None other. None other but you, Anomander Rake.
Thank the G.o.ds.
He awoke to the sting of a needle at the corner of one eye. Flinching back, gasping, scrabbling away over the warm bodies. In his wake, that blind artist, the mad Tiste Andii, Kadaspala, face twisted in dismay, the bone stylus drawing back.
"Wait! Come back! Wait and wait, stay and stay, I am almost done! I am almost done and I must be done before it"s too late, before it"s too late!"
Ditch saw that half his mangled body now bore tattoos, all down one side wherever skin had been exposed whilst he was lying unconscious atop the heap of the fallen. How long had he been lying there, insensate, whilst the insane creature st.i.tched him full of holes? "I told you," he said, "not me. Not me!" Not me!"
"Necessary. The apex and the crux and the fulcrum and the heart. He chose you. I chose you. Necessary! Else we are all lost, we are all lost, we are all lost. Come back. Where you were and where you were, lying just so, your arm over, the wrist the very twitch of your eye-"
"I said no no! Come at me again, Kadaspala, and I will choke the life from you. I swear it. I will crush your neck to pulp. Or snap your fingers, every d.a.m.ned one of them!"
Lying on his stomach, gaping sockets seeming to glare, Kadaspala s.n.a.t.c.hed his hands back, hiding them beneath his chest. "You must not do that and you must not do that. I was almost finished with you. I saw your mind went away, leaving me your flesh to do what was needed and what was needed is still needed, can"t you understand that?"
Ditch crawled further away, well beyond the Tiste Andii"s reach, rolling and then sinking down between two demonic forms, both of which shifted sickeningly beneath his weight. "Don"t come any closer," he hissed.
"I must convince you. I have summoned Draconus. He is summoned. There will be threats, they come with Draconus, they always come with Draconus. I have summoned him."
Ditch slowly lowered himself down on to his back. There would be no end to this, he knew. Each time his mind fell away, fled to whatever oblivion it found, this mad artist would crawl to his side, and, blind or not, he would resume his work. What of it? Why should I really care? This body is mostly destroyed now, anyway. If Kadaspala wants it no, d.a.m.n him, it is all I have left. What of it? Why should I really care? This body is mostly destroyed now, anyway. If Kadaspala wants it no, d.a.m.n him, it is all I have left.
"So many are pleased," the Tiste Andii murmured, "to think that they have become something greater than they once were. It is a question of sacrifices, of which I know all there is to know, yes, I know all there is to know. And," he added, somewhat breathlessly, "there is of course more to it, more to it. Salvation-"
"You cannot be serious."
"It is not quite a lie, not quite a lie, my friend. Not quite a lie. And truth, well, truth is never as true as you think it is, or if it is, then not for long not for long not for long."
Ditch stared up at the sickly sky overhead, the flashes of reflected argent spilling through what seemed to be roiling clouds of grey dust. Everything felt imminent, something hovering at the edge of his vision. There was a strangeness in his mind, as if he was but moments from hearing some devastating news, a fatal illness no healer could solve; he knew it was coming, knew it to be inevitable, but the details were unknown and all he could do was wait. Live on in endless antic.i.p.ation of that cruel, senseless p.r.o.nouncement.
If there were so many sides to existing, why did grief and pain overwhelm all else? Why were such grim forces so much more powerful than joy, or love, or even compa.s.sion? And, in the face of that, did dignity really provide a worthy response? It was but a lifted shield, a display to others, whilst the soul cowered behind it, in no way ready to stand unmoved by catastrophe, especially the personal kind.
He felt a sudden hatred for the futility of things.
Kadaspala was crawling closer, his slithering stalking betrayed in minute gasps of effort, the attempts at stealth pathetic, almost comical.
Blood and ink, ink and blood, right, Kadaspala? The physical and the spiritual, each painting the truth of the other.
I will wring your neck, I swear it.
