Pray, do not regale the troubles of ill health Not self, not kin, not of the old woman At the road"s end I will spare no time nor in mercy yield wealth Nor thought, nor feeling, nor shrouds woven To tempt luck"s send
Pray, tell me of deep chasms crossed Not left, not turned, not of the betrayals Breeding like worms I would you cry out your rage "gainst what is lost Now strong, now to weep, now to make fist and rail On earth so firm
Pray, sing loud the wretched glories of love Now pain, now drunken, now torn from all reason In laughter and tears I would you bargain with the fey G.o.ds above Nor care, nor cost, nor turn of season To wintry fears
Sing to me this and I will find you unflinching Now knowing, now seeing, now in the face Of the howling storm Sing your life as if a life without ending And your love, sun"s bright fire, on its celestial pace To where truth is born Pray, An End to Inconsequential Things Baedisk of Nathilog
Darujhistan. Glories unending! Who could call a single deed inconsequential? This scurrying youth with his arms full of vegetables, the shouts from the stall in his wake, the gauging eye of a guard thirty paces away, a.s.sessing the poor likelihood of catching the urchin. Insignificant? Nonsense! Hungry mouths fed, glowing pride, some fewer coins for the hawker, perhaps, but it seemed all profit did was fill a drunken husband"s tankard anyway so the b.a.s.t.a.r.d could die of thirst for all she cared! A guard"s congenitally flawed heart beat on, not yet pushed to bursting by hard pursuit through the crowded market, and so he lives a few weeks longer, enough to complete his full twenty years" service and so guarantee his wife and children a pension. And of course the one last kiss was yet to come, the kiss that whispered volumes of devotion and all the rest.
The pot-thrower in the hut behind the shop, hands and forearms slick with clay, dreaming, yes, of the years in which a life took shape, when each press of a fingertip sent a deep track across a once smooth surface, changing the future, reshaping the past, and was this not as much chance as design? For all that intent could score a path, that the ripples sent up and down and outward could be surmised by decades of experience, was the outcome ever truly predictable?
Oh, of course she wasn"t thinking any such thing. An ache in her left wrist obliterated all thoughts beyond the persistent ache itself, and what it might portend and what herbs she would need to brew to ease her discomfort and how could such concerns be inconsequential?
What of the child sitting staring into the doleful eye of a yoked ox outside Corb"s Womanly Charms where her mother was inside and had been for near a bell now, though of course Mother had Uncle-Doruth-who-was-a-secret for company which was better than an ox that did nothing but moan? The giant, soft, dark-so-dark brown eye stared back and to think in both directions was obvious but what was the ox thinking except that the yoke was heavy and the cart even heavier and it"d be nice to lie down and what could the child be thinking about but beef stew and so no little philosopher was born, although in years to come, why, she"d have her own uncle-who-was-a-secret and thus like her mother enjoy all the fruits of marriage with few of the niggling pits.
And what of the sun high overhead, bursting with joyous light to bathe the wondrous city like a benediction of all things consequential? Great is the need, so sudden, so pressing, to reach up, close fingers about the fiery orb, to drag it back and back! into night and its sprawled darkness, where all manner of things of import have trembled the heavens and the very roots of the earth, or nearly so.
Back, then, the short round man demands, for this is his telling, his knowing, his cry of Witness! Witness! echoing still, and still. The night of arrivals, the deeds of the arrived, even as night arrives! Let nothing of consequence be forgot. echoing still, and still. The night of arrivals, the deeds of the arrived, even as night arrives! Let nothing of consequence be forgot.
Let nothing of inconsequence be deemed so and who now could even imagine such things to exist, recalling with wise nod the urchin thief, the hawker, the guard. The thrower of pots and the child and the ox and Uncle Doruth with his face between the legs of another man"s wife, all to come (excuse!) in the day ahead.
Mark, too, this teller of the tale, with his sage wink. We are in the midst!
