The maids, both wide-eyed with fear now, helped him inside.
And still the ants swarmed.
The horses stood in a circle facing inward, tails flicking at flies, heads lowered as they cropped gra.s.s. The oxen stood nearby, still yoked, and watched them. Kedeviss, who leaned with crossed arms against one of the wagon"s wheels, seemed to be watching the grey-haired foreigner with the same placid, empty regard.
Nimander knew just how deceptive that look could be. Of them all these paltry few left she saw the clearest, with acuity so sharp it intimidated almost everyone subject to it. The emptiness if the one being watched finally turned to meet those eyes would slowly fade, and something hard, unyielding and immune to obfuscation would slowly rise in its place. Unwavering, ever sharpening until it seemed to pierce the victim like nails being hammered into wood. And then she"d casually look away, unmindful of the thumping heart, the pale face and the beads of sweat on the brow, and the one so a.s.sailed was left with but two choices: to fear this woman, or to love her with such savage, demanding desire that it could crush the heart.
Nimander feared Kedeviss. And loved her as well. He was never good with choices.
If Kallor sensed that regard and Nimander was certain he did he was indifferent to it, preferring to divide his attention between the empty sky and the empty landscape surrounding them. When he wasn"t sleeping or eating. An unpleasant guest, peremptory and imperious. He would not cook, nor bother cleansing his plate afterwards. He was a man with six servants.
Nenanda was all for banishing the old man, driving him away with stones and pieces of dung, but Nimander found something incongruous in that image, as if it was such an absurd impossibility that it had no place even in his imagination.
"He"s weakening," Desra said at his side.
"We"re soon there, I think," Nimander replied. They were just south of Sarn, which had once been a sizeable city. The road leading to it had been settled all along its length, ribbon farms behind stalls, shops and taverns. The few residents left were an impoverished lot, skittish as whipped dogs, hacking at hard ground that had been fallow too long at least until they saw the travellers on the main road, whereupon they dropped their hoes and hurried away.
The supplies left at the T-intersection had been meticulously packed into wooden crates, the entire pile covered in a tarp with its corners staked. Ripe fruits, candied sugarrocks dusted in salt, heavy loaves of dark bread, strips of dried eel, watered wine and three kinds of cheese where all this had come from, given the wretched state of the farms they"d pa.s.sed, was a mystery.
"He would kill us as soon as look at us," Desra said, her eyes now on Kallor.
"Skintick agrees."
"What manner of man is he?"
Nimander shrugged. "An unhappy one. We should get going."
"Wait," said Desra. "I think we should get Aranatha to look at Clip."
"Aranatha?" He looked round, found the woman sitting, legs folded under her like a fawn"s, plucking flowers from the sloped bank of the road. "Why? What can she do?"
Desra shook her head, as if unable to give her reasons. Or unwilling.
Sighing, Nimander said, "Go ahead, ask her, then."
"It needs to come from you."
Why? "Very well." He set out, a dozen strides taking him to where Aranatha sat. As his shadow slipped over her she glanced up and smiled. "Very well." He set out, a dozen strides taking him to where Aranatha sat. As his shadow slipped over her she glanced up and smiled.
Smiles so lacking in caution, in diffidence or wry reluctance, always struck him as a sign of madness. But the eyes above it, this time, were not at all vacuous. "Do you feel me, Nimander?"
"I don"t know what you mean by that, Aranatha. Desra would like you to examine Clip. I don"t know why," he added, "since I don"t recall you possessing any specific skills in healing."
"Perhaps she wants company," Aranatha said, rising gracefully to her feet.
And he was struck, as if slapped across the face, by her beauty. Standing now so close, her breath so warm and so strangely dark. What is happening to me? Kedeviss and now Aranatha. What is happening to me? Kedeviss and now Aranatha.
"Are you all right, Nimander?"
"Yes." No. No. "I"m fine." "I"m fine." What awakens in me? To deliver both anguish and exaltation? What awakens in me? To deliver both anguish and exaltation?
She placed a half-dozen white flowers in his hand, smiled again, then walked over to the wagon. A soft laugh from Skintick brought him round.
"There"s more of that these days," his cousin said, gazing after Aranatha. "If we are to be an incongruous lot, and it seems we are, then it follows that we confound each other at every turn."
"You are speaking nonsense, Skintick."
"That is my task, isn"t it? I have no sense of where it is we"re heading no, I don"t mean Bastion, nor even the confrontation that I think is coming. I mean us us, Nimander. Especially you. The less control you have, the greater your talent for leadership seems to become, the qualities demanded of such a person like those flowers in your hand, petals unfolding."
