He frowned at her. "What do you mean, witch?"
"You killed the Emperor."
"I said I would, and so I did." He paused, and then said, "And now this Malazan speaks as if he would make me a slave once more."
"Not at all," said Traveller. "It just seems as if you have lived an eventful life, Toblakai. I only regret that I will probably never hear your tale, for I gather that you are not the talkative type."
Karsa Orlong bared his teeth, and then swung up into the saddle. "I am riding north," he said.
"As am I," replied Traveller.
Samar Dev collected both horses and tied a long lead to the one she decided she would not ride, then climbed into the saddle of the other a russet gelding with a broad back and disinterested eyes. "I think I want to go home," she p.r.o.nounced. "Meaning I need to find a port, presumably on the western coast of this continent."
Traveller said, "I ride to Darujhistan. Ships ply the lake and the river that flows to the coast you seek. I would welcome the company, Samar Dev."
"Darujhistan," said Karsa Orlong. "I have heard of that city. Defied the Malazan Empire and so still free. I will see it for myself."
"Fine then," Samar Dev snapped. "Let"s ride on, to the next pile of corpses and with you for company, Karsa Orlong, that shouldn"t be long and then we"ll ride to the next one and so on, right across this entire continent. To Darujhistan! Wherever in Hood"s name that is."
"I will see it," Karsa said again. "But I will not stay long." And he looked at her with suddenly fierce eyes. "I am returning home, witch."
"To forge your army," she said, nodding, sudden nerves tingling in her gut.
"And then the world shall witness."
"Yes."
After a moment, the three set out, Karsa Orlong on her left, Traveller on her right, neither speaking, yet they were histories, tomes of past, present and future. Between them, she felt like a crumpled page of parchment, her life a minor scrawl.
High, high above them, a Great Raven fixed preternatural eyes upon the three figures far below, and loosed a piercing cry, then tilted its broad black-sail wings and raced on a current of chill wind, rushing east.
She thought she might be dead. Every step she took was effortless, a product of will and nothing else no shifting of weight, no swing of legs nor flexing of knees. Will carried her where she sought to go, to that place of formless light where the white sand glowed blindingly bright beneath her, at the proper distance had she been standing. Yet, looking down, she saw nothing of her own body. No limbs, no torso, and nowhere to any side could she see her shadow.
Voices droned somewhere ahead, but she was not yet ready for them, so she remained where she was, surrounded in warmth and light.
Pulses, as from torches flaring through thick mist, slowly approached, disconnected from the droning voices, and she now saw a line of figures drawing towards her. Women, heads tilted down, long hair over their faces, naked, each one heavy with pregnancy. The torch fires hovered over each one, fist-sized suns in which rainbow flames flickered and spun.
Salind wanted to recoil. She was a Child of a Dead Seed, after all. Born from a womb of madness. She had nothing for these women. She was no longer a priestess, no longer able to confer the blessing of anyone, no G.o.d and least of all herself, upon any child waiting to tumble into the world.
Yet those seething orbs of flame she knew they were the souls of the unborn, the not-yet-born, and these mothers were walking towards her, with purpose, with need.
I can give you nothing! Go away!
Still they came on, faces lifting, revealing eyes dark and empty, and seemed not to see her even as, one by one, they walked through through Salind. Salind.
G.o.ds, some of these women were not even human.
And as each one pa.s.sed through her, she felt the life of the child within. She saw the birth unfolding, saw the small creature with those strangely wise eyes that seemed to belong to every newborn (except, perhaps, her own). And then the years rushing on, the child growing, faces taking the shape they would carry into old age- But not all. As mother after mother stepped through her, futures flashed bright, and some died quickly indeed. Fraught, flickering sparks, ebbing, winking out, darkness rushing in. And at these she cried out, filled with anguish even as she understood that souls travelled countless journeys, of which only one could be known by a mortal so many, in countless perturbations and that the loss belonged only to others, never to the child itself, for in its inarticulate, ineffable wisdom, understanding was absolute; the pa.s.sage of life that seemed tragically short could well be the perfect duration, the experience complete- Others, however, died in violence, and this was a crime, an outrage against life itself. Here, among these souls, there was fury, shock, denial. There was railing, struggling, bitter defiance. No, some deaths were as they should be, but others were not. From somewhere a woman"s voice began speaking.
"Bless them, that they not be taken.
"Bless them, that they begin in their time and that they end in its fullness.
"Bless them, in the name of the Redeemer, against the cruel harvesters of souls, the takers of life.