Night, shadows overlapping, a most indifferent blur that would attract no one"s notice, barring that nuisance of a cat on the sill of the estate, amber eyes tracking now as one shadow moves out from its place of temporary concealment. Out goes this errant shadow, across the courtyard, into deeper shadows against the estate"s wall.
Crouching, Torvald Nom looked up to see the cat"s head and those d.a.m.ned eyes, peering down at him. A moment later the head withdrew, taking its wide gaze with it. He made his stealthy way to the back corner, paused once more. He could hear the gate guards, a pair of them, arguing over something, tones of suspicion leading to accusation answered by protestations of denial but d.a.m.n you, Doruth, I just don"t trust you- d.a.m.n you, Doruth, I just don"t trust you- -No reason not to, Milok. I ever give you one? No- -To Hood you ain"t. My first wife- -Wouldn"t leave me alone, I swear! She stalked me like a cat a rat- -A rat! Aye, that"s about right- -I swear, Milok, she very nearly raped me- -The first time! I know, she told me all about it, with eyes so bright!- -Heard it made you h.o.r.n.y as Hood"s black sceptre- -That ain"t any of your business, Doruth- And something soft brushed against Torvald"s leg. The cat, purring like soft gravel, back bowed, tail writhing. He lifted his foot, held it hovering over the creature. Hesitated, then settled it back down. By Apsalar"s sweet kiss, the kit"s eyes and ears might be a boon, come to think of it. a.s.suming it had the nerve to follow him.
Torvald eyed the wall, the cornices, the scrollwork metopes, the braided false columns. He wiped sweat from his hands, dusted them with the grit at the wall"s base, then reached up for handholds, and began to climb.
He gained the sill of the window on the upper floor, pulled himself on to it, balanced on his knees. True, never wise, but the fall wouldn"t kill him, wouldn"t even sprain an ankle, would it? Drawing a dagger he slipped the blade in between the shutters, carefully felt for the latch.
The cat, alighting beside him, nearly pitched him from the sill, but he managed to recover, swearing softly under his breath as he resumed working the lock.
-She still loves you, you know- -What- -She does. She just likes some variety. I tell you, Milok, this last one of yours was no easy conquest- -You swore!- -You"re my bestest, oldest friend. No more secrets between us! And when I swear to that, as I"m doing now, I mean it true. She"s got an appet.i.te so sharing shouldn"t be a problem. I ain"t better than you, just different, that"s all. Different- -How many times a week, Duroth? Tell me true!- -Oh, every second day or so- -But I"m every second day, too!- -Odd, even, I guess. Like I said, an appet.i.te- -I"ll say- -After shift, let"s go get drunk- -Aye, we can compare and contrast- -I love it. Just that, hah! . . . Hey, Milok . . .- -Aye?- -How old"s your daughter?- The latch clicked, springing free the shutters just as a sword hissed from a scabbard and, amidst wild shouting, a fight was underway at the gate.
-A joke! Honest! Just a joke, Milok!- Voices now from the front of the house, as Torvald slid his dagger blade between the lead windows and lifted the inside latch. He quickly edged into the dark room, as boots rapped on the compound and more shouting erupted at the front gate. A lantern crashed and someone"s sword went flying to skitter away on the cobbles.
Torvald quickly closed the shutters, then the window.
The infernal purring was beside him, a soft jaw rubbing against a knee. He reached for the cat, fingers twitching, hesitated, then withdrew his hand. Pay attention to the d.a.m.ned thing, right, so when it hears what can"t be heard and when it sees what can"t be seen, yes . . .
Pivoting in his crouch, he scanned the room. Some sort of study, though most of the shelves were bare. Overreaching ambition, this room, a sudden lurch towards culture and sophistication, but of course it was doomed to failure. Money wasn"t enough. Intelligence helped. Taste, an inquisitive mind, an interest in other stuff stuff out of immediate sight, stuff having nothing to do with whatever. Wasn"t enough to simply send some servant to scour some scrollmonger"s shop and say "I"ll take that shelf"s worth, and that one, too." Master"s not too discriminating, yes. Master probably can"t even read so what difference does it make?
