Timeshares

"He"s always late anyhow. And I"ve et."

I barely heard her. By the time the warm, b.u.t.ter-strong scent reached my nose I had my coin purse in my palm and had pinched out more than what she"d asked. And let me tell you it was worth it at twice the price. Ten times . . . because it helped me remember something.

While I was eating that stew I recalled something important. What the stew had to do with it, I"ve no idea. But I"ve thought on it all day, and now that it is night and I expect I"ll fade off into sleep or whatever it is that I do, I"ll lose the memory by tomorrow. Or maybe tomorrow will be a little bit more of today. Maybe I"ll have a two-day run of it this time. Or a week. And that"s what keeps getting me out of bed. What if this time it all lasts? What if a memory sticks and I"m allowed to live instead of just exist?

So, what I remembered was this: a woman"s arm-the wrist and hand with a dusting of lightish honey-colored red hair, a slice of sunlight laid across it prettier than if she"d draped a diamond bracelet on there. I could tell it was a woman"s wrist because of that soft k.n.o.b of bone that"s visible even on a chunky girl and that ain"t never the same on a man, no sir. But this girl was slender. And just above that prettiest of sights, a white sleeve ended, not tight and wrapped in frills or lace, but looser like a coat.

I took another spoonful of stew, so hot it burned my tongue and I didn"t care, didn"t even stop, afraid that it might break the spell and I"d lose that sliver of a memory. It wasn"t so much the picture in my mind of the hand, the wrist, the sleeve end, but the feeling behind it. You see, I knew that woman. I"m sure of it. Not like you"ll come to know a soiled dove for a few minutes, and not like you come to know your own mother or sister or wife. But somehow I knew who she was, just the same. I guess it was a feeling of familiarity that I was so excited about because nothing has seemed so familiar for such a long time. If it did, I don"t recall it anymore.

So I kept my eyes closed and stood right there in the little store and slurped on that stew like it was life- giving nectar from that first garden in the Bible. While I was giving thought to that wrist and coat cuff, I ever so gently nudged my mind"s eyes to wander up that sleeve, not tight on the arm like a dress might be, but more like a coat. And then there was a shoulder. I held the spoon in my mouth, the vision I was having just kept going . . . and with no warning at all, I saw a face, the face of a woman, hair shortish, tucked around an ear, and spectacles, too. Big ones the likes of which I"ve never seen, and rimmed in thick, clear frames.

Her hair was reddish brown, darker than the light hair on her wrist. And I could see an earring, small and glinting like it was a jewel. And her face was precious, easily the prettiest woman who has ever lived, more of the fine light hairs there on her cheek. She held still, like a painting. And then two things happened at once.

That old woman who"d served me squawked like an early-morning crow will do outside your window, and the pretty woman in my mind cut her eyes in my direction and almost smiled.

"Are you having a fit? Cause if"n you are, then you can get out of here and right quick, too. I don"t hold with anyone who can"t keep control of himself."

I ignored the old stick of a woman for as long as I could, and tried to keep the vision there before me. The pretty woman in my mind had moved, had looked right at me. That never happened before. Or at least not recently. But what"s more, I saw a flash of gold from down lower on her, like a brooch, maybe. But no, it wasn"t at the throat, lovely as that was. It was lower, and to the side. A pin of some sort? No. And the white garment itself was not right, not like something a woman would wear. Nor were the spectacles. But what was it that I missed? There was something else, I just know it. The gold thing down below. I- "That"s it. I knew you were a madman the second I clapped eyes on you. Get out of my store right now! Right now before I call for the sheriff!"

I opened my eyes, the spoon still clamped in my teeth. But the pretty woman was gone, replaced by the shouting old biddy in the store. I set the bowl of warm stew on the counter with the spoon beside it. The dumplings stared at me like the pasty cheeks of a dead child. I wasn"t hungry anymore. Just tired. I walked out of the shop, the old woman"s voice following me until the door cut it off.

I made my way along the boardwalk for a minute, watched by a few folks. I didn"t care. I had too much to think about to pay them any heed. Then I walked straight into a chunky bald man in arm garters and a striped shirt. He was sweeping his precious few feet of boardwalk.

"Hey, mister." He stared at me like I"d said boo in church. "Look out where you"re headed."

Not even possible, friend, I thought. "Sorry," I said.

"I"ll forget it-if you need a haircut or a bit of doctoring . . ."

