Striding white-faced and blood-streaked down a jewel-studded hallway, dragging by an ankle the corpse of his wife just one in a countless succession her arms trailing behind her limp as dead snakes, their throats slashed open. There had been no warning, no patina of dust covering her eyes when she fixed him with their regard that morning, as he sat ordering the Century Candles in a row on the table between them. As he invited her into a life stretched out, the promise of devouring for ever no end to the feast awaiting them, no need ever to exercise anything like restraint. They would speak and live the language of excess. They would mark out the maps of interminable expansion, etching the ambitions they could now entertain. Nothing could stop them, not even death itself.
Some madness had afflicted her, like the spurt and gush of a nicked artery there could be no other cause. Madness it had been. Insanity, to have flung away so much. Of what he offered her. So much, yes, of him. him. Or so he had told himself at the time, and for decades thereafter. It had been easier that way. Or so he had told himself at the time, and for decades thereafter. It had been easier that way.
He knew now why she had taken her own life. To be offered everything everything was to be shown what she herself was capable of the depthless reach of her potential depravity, the horrors she would entertain, the plucking away of every last filament of sensitivity, leaving her conscience smooth, cool to the touch, a thing maybe alive, maybe not, a thing nothing could prod awake. She had seen, yes, just how far she might take herself . . . and had then said was to be shown what she herself was capable of the depthless reach of her potential depravity, the horrors she would entertain, the plucking away of every last filament of sensitivity, leaving her conscience smooth, cool to the touch, a thing maybe alive, maybe not, a thing nothing could prod awake. She had seen, yes, just how far she might take herself . . . and had then said no. no.
Another sweet packet, unfolding with the scent of flowers. He knelt beside Vaderon, his war horse, as the animal bled out red foam, its one visible eye fixed on him, as if wanting to know: was it all worth this? What has my life purchased you, my blood, the end of my days?
A battlefield spread out on all sides. Heaps of the dead and the dying, human and beast, Jheck and Tartheno Toblakai, a scattering of Forkrul a.s.sail each one surrounded by hundreds of the fallen, the ones protecting their warleaders, the ones who failed in taking the demons down. And there was no dry ground, the blood was a shallow sea thickening in the heat, and more eyes looked upon nothing than scanned the nightmare seeking friends and kin.
Voices cried, but they seemed distant leagues away from Kallor where he knelt beside Vaderon, unable to pull his gaze from that one fixating eye. Promises of brotherhood, flung into the crimson mud. Silent vows of honour, courage, service and reward, all streaming down the broken spear shaft jutting from the animal"s ma.s.sive, broad chest. And yes, Vaderon had reared to take that thrust, a thrust aimed at Kallor himself, because this horse was too stupid to understand anything.
That Kallor had begun this war, had welcomed the slaughter, the mayhem.
That Kallor, this master now kneeling at its side, was in truth a brutal, despicable man, a bag of skin filled with venom and spite, with envy and a child"s selfish snarl that in losing took the same from everyone else.
Vaderon, dying. Kallor, dry-eyed and d.a.m.ning himself for his inability to weep. To feel regret, to sow self-recrimination, to make promises to do better the next time round.
I am as humankind, he often told himself. Impervious to lessons. Pitiful in loss and defeat, vengeful in victory. With every possible virtue vulnerable to exploitation and abuse by others, could they claim dominion, until such virtues became hollow things, sweating beads of poison. I hold forth goodness and see it made vile, and do nothing, voice no complaint, utter no disavowal. The world I make I have made for one single purpose to chew me up, me and everyone else. Do not believe this bewildered expression. I am bemused only through stupidity, but the clever among me know better, oh, yes they do, even as they lie through my teeth, to you and to themselves.
Kallor walked, over one shoulder a burlap sack ten thousand leagues long and bulging with folded packets. So different from everyone else. Ghost horses run at his side. Wrist-slashed women show bloodless smiles, dancing round the rim of deadened lips. And where dying men cry, see his shadow slide past.
"I want things plain," said Nenanda. "I don"t want to have to work." And then he looked up, belligerent, quick to take affront.
Skintick was bending twigs to make a stick figure. "But things aren"t plain, Nenanda. They never are."
"I know that, just say it straight, that"s all."
"You don"t want your confusion all stirred up, you mean."
Nimander roused himself. "Skin-"
But Nenanda had taken the bait and it was indeed bait, since for all that Skintick had seemed intent on his twigs, he had slyly noted Nenanda"s diffidence. "Liars like like confusion. Liars and thieves, because they can slip in and slip out, when there"s confusion. They want your uncertainty, but there"s nothing uncertain in what confusion. Liars and thieves, because they can slip in and slip out, when there"s confusion. They want your uncertainty, but there"s nothing uncertain in what they they want, is there? That"s how they use you you"re like that yourself sometimes, Skintick, with your clever words." want, is there? That"s how they use you you"re like that yourself sometimes, Skintick, with your clever words."
