Isabella, you can"t mean it. He was shocked.
I can and I do. Just who do you think will run the business now now that " he"s gone? She faltered for a moment on the words. But he bridled as soon as she had said them.
I thought I could do that. For a moment he sounded hurt and very tough. She looked away and then back at him.
You could. But I can"t do that. I can"t sit here and abdicate. I can"t give up what Amadeo and I shared, what he built, what we loved, what we made. He"s gone now, Bernardo. I owe it to him. And to Alessandro. One day the business will be his. You and I. will have to teach him what he needs to know. You and I. Both of us. I can"t do that just sitting here. If I did that, all I could do was tell him what it was like twenty years ago when your father was alive." I owe him more than that, and Amadeo, and you and myself. I"m coming back on Monday.
I"m not saying you shouldn"t come back. I"m just saying it"s too soon. He tried to sound gentle but he was not Amadeo. He couldn"t handle her in Amadeo"s gentle way, only with fire.
But this time she only shook her head, her eyes filling with tears again. It"s not, Bernardo " it"s not too soon at all. It"s much " much " too late. He put a hand over hers and waited until she caught her breath. What would I do here? Wander? Open his closets? Sit in the garden? Wait in my boudoir? For what? For a man" . A sob broke from her as she sat very still, her head held very high. " a man " whom " I loved " and who is never again " coming " home. I have to " come back to work. I have to. It is a part of me, and it was a part of him. I will find him there. Every day. In a thousand different ways. In some of the ways that mattered most. I just" have to. That"s all. Even Alessandro understands. I told him this morning. He understood perfectly. She looked proud for a moment. He was such a good little boy.
Then you"re making him as crazy as you are. But Bernardo didn"t mean it unkindly, and Isabella only smiled.
May I make him as crazy as I am, Bernardo. And as lovely as his father was. May I make him just as fine as that. And with that she stood up, and for the first time in days he saw a real smile and only a glimmer of what had once been the sparkle in her eyes, only days before, only days. I need to be alone now. For a while.
When will I see you? He stood up, watching her. Isabella was still there. Somewhere, sleeping, waiting, but she would come alive again. He was sure of it now. There was too much life in her not to.
You will see me on Monday morning, of course. In my office.
He only looked at her silently and then he left. He had a lot on his mind.
Chapter FIVE.
Isabella di San Gregorio did indeed appear in the office on Monday morning, and every day after that. She was there from nine to two, inspiring awe, terror, admiration, and respect. She was everything Amadeo had always known she was. She was made of fire and steel, of heart and guts. She wore his hat now as well as her own, and a thousand others. She worked on papers in her room at home at night long after Alessandro went to sleep. She had two interests in her life now, her work and her child. And very little else. She was tense, tired, drawn, but she was doing what she had said she would do. She even sent Alessandro back to school with a guard, with caution, with care, but with determination. She taught him to be proud, not afraid. She taught him to be brave, not angry. She taught him all that she herself was and still managed to give him something more. Patience, love, laughter, and sometimes they cried together too. Losing Amadeo had cost them both almost everything they had. But now it brought them closer and it made them friends. The only one whose friendship suffered was Bernardo. It was he who took the brunt of her sorrow and anxieties and fatigue. Instead of running more of the business, it seemed to him he ran less. He worked harder, longer, more, and yet she was trying to be everything, the root, the core, the heart and the soul of the House of San Gregorio. It left him drudgery. And bitterness. And anger. Which showed in every meeting between them now. The wars were constant, and Amadeo was no longer there to temper them. She was trying to be Amadeo as well as herself, and she was not sharing with him as she had with Amadeo. She was still in command. It created more tension than ever between them. But at least the business hadn"t suffered from the blow of Amadeo"s pa.s.sing. After a month, the figures were stable; after two months they were better than they had been the year before. Everything was better, except the relationship between Bernardo and Isabella, and the way Isabella looked. The phone rang constantly day and night, at home and in the office. The cranks had arrived, as promised. Threats, arguments, confessions, harangues, sympathy and accusations, obsecenities and propositions. She no longer ever answered the phone. Three men covered it twenty-four hours a day at the villa, and another three covered the phone at the office. But still no clue had turned up to identify the kidnappers, and it was clear now that they would never be found. Isabella understood that. She had to. She also knew that eventually they would leave her alone. The cranks, the maniacs, the fools. All of them. One day. She could wait. But Bernardo disagreed.