"What?"

The man shook his head and stepped back inside his shop. "Nothing. I was trying to drum up business. I ain"t had coin enough for a drink all week."

I stared at him for a moment, the last of the haziness of the stew-dream leaving me. "Did you say you"re a doctor?"

"Close as you"ll find around these parts. I"ve even studied back east. Course, out here a man can"t do just one thing. That"s why I also cut hair, pull teeth, clean ears, and lend a hand at the Gazette Gazette."

I stepped into the empty shop after him and pulled off my hat. "I can use a haircut."

"h.e.l.l, for a dime I"ll cut "em all." He laughed way too long at his own joke. I tried to join in.

"Have a seat," he said, and waved me into the chair, talking the entire time.

I only half heard him. My mind was still on that woman in my memory. On her coat and the thing I didn"t see but I know was there. I closed my eyes while he snipped and fiddled with my hair. I could have cared less what he did with it. Vain I"m not.

"Doc . . ."

The man stopped snipping for a second and cleared his throat. I reckon he felt flattered to be called that. "In your professional training, have you ever had any experience working with people who were, well . . . off their nut?" I tapped my head and squinted at him in the reflection before me.

He lowered the scissors and comb and looked at me in the mirror. "What?"

"You know-am I crazy?"

"Mister," he said, resuming my haircut. "If you"re crazy, then you"d do well to keep it to yourself. People around here don"t much like anything that"s different."

Outside, a mule skinner"s wagon raised a fresh cloud of dust as it rumbled past. The doc reached out with one leg and toed his door shut. He went back to work on my hair.

I sighed. This way I live feels normal to me because it"s been going on for so long. Or has it? I guess I"m either full-bore crazy or not at all. I choose to think I"m not. Small comfort. It"s as if I"ve been forgotten. I bet that the woman in the memory could tell me everything I wish I knew. I didn"t know much about her, but I couldn"t get rid of her, either. She was lodged in my gizzard like a hunk of cheap steak that I can"t swallow or bring back up. Stuck, that"s what she is, and me, too.

"There. Never have I seen such a fine tonsorial treatment." The doc stood behind me, hands resting on his girthy middle, looking at my head in the mirror the way a farmer might a prize cabbage. I pushed up out of the chair and rummaged in my vest pocket for money. Then something in the corner, hanging from a peg, caught my eye. I tossed the coins on the little counter and s.n.a.t.c.hed the thing down. It was a white coat.

"What"s this?" I said, stretching out the sleeves and admiring it as if it were the latest fashion I might like to buy.

"That"s my doctorin" coat. We all got one when we graduated from the Kingsley Medical Program in Providence, Rhode Island."

"You ever known any women doctors?"

He snorted a laugh that tailed off like a sneeze. "Mister, you are are off your rocker." He took the coat from me and draped it over his arm, smoothed it. off your rocker." He took the coat from me and draped it over his arm, smoothed it.

"There wasn"t anything there." I nodded at the coat and pointed to the side of my own chest. "On the coat, I mean."

"What would you expect to see? A badge? I"m a doctor, not a lawman."

But that was all I heard. I think he kept talking, and I know he called for the sheriff, because a few minutes later a man with a star marched me down the street, prodding me with his pistol and telling me he didn"t have time for troublemakers in his town. I didn"t care much. As long as the cell was empty it would give me the time I needed to think. And time was the one thing I guess I had more of than anything else. Besides, they could hold me there overnight but I wouldn"t wake up there, that much I knew.

The door squawked and clanked shut behind me and I made my way to the bunk. No one was in the cell with me. I leaned back against the log wall and concentrated on the woman in the white coat.

Then I had a thought: what if I"ve been doing the same thing forever? What if this is all there is or ever will be to my life? What if I"m being forced somehow to be the same person doing the same things, thinking the same thoughts, over and over, and a thousand more overs besides?

It"s as if I"m caught in something that keeps spinning and can"t stop. And the worst of it is that I have a strong hunch that it never will stop. Like a pup that"s caught his tail and keeps on spinning with that thing in his teeth. Except even dogs will grow bored and chase a rabbit instead. That"s what bothers me the most-knowing that if I can"t ever gain an edge on this thing, I won"t ever grow older, and that means I won"t ever die. And I guess that even writing in my little diary won"t help me because whatever I write, whatever I learn, will all disappear come tomorrow, and I"ll be back where I am right now.