"Wait, how can they use me if I am them?"
Desra snorted.
Nenanda"s expression filled with fury and he would have risen, if not for Aranatha"s gentle hand settling on his arm, magically dispelling his rage.
Skintick twisted the arms of the tiny figure until they were above the knotted head with its lone green leaf, and held it up over the fire so that it faced Nenanda. "Look," he said, "he surrenders."
"Do not mock me, Skintick."
"On the contrary, I applaud your desire to have things simple. After all, either you can cut it with your sword or you can"t."
"There you go again."
The bickering would go on half the night, Nimander knew. And as it went on it would unravel, and Skintick would increasingly make Nenanda into a thick-witted fool, when he was not anything of the sort. But words were indeed ephemeral, able to sleet past all manner of defences, quick to cut, eager to draw blood. They were the perfect weapons of deceit, but they could also be, he well knew, the solid pavestones of a path leading to comprehension or what pa.s.sed for comprehension in this murky, impossible world.
There were so many ways to live, one for every single sentient being and perhaps for the non-sentient ones too that it was a true miracle whenever two could meet in mutual understanding, or even pa.s.sive acceptance. Proof, Skintick had once said, of life"s extraordinary flexibility. But then But then, he had added, it is our curse to be social creatures, so we"ve little choice but to try to get along. it is our curse to be social creatures, so we"ve little choice but to try to get along.
They were camped on a broad terrace above the last of the strange ruins the day"s climb had been long, dusty and exhausting. Virtually every stone in the rough gravel filling the old drainage channels proved to be some sort of fossil pieces of what had once been bone, wood, tooth or tusk all in fragments. The entire mountainside seemed to be some sort of midden, countless centuries old, and to imagine the lives needed to create so vast a mound was to feel bewildered, weakened with awe. Were the mountains behind this one the same? Was such a thing even possible?
Can"t you see, Nenanda, how nothing nothing is simple? Not even the ground we walk upon. How is this created? Is what we come from and where we end up any different? No, that was badly put. Make it simpler. What is this existence? is simple? Not even the ground we walk upon. How is this created? Is what we come from and where we end up any different? No, that was badly put. Make it simpler. What is this existence?
As Nenanda might answer, it does a warrior no good to ask such questions. Leave us this headlong plunge, leave to the moment to come that next step, even if it"s over an abyss. There"s no point in all these questions.
And how might Skintick respond to that? Show a bhederin fear and watch it run off a cliff. What killed it? The jagged rocks below, or the terror that made it both blind and stupid? Show a bhederin fear and watch it run off a cliff. What killed it? The jagged rocks below, or the terror that made it both blind and stupid? And Nenanda would shrug. And Nenanda would shrug. Who cares? Let"s just eat the d.a.m.ned thing. Who cares? Let"s just eat the d.a.m.ned thing.
This was not the grand conflict of sensibilities one might think it was. Just two heads on the same coin, one facing right on this side, the other facing left on the other side. Both winking. Just two heads on the same coin, one facing right on this side, the other facing left on the other side. Both winking.
And Desra would snort and say, Keep your stupid words, I"ll take the c.o.c.k in my hand over words any time. Keep your stupid words, I"ll take the c.o.c.k in my hand over words any time.
Holding on for dear life, Skintick would mutter under his breath, and Desra"s answering smile fooled no one. Nimander well remembered every conversation among his followers, his siblings, his family, and remembered too how they could repeat themselves, with scant variation, if all the cues were triggered in the right sequence.
He wondered where Clip had gone to somewhere out beyond this pool of firelight, perhaps listening, perhaps not. Would he hear anything he"d not heard before? Would anything said this night alter his opinion of them? It did not seem likely. They bickered, they rapped against personalities and spun off either laughing or infuriated. Prodding, skipping away, ever seeking where the skin was thinnest above all the old bruises. All just fighting without swords, and no one ever died, did they? Nimander watched Kedeviss who had been unusually quiet thus far rise and draw her cloak tighter about her shoulders. After a moment, she set off into the dark.
Somewhere in the crags far away, wolves began howling.
Something huge loomed just outside the flickering orange light, and Samar Dev saw both Karsa and Traveller twist round to face it, and then they rose, reaching for their weapons. The shape shifted, seemed to wag from side to side, and then at the witch"s eye level had she been standing a glittering, twisting snout, a broad flattened halo of fur, the smear of fire in two small eyes.
Samar Dev struggled to breathe. She had never before seen such an enormous bear. If it reared, it would tower over even Karsa Orlong. She watched that uplifted head, the flattened nose testing the air. The creature, she realized, clearly relied more on smell than on sight. I thought fire frightened such beasts not summoned them. I thought fire frightened such beasts not summoned them.