Nimander grimaced at this and scowled down at the blossoms. "They"ll be dead shortly."
"So may we all," Skintick responded. "But . . . pretty while it lasts."
Kallor joined them as they prepared to resume the journey. His weathered face was strangely colourless, as if drained of blood by the incessant wind. Or whatever memories haunted him. The flatness in his eyes suggested to Nimander that the man was without humour, that the notion was as alien to him as mending the rips in his own clothes. "Are you all finally done with your rest?" Kallor asked, noting the flowers still in Nimander"s hand with a faint sneer.
"The horses needed it," Nimander said. "Are you in a hurry? If so, you could always go ahead of us. When you stop for the night we"ll either catch up with you or we won"t."
"Who would feed me, then?"
"You could always feed yourself," Skintick said. "Presumably you"ve had to do that on occasion."
Kallor shrugged. "I will ride the wagon," he said, heading off.
Nenanda had collected the horses and now led them over. "They all need re-shoeing," he said, "and this d.a.m.ned road isn"t helping any."
A sudden commotion at the wagon brought them all round, in time to see Kallor flung backward from the side rail, crashing heavily on the cobbles, the look on his face one of stunned surprise. Above him, standing on the bed, was Aranatha, and even at that distance they could see something dark and savage blazing from her eyes.
Desra stood near her, mouth hanging open.
On the road, lying on his back, Kallor began to laugh. A rasping, breathy kind of laugh.
With a bemused glance at Skintick and Nenanda, Nimander walked over.
Aranatha had turned away, resuming her ministrations to Clip, trickling water between the unconscious man"s lips. Tucking the flowers under his belt, Nimander pulled himself on to the wagon and met Desra"s eyes. "What happened?"
"He helped himself to a handful," Desra replied tonelessly, nodding towards Aranatha. "She, er, pushed him away."
"He was balanced on a wheel spoke?" Skintick asked from behind Nimander.
Desra shook her head. "One hand on the rail. She just . . . sent him flying." sent him flying."
The old man, his laughter fading away, was climbing to his feet. "You d.a.m.ned Tiste Andii," he said, "no sense of adventure."
But Nimander could see that, despite Kallor"s seeming mirth, the grizzled warrior was somewhat shaken. Drawing a deep breath and wincing at some pain in his ribs, he moved round to the back of the wagon and once more climbed aboard, this time keeping his distance from Aranatha.
Nimander leaned on the rail, close to Aranatha. "Are you all right?" he asked.
Glancing up, she gave him another one of those appallingly innocent smiles. "Can you feel me now, Nimander?"
Was the idea idea of water enough to create an illusion so perfect that every sense was deceived? The serpent curl of the One River, known as Dorssan Ryl, encircled half the First City of Kharkanas. Before the coming of light there was no reflection from its midnight surface, and to settle one"s hand in its ceaseless flow was to feel naught but a cooler breath against the skin as the current sighed round the intrusion. of water enough to create an illusion so perfect that every sense was deceived? The serpent curl of the One River, known as Dorssan Ryl, encircled half the First City of Kharkanas. Before the coming of light there was no reflection from its midnight surface, and to settle one"s hand in its ceaseless flow was to feel naught but a cooler breath against the skin as the current sighed round the intrusion. "Water in Darkness, dreams in sleep" "Water in Darkness, dreams in sleep" or so wrote one of the Mad Poets of the ninety-third century, during the stylistic trend in poetry characterized by brevity, a style that crashed in the following century during the period of art and oratory known as the Flowering Bright. or so wrote one of the Mad Poets of the ninety-third century, during the stylistic trend in poetry characterized by brevity, a style that crashed in the following century during the period of art and oratory known as the Flowering Bright.
Water in perfect illusion . . . was this fundamentally no different from real water? If the senses provide all that defines the world, then were they not the arbiters of reality? As a young acolyte, fired with pa.s.sions of all sorts, Endest Silann had argued bell after bell with his fellow students over such matters. All those "Essence of truth, senses will "Essence of truth, senses will lie" lie" themes that seemed so important then, before every universe exploded in the conflagration of creation, shoving all those bright, flaring candles over the table edge, down into the swirling sea of wax where every notion, every idea, melted into one and none, into the scalding sludge that drowned everyone no matter how clever, how wise, how themes that seemed so important then, before every universe exploded in the conflagration of creation, shoving all those bright, flaring candles over the table edge, down into the swirling sea of wax where every notion, every idea, melted into one and none, into the scalding sludge that drowned everyone no matter how clever, how wise, how poetic poetic.
