You are my special friend, aren"t you? You will look after me, won"t you?"
"I will, I will," Wesley said, pa.s.sionately, his eyes filling.
His mother had picked him up in the car because it was the last day of school and he had some books and some drawings to take home with him.
"So, Wesley," his mum said, "what shall we do in the holidays? Shall we go to the cinema? Shall we go to Whipsnade Zoo?" She stopped off at their local Wimpy Bar on the way home and bought him a burger and a milkshake.
They were almost home and then Wesley became tense and distracted.
"Mum", he said, "we must go back."
"Where?"
"School."
"Why?"
"Joy. I left her in the cla.s.sroom."
"What?"
"I left Joy in the cla.s.sroom. That was the last time I saw her and now she"s gone."
Wesley"s mother pulled the car over to the side of the road. "Wesley," she said softly, "I"m sure Joy can easily find you if she wants to."
Wesley"s eyes were wide and frightened. "But she"s in the cla.s.sroom! We must get her! If she stays in the cla.s.sroom she"ll starve over the summer and she"ll die!"
His mother smiled. "Maybe a cleaner will go in there later and she"ll get out then. Or maybe the teacher left a window open. She"ll find her own way home."
Wesley started sobbing. He was inconsolable.
Wesley"s teacher met Wesley"s mother in the school car park. It was eight o"clock and Wesley had been crying for four and a half hours. He was sitting in the car, still crying.
"You must think I"m a fool," Wesley"s mother said, "but I can"t stand seeing him so distressed. He"s just got it into his head that his little friend is locked in the cla.s.sroom and nothing I can say ..."
The teacher looked over towards the car. Wesley"s face was puce with sobbing. "When his brother died," she said gently, "how did he react?"
Wesley"s mother shook her head. "Just quiet and frightened. Not a tear."
The teacher sighed. "This is his way of grieving for his brother," she said. "If we unlock the cla.s.sroom, it"ll be almost like we"re pretending that we can bring his brother back. Do you know what I mean?"
Wesley"s mother was scowling but she sort of understood. She said, "Wesley makes up little games and little rules for himself all the time ..."
"And why," his teacher added, "would he have decided to lock this invisible friend of his in the cla.s.sroom if he hadn"t wanted, in his heart of hearts, to finally be rid of her?"
The car door slammed. Wesley was out of the car and racing towards the school buildings, in the dark, towards his cla.s.sroom. His mother, his teacher, called out and then followed him.
They found Wesley with his face pushed up against the window of the schoolroom. He was looking for Joy but he couldn"t see her in the darkness. "Open it!" he screamed. "Let her out! Open it! Open it!"
And when they wouldn"t open it he started slapping his face on his bad cheek. His teacher tried to hold him and his mother tried to hug him. But they wouldn"t open it. His teacher kept saying, "She"s not in there. You don"t need her. You lost her because you wanted to."
And his mother kept saying, "It"s not Christopher. Christopher is dead now, Wesley. Christopher is dead now."
Wesley broke free. He ran from them, screaming, his arms windmilling, so angry that they"d mentioned Christopher, so angry that Joy was stuck in the cla.s.sroom and they wouldn"t let him have her back. And he"d never been angry before, not really. Joy was the angry one. Joy was the cross one who made him do bad things but now Joy was gone and he was angry. They had taken her. They had taken her. And now she would starve during the summer holidays. Oh, his throat-oh, his chest-oh, his heart.
Joy sat at a desk. Now what? She was bored. It was dark in here. There was nothing to do. She found some chalk and scribbled on the blackboard. She drew a big white rectangle. She stared at it for a while. "Christopher," she whispered, "come and play with me. Christopher, Christopher, come and play."
Nothing happened. She scratched at the blisters on her ankles. She closed her eyes. And then she moved herself, in an electric current, in a bolt of static, in an electrical pulse, out of that cla.s.sroom and into Wesley"s brain.
Wesley was still running and shouting and screaming. He was making so much noise that he didn"t even know Joy had come back to him. She moved herself, her braces and her blisters and her bruises, into the darkest corner of Wesley"s mind, that place where Christopher was. And they played together then, Joy and Christopher, the two of them, quietly, silently. Bitter, ugly, cruel little games which n.o.body knew about.
Even Wesley stopped remembering who they really were.
Mr Lippy.
THE FIRST TIME IRIS met Mr Lippy he was in Hunstanton, sitting on the ocean wall, watching the tide from the Wash as it lapped away at the concrete just below his feet. His right fist was wrapped up in a thick, white gauze. Iris guessed straight away that he must have sustained this injury in a fight. She should have avoided him. Naturally. If only she"d known what was good for her. Perhaps she didn"t know. Or if she did, she didn"t care.
"Hi," she said.
"I don"t talk to girls," he responded.
"You from the West Country?" she asked, brutally, registering some kind of rural burr in his voice.
He said nothing.
"How"d you hurt your hand, then?"
He ignored her.
"Live around here?"
She sat down next to him and swung her legs. She was eighteen and liked a challenge. She wore sandals and a halter-neck top even though it was late October.
His bottom lip stuck out while she spoke to him. He pouted without thinking, like he was sulking about something, only he didn"t know what, didn"t know, even, that he was sulking.