"Bless them, Daughter of Death, that each life shall be as it is written, for peace is born of completion, and completion denied completion of all potential, all promised in life is a crime, a sin, a consignation to eternal d.a.m.nation. Beware the takers, the users! The blight of killers!
"They are coming! Again and again, they harvest the souls-"
That strange voice was shrieking now, and Salind sought to flee but all will had vanished. She was trapped in this one place, as mother after mother plunged into her, eyes black and wide, mouths gaping in a chorus of screams, wailing terror, heart-crushing fear for their unborn children- All at once she heard the droning voices again, summoning her, inviting her into . . . into what?
Sanctuary.
With a cry tearing loose from her throat, Salind pulled away, raced towards those voices- And opened her eyes. Low candlelight surrounded her. She was lying on a bed. The voices embraced her from all sides and, blinking, she sought to sit up.
So weak- An arm slipped behind her shoulders, helped her rise as pillows were pushed underneath. She stared up at a familiar, alien face. "Spinnock Durav."
He nodded.
Others were rising into view now. Tiste Andii women, all in dark shapeless robes, eyes averted as they began filing out of the chamber, taking their chanting song with them.
Those voices so heavy, so solid they truly belonged to these women? She was astonished, half disbelieving, and yet . . .
"You almost died," Spinnock Durav said. "The healers called you back the priestesses."
"But why?"
His smile was wry. "I called in a favour or two. But I think, once they attended you, there was more to it. An obligation, perhaps. You are, after all, a sister priestess oh, betrothed to a different ascendant, true enough, but that did not matter. Or," and he smiled again, "so it turned out."
Yes, but why? Why did you bring me back? I don"t want- oh, she could not complete that thought. Understanding now, at last, how vast the sin of suicide of course, it would not have been that, would it? To have simply slipped away, taken by whatever sickness afflicted her. Was it not a kind of wisdom to surrender?
"No," she mumbled, "it isn"t."
"Salind?"
"To bless," she said, "is to confer a hope. Is that enough? To make sacred the wish for good fortune, a fulfilled life? What can it achieve?"
He was studying her face. "High Priestess," he now said, haltingly, as if truly attempting an answer, "in blessing, you purchase a moment of peace, in the one being blessed, in the one for whom blessing is asked. Perhaps it does not last, but the gift you provide, well, its value never fades."
She turned her head, looked away. Beyond the candles, she saw a wall crowded with Andiian hieroglyphs and a procession of painted figures, all facing one way, to where stood the image of a woman whose back was turned, denying all those beseeching her. A mother rejecting her children she could see how the artist had struggled with all those upturned faces, the despair and anguish twisting them painted in tears, yes.
"I must go back," she said.
"Back? Where?"
"The camp, the place of the pilgrims."
"You are not yet strong enough, High Priestess."
Her words to him had stripped away his using her chosen name. He was seeing her now as a High Priestess. She felt a twinge of loss at that. But now was not the time to contemplate the significance of such things. Spinnock Durav was right she was too weak. Even these thoughts exhausted her. "As soon as I can," she said.
"Of course."
"They are in danger."
"What would you have me do?"
She finally looked back at him. "Nothing. This belongs to me. And Seerdomin."
At the mention of that name the Tiste Andii winced. "High Priestess-" "He will not reject me again."
"He is missing."
"What?"
"I cannot find him. I am sorry, but I am fairly certain he is no longer in Black Coral."
"No matter," she said, struggling to believe her own words. "No matter. He will come when he is needed." She could see that Spinnock Durav was sceptical, but she would not berate him for that. "The Redeemer brought me to the edge of death," she said, "to show me what was needed. To show me why I was needed." She paused. "Does that sound arrogant? It does, doesn"t it?"
His sigh was ragged. He stood. "I will return to check on you, High Priestess. For now, sleep."
Oh, she had offended him, but how? "Wait, Spinnock Durav-"
"It is all right," he said. "You have misread me. Well, perhaps not entirely. You spoke of your G.o.d showing you what was needed something we Tiste Andii ever yearn for but will not ever achieve. Then you doubt yourself. Arrogance? Abyss below, High Priestess. Is this how you feel when the Redeemer blesses blesses you?" you?"
Then she was alone in the chamber. Candle flames wavering in the wake of Spinnock Durav"s departure, the agitated light making the figures writhe on the walls.
Still the mother stood, turned away.