He crept over to the one shelf on which were heaped a score or so scrolls, along with one leather-bound book. Each scroll was rolled tight, tied with some seller"s label just as he had suspected. Torvald began reading through them.
Treatise on Drainage Grooves in Stone Gutters of Gadrobi District, Nineteenth Report in the Year of the Shrew, Extraordinary Subjects, Guild of Quarry Engineering. Author: Member 322.
Tales of Pamby Doughty and the World Inside the Trunk (with ill.u.s.trations by some dead man).
The Lost Verses of Anomandaris, with annotation. Torvald"s brows rose, since this one might actually be worth something. He quickly slipped the string off and unfurled the scroll. The vellum was blank, barring a short annotation at the bottom that read: Torvald"s brows rose, since this one might actually be worth something. He quickly slipped the string off and unfurled the scroll. The vellum was blank, barring a short annotation at the bottom that read: No scholarly erudition is possible at the moment. No scholarly erudition is possible at the moment. And a publisher"s mark denoting this scroll as part of a series of Lost Works, published by the Vellum Makers" Guild of Pale. And a publisher"s mark denoting this scroll as part of a series of Lost Works, published by the Vellum Makers" Guild of Pale.
He rolled the useless thing back up, plucked out one more.
An Ill.u.s.trated Guide to Headgear of Cobblers of Genabaris in the fourth century, Burn"s Sleep, by Cracktooth Filcher, self-avowed serial collector and scourge of cobblers, imprisoned for life. A publication of Prisoner"s Pit Library, Nathilog.
He had no doubt the ill.u.s.trations were lavish and meticulous, detailed to excess, but somehow his curiosity was not up to the challenge of perusal.
By now the commotion at the gate had been settled. Various members of the guard had returned from the fracas, with much muttering and cursing that fell away abruptly as soon as they entered the main house on their way to their rooms, telling Torvald that the master was indeed home and probably asleep. Which was something of a problem, given just how paranoid the b.a.s.t.a.r.d was and as the likely hiding place of his trove was somewhere in his d.a.m.ned bedroom. Well, the world presented its challenges, and without challenges life was worthless and pointless and, most crucially, devoid of interest.
He moved to the door leading to the hallway, pausing to wrap a cloth about his face, leaving only his eyes free. The cat watched intently. Lifting the latch he tugged the door open and peered out into the corridor. Left, the outer, back wall not three paces away. Right, the aisle reaching all the way through the house. Doors and a central landing for the staircase. And a guard, seated facing that landing. Black hair, red, bulbous nose, protruding lower lip, and enough muscles slabbed on to a gigantic frame to fill out two or three Torvald Noms. The fool was knitting, his mouth moving and brow knotting as he counted st.i.tches.
And there was the horrid cat, padding straight for him.
Torvald quietly closed the door.
He should have strangled the thing.
From the corridor he heard a grunting curse, then boots thumping down the stairs.
Opening the door once more he looked out. The guard was gone, the knitting lying on the floor with one strand leading off down the stairs.
Hah! Brilliant cat! Why, if he met it again he"d kiss it but nowhere near where it licked itself because there were limits, after all, and anywhere a cat could lick itself was nowhere he"d kiss.
Torvald quickly closed the door behind him and tiptoed up the corridor. A cautious glance down the wide, central staircase. Wherever the cat had run off with the ball of wool, it was out of sight, and so too the guard. He faced the ornate double doors directly behind the vacated wooden chair.
Locked?
Yes.
He drew his dagger and slid the thin blade between the doors.
Ornate decoration was often accompanied by neglect of the necessary mechanisms, and this lock followed the rule, as he felt the latch lift away. Boots sounded downstairs. He tugged open the door and quickly slipped inside, crouching once more. A front room, an office of sorts, with a single lantern on a short wick casting faint light across the desk and its strewn heap of papyrus sheets. A second door, smaller, narrow, behind the desk"s high-backed plush chair.