You"re crazy. You can"t go on living like this. You"ve already lost twenty pounds. You"re practically scrawny. He didn"t mean it of course; she was always beautiful to him but still she looked ill.
That has nothing to do with the phone calls. It has to do with what I eat, or don"t . She tried to smile at him from across her desk, but she was too tired to argue anymore. They"d been at it all morning.
You"re jeopardizing the child.
For chrissake, Bernardo, I"m not! Her eyes raged at him now. We have seven guards on the house. One with Enzo in the car. Another at school. Don"t be a horse"s a.s.s.
Wait, just wait, you b.l.o.o.d.y fool. Did I tell you that day, did I, about the way you two lived? Was I wrong?
It was a bitter blow.
Get out of my office, Isabella shouted.
Get out of my life!
Va cagare! He slammed the door as he left. For a moment she was too stunned to go after him to apologize and she felt too tired even to try. She was so G.o.dd.a.m.n tired of fighting with Bernardo. She tried to remember if it had always been like that. Hadn"t it been fun before too? Hadn"t they laughed together at times? Or had they only laughed when Amadeo was there to coax them away from their battles? She couldn"t remember anymore. She couldn"t remember anything except the mountains of papers that lay on her desk except at night. Then she remembered. Too much. She remembered Amadeo"s soft sleeping sounds in the bed at night and his hands on the warm flesh of her thighs. She remembered the way he yawned and stretched when he awoke, the look in his eyes as he smiled at her over the morning paper, the way he smelled just after he had shaved and bathed, the way his laughter rang out in the hall when he chased Alessandro, the way" . She lay with the memories every night. She took work home with her now, hoping to keep the visions at bay, hoping to lose herself in fabric orders and collection details, statistics and figures and investments. The nights were too long after Alessandro went to bed.
She shut her eyes very tightly and sighed as she sat in her office, trying to will herself back to work, but there was a soft knock at her door. Unwillingly she jumped, startled. It was the side door to Amadeo"s office, the door he had always used. For a moment she felt herself tremble. She still had that mad feeling that he was going to come back. That it was all a bad dream, a terrible lie, that one of these evenings the Ferrari would slide down the gravel driveway, the door would slam, and he would call out to her, Isabellezza! I"m home!
Yes. She stared at the door as the knock came again.
May I? It was only Bernardo, still looking strained.
Of course. What are you doing in there? He had been in Amadeo"s office. She didn"t want him in there. She didn"t want anyone there. She used it to find refuge sometimes, for a moment, at lunch, or at the end of a day. But even she knew that she couldn"t keep Bernardo out. He had a right to access to Amadeo"s papers, to the books he kept on the wall behind his desk.
I was looking for some files. Why?
Nothing. The look of pain in her eyes was unmistakable. For a moment Bernardo ached for her again. No matter how impossible she was at times, no matter how they differed in their aspirations for the business, he still understood the magnitude of her loss.
Does it bother you so much when I go in there? His voice was different now than it had been a little while before when he had shouted and slammed the door.
She nodded, looking away for a moment and then back at him. Stupid, isn"t it? I know you need to get things from his office sometimes. So do I.
You can"t turn it into a shrine, Isabella. His voice was soft, but his eyes firm. She was already doing that to the business. He wondered how long it would go on.
I know.
He stood uneasily in the doorway, not sure this was the time. But when? When could he ask her? When could he tell her what he thought? Can we talk for a minute, or are you very busy?
I have some time. Her tone wasn"t very inviting. She forced herself to gentle her voice. Maybe he wanted to apologize for what he had just said as he slammed out of her office a little while before. Is there something special?
I think so. He sighed softly and sat down. There"s something I haven"t wanted to bother you with, but I think that maybe it"s time.
