Yes, I can see how you might be. "It is what comes from lordship, from rule. Most of his original court is gone. Korlat, Orfantal, Sorrit, Pra"iran. Vanished or dead. That doesn"t make it any easier. Still, there are some who remain. Endest Silann, for one." "It is what comes from lordship, from rule. Most of his original court is gone. Korlat, Orfantal, Sorrit, Pra"iran. Vanished or dead. That doesn"t make it any easier. Still, there are some who remain. Endest Silann, for one."
"When I see him, standing alone like that . . ." Seerdomin looked away. "It unnerves me."
"It is my understanding," observed Spinnock, "that we all manage to do that, for you humans. The way we seem to haunt this city."
"Sentinels with nothing to guard."
Spinnock thought about that, then asked, "And so too the Son of Darkness? Do you people chafe under his indifferent rule?"
Seerdomin grimaced. "Would that all rulers were as indifferent. No, "indifferent" is not quite the right word. He is there where it matters. The administration and the authority neither can be challenged, nor is there any reason to do so. The Son of Darkness is . . . benign."
Spinnock thought of the sword strapped to his lord"s back, adding the tart flavour of inadvertent irony to his friend"s words. And then he thought of the dead cities to the north. Maurik, Setta, Lest. "It"s not as if any neighbouring kingdoms are eyeing the prize that is Black Coral. They"re either dead or, as in the south, in complete disarray. Thus, the threat of war is absent. Accordingly, what"s left for a ruler? As you say, administration and authority."
"You do not convince me, friend," Seerdomin said, his eyes narrowing. "The Son of Darkness, now is that a t.i.tle for a bureaucrat? Hardly. Knight of Darkness to keep the thugs off the streets?"
"It is the curse of a long life," Spinnock said, "that in eminence one both rises and falls, again and again. Before this, there was a vast and costly war against the Pannion Domin. Before that, an even deadlier and far longer feud with the Malazan Empire. Before that, Jacuruku. Seerdomin, Anomander Rake has earned his rest. This peace."
"Then perhaps he is the one who chafes. Staring out upon the harsh waters of the Cut, the twelfth bell tolling like a dirge in the gloom."
"Poetic," Spinnock said, smiling, but there was something cold in his heart, as if the image conjured by his friend"s words was somehow too too poignant. The notion sobered him. "I do not know if my lord chafes. I have never been that important; little more than one warrior among thousands. I do not think we have spoken in centuries." poignant. The notion sobered him. "I do not know if my lord chafes. I have never been that important; little more than one warrior among thousands. I do not think we have spoken in centuries."
Seerdomin"s look was incredulous. "But that is absurd!"
"Is it? See me, Seerdomin, I am too capricious. It is my eternal curse. I was never one for command, not even a squad. I got lost in Mott Wood, five days stumbling through briar and brush." Spinnock laughed, waved one hand. "A hopeless cause long ago, friend."
"It"s commonly held, Spinnock, that all you remaining Tiste Andii survivors from all those wars are perforce the elite, the most formidable of all."
"You were a soldier, so you know better than that. Oh, there are heroes aplenty among the Andii ranks. But just as many of us who were simply lucky. It"s the way of things. We lost many great heroes in our battles against the Malazans."
"A hopeless cause, you claim to be." Seerdomin grimaced. "Yet a master campaigner in Kef Tanar."
"With soldiers of carved wood, I am most formidable. Living ones are another matter entirely."
The man grunted, and seemed content to leave that one alone.
They sat in companionable silence for a time, as Resto delivered another pitcher of ale, and Spinnock was relieved, as the ale flowed from pitcher to flagon to mouth, that no more talk of past deeds in distant fields of battle arose that might unhinge the half-truths and outright lies he had just uttered.
And when the moment came when dawn unfurled its poppy blush upon the far eastern horizon, a moment unseen by any within the city of Black Coral, Spinnock Durav nodded, but mostly to himself. Eternal darkness or not, a Tiste Andii knew when light arrived. Another irony, then, that only the humans within Night were oblivious of the day"s beginning, of the pa.s.sage of the unseen sun beyond the gloom, of its endless journey across the sky.
Before they both got too drunk, they agreed upon the time for a new game. And when Seerdomin finally rose unsteadily to his feet, flinging a careless wave in Spinnock"s direction before weaving out through the tavern door, Spinnock found himself wishing the man a safe journey home.
A most generous send-off, then, even if delivered in silence.
Anomander Rake would be setting out for the throne room by now, where he would steel himself to face the brutal demands of the day, the allocation of stipends, the merchant grievances to be adjudicated, reports on the status of supplies, one or two emissaries from distant free cities seeking trade agreements and mutual protection pacts (yes, plenty of those).