"What"s a good-looking man like you got to sulk about?" she said.
"Pardon?" He turned and looked at her.
"Mr Lippy!" She laughed. She stuck her bottom lip out, mimicking him.
"I wasn"t doing that! "
"Wanna bet?"
"I wasn"t!" He switched on his brain and stared at her properly, for the first time.
From that moment onwards, Iris always called him Mr Lippy if he scowled or sulked or swore at her. His real name was Wesley but she called him Wes. She always wanted things different from the way they were.
Wesley had yearned all his life to be close to the sea. His dad had been a sailor. But he was born inland and had lived there until he"d arrived at the Wash under his own steam aged twenty-four. Now he was twenty-eight.
Sometimes he worked on the funfair in Hunstanton. Sometimes he went potato picking. He worked in the sugar beet factory until they closed it, and then, after a spate in the arcade, got a job ferrying tourists across the Wash in an open-topped, antiquated hovercraft to visit Seal Island.
Iris didn"t know that Wesley"s broken fist had been sustained, not in a fight as she"d imagined, but in an accident at work: one of the other lads had reversed the hovercraft too close to the ocean wall where Wesley was stationed at the back of the craft, ready to put out the gang-plank. The lad"s foot had slipped off the brake on to the accelerator, and Wesley"s hand had been crushed that way.
An accident. But Wesley relished the pain. He liked punishment. And anyhow, he"d received several hundred pounds in compensation, just like that. A gift from the G.o.ds. So he opened a bank account and nested it there.
Iris was living in a bed and breakfast facing the seafront. She was a bully but he thought it was because life had been hard on her. He was wrong. They made love under a single duvet. If Wesley got carried away, if he threatened to come before she was ready, then she"d squeeze his bad fist until he saw only stars. It was good, she thought, to keep him distracted. Just a little bit.
He"d known her for a month when she told him she was pregnant. She didn"t know anything about him.
"I don"t care," he said, "what happens, really, so long as I can stay close to the sea."
"Why?" She was only two weeks pregnant but already she felt different about things and she wanted Wesley to feel different too.
"I don"t know. My dad was a sailor."
"Really? And your mum?"
"She lives in Gloucester."
"Yeah? Think she"ll be pleased?"
Wesley shrugged. Iris waited for Wesley to ask about her mum and dad. He didn"t ask. She wanted him to.
"Do you love me?"
"I"m used to being on my own."
"Don"t you have any plans? For the future, I mean?"
Wesley rearranged the gauze on his fist.
"Not me," he said.
"Why not?"
Wesley closed his eyes.
Seal Island. In the summer the boat was packed to its gills with children. Clutching their packed lunches and their cans of fizzy pop. They"d all pa.s.sed the morning on the big wheel and the dodgems, eating candy-floss and bags of sticky honeycomb. And now they were headed for Seal Island. They had dreams of palm trees and Captain Hook and hidden treasure to help them over the brown sea and the lurching waves. An island, full of basking seals.
When the tide was out, you might see the s.l.u.ttish brown outline of the sandbank. You might see a lethargic seal, on its edge, rolling to the bank"s perimeter, and then the flip of its tail as it swam off and under. If the tide was in, you were lucky to see that much.
Seal Island. Wesley loved it. Every day. The tears, the screams, the disappointment. He loved that stuff. He"d turn and he"d look at the children, the occasional mum, the odd uncle. And he"d think, "Good, they should learn that life is s.h.i.t. Good they should know it."
Iris became worried about Wesley"s motivation. "That"s cruel," she"d say, "to lead the little b.u.g.g.e.rs into thinking that they"re getting more for their money than they"ve a right to expect."
"No crueller," Wesley said, "than leading them into thinking that life is anything better than a b.i.t.c.h."
One day Wesley came back to Iris"s room to discover her parents there. They weren"t at all as he"d imagined.
"Mum and Dad want me to come home again," Iris said, "and I want you to come with me, Wes."
"Home, where?" he asked, shifting his weight from foot to foot.
She"d promised him it was close to the sea. In the back of the car, they sat. One suitcase between them. "Nearly there," she kept saying. "Nearly, nearly."
Iris"s father showed Wesley the shop, the nursery, the rabbit pen, the pet section, the field with the ponies, the cafe. The whole kit and caboodle. Finally he showed him the owl sanctuary. Twenty cages.
"What"s it mean?" Wesley asked. "Sanctuary?"
"Couldn"t survive in the wild," Iris"s father said. "Some come from exotic places."
Wesley stared at the owls. They stared back. Not blinking.
"You never told me," Wesley said, that night, in their bedroom, "that your parents were rich like this."
"Never asked," Iris said.
"I don"t understand," Wesley said, "why anyone should want to run away from something that"s as good as here."
Iris shrugged. "I"m back, aren"t I?" she said, all saucy.
"It"s far from the sea," Wesley said.
"f.u.c.k that s.h.i.t."
He turned to look at her.
"You don"t even like the sea," she said, "not really. It just makes you sad and angry. It"s all mixed up in your head with some stupid fantasy about your dad."
Wesley was injured by this. It was almost as though, he thought, Iris didn"t respect his reasons. Like his reasons weren"t good enough.