Oh, Christ. Now what? Who was quitting, what had been cancelled, and what wasn"t going to arrive? That G.o.dd.a.m.n soap again? She"d already heard enough, and every time they had to discuss it, it reminded her again of the day when " when Amadeo " that last morning" . She averted her eyes.
Don"t look like that. It"s nothing unpleasant. In fact he tried to convince her by smiling it could be very nice.
I"m not sure I could stand the shock of something very nice." She sat back in her chair, fighting exhaustion and a pain in the small of her back. Nerves, strain, it had been there since" . All right, out with it. Tell me.
ecco, signora. And suddenly he regretted not taking her to lunch. Maybe that would have been better, a few hours away, a good bottle of wine. But who could get her to go anywhere anymore? And moving three feet out of the building meant taking with them her army of guards. No, it was better here. We"ve had a call from the States.
Someone has ordered ten thousand pieces, we"re dressing the First Lady, and I just won an internationally coveted award. Right?
Well" For a moment they both smiled. Thank G.o.d, she was mellower than she had been earlier that morning. He wasn"t sure why, maybe because she needed him so much, or maybe she was just suddenly too tired to fight. It wasn"t quite that kind of call. It was a call from Farnham-Barnes.
The omnivorous department store monster? What the h.e.l.l do they want now? In the past ten years F-B, as it was called, had been carefully devouring every major top-notch department store in the States. It was now a powerful ent.i.ty to be reckoned with, and an account coveted by everyone in the trade. Were they happy or not with their last order? No, never mind. I know the answer to that, they want more. Well, tell them they can"t have more. You already know that. Because of the number of stores in their chain, Isabella was careful to keep the reins well in hand. They could only have so much of her ready-to-wear line and a minuscule quant.i.ty of the designer line. She didn"t want women in Des Moines, Boston, and Miami all wearing hundreds of the same dress. Even in ready-to-wear Isabella was careful and kept an iron control. Is that it? She glared at Bernardo, already bridling, and he felt his upper lip grow stiff.
Not exactly. They had something else on their minds. The parent company, something called IHI, International Holdings and Industries, which happens to own Farrington Mills, Inter Am Airlines, and Harcourt Foods, has been making discreet inquiries of us since Amadeo"s " for the past two months.
What kind of inquiries? Her eyes were black slate. Cold and hard and flat.
But there was no point beating around the bush any longer. They want to know if you"d be interested in selling out.
Are they crazy?
Not at all. For them it would be a brilliant addition to what they"ve done with F-B. They"ve acquired almost every major department store worth having in the states, yet they"ve maintained each one"s ident.i.ty. It"s a chain without being a chain. Each store has remained every bit as exclusive as it was before, yet it benefits from being part of a much larger organization, more extensive funding to draw on, greater resources. Business-wise, the system is brilliant.
Then congratulate them for me. And tell them to go screw. What do they think? That San Gregorio is some little Italian department store to add to their chain? Don"t be absurd, Bernardo. What they"re doing has nothing to do with us.
On the contrary. It could have everything to do with us. It gives us an international feeding system for all other lines, production facilities, ma.s.s marketing if we want it, for the colognes, the soap. It"s a top-ranking operation and would fit in perfectly for all our main lines.
You"re out of your mind. She looked at him and laughed nervously. Are you actually suggesting that I sell to them? Is that what this is all about?
He hesitated for only a fraction of a second and then nodded, fearing the worst. It was quick to come. Are you mad? She was shrieking at him and rapidly got to her feet. Is that what that bulls.h.i.t was about this morning? About how tired I look? How thin? What is it, Bernardo? Are they offering you an enormous fee if you can talk me into it? Greed, everyone is motivated by greed, like the " those" . She choked on the words, thinking of Amadeo"s kidnappers, and turned away quickly to hide a sudden dew of tears. I don"t want to discuss this. She stood with her back to him, looking out the window, unconsciously searching for Amadeo"s car. It had already been sold.
Behind her Bernardo"s voice was surprisingly quiet. No one is paying me a fee, Isabella. Except you. I know it"s too soon for you to think about this. But it makes sense. It is the next obvious step for the business. Now.