He felt motion, heard soft groans, and all at once a figure was crouching down beside him. Ditch opened his eyes. "Yes," he said, sneering, "you were summoned."
"Just how many battles, wizard, are you prepared to lose?"
The question irritated him, but then it was meant to. "Either way, I have few left, don"t I?"
Draconus reached down and dragged Ditch from between the two demons, roughly throwing him on to his stomach no easy thing, since Ditch was not a small man, yet the muscles behind that effort made the wizard feel like a child.
"What are you doing?" Ditch demanded, as Draconus placed his hands to either side of the wizard"s head, fingers lacing below his jaw.
Ditch sought to pull his head back, away from that tightening grip, but the effort failed.
A sudden wrench to one side. Something in his neck broke clean, a crunch and snap that reverberated up into his skull, a brief flare of what might have been pain, then . . . nothing.
"What have you done?"
"Not the solution I would have preferred," Draconus said from above him, "but it was obvious that argument alone would not convince you to cooperate."
Ditch could not feel his body. Nothing, nothing at all beneath his neck. He broke it my neck, severed the spinal cord. He G.o.ds! G.o.ds! He broke it my neck, severed the spinal cord. He G.o.ds! G.o.ds! "Torment take you, Elder G.o.d. Torment take your soul. An eternity of agony. Death of all your dreams, sorrow unending among your kin may they too know misery, despair all your-" "Torment take you, Elder G.o.d. Torment take your soul. An eternity of agony. Death of all your dreams, sorrow unending among your kin may they too know misery, despair all your-"
"Oh, be quiet, Ditch. I haven"t the time for this."
The scene before Ditch"s eyes rocked then, swung wild and spun, as Draconus dragged him back to where he had been lying before, to where Kadaspala needed him to be. The apex, the crux, the heart, the whatever. You have me now, Tiste Andii. The apex, the crux, the heart, the whatever. You have me now, Tiste Andii.
And yes, I did not heed your threat, and look at me now. True and true, you might say, Ditch never learns. Not about threats. Not about risks. And no, nothing nothing nothing about creatures such as Draconus. Or Anomander Rake. Or any of them, who do what they have to do, when it needs doing. about creatures such as Draconus. Or Anomander Rake. Or any of them, who do what they have to do, when it needs doing.
"Hold your face still," Kadaspala whispered close to one ear. "I do not want to blind you, I do not want to blind you. You do not want to be blind, trust me, you do not want to be blind. No twitching, this is too important, too too too important and important, too."
The stab of the stylus, a faint sting, and now, as it was the only sensation he had left, the pain shivered like a blessing, a G.o.d"s merciful touch to remind him of his flesh that it still existed, that blood still flowed beneath the skin.
The healer, Ditch, has devastating news.
But you still have your dignity. You still have that.
Oh yes, he still has his dignity. See the calm resignation in these steady eyes, the steeled expression, the courage of no choice.
Be impressed, won"t you?
The south-facing slopes of G.o.d"s Walk Mountains were crowded with ruins. Shattered domes, most of them elliptical in shape, lined the stepped tiers like broken teeth. Low walls linked them, although these too had collapsed in places, where run-off from the snow-clad peaks had cut trenches and gullies like gouges down the faces, as if the mountains themselves were eager to wash away the last remnants of the long dead civilization.
Water and earth will heal what needs healing. Water and earth, sun and wind, these will take away every sign of wilful a.s.sertion, of cogent imposition. Brick crumbles to rubble, mortar drifts away as grit on the breeze. These mountains, Kedeviss knew, will wash it all away.
The notion pleased her, and in these sentiments she was little different from most Tiste Andii at least those she knew and had known. There was a secret delight in impermanence, in seeing arrogance taken down, whether in a single person or in a bold, proud civilization. Darkness was ever the last thing to remain, in the final closing of eyelids, in the unlit depths of empty buildings, G.o.dless temples. When a people vanished, their every home, from the dishevelled hovel of the dest.i.tute to the palaces of kings and queens, became nothing but a sepulchre, a tomb host to nothing but memories, and even these quickly faded.