Salind felt a twist of anger. Bless your children, Mother Dark. They have suffered long enough. I say this in grat.i.tude to your own priestesses, who have given me back my life. I say it in the name of redemption. Bless your children, woman. Bless your children, Mother Dark. They have suffered long enough. I say this in grat.i.tude to your own priestesses, who have given me back my life. I say it in the name of redemption. Bless your children, woman.
The candles settled once more, flames standing tall, immune to Salind"s meek agitations. Nowhere in this room was there darkness and that, she realized, was answer enough.
The old blood splashed on the walls was black, eager to swallow the lantern"s light. Dust still trickled down from stress fractures in the canted ceiling, reminding Seerdomin that half a mountain stood above him. The keep"s upper levels were crushed, collapsed, yet still settling even after all this time. Perhaps, some time soon, these lower tunnels would give away, and the ma.s.sive ruin atop the hollowed-out cliff would simply tilt and slide into the sea.
In the meantime, there were these unlit, wending, buckled corridors, a chaotic maze where no one belonged, and yet boot prints tracked the thick, gritty dust. Looters? Perhaps, although Seerdomin well knew there was little to be found in these lower levels. He had walked these routes many times, doing what he could for the various prisoners of the Pannion Seer, though it was never enough no, never enough.
If there was a curse, a most vicious kind of curse, whereby a decent person found him or herself in inescapable servitude to a creature of pure, unmitigated evil, then Seerdomin had lived it. Decency did not exculpate. Honour purchased no abeyance on crimes against humanity. And as for duty, well, it increasingly seemed the sole excuse of the morally despicable. He would offer up none of these in defence of the things he had done at his master"s behest. Nor would he speak of duress, of the understandable desire to stay alive under the threat of deadly coercion. None of these was sufficient. When undeniable crimes had been committed, justification was the act of a coward. And it was our cowardice that permitted such crimes in the first place. And it was our cowardice that permitted such crimes in the first place. No tyrant could thrive where every subject said No tyrant could thrive where every subject said no no.
The tyrant thrives when the first f.u.c.king fool salutes.
He well understood that many people delighted in such societies there had been fellow Seerdomin, most of them in fact, who revelled in the fear and the obedience that fear commanded. And this was what had led him here, trailing an old palace retainer of the Seer who had made his furtive way into the ruins of the old keep. No, not a looter. A sordid conspiracy was afoot, Seerdomin was certain of that. Survivors of one nightmare seeking to nurture yet another. That man would not be alone once he reached his destination.
He closed the shutter to the lantern once more and continued on.
Malazan soldiers had died here, along with the Pannion"s own. Seguleh had carved through the ranks of palace guard. Seerdomin could almost hear the echoes of that slaughter, the cries of the dying, the desperate pleading against cruel mischance, the stinging clash of weapons. He came to a set of steps leading down. Rubble had been cleared away. From somewhere below came the murmur of voices.
They had set no guard, proof of their confidence, and as he stealthily descended he could make out the glow of lanterns emanating from the cell down below.
This chamber had once been home to the one called Toc the Younger. Chained against one wall, well within reach of the Seer"s monstrous mother. Seerdomin"s paltry gifts of mercy had probably stung like droplets of acid on the poor man. Better to have left him to go entirely mad, escaping into that oblivious world where everything was so thoroughly broken that repair was impossible. He could still smell the reek of the K"Chain matron.
The voices were becoming distinguishable three, maybe four conspirators. He could hear the excitement, the sweet glee, along with the usual self-importance, the songs of those who played games with lives it was the same the world over, in every history, ever the same.
He had crushed down his outrage so long ago, it was a struggle to stir it into life once more, but he would need it. Sizzling, yet hard, controlled, peremptory. Three steps from the floor, still in darkness, he slowly drew out his tulwar. It did not matter what they were discussing. It did not even matter if their plans were pathetic, doomed to fail. It was the very act that awakened in Seerdomin the heart of murder, so that it now drummed through him, thunderous with contempt and disgust, ready to do what was needed.
When he first stepped into the chamber, none of the four seated at the table even noticed, permitting him to take another stride, close enough to send his broad-bladed weapon through the first face that lifted towards him, cutting it in half. His return attack was a looping backswing, chopping through the neck of the man to the right, who, in lurching upright, seemed to offer his throat to that slashing edge like a willing sacrifice. As his head tumbled away, the body stumbling as it backed over the chair, Seerdomin grasped one edge of the table and flipped it into the air, hammering it into the man on the left, who fell beneath the table"s weight. Leaving one man directly opposite Seerdomin.
