"It"s settled, then," he said, swaying slightly. "You two run along, feel Hetherington"s dead body all you like, and meet us later to fill us in on G.o.d"s message."
Evangeline stared weakly as the breakfast room emptied of its last few occupants, save for she and Mr. Lioncroft.
"Well, Miss Pemberton?" came his low, deep voice.
She turned to face him, but words failed her. For a moment, the tortured expression darkening his eyes was so fierce, she could almost believe him innocent of the crime.
But then, Neal Pemberton had mastered the art of appearing blameless despite his culpability. Such looks were not to be trusted. Particularly those from men she could not read with a simple touch.
Mr. Lioncroft"s gaze was equally unreadable as he said, "I must admit the truth."
Evangeline blinked. He would admit to killing Lord Hetherington?
"I don"t believe for one second that any celestial deities speak to you. In fact, I don"t even believe that you believe it."
He rose and held out a palm, as though to a.s.sist her to her feet. Although for the first time in her life she could touch and be touched without being overcome with visions, she did not place her hand in his. She wished to touch a murderer even less than she wished to touch the lifeless body of his victim.
She hoped she wasn"t next.
Chapter Nine.
"Are you ready?" Gavin asked once he and the reluctant Miss Pemberton reached Hetherington"s guest quarters. He paused, one hand on the bra.s.s doork.n.o.b, and waited for her reply.
Miss Pemberton hesitated, neither nodding nor shaking her head, careful not to meet his eyes.
Why? Because touching Hetherington"s dead body was an elaborate ruse designed to-to-to what, exactly? Gavin could think of no good reason-or even a bad reason-for a young lady to lay her hands upon a corpse. Reasons for Lady Stanton to suggest such a charade likewise escaped him. Whatever her agenda might be, Gavin doubted Miss Pemberton heard voices from G.o.d.
There was no G.o.d.
Or if there were, He was a capricious, vengeful G.o.d, delighting in sending loved ones to the grave before their time, and destroying the lives of those who remained behind. If such a G.o.d could speak to them through Hetherington"s cold body, Gavin had no wish to hear the message. He already knew he was d.a.m.ned.
Without waiting for Miss Pemberton to decide whether or not she would enter or flee, Gavin twisted the handle and thrust open the door.
The guest chamber looked much like it did when they"d gathered there a few hours before. Same oil-on-canvas landscapes, same rotting furniture, same stiff body stretched across the mattress.
A few items, however, were different.
The smell, for one. Gavin"s lungs seized in protest. The cl.u.s.ter of crimson roses decaying on the nightstand couldn"t mask the unmistakable stench of death pervading the still bedchamber. He would have to remove Hetherington soon before the entire mansion stank of his corpse.
Fewer candles flickered now than in the middle of the night, but Hetherington"s p.r.o.ne form was clearly visible. The thick scarlet curtains had been pulled back and tied with frayed golden ropes, allowing warm shafts of sunlight to fall upon the bed. Dust motes glittered in the stale air above the big bay windows, casting a sheen across the lumpy cushions and an unnatural glow across Hetherington"s sunken cheeks.
No fire burned behind the cold grate, just as no blood pulsed beneath the dead man"s waxy skin.
Gavin strode into the room, into the patch of shimmering dust. His back blocked the sun, blocked the light, sending his odd, elongated shadow scuttling across the untouched bed.
Miss Pemberton remained in the doorway, eyes tightly closed.
He couldn"t blame her. As much as he"d despised the earl"s company when Hetherington was still alive, spending the morning with his corpse was even less appealing.
The mottled handprints stretched around the earl"s pale neck stood out bold and incriminatory against skin the color of snow and ash, announcing Gavin"s infamous inability to control his temper. He stared at the marks his hands had bruised into the earl"s skin. To tell the truth, Gavin hadn"t wanted wanted to control his cursed temper. He"d wanted to wring the earl"s b.l.o.o.d.y neck. to control his cursed temper. He"d wanted to wring the earl"s b.l.o.o.d.y neck.