What am I thinking of these days? Naught but the nonsense of my wasted youth. "Certainty scours, a world without wonder." Ah, then, perhaps those terse poets had stumbled on to something after all. Is this what obsesses me now? A suspicion that all the truths that matter lie somewhere in a soul"s youth, in those heady days when words and thoughts could still shine as if born from nothing solely for our personal edification.
Generation upon generation, this does not change. Or so it comforts us to believe. Yet I wonder, now, does that stretch of delight grow shorter? Is it tightening, cursed into a new kind of brevity, the one with ignorance preceding and cynicism succeeding, each crowding the precious moment?
What then the next generation? Starved of wonder, indifferent to the reality or the unreality of the water flowing past, caring only whether they might drift or drown. And then, alas, losing the sense of difference between the two.
There was no one, here in his modest chamber, to hear his thoughts. No one, indeed, who even cared. Deeds must tumble forward, lest all these witnesses grow bored and restless. And if secrets dwelt in the lightless swirl of some unseen, unimagined river, what matter when the effort to delve deep was simply too much? No, better to . . . drift. No, better to . . . drift. But worries over the mere score of young Tiste Andii growing now in Black Coral was wasted energy. He had no wisdom to offer, even if any of them was inclined to listen, which they weren"t. The old possessed naught but the single virtue of surviving, and when nothing changed, it was indeed an empty virtue. But worries over the mere score of young Tiste Andii growing now in Black Coral was wasted energy. He had no wisdom to offer, even if any of them was inclined to listen, which they weren"t. The old possessed naught but the single virtue of surviving, and when nothing changed, it was indeed an empty virtue.
He remembered the great river, its profound mystery of existence. Dorssan Ryl, into which the sewers poured the gritty, rain-diluted blood of the dead and dying. The river, proclaiming its reality in a roar as the rain lashed down in torrents, as clouds, groaning, fell like beasts on to their knees, only to fold into the now-raging currents and twist down into the black depths. All this, swallowed by an illusion.
There had been a woman, once, and yes, he might have loved her. Like the hand plunged into the cool water, he might have been brushed by this heady emotion, this blood-whispered obsession that poets died for and over which people murdered their dearest. And he recalled that the last time he set eyes upon her, down beside Dorssan Ryl, driven mad by Mother"s abandonment (many were), there was nothing he recognized in her eyes. To see, there in a face he had known, had adored, that appalling absence she was gone, never to return.
So I held her head under, watched those staring, uncomprehending eyes grow ever wider, filling with blind panic and there! At the last moment, did I not see a sudden light, a sudden- Oh, this was a nightmare. He had done nothing, he had been too much the coward. And he had watched her leave, with all the others so struck by loss, as they set out on a hopeless pilgrimage, a fatal search to find Her once again. What a journey that must have been! Before the last crazed one fell for the final time, punctuating a trail of corpses leagues long. A crusade of the insane, wandering into the nowhere.
Kharkanas was virtually an empty city after they"d gone. Anomander Rake"s first lordship over echoing chambers, empty houses. There would be many more.
A calm, then, drifting on like flotsam in the stream, not yet caught by the rushes, not yet so waterlogged that it vanished, tumbled like a severed moon into the muddy bed. Of course it couldn"t last. One more betrayal was needed, to shatter the world once and for all.
The night just past Endest Silann, making his way to a back storeroom on the upper level, came upon the Son of Darkness in a corridor. Some human, thinking the deed one of honour, had hung a series of ancient Andii tapestries down both walls of the pa.s.sage. Scenes of Kharkanas, and one indeed showing Dorssan Ryl although none would know if not familiar with that particular vantage point, for the river was but a dark slash, a talon curled round the city"s heart. There was no particular order, arrayed so in ignorance, and to walk this corridor was to be struck by a collage of images, distinct as memories not one tethered to the next.
Anomander Rake had been standing before one, his eyes a deep shade of amber. Predatory, fixed as a lion"s before a killing charge. On the faded tapestry a figure stood tall amidst carnage. The bodies tumbled before him all bled from wounds to the back. Nothing subtle here, the weaver"s outrage dripped from every thread. White-skinned, onyx-eyed, sweat-blackened hair braided like hanging ropes. Slick swords in his hands, he looked out upon the viewer, defiant and cold. In the wracked sky behind him wheeled Locqui Wyval with women"s heads, their mouths open in screams almost audible.
"He did not mean it," said Anomander Rake.
But he did. "Your ability to forgive far surpa.s.ses mine, Lord." "Your ability to forgive far surpa.s.ses mine, Lord."
"The body follows the head, but sometimes it"s the other way round. There was a cabal. Ambitious, hungry. They used him, Endest, they used him badly."
"They paid for it, didn"t they?"
"We all did, old friend."