If it attacked, things would happen . . . fast. Two swords flashing into its lunge, a deafening bellow, talons scything to sweep away the two puny attackers and then it would come straight for her. She could see that, was certain of it. The bear had come for her.
De nek okral. The words seemed to foam up to the surface of her thoughts, like things belched from the murky depths of instinct. "De nek okral," she whispered. The words seemed to foam up to the surface of her thoughts, like things belched from the murky depths of instinct. "De nek okral," she whispered.
The nostrils flared, dripping.
And then, with a snuffling snort, the beast drew back, out of the firelight. A crunch of stones, and the ground trembled as the animal lumbered away.
Karsa and Traveller moved their hands away from their weapons, and then both eased back down, resuming their positions facing the fire.
The Toblakai warrior found a stick and dropped it into the flames. Sparks whirled skyward, bright with liberation, only to wink out. His expression looked thoughtful.
Samar Dev glanced down at her trembling hands, and then slipped them beneath the woollen blanket she had wrapped about herself.
"Strictly speaking," said Traveller, "not an okral. De nek . . ." He raised his brows. ""Short nose"?"
"How should I know?" Samar Dev snapped.
His brows lifted higher.
"I don"t know where those words came from. They just . . . arrived."
"They were Ima.s.s, Samar Dev."
"Oh?"
"Okral is the word for a plains bear, but that was no plains bear too big, legs too long-" is the word for a plains bear, but that was no plains bear too big, legs too long-"
"I would not," said Karsa, "wish to be chased by that beast, even on horseback. That animal was built for running its prey down."
"But it was not hunting," said Traveller.
"I don"t know what it was doing," Karsa conceded with a loose shrug. "But I am glad it changed its mind."
"From you two," Samar said, "it would have sensed no fear. That alone would have made it hesitate." Her voice was harsh, almost flinging the words out. She was not sure why she was so angry. Perhaps naught but the aftermath of terror a terror that neither companion had the decency to have shared with her. They made her feel . . . diminished.
Traveller was still studying her, and she wanted to snarl at him. When he spoke, his tone was calm. "The old G.o.ds of war are returning."
"War? The G.o.d of war? That was Fener, wasn"t it? The Boar."
"Fener, Togg, Fanderay, Treach, and," he shrugged, "De nek Okral who can say how many once existed. They arose, I would imagine, dependent on the environment of the worshippers whatever beast was supreme predator, was the most savage-"
"But none were," cut in Karsa Orlong. "Supreme. That t.i.tle belonged to us two-legged hunters, us bright-eyed killers."
Traveller continued to stare at Samar Dev. "The savagery of the beasts reflected the savagery in the souls of the worshippers. In war, this is what was shared. Boar, tigers, wolves, the great bears that knew no fear."
"Is this what Fener"s fall has done, then?" Samar Dev asked. "All the h.o.a.ry, forgotten ones clambering back to fight over the spoils? And what has that to do with that bear, anyway?"
"That bear," said Traveller, "was a G.o.d."
Karsa spat into the fire. "No wonder I have never before seen such a beast."
"They once existed," said Traveller. "They once ruled these plains, until all that they hunted was taken from them, and so they vanished, as have so many other proud creatures."
"The G.o.d should have followed them," said Karsa. "There are too many faces of war as it is."
Samar Dev grunted. "That"s rich coming from you."
Karsa eyed her over the flames, and then grinned, the crazed tattoos seeming to split wide open on his face. "There need be only one."
Yours. Yes, Toblakai, I understand you well enough. "I have one true fear," she said. "And that is, when you are done with civilization, it will turn out that you as master of everything will prove no better than the ones you pulled down. That you will find the last surviving throne and plop yourself down on it, and find it all too much to your liking." "I have one true fear," she said. "And that is, when you are done with civilization, it will turn out that you as master of everything will prove no better than the ones you pulled down. That you will find the last surviving throne and plop yourself down on it, and find it all too much to your liking."
"That is an empty fear, witch," said Karsa Orlong. "I will leave not one throne to sit on I will shatter them all. And if, when I am done, I am the last left standing in all the world then I will be satisfied."
"What of your people?"
"I have listened too long to the whispers of Bairoth Gild and Delum Thord. Our ways are but clumsier versions of all the other ways in which people live their love of waste, their eagerness to reap every living thing as if it belonged to them, as if in order to prove ownership they must destroy it." He bared his teeth. "We think no differently, just slower. Less . . . efficiently. You will prattle on about progress, Samar Dev, but progress is not what you think it is. It is not a tool guided by our hands not yours, not mine, not Traveller"s. It is not something we can rightly claim as our destiny. Why? Because in truth we have no control over it. Not your machines, witch, not a hundred thousand slaves shackled to it even as we stand with whips in hand."
Now Traveller had turned slightly and was studying the Toblakai with that same curious wonder that she had seen before. "What then," he asked, "is progress, Karsa Orlong?"