And then he"d wanted Miss Pemberton-who showed no signs of remembering their interplay. At least not with any nostalgia.
She stood in the doorway, dark lashes fanning against pale cheeks, arms clutched tightly beneath her bodice, curls springing from their pins as if they, too, would rather flee than enter.
The dead man"s jaw hung open, as if he"d died while snoring. How had had he died? He"d left Gavin"s office with nothing more than a sore throat and a bruised ego. Well, and a sc.r.a.pe on his temple where the portrait had struck him. Was Gavin once again a killer, after all? Could that glancing blow have somehow caused Hetherington"s death? he died? He"d left Gavin"s office with nothing more than a sore throat and a bruised ego. Well, and a sc.r.a.pe on his temple where the portrait had struck him. Was Gavin once again a killer, after all? Could that glancing blow have somehow caused Hetherington"s death?
Gavin knelt beside the bed, allowing the insistent sun to shine above his head across the earl"s lifeless face. A folded handkerchief tied snug around the motionless skull, blood crusting the linen above the earl"s right ear. Gavin frowned. The earl"s right right ear? The gilded frame had struck the opposite side! Look. There. A patch of raw skin scratched across his left cheekbone where the painting had glanced off the earl"s face. ear? The gilded frame had struck the opposite side! Look. There. A patch of raw skin scratched across his left cheekbone where the painting had glanced off the earl"s face.
Hetherington may well have died from a blow to the head, but it wasn"t Gavin"s Gavin"s blow. Someone else had struck him and left him to die. Someone else murdered him. Someone else had stood silent and allowed accusation and innuendo to surround Gavin once again. blow. Someone else had struck him and left him to die. Someone else murdered him. Someone else had stood silent and allowed accusation and innuendo to surround Gavin once again.
He began to wish Miss Pemberton really could converse directly with G.o.d. Perhaps she could ask Him for a hint as to who had dealt the killing blow. Gavin glanced at the doorway.
Miss Pemberton was no longer there.
She was crossing the room with short, quick strides, her slippered feet silent against the square of plush carpet, her hands fisted beneath the flowing silk of her gown, her full lips pressed together in an expression of fierce determination.
"Move," she said. Then, "Please."
Gavin moved.
He rose to his feet, stepped backward to the bay window and sat on the lumpy crimson cushion. He immediately leapt upright again.
"Wait."
She did not wait. She strode directly to the spot he had just vacated beside the bed. And began peeling off her left glove. Slowly, slowly, the delicate leather rolled down her arm and off her fingers, revealing pale skin covered in gooseflesh.
"Wait," he said again.
The sight unsettled him, although he was unsure why. He glimpsed her bare fingers every time they gathered to eat, so his unease did not stem from the soft whiteness of her hands. Perhaps his pulse skittered in fits and starts because of the still-visible gooseflesh rising on her skin, because of the trembling of her slender fingers, because of the pained resignation lining her eyes as though she faced something even worse than the sightless eyes of a dead man.
"What"s wrong?" she said now, her palms paused a few inches above the earl"s gaping mouth. "Besides coming here to touch a dead man."
"I-" h.e.l.l. h.e.l.l. Gavin stared at the back of Miss Pemberton"s head for a long moment, unable to move toward her and unable to retake his seat. Her hands shook. "I forgot to summon the maids," he said at last, remembering why he had spoken. "I promised an army of servants, not none. Just allow me a moment to tug the bellpull, and we"ll have-" Gavin stared at the back of Miss Pemberton"s head for a long moment, unable to move toward her and unable to retake his seat. Her hands shook. "I forgot to summon the maids," he said at last, remembering why he had spoken. "I promised an army of servants, not none. Just allow me a moment to tug the bellpull, and we"ll have-"
"I prefer to be alone."
Her words cut through the stillness, cut through his speech, cut through the thick air, cold and heavy with the scent of death.
"You...wish for me to leave?"