What does that mean? She wheeled to face him, and he was pained to see the tears still in her eyes. Do you think Amadeo would have done this? Sold out to some commercial monster in America? To a corporation? An F-B and an IHI, and a G.o.d-knows-what-else. This is San Gregorio, Bernardo, San Gregorio. A family. A dynasty.
It is a empire with an empty throne. How long do you really think you can manage this? You"ll die of exhaustion before Alessandro comes of age. And not even that. You run the same risk that Amadeo did and so does Alessandro. You know what"s happening in Italy now. What about you? What if something happens to you? How constantly can you keep yourself guarded, every time you go in or out, or stand up or sit down.
For as long as I have to. It will die down. You actually think selling out is the answer? How can you even say that after what you"ve put into it, after what you"ve built with us, after" . Again the tears filled her eyes.
I"m not betraying you, Isabella. He fought for control. I"m trying to help you. There"s no other answer for you except to sell out. They"re talking about enormous sums of money. Alessandro would be an immensely rich man. But he knew as he said it that that wasn"t the key.
Alessandro will be what his father was. The head of the House of San Gregorio. Here. In Rome.
If he"s still alive. The words were spoken softly, with a film of anger.
Stop it! Stop! She stared at him, her hands trembling, her face suddenly contorted into a hideous frown. Stop saying that! Nothing like that will ever happen again. And I won"t sell out Ever. Tell those people no! That"s all, that"s final. I don"t want to hear the offer. I don"t want you to discuss anything with them. In fact I forbid you to talk to them!
Christ, women! Don"t be a fool. Bernardo shouted, We do business with them. And in spite of your asinine restrictions IHI is still one of our biggest accounts.
Cancel it.
I won"t.
I don"t give a d.a.m.n what you do, d.a.m.n you. Just leave me alone!
This time it was Isabella who slammed out of the room and took refuge in Amadeo"s office next door. Bernardo sat in hers for only a moment, then retreated to his own quarters down the hall. She was a fool. He knew she"d never agree to it, but this sale was her best bet. Something was happening to her. Once, the business had added joy and zest and something wonderful and powerful to her life. Now he could see it destroying her. Every day in these offices made her more lonely, more bitter. Every day surrounded by guards made her more frightened, no matter how much she denied it. Every day dreaming of Amadeo broke off another piece of her soul. But she had the reins now. Isabella di San Gregorio was in control.
The next morning Bernardo called the president of IHI and told him Isabella had said no. After he did and thought mournfully of the opportunity Isabella had turned down, his secretary buzzed him on the intercom.
Yes?
There"s someone here to see you.
Now what?
It"s about a bicycle. He said you told him to deliver it here. Bernardo smiled tiredly to himself and let out another sigh. The bicycle. It was about all he was ready to handle after a difficult start to his day.
I"ll be right out.
It was red, with a blue-and-white seat, and red, white, and blue streamers flying from the handlebars, a bell, a speedometer, and a tiny license plate with Alessandro"s name. It was a beautiful little bicycle, and he knew it would delight the child, who had been dying for a real bike since the summer. Bernardo knew that Amadeo had planned to give him one for Christmas. He had ordered this one, a tiny silver astronaut suit, and half a dozen games. This was going to be a difficult Christmas, and with a glance at his calendar as he stood up, he realized that it was only two weeks away.
Chapter SIX.
Mamma, Mamma " it"s Bernardo! Alessandro"s nose was pressed to the gla.s.s; the Christmas tree sparkled behind him. Isabella put her arms around him and looked outside. She was smiling. She and Bernardo had set aside the wars a few days before. She needed him this year, desperately, and so did the child. She and Amadeo had both lost their parents over the last decade, and as only children they had nothing to offer Alessandro in the way of family, except themselves and their friend. As always Bernardo had come through. Oh, look " look! It"s tremendous! He has a package " and look! More! Bernardo did a hilarious pantomime, staggering under the weight of his bundles, all of them shoved into a huge canvas sack. He was wearing a Father Christmas hat with one of his dark suits.