Endest Silann looked away. "I so dislike this hallway, Lord. When I must walk it, I look neither left nor right."
Rake grunted. "It is indeed a gauntlet of recrimination."
"Reminders, Lord, of the fact that some things never change."
"You must wrest yourself loose, Endest. This despondency can . . . ravage the soul."
"I have heard, there is a river that empties into Coral Bay. Eryn or Maurik. Which seems depthless."
Anomander Rake, still studying the tapestry, nodded.
"Spinnock Durav has seen it, walked its sh.o.r.es. He says it reminds him of Dorssan Ryl . . . his childhood."
"Yes, there are some similarities."
"I was thinking, if I could be spared . . ."
His Lord glanced over and smiled. "A pilgrimage? Of course, Endest. If, that is, you can return before a month pa.s.ses."
Ah, are we so close, then? "I will not stay long, Lord. Only to see, with my own eyes, that is all." "I will not stay long, Lord. Only to see, with my own eyes, that is all."
The glance had become something more focused, and the amber glare had dimmed to something like . . . like mud like mud. "I fear you may be disappointed. It is but a deep river. We cannot touch the past, old friend." He looked back once more on the tapestry. "And the echoes we imagine we hear, well, they deceive. deceive. Do not be surprised, Endest, if you find nothing you seek, and everything you fear." Do not be surprised, Endest, if you find nothing you seek, and everything you fear."
And what is it, Lord, that you think I seek? I would not ask what you think I fear for you know the answer to that one. "I thought the walk might do me some good." "I thought the walk might do me some good."
"And so it shall."
Now, the next day, he sat in his chamber. A small leather pack of supplies rested beside the door. And the thought of a walk, a long one, up rugged mountainsides beneath hard sunlight, no longer seemed so appetizing. Age did such things, feeding the desire then starving the will. And what, after all, would seeing the river achieve?
A reminder of illusions, perhaps, a reminder that, in a realm for ever beyond reach, there stood the ruin of a once-great city, and, flowing round it, Dorssan Ryl, living on, ceaseless in its perfect absence, in playing its game of existence. A river of purest darkness, the life water of the Tiste Andii, and if the children were gone, well, what difference did that make?
Children will leave. Children will abandon the old ways, and the old fools with all their pointless advice can mutter and grumble to empty s.p.a.ces and nod at the answering echoes. Stone and brickwork make ideal audiences.
No, he would make this journey. He would defy the follies of old age, unmeasured and unmocked under the eyes of the young. A solitary pilgrimage.
And all these thoughts, seeming so indulgent and wayward, will perhaps reveal their worth then, driving dire echoes forward to that future moment of revelation. Hah. Did he believe such things? Did he possess the necessary faith?
"Ask no question, the river shall answer."
"Question the river, find the answer."
The Mad Poets spent lifetimes waging profound wars in their rendered prose. Achieving what? Why, the implosive obliteration of their tradition.
Summarize that in two clauses.
"I need you to make a journey."
Spinnock Durav managed a smile. "When, Lord?"
Anomander Rake stretched out his legs until his boots were very nearly in the flames of the hearth. "Soon, I think. Tell me, how goes the game?"
He squinted at the fire. "Not well. Oh, I win each time. It"s just that my finest opponent does poorly of late. His mind is on other matters, unfortunately. I am not pressed, and this removes much of the pleasure."
"This would be Seerdomin."
Spinnock glanced up, momentarily surprised. But of But of course course, he told himself, he is the Son of Darkness, after all. They may well call him the Ghost King, but I doubt there is a single detail he does not know in Black Coral. They will not heed that until they make a terrible mistake and then it will be too late. he is the Son of Darkness, after all. They may well call him the Ghost King, but I doubt there is a single detail he does not know in Black Coral. They will not heed that until they make a terrible mistake and then it will be too late. "Seerdomin, yes. The Benighted." "Seerdomin, yes. The Benighted."
A faint smile from Anomander Rake. "Itkovian was a most extraordinary man. This newborn cult interests me, and I am not so sure it would have pleased him. He saw himself as a soldier, a failed one at that the fall of Capustan devastated him." He paused for a moment, clearly remembering, then he said, "They were but a mercenary company, modest in complement nothing like the Crimson Guard. I dare say even the Crimson Guard would have failed to hold Capustan."
Spinnock Durav remained silent, attentive. He had been away during that time. Another journey on behalf of his Lord. Hunting a dragon, of all things. Hunting a dragon, of all things. Conversations like the one he"d found at the end of that quest were not worth repeating. Conversations like the one he"d found at the end of that quest were not worth repeating.
"He could forgive everyone but himself."