She suspected that the dwellers of the village, there at the foot of the nearest mountain, on the edge of a lake in headlong retreat, knew nothing about the sprawling city whose ruins loomed above them. A convenient source of cut stone and oddly glazed bricks and nothing more. And of course, whatever little knowledge they had possessed, they had surrendered it all to saemankelyk, for it was clear as the troupe drew closer that the village was lifeless, abandoned.
Against the backdrop of the mountains, the figure of Clip striding well ahead of the rest of them looked appropriately diminished, like an ant about to tackle a hillside. Despite this, Kedeviss found her gaze drawn to him again and again. I"m not sure. Not sure about him. I"m not sure. Not sure about him. Distrust came easy, and even had Clip been all smiles and eager generosity, still she would have her suspicions. They"d not done well with strangers, after all. Distrust came easy, and even had Clip been all smiles and eager generosity, still she would have her suspicions. They"d not done well with strangers, after all.
"I have never," said Nimander as he walked at her side, "seen a city like that."
"They certainly had a thing about domes," observed Skintick behind them. "But let"s hope that some of those channels still run with fresh water. I feel salted as a lump of bacon."
Crossing the dead lake had been an education in human failure. Long lost nets tangled on deadheads, harpoons, anchors, gaffs and more shipwrecks than seemed reasonable. The lake"s death had revealed its treachery in spiny ridges and shoals, in scores of mineralized tree trunks, still standing from the day some dam high in the mountains broke to send a deluge sweeping down into a forested valley. Fisher boats and merchant scows, towed barges and a few sleek galleys attesting to past military disputes, the rusted hulks of armour and other things less identifiable the lake bed seemed a kind of concentrated lesson on bodies of water and the fools who dared to navigate them. Kedeviss imagined that, should a sea or an ocean suddenly drain away to nothing, she would see the same writ large, a clutter of loss so vast as to take one"s breath away. What meaning could one pluck free from broken ambition? Avoid the sea. Avoid risks. Take no chances. Dream of nothing, want less. Avoid the sea. Avoid risks. Take no chances. Dream of nothing, want less. An Andiian response, a.s.suredly. Humans, no doubt, would draw down into thoughtful silence, thinking of ways to improve the odds, of turning the battle and so winning the war. For them, after all, failure was temporary, as befitted a short-lived species that didn"t know any better. An Andiian response, a.s.suredly. Humans, no doubt, would draw down into thoughtful silence, thinking of ways to improve the odds, of turning the battle and so winning the war. For them, after all, failure was temporary, as befitted a short-lived species that didn"t know any better.
"I guess we won"t be camping in the village," Skintick said, and they could see that Clip had simply marched through the scatter of squatting huts, and was now attacking the slope.
"He can walk all night if he likes," Nimander said. "We"re stopping. We need the rest. Water, a d.a.m.ned bath. We need to redistribute our supplies, since there"s no way we can take the cart up and over the mountains. Let"s hope the locals just dropped everything like all the others did."
A bath. Yes. But it won"t help. We cannot clean our hands, not this time.
They pa.s.sed between sagging jetties, on to the old sh.o.r.e by way of a boat-launch ramp of reused quarry stones, many of which had been carved with strange symbols. The huts rested on solid, oversized foundations, the contrast between ancient skill and modern squalor so pathetic it verged on the comical, and Kedeviss heard Skintick"s amused snort as they wended their way between the first structures.
A rectangular well dominated the central round, with more perfectly cut stone set incompetently in the earth to form a rough plaza of sorts. Discarded clothing and bedding was scattered about, bleached by salt and sun, like the shrunken remnants of people.
"I seem to recall," Skintick said, "a child"s story about flesh-stealers. Whenever you find clothes lying on the roadside and in glades, it"s because the stealers came and took the person wearing them. I never trusted that story, though, since who would be walking round wearing only a shirt? Or one shoe? No, my alternative theory is far more likely."