Torvald Nom tiptoed towards it.
Pausing at the desk to douse the lantern, waiting for his eyes to adjust to the darkness, crouching yet lower to squint at the crack beneath the bedroom door, pleased to find no thread of light. Drawing up against the panelled wood with its gold-leaf insets now dull in the gloom. No lock this time. Hinges feeling well oiled. He slowly worked the door open.
Inside, quietly shutting the door behind him.
Soft breathing from the huge four-poster bed. Then a sigh. "Sweet sliverfishy, is that you?"
A woman"s husky, whispering voice, and now stirring sounds from the bed.
"The night stalker this time? Ooh, that one"s fun I"ll keep my eyes closed and whimper lots when you threaten me to stay quiet. Hurry, I"m lying here, petrified. Someone"s in my room!" Someone"s in my room!"
Torvald Nom hesitated, truly torn between necessity and . . . well, necessity.
He untied his rope belt. And, in a hissing voice, demanded, "First, the treasure. Where is it, woman?"
She gasped. "That"s a good voice! A new one! The treasure, ah! You know where it is, you horrible creature! Right here between my legs!"
Torvald rolled his eyes. "Not that one. The other one."
"If I don"t tell you?"
"Then I will have my way with you."
"Oh! I say nothing! Please!"
d.a.m.n, he sure messed that one up. There was no way she"d not know he wasn"t who he was pretending to be, even when that someone was pretending to be someone else. How to solve this?
"Get on your stomach. Now, on your hands and knees. Yes, like that."
"You"re worse than an animal!"
Torvald paused at the foot of the bed. Worse than an animal? What did that mean? Shaking his head, he climbed on to the bed. Well, here goes nothing.
A short time later: "Sliverfishy! The new elixir? G.o.ds, it"s spectacular! Why, I can"t call you sliverfishy any more, can I? More like . . . a salmon! Charging upstream! Oh!"
"The treasure, or I"ll use this knife." And he pressed the cold blade of the dagger against the outside of her right thigh.
She gasped again. "Under the bed! Don"t hurt me! Keep pushing, d.a.m.n you! Harder! This one"s going to make a baby I know it! This time, a baby!"
Well, he did his part anyway, feeding his coins into the temple"s cup and all that, and may her prayers guide her true into motherhood"s blissful heaven. She collapsed on to the bed, groaning, while he backed off, knelt on the cold wooden floor and reached under the bed, knuckles skinning against a large, low longbox. Groping, he found one handle and dragged it out.
She moaned. "Oh, don"t start counting again, darling. Please. You ruin everything when you do that!"
"Not counting, woman. Stealing. Stay where you are. Eyes closed. Don"t move."
"It just sounds silly now, you know that."
"Shut up, or I"ll do you again."
"Ah! What was that elixir again?"
He prised open the lock with the tip of the dagger. Inside, conveniently stored in burlap sacks tagged with precise amounts, a fortune of gems, jewels and high councils. He quickly collected the loot.
"You are are counting!" counting!"
"I warned you." He climbed back on to the bed. Looked down and saw that promises weren"t quite enough. G.o.ds below, if you only were. G.o.ds below, if you only were. "Listen," he said, "I need more elixir. "Listen," he said, "I need more elixir.
In the office. Don"t move."
"I won"t. I promise."
He hurried out, crept across the outer room and paused at the doors to the corridor to press his ear against the panel.
Softly, the slither-click of bamboo knitting needles.
Torvald slid the dagger into its scabbard, reversed grip, opened the door, looked down at the top of the guard"s hairy head, and swung hard. The pommel crunched. The man sagged in his chair, then folded into a heap at the foot of the chair.
The cat was waiting by the library door.
Uncle One, Uncle Two, Father None. Aunt One, Aunt Two, Mother None.