All of that is truly bad, worse than a main-street showdown with a sore loser at five card stud, because at least with him you stand a chance of dyin". And wouldn"t that be a blessed relief. But I don"t believe I"m quite there yet. There"s still some figuring left to do on this problem.

No, the worst part is that the only thing that keeps me doing this day after day after day, for what could well be thousands or by now millions of years (or is it just one day so far?) is that I still have hope. But what if hope should leave me? I guess then I could kill myself. I snapped my eyes open and sat up again, my knuckles pushing into the rough blanket. But what if I come to find out that death is not even possible?

The cell"s grown darker now; the deputy is snoring lightly in the front room. Soon it will be night and I"ll drift off, and then wake up in a hotel in an uncomfortable shuck bed with a lumpy pillow, a thunder pot on the floor beside my flopped boots. It ain"t much, but it"s something, I reckon.

I stretch out full length on the plank cot and try to relax. Before too long I think of the woman in the coat, the woman with short red-brown hair, big gla.s.ses, and the gold name tag on her chest that reads: DR. JENNIFER KAPLAN, with TIMESHARES in smaller letters underneath.

I almost open my eyes to . . . do what? Write it down in the diary? Has that ever done any good? I relax and watch her face, and even as she speaks I seem to recall what it is she"s telling me. So much information to remember, I think to myself, right before I am once again lost in her words. Once again.

Her smile stretches wide and she says, "No sir, Mr. Barr, there"s no need to worry. I can a.s.sure you everything has been repaired and tested, and it"s perfectly safe now. You"ll have the ideal trip." She looks me up and down, leans closer, and says, in a whisper, "You look just like a real cowboy." She winks, the smile again, then louder, "This journey to the Old West will be the trip of a lifetime for you, Mr. Barr. You"ll wish you never have to leave. Timeshares guarantees it. Now just relax while we perform our last minute checks."

Her face disappears, a steel door clunks shut, the bright ceiling lights dim. I can just make out faces staring at me through a gla.s.s window set into the wall by the door. She is there, standing beside others, a man and a woman, also in white coats. Above the table where I"m strapped down there are metal rods pulsing with lights, others tipped with points, cables and wire coiled all around me. Everything in here seems to be making a sound, each piece rising to a pitch all its own, then something buzzes, lights on the wall above the window flash from red to green. She is still smiling. Then something explodes.

It sounds like a safe door being ripped off its hinges by too big a charge of dynamite. Arms of blue light reach toward me. I cannot move. Something else rips apart and I hear a woman"s screams as if from far away, from behind thick gla.s.s. She shrieks, "No, not again! You said it was fixed-"

A man shouts, "Get him out of there! Now!"

I try to scream, try to howl loud enough to tell them yes, yes, get me out of here. I try to wake the deputy snoring in his tipped back chair in the next room.

I try, over and over, I try . . .

Unsolved Histories Greg c.o.x

Greg c.o.x is a New York Times New York Times bestselling author of numerous books and short stories. He has written the official novelizations of such films as bestselling author of numerous books and short stories. He has written the official novelizations of such films as Daredevil, Ghost Rider Daredevil, Ghost Rider, and the Underworld Underworld trilogy. In addition, he has written books and stories based on such popular series as trilogy. In addition, he has written books and stories based on such popular series as Alias Alias, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, CSI, Farscape, The 4400, Roswell, Star Trek, Terminator, Xena, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, CSI, Farscape, The 4400, Roswell, Star Trek, Terminator, Xena, and and Zorro, Zorro, as well as various DC and Marvel comics. He recently won a Scribe Award from the International a.s.sociation of Media Tie-In Writers. He has traced Jack the Ripper"s path through Whitechapel, but only in the twentieth century. as well as various DC and Marvel comics. He recently won a Scribe Award from the International a.s.sociation of Media Tie-In Writers. He has traced Jack the Ripper"s path through Whitechapel, but only in the twentieth century.His official Web site is www.gregc.o.x-author.com.

The damp, foggy weather reminded her of Seattle.

The gaslights and hansom cabs did not.

"Welcome to the West End of London, heart of the city"s flourishing theater district," the tour guide announced. Kenneth Ramsey"s bristling red muttonchops and thick walrus mustache fit the era perfectly, as did his formal black attire, white tie, and top hat. A gilded watch chain dangled from his vest pocket. His plummy British accent certainly sounded authentic. "Home to Henry Irving, Ellen Terry, Oscar Wilde, and other luminaries of the Victorian stage."