Nimander, ever generous of heart, bit on the hook. "Which is?"
"Why, the evil wind, of course, ever desperate to get dressed in something warm, but nothing ever fits so the wind throws the garments away in a fit of fury."
"You were a child," Kedeviss said, "determined to explain everything, weren"t you? I don"t really recall, since I stopped listening to you long ago."
"She stabs deep, Nimander, this woman."
Nenanda had drawn up the cart and now climbed down, stretching out the kinks in his back. "I"m glad I"m done with that," he said.
Moments later Aranatha and Desra joined them.
Yes, here we are again. With luck, Clip will fall into a creva.s.se and never return.
Nimander looked older, like a man whose youth has been beaten out of him. "Well," he said with a sigh, "we should search these huts and find whatever there is to find."
At his command the others set out to explore. Kedeviss remained behind, her eyes still on Nimander, until he turned about and regarded her quizzically.
"He"s hiding something," she said.
He did not ask whom she meant, but simply nodded.
"I"m not sure why he feels the need for us, "Mander. Did he want worshippers? Servants? Are we to be his cadre in some political struggle to come?"
A faint smile from Nimander. "You don"t think, then, he collected us out of fellowship, a sense of responsibility to take us back . . . to our "Black-Winged Lord"?"
"Do you know," she said, "he alone among us has never met Anomander Rake. In a sense, he"s not taking us to Anomander Rake. We"re taking him." him."
"Careful, Kedeviss. If he hears you you will have offended his self-importance."
"I may end up offending more than that," she said.
Nimander"s gaze sharpened on her.
"I mean to confront him," she said. "I mean to demand some answers."
"Perhaps we should all-"
"No. Not unless I fail." She hoped he wouldn"t ask for her reasons on this, and suspected, as she saw his smile turn wry, that he understood. A challenge by all of them, with Nimander at the forefront, could force into the open the power struggle that had been brewing between Clip and Nimander, one that was now played out in gestures of indifference and even contempt on Clip"s part, at any rate, since Nimander more or less maintained his pleasant, if slightly morbid, pa.s.sivity, fending off Clip"s none too subtle attacks as would a man used to being under siege. Salvos could come from any direction, after all. So carry a big shield, and keep smiling. So carry a big shield, and keep smiling.
She wondered if Nimander even knew the strength within him. He could have become a man such as Andarist had been after all, Andarist had been more of a father to him than Anomander Rake had ever been and yet Nimander had grown into a true heir to Rake, his only failing being that he didn"t know it. And perhaps that was for the best, at least for the time being.
"When?" he asked now.
She shrugged. "Soon, I think."
A thousand paces above the village, Clip settled on one of the low bridging walls and looked down at the quaintly sordid village below. He could see his miserable little army wandering about at the edges of the round, into and out of huts.
They were, he decided, next to useless. If not for concern over them, he would never have challenged the Dying G.o.d. Naturally, they were too ignorant to comprehend that detail. They"d even got it into their heads that they"d saved his life. Well, such delusions had their uses, although the endless glances his way so rank with hopeful expectation were starting to grate.
He spun the rings. Clack-clack . . . clack-clack . . . Clack-clack . . . clack-clack . . .
Oh, I sense your power, O Black-Winged Lord. Holding me at bay. Tell me, what do you fear? Why force me into this interminable walk?
The Liosan of old had it right. Justice was unequivocal. Explanations revealed the cowardice at the core of every criminal, the whining expostulations, the series of masks each one tried on and discarded in desperate succession. The not-my-fault not-my-fault mask. The mask. The it-was-a-mistake it-was-a-mistake mask. mask. You-don"t-understand You-don"t-understand and and see-me-so-helpless see-me-so-helpless and and have-pity-I"m-weak have-pity-I"m-weak he could see each expression, perfectly arranged round eyes equally perfect in their depthless pit of self-pity ( he could see each expression, perfectly arranged round eyes equally perfect in their depthless pit of self-pity (come in there"s room for everyone). Mercy was a flaw, a sudden moment of doubt to undermine the vast, implacable structure that was true justice. The masks were meant to stir awake that doubt, the last chance of the guilty to squirm free of proper retribution.