Oh, the Knight of Darkness fought all manner of beasts and demons, did he not?
Darkness surrendered. But then, it always did. There was no telling how long the journey took in that time within Kurald Galain, nor the vast distances covered, stride by stride by stride. All was in discord, all was unrelieved and unrelieving. Again and again, Nimander Golit seemed to startle awake, realizing with a shiver that he had been walking, an automaton in the midst of his comrades, all of whom glowed dully and appeared to float in an ethereal void, with the one named Clip a few paces ahead, striding with a purpose none of them could emulate. Nimander would then comprehend that, once more, he had lost himself.
Rediscovering where he was elicited no satisfaction. Rediscovering who he was proved even worse. The young man named Nimander Golit was little more than an accretion of memories, numbed by a concatenation of remembered sensations a beautiful woman dying in his arms. Another woman dying beneath his hands, her face turning dark, like a storm cloud that could not burst, her eyes bulging, and still his hands squeezed. A flailing body flung through the air, crashing through a window, vanishing into the rain.
Chains could spin for eternity, rings glittering with some kind of life. Worn boots could swing forward, one after another like the blades of a pair of shears. Promises could be uttered, acquiescence forced like a swollen hand pushing into a tight glove. All could stand wearing their certainty. Or feeling it drive them forward like a wind that knew where it was going. All could wish for warmth within that embrace.
But these were empty things, bobbing before his eyes like puppets on tangled strings. As soon as he reached out, seeking to untangle those strings, to make sense out of it all, they would swing away, for ever beyond his reach.
Skintick, who seemed ready with a smile for everything, walked at his side yet half a step ahead. Nimander could not see enough of his cousin"s face to know how Skintick had greeted the darkness that had stretched ever before them, but as that impenetrable abyss faded, and from the way ahead emerged the boles of pine trees, his cousin turned with a smile decidedly wry.
"That wasn"t so bad," he murmured, making every word a lie and clearly delighting in his own mockery.
Damp air swirled round them now, cool in its caress, and Clip"s steps had slowed. When he turned they could see the extent of his exhaustion. The rings spun once round on the chain in his hand, then snapped taut. "We will camp here," he said in a hoa.r.s.e voice.
Some previous battle had left Clip"s armour and clothes in tatters, with old bloodstains on the dark leather. So many wounds that, if delivered all at once, they should probably have killed him. Little of this had been visible that night on the street in Second Maiden Fort, when he had first summoned them.
Nimander and Skintick watched their kin settle down on the soft loam of the forest floor wherever they happened to be standing, blank-eyed and looking lost. Yes, "explanations are ephemeral. They are the sword and shield of the attack, and behind them hides motivation. Explanations strive to find weakness, and from the exploitation of weakness comes compliance and the potential of absolute surrender." "explanations are ephemeral. They are the sword and shield of the attack, and behind them hides motivation. Explanations strive to find weakness, and from the exploitation of weakness comes compliance and the potential of absolute surrender." So Andarist had written, long ago, in a treatise ent.i.tled So Andarist had written, long ago, in a treatise ent.i.tled Combat and Negotiation. Combat and Negotiation.
Skintick, his long jester"s face faintly pinched with weariness, plucked at Nimander"s sleeve, gestured with a nod of his head then set out to one side, threading between trees. After a moment, Nimander followed.
His cousin halted some thirty paces from the makeshift camp, where he settled on to his haunches.
Across from him, Nimander did the same.
The sun was beginning to rise, bleeding light into the gloom of this forest. With it came the faint smell of the sea.
"Herald of Mother Dark," Skintick said quietly, as if measuring the worth of the words. "Mortal Sword. Bold t.i.tles, Nimander. Why, I"ve thought of one for each of us too not much else to occupy my time on that endless walk. Skintick, the Blind Jester of House Dark. Do you like it?"
"You"re not blind."
"I"m not?"
"What is it you wished to talk about?" Nimander asked.
"Not silly t.i.tles, I should think."
"That depends. This Clip proudly a.s.serts his own, after all."
"You do not believe him?"
A half-smile. "Cousin, there is very little I truly believe.
Beyond the oxymoronic fact that supposedly intelligent people seem to revel in being stupid. For this, I blame the chaotic tumult of emotions that devour reason as water devours snow."
""Emotions are the sp.a.w.n of true motivations, whether those motivations be conscious or otherwise"," said Nimander.
"The man remembers what he reads. Making him decidedly dangerous, not to mention occasionally tedious."
"What are we to discuss?" Nimander asked, in some exasperation.