His lips barely moved as he subvocalized into the miniaturized microphone concealed in his impeccably knotted silk tie. His spiel was instantly transmitted to tiny receivers discreetly hidden in the ears of the small party of time tourists surrounding him on the sidewalk in front of the legendary Lyceum Theatre. Eager theatergoers dressed to the nines milled past them, necessitating such technological legerdemain. It wouldn"t do for the natives of this bygone age to overhear them.

Pretty slick, Celeste thought. Timeshares seemed to have thought of everything. Her earpiece itched, however, and she resisted an urge to fiddle with it. She also felt slightly queasy, apparently a routine side effect of temporal dislocation. Ramsey had a.s.sured her the timesickness would pa.s.s. Celeste thought. Timeshares seemed to have thought of everything. Her earpiece itched, however, and she resisted an urge to fiddle with it. She also felt slightly queasy, apparently a routine side effect of temporal dislocation. Ramsey had a.s.sured her the timesickness would pa.s.s. It had better. I have big plans for this evening, and they don"t involve me puking all over the nineteenth century. It had better. I have big plans for this evening, and they don"t involve me puking all over the nineteenth century.

She contemplated her fellow tourists, who included a middle-aged couple from Ohio, their bored- looking teenage son, and a somewhat nerdy-looking young man wearing a deerstalker cap in emulation of his idol, Sherlock Holmes. All were dressed in formal period attire, provided by Timeshares for a nominal fee. Their package deal included three nights in Victorian England, including meals, accommodations in a luxury hotel, and entertainment. Even as a group excursion, it was a pricy trip, but if everything went according to her plan, it would pay off big time.

Or so Celeste hoped.

For now, though, she just needed to play along and pretend to be merely another time-traveling sightseer. A slender woman pushing forty, she found her elaborate Victorian getup less comfortable than her usual sweatpants and T-shirt. Along with the others, she took in the deliciously old-time atmosphere, gawking openly like out of towners. Horse-drawn carriages disgorged a steady stream of elegantly bedecked gentlemen and ladies who braved the drizzly autumn weather for a night at the theater. Flower girls, straight out of My Fair Lady, My Fair Lady, hawked posies to their betters. Liveried coachmen held open doors. Mist fogged the s.p.a.cious avenue, adding a nostalgic haze to the scene. The lambent glow of the gaslights shone through fog like fairy nimbuses. Towering marble columns supported the Lyceum"s imposing portico. A hubbub of voices competed with the hawked posies to their betters. Liveried coachmen held open doors. Mist fogged the s.p.a.cious avenue, adding a nostalgic haze to the scene. The lambent glow of the gaslights shone through fog like fairy nimbuses. Towering marble columns supported the Lyceum"s imposing portico. A hubbub of voices competed with the clop clop clop clop of the horse"s hooves. A stocky bearded Irishman stood atop the steps leading to the Lyceum"s grand entrance, fulsomely greeting each dignitary. Celeste realized with a start that it was Bram Stoker, the theater"s acting manager. Had he written of the horse"s hooves. A stocky bearded Irishman stood atop the steps leading to the Lyceum"s grand entrance, fulsomely greeting each dignitary. Celeste realized with a start that it was Bram Stoker, the theater"s acting manager. Had he written Dracula Dracula yet? No, that was still nine years away. . . . yet? No, that was still nine years away. . . .

"I can"t believe it," half of the married couple murmured in awe. What was his name again? Brian? Ryan? He hesitantly touched the base of a nearby streetlight, as though expecting it to pop like a soap bubble upon contact. "It"s so real."

"It is real," Ramsey insisted. "This is no theme park or VR simulation. It"s actually November 8, 1888." He rapped a marble column with his knuckles. "You"re really in London during the reign of Queen Victoria, when the sun never set on the British Empire." The fading light belied his words. "Metaphorically speaking, of course."

The fanboy in the deerstalker hat raised his hand. "Aren"t the Jack the Ripper murders going on now?" Watery eyes gleamed with excitement. "I know it"s not on the itinerary, but any chance we can squeeze in a trip to Whitechapel?"