She glanced over her shoulder, meeting his gaze for the first time since reaching the guest quarters. "No," she said softly. "Stay."
"All right."
He stayed, but did not sit. For some reason, his muscles warned him to remain tense, alert, at the ready in case some unknown danger lurked nearby.
Miss Pemberton nodded slowly. Her eyes were large, dry, weary. She turned back toward the man on the bed and squared her shoulders. "I doubt anything will happen, but if it does...if it does, you are the only one who can bring me back without making it worse."
Gavin frowned. He also doubted anything would happen, but...as before, something was off. Something in her tone, her manner, her words. She did not sound like a disciple about to commune with G.o.d. She sounded...anxious. Nervous. Frightened.
But if not of being alone with him, the supposed murderer, then what?
"Back from where?" he asked, recalling her odd choice in words. "Where are you going?"
"Nowhere. Here. I"ll be right here."
Her answer was logical, but a strange tremor distorted the words. Gavin had the distinct impression she was lying, but that made no sense. Perhaps she, too, believed in a fickle, vengeful G.o.d. Perhaps she feared He would would speak to her. Or that He would smite her for daring to summon him like a common beast, leaving her as cold and dead as the corpse before her. speak to her. Or that He would smite her for daring to summon him like a common beast, leaving her as cold and dead as the corpse before her.
Gavin was gripped by the sudden urge to stop Miss Pemberton from touching the earl"s dead flesh. To protect her. To tackle her to the floor if need be, anything, anything anything, to keep her from laying her trembling fingers atop Hetherington"s flaccid gray skin.
But the thought came too late.
Her palms flattened against the earl"s pale cheeks. A quick inhalation whistled through her teeth. And then she froze.
For several long moments, Gavin watched her, unnerved by how still she held herself, how statue-like she posed. Her body was as lifeless and beautiful as an ivory sarcophagus molded in her image.
She stood so quiet and unmoving he might well have been in a room with two dead bodies. The unwelcome sensation of watching a pair of corpses had his muscles twitching in trepidation.
Gavin shifted his weight, uncomfortable in his own skin, even less comfortable with the motionless woman a few feet before him. Her fingers no longer shook, so frozen did she stand. He could not hear her breathing, even in the unnatural silence of the dank chamber. Her b.r.e.a.s.t.s no longer rose and fell. Even the folds of her gown held no ripples, no motion, as if they too were carved of stone and impervious to both breeze and life.
Feeling more nervous than foolish, he edged closer until her profile was a mere foot from his face. If she breathed, she did so silently. He heard nothing, smelled nothing, felt nothing. His His breathing was rapid, erratic, overloud. She did not seem to notice. Her eyes were vacant. Gla.s.sy. Sightless. She didn"t move. She didn"t blink. breathing was rapid, erratic, overloud. She did not seem to notice. Her eyes were vacant. Gla.s.sy. Sightless. She didn"t move. She didn"t blink.
Gavin pa.s.sed a hand before her face. She gazed right through it. At nothing. He tilted closer, until the scent of her soap clashed with the stench from the bed. She didn"t move. She didn"t blink. He leaned in until the tip of his nose brushed the icy skin of her forehead. She jerked.
He jumped.
"Hhh. Hhh. Hhh." Loud, frantic gasps choked from her throat. She sucked air into her lungs with shallow, wheezing breaths.
Her eyelids fluttered closed, then back open. The irises rolled back into her head. Palms still flush against Hetherington"s pallid face, her arms trembled once before her entire body erupted into violent shaking.
Whether or not she wanted him interrupting, Gavin had seen enough.
He reached both arms around her hitching chest and yanked her to him. Fingertips still grazing Hetherington"s sunken cheeks, her body convulsed against Gavin"s.
"Hhh. Hhh. Help. Hhh. Hhh. Help me." With a series of shallow, staccato gasps, Miss Pemberton"s head jerked from side to side, clipping Gavin"s chin. His jaw snapped closed with enough force to bring tears to his eyes, but he only gripped her tighter.