Present and on duty, Uncle One, Aunt One and Cousins One, Two, Three. Cousin One edging closer, almost close enough for another hard, sharp jab with an elbow as One made to collect another onion from the heap on the table. But he knew One"s games, had a year"s list of bruises to prove it, and so, just as accidentally, he took a half-step away, keeping on his face a beaming smile as Aunt One cooed her delight at this sudden bounty, and Uncle One sat opposite, ready to deliver his wink as soon as he glanced over which he wouldn"t do yet because timing, as Uncle Two always told him, was everything. Besides, he needed to be aware of Cousin One especially now that the first plan had been thwarted.
One, whose name was Snell, would have to work harder in his head, work that cunning which seemed to come from nowhere and wasn"t part of the dull stupidity that was One"s actual brain, so maybe it was demons after all, clattering and chittering all their cruel ideas. Snell wouldn"t let this rest, he knew. No, he"d remember and start planning. And the hurt would be all the worse for that.
But right now he didn"t care, not about Cousin One, not about anything that might come later tonight or tomorrow. He"d brought food home, after all, an armload of food, delivering his treasure to joyous cries of relief.
And the man whose name he"d been given, the man long dead who was neither Uncle One nor Uncle Two but had been Uncle Three and not, of course, Father One, well, that man would be proud that the boy with his name was doing what was needed to keep the family together.
Collecting his own onion, the child named Harllo made his way to a safe corner of the single room, and, moments before taking a bite, glanced up to meet Uncle One"s eyes, to catch the wink and then nod in answer.
Just like Uncle Two always said, timing was how a man measured the world, and his place in it. Timing wasn"t a maybe world, it was a world of yes and no, this, not that. Now, not later. Timing belonged to all the beasts of nature that hunted other creatures. It belonged to the tiger and its fixed, watching eyes. It belonged, too, to the prey, when the hunter became hunted, like with Cousin One, each moment a contest, a battle, a duel. But Harllo was learning the tiger"s way, thanks to Uncle Two, whose very skin could change into that of a tiger, when anger awakened cold and deadly. Who had a tiger"s eyes and was the bravest, wisest man in all of Darujhistan.
And the only one, apart from young Harllo himself, who knew the truth of Aunt Two, who wasn"t Aunt Two at all, but Mother One. Even if she wouldn"t admit it, wouldn"t ever say it, and wouldn"t have hardly nothing to do with her only child, her son of Rape. son of Rape. Once, Harllo had thought that Rape was his father"s name, but now he knew it was a thing people did to other people, as mean as an elbow in the ribs, maybe meaner. And that was why Mother One stayed Aunt Two, and why on those rare occasions she visited she wouldn"t meet Harllo"s eyes no matter how he tried, and why she wouldn"t say anything about nothing except with a voice that was all anger. Once, Harllo had thought that Rape was his father"s name, but now he knew it was a thing people did to other people, as mean as an elbow in the ribs, maybe meaner. And that was why Mother One stayed Aunt Two, and why on those rare occasions she visited she wouldn"t meet Harllo"s eyes no matter how he tried, and why she wouldn"t say anything about nothing except with a voice that was all anger.
"Aunt Stonny hates words, Harllo," Gruntle had explained, "but only when those words creep too close to her, to where she hides, you see?" "but only when those words creep too close to her, to where she hides, you see?"
Yes, he saw. He saw plenty.
Snell caught his eye and made a wicked face, mouthing vicious promises. His little sister, Cousin Two, whose name was Mew, was watching from where she held on to the table edge, seeing but not understanding because how could she, being only three years old; while Cousin Three, another girl but this one named Hinty, was all swathed in the cradle and safe in there, safe from everything, which was how it should be for the littlest ones.
Harllo was five, maybe close to six, but already tall stretched stretched, laughed Gruntle, stretched and scrawny because that"s how boys grow. stretched and scrawny because that"s how boys grow.