"I"m afraid not, Mr. Moskowitz," Ramsey replied. "The East End of London is too dangerous at this point in history. Never mind the Ripper; nineteenth-century Whitechapel is a lawless slum where violent crime is commonplace. Maybe someday, if there"s sufficient demand, Timeshares can figure out a way to ensure our clientele"s safety on such an excursion. But for now liability and insurance issues preclude any detours to the bad part of town."

"Oh," Moskowitz said, obviously disappointed. The teenager, whom had visibly perked up at the mention of the grisly murders, slipped back into sullen adolescence. Moskowitz dabbed at a runny nose with a monogrammed silk handkerchief. "Darn allergies," he muttered. "This fog is wreaking havoc with my sinuses." He blew his nose loudly. "You sure we can"t sneak in just a peek at the Ripper"s hunting grounds? I promise not to sue anybody."

"Sorry," Ramsey demurred. "It"s out of my hands."

Celeste repressed a sigh of relief. She had her own plans regarding the Ripper, and she didn"t want any amateur sleuths or murder buffs horning in on them. There was too much at stake. Namely, my career. Namely, my career.

The tour guide went back to hyping tonight"s activities. "Still, if it"s chills and thrills you"re after, I think we can oblige you with some of the fictional variety." He gestured grandly at the ornate theater. "Tonight we have front row seats to Jekyll and Hyde Jekyll and Hyde, starring the great Victorian actor Richard Mansfield. This celebrated production, based on Robert Louis Stevenson"s immortal cla.s.sic, has been playing to sold-out audiences for months now. Believe me, it took no little effort to secure some tickets, but at Timeshares we spare no expense to make your vacations literally historic."

And charge an arm and a leg for it, too, Celeste thought. But it would be worth the expense if she succeeded in what she had Celeste thought. But it would be worth the expense if she succeeded in what she had really really signed onto this tour for. Forget Richard Mansfield, signed onto this tour for. Forget Richard Mansfield, Jekyll and Hyde Jekyll and Hyde, and the rest of this whole "Gaslight & Greasepaint" enterprise. She was out to solve one of history"s greatest unsolved mysteries.

Who was Jack the Ripper?

The show, and Mansfield"s performance, proved entertaining enough. Despite her impatience to get down to business, she had almost been disappointed when the cast took their final curtain calls.

Almost.

Big Ben tolled midnight as she gratefully shed her c.u.mbersome Victorian finery in the privacy of the hotel room Timeshares had booked for her at the Carlton. In theory, the rest of the tour party had retired for the night in antic.i.p.ation of tomorrow"s busy itinerary, which included a matinee showing of Gilbert and Sullivan"s Yeoman of the Guard Yeoman of the Guard with the original cast. With any luck, she"d know the Ripper"s ident.i.ty by then and be fast on her way to fame and fortune. with the original cast. With any luck, she"d know the Ripper"s ident.i.ty by then and be fast on her way to fame and fortune.

Corset, bustle, stays, and petticoats. .h.i.t the floor. On went the men"s attire she had stowed in a hidden compartment in her luggage. A dark Ulster coat helped disguise her already boyish figure. She tucked her short blond curls under a bowler hat. Chances were it would be easier-not to mention safer-to navigate the sordid back alleys of Whitechapel as a man. And the trousers would be lot easier to run in if something went amiss. Ramsey had not been exaggerating when he"d described the East End as the most dangerous part of London, and she was heading right into its most murderous depths.

Did she really want to do this?

Now that the moment was at hand, second thoughts a.s.sailed her. Maybe this wasn"t such a bright idea. Her timesickness had pa.s.sed, just as Ramsey had promised, but her stomach was still tied up in knots. She shivered at the prospect of venturing out into the foggy night on her own.

What other choice do I have? Sales of her true-crime books had been slipping for years now; royalties and downloads were drying up. Not that it was her fault. Could she help it if there were no truly great murder mysteries in her own time, when most any crime could be solved by matching DNA samples? Where was the drama in that? There were times she wanted to travel back in time just to kick Watson and Crick in their double helixes. Sales of her true-crime books had been slipping for years now; royalties and downloads were drying up. Not that it was her fault. Could she help it if there were no truly great murder mysteries in her own time, when most any crime could be solved by matching DNA samples? Where was the drama in that? There were times she wanted to travel back in time just to kick Watson and Crick in their double helixes.

