Ellen could only say good-by and the word was so low as to be almost inaudible. She ran to her burro. She could not see very clearly through tear-blurred eyes, and her shaking fingers were all thumbs. It seemed she had to rush away--somewhere, anywhere--not to get away from old John Sprague, but from herself--this palpitating, bursting self whose feet stumbled down the trail. All--all seemed ended for her.
That interminable story! It had taken so long. And every minute of it she had been helplessly torn asunder by feelings she had never known she possessed. This Ellen Jorth was an unknown creature. She sobbed now as she dragged the burro down the canyon trail. She sat down only to rise. She hurried only to stop. Driven, pursued, barred, she had no way to escape the flaying thoughts, no time or will to repudiate them. The death of her girlhood, the rending aside of a veil of maiden mystery only vaguely instinctively guessed, the barren, sordid truth of her life as seen by her enlightened eyes, the bitter realization of the vileness of men of her clan in contrast to the manliness and chivalry of an enemy, the hard facts of unalterable repute as created by slander and fostered by low minds, all these were forces in a cataclysm that had suddenly caught her heart and whirled her through changes immense and agonizing, to bring her face to face with reality, to force upon her suspicion and doubt of all she had trusted, to warn her of the dark, impending horror of a tragic b.l.o.o.d.y feud, and lastly to teach her the supreme truth at once so glorious and so terrible--that she could not escape the doom of womanhood.
About noon that day Ellen Jorth arrived at the Knoll, which was the location of her father"s ranch. Three canyons met there to form a larger one. The knoll was a symmetrical hill situated at the mouth of the three canyons. It was covered with brush and cedars, with here and there lichened rocks showing above the bleached gra.s.s. Below the Knoll was a wide, gra.s.sy flat or meadow through which a willow-bordered stream cut its rugged boulder-strewn bed. Water flowed abundantly at this season, and the deep washes leading down from the slopes attested to the fact of cloudbursts and heavy storms. This meadow valley was dotted with horses and cattle, and meandered away between the timbered slopes to lose itself in a green curve. A singular feature of this canyon was that a heavy growth of spruce trees covered the slope facing northwest; and the opposite slope, exposed to the sun and therefore less s...o...b..und in winter, held a spa.r.s.e growth of yellow pines. The ranch house of Colonel Jorth stood round the rough comer of the largest of the three canyons, and rather well hidden, it did not obtrude its rude and broken-down log cabins, its squalid surroundings, its black mud-holes of corrals upon the beautiful and serene meadow valley.
Ellen Jorth approached her home slowly, with dragging, reluctant steps; and never before in the three unhappy years of her existence there had the ranch seemed so bare, so uncared for, so repugnant to her. As she had seen herself with clarified eyes, so now she saw her home. The cabin that Ellen lived in with her father was a single-room structure with one door and no windows. It was about twenty feet square. The huge, ragged, stone chimney had been built on the outside, with the wide open fireplace set inside the logs. Smoke was rising from the chimney. As Ellen halted at the door and began unpacking her burro she heard the loud, lazy laughter of men. An adjoining log cabin had been built in two sections, with a wide roofed hall or s.p.a.ce between them.
The door in each cabin faced the other, and there was a tall man standing in one. Ellen recognized Daggs, a neighbor sheepman, who evidently spent more time with her father than at his own home, wherever that was. Ellen had never seen it. She heard this man drawl, "Jorth, heah"s your kid come home."
Ellen carried her bed inside the cabin, and unrolled it upon a couch built of boughs in the far corner. She had forgotten Jean Isbel"s package, and now it fell out under her sight. Quickly she covered it.
A Mexican woman, relative of Antonio, and the only servant about the place, was squatting Indian fashion before the fireplace, stirring a pot of beans. She and Ellen did not get along well together, and few words ever pa.s.sed between them. Ellen had a canvas curtain stretched upon a wire across a small triangular comer, and this afforded her a little privacy. Her possessions were limited in number. The crude square table she had constructed herself. Upon it was a little old-fashioned walnut-framed mirror, a brush and comb, and a dilapidated ebony cabinet which contained odds and ends the sight of which always brought a smile of derisive self-pity to her lips. Under the table stood an old leather trunk. It had come with her from Texas, and contained clothing and belongings of her mother"s. Above the couch on pegs hung her scant wardrobe. A tiny shelf held several worn-out books.
When her father slept indoors, which was seldom except in winter, he occupied a couch in the opposite corner. A rude cupboard had been built against the logs next to the fireplace. It contained supplies and utensils. Toward the center, somewhat closer to the door, stood a crude table and two benches. The cabin was dark and smelled of smoke, of the stale odors of past cooked meals, of the mustiness of dry, rotting timber. Streaks of light showed through the roof where the rough-hewn shingles had split or weathered. A strip of bacon hung upon one side of the cupboard, and upon the other a haunch of venison.
Ellen detested the Mexican woman because she was dirty. The inside of the cabin presented the same unkempt appearance usual to it after Ellen had been away for a few days. Whatever Ellen had lost during the retrogression of the Jorths, she had kept her habits of cleanliness, and straightway upon her return she set to work.
The Mexican woman sullenly slouched away to her own quarters outside and Ellen was left to the satisfaction of labor. Her mind was as busy as her hands. As she cleaned and swept and dusted she heard from time to time the voices of men, the clip-clop of shod horses, the bellow of cattle. And a considerable time elapsed before she was disturbed.
A tall shadow darkened the doorway.
"Howdy, little one!" said a lazy, drawling voice. "So y"u-all got home?"
Ellen looked up. A superbly built man leaned against the doorpost.
Like most Texans, he was light haired and light eyed. His face was lined and hard. His long, sandy mustache hid his mouth and drooped with a curl. Spurred, booted, belted, packing a heavy gun low down on his hip, he gave Ellen an entirely new impression. Indeed, she was seeing everything strangely.