Clip had no interest in pity. Acknowledged no flaws within his own sense of justice. The criminal depends upon the compa.s.sion of the righteous and would use that compa.s.sion to evade precisely everything that that criminal deserved. Why would any sane, righteous person fall into such a trap? It permitted criminals to thrive (since they played by different rules and would hold no pity or compa.s.sion for those who might wrong them them). No, justice must be pure. Punishment left sacrosanct, immune to compromise.
He would make it so. For his modest army, for the much larger army to come. His people. The Tiste Andii of Black Coral. We shall rot no longer. No more dwindling fires, drifting ashes, lives wasted century on century do you hear me, O Lord? I will take your people, and I will deliver justice. We shall rot no longer. No more dwindling fires, drifting ashes, lives wasted century on century do you hear me, O Lord? I will take your people, and I will deliver justice.
Upon this world.
Upon every G.o.d and ascendant who ever wronged us, betrayed us, scorned us.
Watch them reel, faces bloodied, masks awry, the self-pity in their eyes dissolving and in its place the horror of recognition. That there is no escape this time. That the end has arrived, for every d.a.m.ned one of them.
Yes, Clip had read his histories. He knew the Liosan, the Edur, he knew all the mistakes that had been made, the errors in judgement, the flaws of compa.s.sion. He knew, too, the true extent of the Black-Winged Lord"s betrayal.
Of Mother Dark, of all the Tiste Andii. Of those you left in the Andara. Of Nimander and his kin. Of those you left in the Andara. Of Nimander and his kin.
Your betrayal, Anomander Rake, of me.
The sun was going down. The rings clacked and clacked, and clacked. Below, the salt pan was cast in golden light, the hovels crouched on the near sh.o.r.eline blessed picturesque by distance and lack of detail. Smoke from a cookfire now rose from their midst. Signs of life. Flames to beat back the coming darkness. But it would not last. It never lasted.
The High Priestess pushed the plate away. "That"s it," she said. "Any more and I will burst." A first level acolyte ducked in to take the plate, scurrying off with such haste that she almost spilled the towering heap of cracked crayfish sh.e.l.ls.
Leaning back, the High Priestess wiped the melted b.u.t.ter from her fingers. "It"s typical," she said to the half-dozen sisters seated at the table, "the nets drag up a sudden, unexpected bounty, and what do we do? Devour it entire."
"Kurald Galain continues to yield surprises," said the Third Sister, "why not expect more to come?"
"Because, dearest, nothing lasts for ever. Surrounding Kharkanas, there once stood forests. Until we chopped them down."
"We were young-"
"And that would be a worthy defence," the High Priestess cut in, "if we have not, here in our old age, just repeated the stupidity. Look at us. Come the morrow all our clothes will cease to fit. We will discover, to our horror, bulges where none existed before. We see pleasure as an excuse for all manner of excess, but it is a most undisciplined trait. Now, sermon ended. Someone pour the tea."
More first level acolytes slithered in.
A rustling of small bells at the corridor door preceded the arrival of a temple guardian. The woman, clad in scale armour and ringed leather, marched up to halt beside the High Priestess. She lowered the grille face-piece on her helm and leaned close to whisper lips unseen and so unreadable by any a brief message.
The High Priestess nodded, and then gestured the guardian away. "Second and Third Sister, remain in your seats. You others, take your tea to the Unlit Garden. Sixth Sister, once there you can stop hiding that flask and top up everyone else, yes?"
Moments later, only three women remained in the chamber, as even the acolytes had been sent away.