Thank heaven there were still great crimes-and great criminals-lurking in the past. Jack the Ripper was her ticket back to the top of the bestseller list, provided Timeshares didn"t get wind of what she was up to and pull the plug on tonight"s expedition. Fortunately, she had been able to book the tour under her real name, Celeste Jordan, instead of her pen name, Jordan Pinkerton, so as to avoid raising any red flags with the time-travel agency. If all went well, she could return to the twenty-first century with the Ripper"s true ident.i.ty and no one would be the wiser-until her new book went on sale.

It was the perfect scheme, as long as she didn"t lose her nerve.

"No guts, no glory." She had come too far, geographically and chronologically, to turn back now. Tucking an umbrella under her arm, she took a moment to inspect her disguise in a full-length mirror. "Not bad." In the murky gaslight and fog, she would probably pa.s.s as a man. "Whitechapel, here I come."

The East End was even worse than she had imagined. Only a short carriage ride had separated her ritzy accommodations from Whitechapel, yet she might as well as have taken a starship to another world. Celeste had memorized every book ever written about the Ripper and knew just how bad this neighborhood was supposed to be in Queen Victoria"s time, but it was one thing to read about the squalid conditions online, in the comfort of her air-conditioned condo in Seattle, and something else altogether to experience it for real.

A clammy fog, reeking of smoke and fouler odors, wafted through a daunting labyrinth of grimy streets and alleys. Hundreds of thousands of the city"s poorest and most desperate inhabitants were crowded into a pestilential slum where disease, crime, poverty, and ignorance blighted the lives of anyone unlucky enough to live here. Immigrant families were crammed into overcrowded tenements and sweatshops. Doss-houses offered flea-infested cots to homeless wretches for just a few pennies a night. Raucous laughter, tinny music, and angry voices poured out of the pubs and brothels that proliferated on nearly every block. Gin was mother"s milk in these parts, anesthetizing the hopeless populace from the brutish reality of their short, miserable lives. A sickening effluvia filled the gutters. The swirling miasma left every surface greasy to the touch. Celeste gagged on the smell.

How could people live like this?

A door banged open behind her, and a drunken brawl spilled into the streets. Celeste scurried away, her heart pounding louder than Big Ben. She clutched her b.u.mbershoot to her chest. All at once, she regretted leaving her emergency locator beacon back at the hotel. It had seemed like a good idea at the time, though; the last thing she wanted was for Timeshares to yank her back to her own era before she was finished here. What if Ramsey or someone else noticed that she wasn"t where she belonged?

You don"t need the locator, she thought. she thought. You know what you"re doing. You know what you"re doing.

Nevertheless, as she hurried through the dimly lit maze of streets and alleys, doubts chased after her. Maybe she should have gone for Lizzie Borden instead? Fall River, Ma.s.sachusetts, would have been cleaner and a lot less intimidating. But how would she have explained to Timeshares why she wanted to visit Fall River in the summer of 1892? Their lawyers would surely have vetoed any attempt to get the real scoop on an ax murderer. . . .

Nope, Jack the Ripper it was. I"ll be fine, I"ll be fine, she thought, she thought, as long as I stick to the plan. as long as I stick to the plan.

"Oi, guvnor! "Ow"s about it?"

Celeste nearly jumped out of her skin as a filthy figure suddenly accosted her from the shadows. The light from a pub"s frosted-gla.s.s window exposed a haggard woman wearing a ratty shawl over a rumpled brown frock that smelled like it hadn"t been washed since the Queen"s Jubilee the year before. Greasy black hair, liberally streaked with gray, was piled beneath a dilapidated straw bonnet. Sunken eyes winked at her. A toothless smile made Celeste"s skin crawl. The woman"s breath reeked of gin.

"Er, no, thank you." Celeste recoiled from the grotesque apparition, who was obviously one of the countless prost.i.tutes infesting Whitechapel in this era. According to her research, the East End was home to at least twelve hundred so-called daughters of joy. It was upon women like this, selling themselves for shillings just to stay alive, that the Ripper had preyed. Celeste hadn"t expected to have to fend one off herself.

Apparently, there were drawbacks to disguising herself as a man.

She tried to hurry away, but the rancid hooker would not take no for an answer. "Don"t be like that, laddie." The harlot blocked her path. "Old Nellie knows what you need." Rheumy eyes squinted at Celeste. "Only a shilling for a pretty young boy like yourself."