"He can claim any t.i.tle he wishes we can do nothing about it, can we?"
"Well, we can choose to follow, or not follow."
"Even that is too late. We have followed. Into Kurald Galain, and now here. And in the time ahead, to the journey"s very end."
"To stand before Anomander Rake, yes." Skintick gestured at the surrounding forest. "Or we could just walk away. Leave Clip to his dramatic accounting with the Son of Darkness."
"Where would we go, then, Skintick? We don"t even know where we are. What realm is this? What world lies beyond this forest? Cousin, we have nowhere else to go."
"Nowhere, and anywhere. In the circ.u.mstances, Nimander, the former leads to the latter, like reaching a door everyone believes barred, locked tight, and lo, it opens wide at the touch. Nowhere and anywhere are states of mind. See this forest around us? Is it a barrier, or ten thousand paths leading into mystery and wonder? Whichever you decide, the forest itself remains unchanged. It does not transform to suit your decision."
"And where is the joke in that, cousin?"
"Laugh or cry, simple states of mind."
"And?"
Skintick glanced away, back towards the camp. "I find Clip . . . amusing."
"Why does that not surprise me?"
"He has created a vast, portentous moment, the moment when he finally stands face to face with the Son of Darkness. He hears martial music, the thunder of drums, or the howl of horns sweeping round the high, swaying tower where this fated meeting no doubt will occur. He sees fear in Anomander Rake"s eyes, in answer to his own fury."
"Then he is a fool."
"Us young folk commonly are. We should tell him."
"Tell him what? That he is a fool?"
Skintick"s smile broadened briefly, then he met Nimander"s eyes once more. "Something more subtle, I should think."
"Such as?"
"The forest does not change."
Now it was Nimander"s turn to glance away, to squint into the greyness of dawn, the misty wreaths shrouding the ankles of the trees. She died in my arms. Then Andarist died, bleeding out on to the cobbles. And Phaed was pulled from my hands. Thrown through a window, down to her death. I met the eyes of her killer, and saw that he had killed her . . . for me. She died in my arms. Then Andarist died, bleeding out on to the cobbles. And Phaed was pulled from my hands. Thrown through a window, down to her death. I met the eyes of her killer, and saw that he had killed her . . . for me.
The forest does not change.
"There are," Skintick said in a low voice, "things worth considering, Nimander. We are six Tiste Andii, and Clip. So, seven. Wherever we now are, it is not our world. Yet, I am certain, it is the same world we have come to know, to even think of, as our own. The world of Drift Avalii, our first island prison. The world of the Malazan Empire, Adjunct Tavore, and the Isle that was our second prison.
The same same world. Perhaps this here is the very land where waits Anomander Rake why would Clip take us through Kurald Galain to some place far from the Son of Darkness? We might find him another league onward through this forest." world. Perhaps this here is the very land where waits Anomander Rake why would Clip take us through Kurald Galain to some place far from the Son of Darkness? We might find him another league onward through this forest."
"Why not to his front door?"
Skintick grinned his pleased grin. "Indeed, why not? In any case, Anomander Rake will not be alone. There will be other Tiste Andii with him. A community. Nimander, we have earned such a gift, haven"t we?"
To that, Nimander wanted to weep. I have earned nothing. Beyond remonstration. Condemnation. The contempt of every one of them. Of Anomander Rake himself. For all my failures, the community will judge me, and that will be that. I have earned nothing. Beyond remonstration. Condemnation. The contempt of every one of them. Of Anomander Rake himself. For all my failures, the community will judge me, and that will be that. Self-pity tugged at him yet further, but he shook it off. For these who followed him, for Skintick and Desra and Nenanda, Kedeviss and Aranatha, yes, he could give them this last gift. Self-pity tugged at him yet further, but he shook it off. For these who followed him, for Skintick and Desra and Nenanda, Kedeviss and Aranatha, yes, he could give them this last gift.
Which was not even his to give, but Clip"s. Clip, my usurper Clip, my usurper.
"And so," he finally said, "we come back to the beginning. We will follow Clip, until he takes us to our people."
"I suppose you are right," Skintick said, as if satisfied with the circular nature of their conversation, as if something had indeed been achieved by the effort though Nimander could not imagine what that might be.
Birdsong to awaken the sky to light, a musty warmth hinted at in the soft breaths rising from the humus. The air smelled impossibly clean. Nimander rubbed at his face, then saw Skintick"s almond-shaped eyes shift their gaze to over his shoulder, and so he turned, even as a fallen branch crackled underfoot to announce someone"s arrival.
Skintick raised his voice, "Join us, cousin."