Her limbs twitched and flailed as she struggled for breath. The graceless jerking of her body reminded Gavin of the one and only time his father had taken him fishing. The fish-so beautiful and full of life before they"d hooked its lip and flung it from the water to the sh.o.r.e-had reacted in just such a way, gasping and convulsing on the dirt by Gavin"s feet until the last of its life leeched from its bulging eyes.
He"d had nightmares for months.
Gavin flipped Miss Pemberton around until she faced him. Her fingers slipped from the corpse"s face. He gripped her by the shoulders, ripping one of her sleeves in the process. She"d recover from that shock later. First, she had to breathe. A bluish cast tinged the whiteness of her skin. Phantom bruises cast a faint shadow about her neck. Terror widened her eyes, and no doubt his as well.
"Miss Pemberton! Miss Pemberton!" Not knowing what else to do, he shook her. She sagged in his arms as lifeless as a doll. Gooseflesh raced along his skin. "Breathe-breathe-breathe-breathe-breathe. Please Please. You"re scaring the devil out of me." Again, he shook her. Again, her limbs flopped, offering no resistance and no response. "Breathe, d.a.m.n it!"
He sucked in great lungfuls of air and pressed his open mouth to hers, forcing the breaths into her body. He was certain that was wrong, that shared breathing was only for victims of drowning, but he knew no other way to help her. For the first time in eleven years, Gavin prayed.
And as before, G.o.d ignored him.
Miss Pemberton"s head twitched to one side. A drop of blood trickled from her unbreathing nose. She fell against Gavin"s chest with a thud.
"d.a.m.n it." He tossed frantic glances around the empty chamber. "Please, please, don"t die on me, too." it." He tossed frantic glances around the empty chamber. "Please, please, don"t die on me, too."
Gavin scooped up her limp body and stared in horror at the gray pallor of her face. He stumbled over to the window seat. He fell onto the cushion and hauled her into his lap, his arms still locked around her motionless chest in a desperate embrace.
Her skirts fanned out across his legs. Her head lolled against his shoulder.
He pressed his ear to her lips, much as he had done that cold autumn night so many years ago, when his mother had been thrown from the pitching carriage before it tumbled off the embankment to the unforgiving river below. He"d reached his mother too late. He hadn"t been able to reach his father at all.
Unlike the ghosts who haunted his nightmares, Miss Pemberton was not yet a corpse. Her breaths were faint, shallow, uneven. But at least she breathed.
"Miss Pemberton," Gavin whispered, his nose brushing against hers. "Miss Pemberton, wake up."
She did not.
He held her, hoping to warm her with his body, to share his very breath.
Her eyes flew open. They both stifled screams. Gavin jerked his head back with an odd, choking sort of laugh. She stared at him with panicked eyes.
"L-Lioncroft?" she managed, her voice raw and unsteady. Her pupils dilated, then contracted. Her breath came stronger. "I mean...Mr. Lioncroft," she corrected weakly, color returning to her pale cheeks.
"Mister, h.e.l.l. After that, call me Gavin." He pulled her to him in a sudden, crushing hug. "Thank you, thank you, thank thank you for not dying. I don"t know what I would"ve done." you for not dying. I don"t know what I would"ve done."
His cravat m.u.f.fled her reply, but he thought he heard her say, "Thank you for not allowing my death."
As if he"d had any control over whatever the h.e.l.l had just happened.
Once he convinced his arms to loosen their grip on the trembling woman in his lap, Gavin leaned back against the window and fixed Miss Pemberton with his most dangerous glare.
"What," he demanded, "was that? that?"
Wariness reentered her eyes. "Nothing. Nothing."
"Don"t insult me."
"I don"t mean to. It"s...complicated. I don"t know what to tell you."
"Tell me everything." He fought the urge to shake her again. "For G.o.d"s sake, woman, I thought you were going to die."
Rather than smile or call him melodramatic, she shivered in his arms.
"Me, too," she whispered.