"h.e.l.lo, Daggs!" replied Ellen. "Where"s my dad?"
"He"s playin" cairds with Jackson an" Colter. Sh.o.r.e"s playin" bad, too, an" it"s gone to his haid."
"Gamblin"?" queried Ellen.
"Mah child, when"d Kurnel Jorth ever play for fun?" said Daggs, with a lazy laugh. "There"s a stack of gold on the table. Reckon yo" uncle Jackson will win it. Colter"s sh.o.r.e out of luck."
Daggs stepped inside. He was graceful and slow. His long" spurs clinked. He laid a rather compelling hand on Ellen"s shoulder.
"Heah, mah gal, give us a kiss," he said.
"Daggs, I"m not your girl," replied Ellen as she slipped out from under his hand.
Then Daggs put his arm round her, not with violence or rudeness, but with an indolent, affectionate a.s.surance, at once bold and self-contained. Ellen, however, had to exert herself to get free of him, and when she had placed the table between them she looked him square in the eyes.
"Daggs, y"u keep your paws off me," she said.
"Aw, now, Ellen, I ain"t no bear," he remonstrated. "What"s the matter, kid?"
"I"m not a kid. And there"s nothin" the matter. Y"u"re to keep your hands to yourself, that"s all."
He tried to reach her across the table, and his movements were lazy and slow, like his smile. His tone was coaxing.
"Mah dear, sh.o.r.e you set on my knee just the other day, now, didn"t you?"
Ellen felt the blood sting her cheeks.
"I was a child," she returned.
"Wal, listen to this heah grown-up young woman. All in a few days! ...
Doon"t be in a temper, Ellen.... Come, give us a kiss."
She deliberately gazed into his eyes. Like the eyes of an eagle, they were clear and hard, just now warmed by the dalliance of the moment, but there was no light, no intelligence in them to prove he understood her. The instant separated Ellen immeasurably from him and from all of his ilk.
"Daggs, I was a child," she said. "I was lonely--hungry for affection--I was innocent. Then I was careless, too, and thoughtless when I should have known better. But I hardly understood y"u men. I put such thoughts out of my mind. I know now--know what y"u mean--what y"u have made people believe I am."
"Ahuh! Sh.o.r.e I get your hunch," he returned, with a change of tone.
"But I asked you to marry me?"
"Yes y"u did. The first day y"u got heah to my dad"s house. And y"u asked me to marry y"u after y"u found y"u couldn"t have your way with me. To y"u the one didn"t mean any more than the other."
"Sh.o.r.e I did more than Simm Bruce an" Colter," he retorted. "They never asked you to marry."
"No, they didn"t. And if I could respect them at all I"d do it because they didn"t ask me."
"Wal, I"ll be dog-goned!" e.j.a.c.u.l.a.t.ed Daggs, thoughtfully, as he stroked his long mustache.
"I"ll say to them what I"ve said to y"u," went on Ellen. "I"ll tell dad to make y"u let me alone. I wouldn"t marry one of y"u--y"u loafers to save my life. I"ve my suspicions about y"u. Y"u"re a bad lot."
Daggs changed subtly. The whole indolent nonchalance of the man vanished in an instant.
"Wal, Miss Jorth, I reckon you mean we"re a bad lot of sheepmen?" he queried, in the cool, easy speech of a Texan.
"No," flashed Ellen. "Sh.o.r.e I don"t say sheepmen. I say y"u"re a BAD LOT."
"Oh, the h.e.l.l you say!" Daggs spoke as he might have spoken to a man; then turning swiftly on his heel he left her. Outside he encountered Ellen"s father. She heard Daggs speak: "Lee, your little wildcat is sh.o.r.e heah. An" take mah hunch. Somebody has been talkin" to her."
"Who has?" asked her father, in his husky voice. Ellen knew at once that he had been drinking.
"Lord only knows," replied Daggs. "But sh.o.r.e it wasn"t any friends of ours."
"We cain"t stop people"s tongues," said Jorth, resignedly
"Wal, I ain"t so sh.o.r.e," continued Daggs, with his slow, cool laugh.
"Reckon I never yet heard any daid men"s tongues wag."
Then the musical tinkle of his spurs sounded fainter. A moment later Ellen"s father entered the cabin. His dark, moody face brightened at sight of her. Ellen knew she was the only person in the world left for him to love. And she was sure of his love. Her very presence always made him different. And through the years, the darker their misfortunes, the farther he slipped away from better days, the more she loved him.
"h.e.l.lo, my Ellen!" he said, and he embraced her. When he had been drinking he never kissed her. "Sh.o.r.e I"m glad you"re home. This heah hole is bad enough any time, but when you"re gone it"s black.... I"m hungry."
Ellen laid food and drink on the table; and for a little while she did not look directly at him. She was concerned about this new searching power of her eyes. In relation to him she vaguely dreaded it.
Lee Jorth had once been a singularly handsome man. He was tall, but did not have the figure of a horseman. His dark hair was streaked with gray, and was white over his ears. His face was sallow and thin, with deep lines. Under his round, prominent, brown eyes, like deadened furnaces, were blue swollen welts. He had a bitter mouth and weak chin, not wholly concealed by gray mustache and pointed beard. He wore a long frock coat and a wide-brimmed sombrero, both black in color, and so old and stained and frayed that along with the fashion of them they betrayed that they had come from Texas with him. Jorth always persisted in wearing a white linen shirt, likewise a relic of his Southern prosperity, and to-day it was ragged and soiled as usual.
Ellen watched her father eat and waited for him to speak. It occured to her strangely that he never asked about the sheep or the new-born lambs. She divined with a subtle new woman"s intuition that he cared nothing for his sheep.