Aranatha moved like a lost child, ever tremulous, ever diffident. Eyes widening as they always did whenever she awakened to the outside world she edged forward. "I couldn"t sleep," she said. "Nenanda was asking Clip about all sorts of things, until Desra told him to go away."
Skintick"s brows lifted. "Desra? Stalking Clip now, is she? Well, my only surprise is that it"s taken this long not that there was much chance within Kurald Galain."
Nimander asked her, "Did Nenanda manage to get an explanation from Clip about where we are? And how far we still have to go?"
She continued creeping forward. The muted dawn light made her seem a thing of obsidian and silver, her long black hair glistening, her black skin faintly dusted, her silver eyes hinting of iron that never appeared. Like some G.o.ddess of Hope. But one whose only strength lay in an optimism immune to defeat. Immune to all reality, in fact. Like some G.o.ddess of Hope. But one whose only strength lay in an optimism immune to defeat. Immune to all reality, in fact. "We have emerged somewhere south of where we were supposed to. There are, Clip explained, "layers of resistance"." She shrugged. "I don"t understand what that means, but those were his words." "We have emerged somewhere south of where we were supposed to. There are, Clip explained, "layers of resistance"." She shrugged. "I don"t understand what that means, but those were his words."
Nimander briefly met Skintick"s eyes, then smiled up at Aranatha. "Did Clip say how much farther?"
"Farther than he"d hoped. Tell me, do either of you smell the sea?"
"Yes," Nimander replied. "Can"t be far, either. East, I think."
"We should go there perhaps there will be villages."
"You possess impressive reserves, Aranatha," said Skintick.
"If it"s not far . . ."
With a wry smile, Skintick straightened.
Nimander did the same.
It was simple enough to walk in the direction of the rising sun, clambering over tree-falls and skirting sinkholes. The only trails they crossed were those left by game nothing taller than deer and so branches hung low over them and none led to the sea. The air grew warmer, then, all at once, cooler, and ahead was the sound of wind singing through branches and leaves, and then the crashing of surf. Slanting bedrock pushed up between trees, forcing them to climb, scrambling up a sharply rising cant.
They emerged to find themselves atop a cliff of wind-scoured rock and stunted, twisted trees. The sea was before them, glittering fierce in the sun. Enormous swells rolled in, pounding the jagged, unforgiving sh.o.r.eline far below. The coast to the north and the south was virtually identical as far as could be seen. Well out from sh.o.r.e, explosions of spume betrayed the presence of submerged reefs and shallows.
"Won"t find any villages here," Skintick said. "I doubt we"d find much of anything, and as for skirting this coast, well, that looks to be virtually impossible. Unless, of course," he added with a smile, "our glorious leader can kick rock to rubble to make us a beach. Or summon winged demons to carry us over all this. Failing that, I suggest we return to our camp, burrow down into the pine needles, and go to sleep."
No one objected, so they turned about to retrace their route.
Seeing the rage ever bridling and boiling beneath the surface of the young warrior named Nenanda was a constant comfort to Clip. This one he could work with. This one he could shape. His confidence in Nimander, on the other hand, was virtually non-existent. The man had been thrust into a leader"s role and it clearly did not suit him. Too sensitive by far, Nimander was of the type that the world and all its brutal realities usually destroyed, and it was something of a miracle that it had not yet done so. Clip had seen such pathetic creatures before; perhaps indeed it was a trait among the Tiste Andii. Centuries of life became a travail, an impossible burden. Such creatures burned out fast.
No, Nimander was not worth his time. And Nimander"s closest companion, Skintick, was no better. Clip admitted he saw something of himself in Skintick that wry mockery, the quick sarcasm yes, other traits common among the Andii. What Skintick lacked, however, was the hard vicious core that he himself possessed in abundance.
Necessities existed. Necessities had to be recognized, and in that recognition so too must be understood all the tasks required to achieve precisely what was necessary. Hard choices were the only choices that could be deemed virtuous. Clip was well familiar with hard choices, and with the acceptable burden that was virtue. He was prepared to carry such a burden for the rest of what he antic.i.p.ated would be a very, very long life.
Nenanda might well be worthy to stand at his side, through all that was to come.
Among the young women in this entourage, only Desra seemed potentially useful. Ambitious and no doubt ruthless, she could be the knife in his hidden scabbard. Besides, an attractive woman"s attentions delivered their own reward, did they not? Kedeviss was too frail, broken inside just like Nimander, and Clip could already see death in her shadow. Aranatha was still a child behind those startled eyes, and perhaps always would be. No, of this entire group he had recruited from the Isle, only Nenanda and Desra were of any use to him.