Pleading eyes, a hand scrabbling at the ornate dagger at the belt, backing away- Not nearly fast enough, as Seerdomin moved forward and swung his heavy tulwar down, cutting through the upraised forearms and carving into the man"s upper chest, through clavicle and down one side of the sternum. The edge jammed at the fourth rib, forcing Seerdomin to kick the corpse loose. He then turned to the last conspirator.
The old palace retainer. Spittle on his lips, the reek of urine rising like steam. "No, please-"
"Do you know me, Hegest?"
A quick nod. "A man of honour what you have done here-"
"Defies what you would expect of an honourable man, and it is that very expectation that frees you to scheme and plot. Alas, Hegest, your expectation was wrong. Fatally so. Black Coral is at peace, for the first time in decades freed of terror. And yet you chafe, dreaming no doubt of your old station, of all the excesses you were privileged to possess."
"I throw myself upon the mercy of the Son of Darkness-"
"You can"t throw yourself that far, Hegest. I am going to kill you, here, now. I can do it quick, or slow. If you answer my questions, I will grant you the mercy you have never spared others. If you refuse, I will do to you as you have done to many, many victims and yes, I well remember. Which fate will it be, Hegest?"
"I will tell you everything, Seerdomin. In exchange for my life."
"Your life is not the coin of this deal."
The man began weeping.
"Enough of that," Seerdomin growled. "Today, I am as you once were, Hegest. Tell me, did the tears of your victims soften your heart? No, not once. So wipe your face. And give me your answer."
And so the man did, and Seerdomin began asking his questions.
Later, and true to his word, Seerdomin showed mercy, in so far as that word meant anything when taking someone else"s life, and he well knew it didn"t mean much. He cleaned his weapon on Hegest"s cloak.
Was he any different, then, from these fools? There were countless avenues he could take that would lead him to a.s.sert otherwise, each one tortured and malign with deceit. Without doubt, he told himself as he made his way out, what he had done ended something, whereas what these fools had been planning was the beginning of something else, something foul and sure to spill innocent blood. By this measure, his crime was far the lesser of the two. So why, then, did his soul feel stained, damaged?
Cogent reasoning could lead a man, step by logical step, into horror. He now carried with him a list of names, the sordid details of a scheme to drive out the Tiste Andii, and while he knew it was destined to fail, to leave it free was to invite chaos and misery. And so he would have to kill again. Quietly, revealing nothing to anyone, for this was an act of shame. For his kind, for humans and their stupid, vicious inclinations.
Yet he did not want to be the hand of justice, for that hand was ever b.l.o.o.d.y and often indiscriminate, p.r.o.ne to excesses of all sorts.
The cruellest detail among all that he had learned this night was that this web of conspiracy reached out to the pilgrim camp. Hegest had not known who the players were out there, but it was clear that they were important, perhaps even essential. Seerdomin would have to go back to the camp and the very thought sickened him.
Salind, the High Priestess, was she one of the conspirators? Was this act of usurpation at its heart a religious one? It would not be the first time that a religion or cult ignited with the fires of self-righteous certainty and puritanical zeal, leading to ghastly conflict, and had he not heard more than once the bold a.s.sertion that the Son of Darkness held no claim upon the region outside Night? An absurd notion, yes, an indefensible one, the very kind fanatics converged upon, clenched fists held high in the air.
He had, for a time, nurtured the belief that he was not unique in his appreciation of the rule of the Tiste Andii, and his respect for the wisdom displayed again and again by the Son of Darkness. The gift of peace and stability, the sure, unambiguous rules of law imposed by a people whose own civilization spanned tens of thousands of years even longer if the rumours were at all accurate. How could any human begrudge this gift?
Many did, it was now clear. The notion of freedom could make even peace and order seem oppressive, generate the suspicion of some hidden purpose, some vast deceit, some unspecified crime being perpetrated beyond human ken. That was a generous way of looking at it; the alternative was to acknowledge that humans were intrinsically conflicted, cursed with acquisitive addictions of the spirit.
He reached the steep ramp leading to the well-hidden entrance to the tunnels, rats skittering from his path, and emerged into the warmer, drier air of Night. Yes, he would have to go to the pilgrim camp, but not now. This would demand some planning. Besides, if he could excise the cancer in the city, then the conspirators out there would find themselves isolated, helpless and incapable of achieving anything. He could then deal with them at his leisure.