The Toblakai gestured into the night sky. "The crawl of the stars, the plunge and rise of the moon. Day, night, birth, death progress is the pa.s.sage of reality. We sit astride this horse, but it is a beast we can never tame, and it will run for ever we will age and wither and fall off, and it cares not. Some other will leap aboard and it cares not. It may run alone, and it cares not. It outran the great bears. The wolves and their worshippers. It outran the Jaghut, and the K"Chain Che"Malle. And still it runs on, and to it we are nothing."
"Then why not let us ride it for a time?" Samar Dev demanded. "Why not leave us that d.a.m.ned illusion?"
"Because, woman, we ride it to hunt, to kill, to destroy. We ride it as if it is our right and our excuse both."
"And yet," said Traveller, "is that not precisely what you intend, Karsa Orlong?"
"I shall destroy what I can, but never shall I claim to own what I destroy. I will be the embodiment of progress, but emptied of greed. I shall be like nature"s fist: blind. And I shall prove that ownership is a lie. The land, the seas, the life to be found there. The mountains, the plains, the cities, the farms. Water, air. We own none of it. This is what I will prove, and by proving it will make it so."
He leaned forward then and gathered up in his hands a heap of dusty earth. The Toblakai rose to his feet, and dropped the soil on to the fire, snuffing out the flames. Darkness took them all, as if but awaiting this moment. Or, she thought with a chill, as if it has always been there. The light blinded me, else I would have seen it. The light blinded me, else I would have seen it.
As I do now.
G.o.d of war, what did you want with me?
With an ear-piercing scream the enkaral crashed down on to Pearl, talons slashing through flesh, dagger fangs closing on the back of the demon"s neck. Grunting, he reached up and closed one hand about the winged beast"s throat, the other forcing its way beneath the enkaral"s upper jaw fingers sliced into shreds as he reached ever farther and then began prising the mouth back open. The fangs of the lower jaw sank deeper into the muscles of Pearl"s neck, and still he pushed. As this was going on, the talons never ceased their frantic rending along the demon"s lower back, seeking to hook round his spine, seeking to tear loose that column but the chains and shackles snarled its efforts, as did Pearl"s twisting to evade each stabbing search through his muscles.
Finally, as his grip on the beast"s throat tightened, he could hear the desperate squeal of its breath, and the jaws weakened. Something crunched and all at once Pearl was able to rip the jaws free of his neck. He staggered forward, dragging the huge beast round, both hands closing on its scaled throat and more things collapsed inside that crushing grip.
The enkaral flailed about, legs kicking wildly now, talons scoring furrows on Pearl"s thighs. He forced the beast down on to the ground. The thrashing slowed, and then, with a spasm, the creature went limp.
Pearl slowly rose, flinging the carca.s.s to one side; a thud, the slap and rustle of chains. The demon then glanced over to the figure walking alongside it. "Did I anger it somehow, Draconus?"
The man squinted, shifting the weight of his chains over his other shoulder before replying, "No, Pearl. Madness took it, that"s all. You just happened to be near."
"Oh," said Pearl. And then the demon sighed. "Then it is good it was me and not something . . . smaller."
"Can you continue, Pearl?"
"I can, yes. Thank you for asking."
"Not much longer, I should think."
"No, not much longer," agreed Pearl. "And then?"
"We will see, won"t we?"
"Yes, that is true. Draconus?"
"Pearl?"
"I think I will welcome an end is that a terrible thing for me to say?"
The man shook his head, his expression hinting that he might be in pain. "No, my friend, it is not."
Fully one half of the sky was now a seething argent storm. Thunder rolled from the horizon behind them, as the very ground was ripped up, annihilated their world had acquired an edge, raw as a cliff, and that cliff was drawing closer as vast sections sheared away, as the raging abyss swallowed the toppling stone columns one by one.
And it occurred to Draconus, then, that each of them here, seemingly alone, each with his or her own shackle, his or her own chain, had finally, at long last, come together.
We are an army. But an army in retreat. See the detritus we leave in our wake, the abandoned comrades. See the glaze of our eyes, this veil of numbed exhaustion when at last we tear it aside, we will find the despair we have harboured for so long, like a black poisoned fruit under a leaf all revealed as we look into each other"s eyes.
Was the comfort found in mutual recognition of any true worth? Here, at the last? When the common ground is failure? Like a field of corpses after a battle. Like a sea of skulls rolling in the tide. Is not the brotherhood too bitter to bear? Like a field of corpses after a battle. Like a sea of skulls rolling in the tide. Is not the brotherhood too bitter to bear?
And now, he wanted to . . . to what? Yes, to rage, but first, let me close my eyes. Just for a moment. Let me find, again, my will- to what? Yes, to rage, but first, let me close my eyes. Just for a moment. Let me find, again, my will- "Draconus?"