Isabella was laughing too as the guard opened the door. Ciao, Nardo, come va? He kissed her lightly on the cheek and turned his attention instantly to the little boy. It had been a rough couple of weeks in the office. The IHI matter was definitely closed. Isabella had sent them a brutally succinct letter, and Bernardo had been livid to his very core. Other problems had cropped up; all finally had been handled and resolved. It had been a wearying time for both of them. But somehow, with the depressing threat of Christmas, they had both managed to put their differences aside. She handed him a gla.s.s of brandy as they all sat down next to the fire.
When can I open them? Now? " Now? Alessandro was hopping up and down like a little red elf in sleepers as Mamma Teresa hovered somewhere near the door. The servants were all celebrating in the kitchen, with wine and the presents Isabella had given them the night before. The only members of the household not included in the celebration were the guards. They were treated as invisibles, and the safety of the entire household depended on their remaining on duty at all the entrances to the villa and just outside. The phone men were posted as usual in Amadeo"s old study, and the crank calls raged on, doubled now, for some reason, during the holidays. As though what they had already been through hadn"t been enough. There had to be more. And Bernardo knew it was taking its toll on her. She always knew about the calls, as though she sensed them. She trusted no one now. Something tender and giving that had been so much a part of her was slowly dying inside.
When can I open them? When? Alessandro tugged at Bernardo"s sleeve. He pretended not to hear.
Open what? That"s just my laundry over there in that bag.
No, it"s not " no, it"s not! Mamma " please" .
I don"t think he"ll make it till midnight, let alone Christmas Day! Even Isabella was smiling as her eyes gently caressed the child. What about Mamma Teresa, Darling? Why don"t you give her her present first?
Oh, Mamma!
Come on. She pushed a large package into his arms and he scampered off to deliver a handsome pink satin robe to her, the finest from Isabella"s American line. From Isabella there had already been a handbag and a small elegant gold watch. This was a year to be good to everyone, all of those who had shown themselves so devoted to her and the child. At least she no longer suspected the members of her household. She believed, at last, that the betrayers had been people from outside. She had given Enzo a new coat, a warm, black cashmere to wear over his uniform when he chauffeured her around town, and an excellent new radio for his room. He could even get Paris and London on it, he had told her with pride that day. There had been presents for the entire household, and equally handsome, thoughtful ones for everyone at the office. But for Alessandro there had been the most special gift of all. He had not seen it yet, but Enzo already had it mounted and everything prepared.
He had just scampered back into the room. She says it"s beautiful and she"ll wear it all her life and think of me. Alessandro looked happy with the effect the large pink bathrobe had had. Now me.
Isabella and Bernardo laughed as they looked at him, with eyes so bright and opened so wide. For a moment it was as though nothing ugly had ever happened. For an instant the pain of the last months was not.
All right, Master Alessandro. Go to it! Bernardo waved grandiosely toward the large canvas bag, and the boy dove toward it and then into it with loud squeals of glee. Paper and ribbons instantly started flying, and in a moment he was wearing the silver astronaut suit, the feet of his red sleepers peeking through. He was laughing and giggling and slid rapidly across the highly polished wood floor to give Bernardo a kiss, before diving back for more. The games, new crayons, a large cuddly brown bear, and then the bicycle at last, pushed way to the back of the large canvas sack.
Oh " oh " it"s beautiful. " Is it " is it a Rolls-Royce? They both laughed as they watched him, already astride the new bike.
Of course it"s a Rolls. Would I give you anything less? He was already weaving across the living room, aimed first at a Louis XV table, then at the wall, as the two people who loved him laughed till they cried. And then they all saw Enzo, smiling hesitantly from the door. His eyes questioned Isabella, and she nodded with a smile. She whispered something to Bernardo, and he raised his eyebrows and then laughed.
I think I may have been outdone.
Not at all. He"ll probably come to breakfast on the bicycle tomorrow morning. But this " I just wanted to give him something to make him less unhappy about being confined at home. He can"t " she hesitated painfully for a moment, " he can"t go to the playground anymore. Bernardo nodded silently, put down his brandy, and rose. But the momentary sadness in Isabella"s eyes was gone again, as she turned smilingly to the child. Go get Mamma Teresa and your coat.
Are we going out? He looked intrigued.
Just for a minute.