Chapter 1222 Underestimating Oneself
Su Yi’s heart skipped a beat, and something familiar flashed past her mind. She felt a sharp pain in her heart and a lump in her throat.
She felt terrible and seemed to have forgotten something. What had she forgotten? What should she remember?
After a moment of abnormality, that uncomfortable and strange sense of familiarity suddenly disappeared without a trace, as if everything was just an illusion.
“What’s wrong?” Lu Yubai sensed the abnormality in her. He went forward nervously and grabbed her arm. “Are you feeling unwell?” Su Yi didn’t know what was wrong with her, but she struggled to break free from the man’s grip. She looked at him and said, “Teacher Lu, I’m just a C-list internet singer.”
“I know.” Lu Yubai looked at her and said seriously, “I know.”
“I have a lot of dirt on me, go online and search for it. You won’t be able to finish reading it even after three days and nights.”
“I don’t care.”
“My family is poor. My parents are ordinary workers.”
“So what?”
“Don’t you understand? I…” When Su Yi spoke, she did not dare to look at him, her brows were slightly furrowed, but she mustered her courage and looked up, meeting the man’s deep and narrow eyes.
His eyes were so gentle and his gaze was so sincere and mellow.
She did not know if she was hallucinating, but she actually saw tenderness in the man’s eyes. It made her eyes feel warm and swollen, and even her heart ached.
At this moment, she actually didn’t know what to say. She knew that she had to come out quickly, she couldn’t continue to fall into his hands and sink deeper.
They were from two different worlds.
“Teacher Lu.” Su Yi clenched her fists and encouraged herself. She looked at him seriously like a brave warrior who was ready to fight for justice. She enunciated each word clearly, “I am not worthy of you, I will implicate you.”
“You’re perfect for me.” Lu Yubai’s voice was a little hoa.r.s.e. He looked at her with heartache and reached out to hug her. However, he was afraid of scaring her, so he froze in midair.
He initially thought that she was just shy so she did not dare to look at him, talk to him, or even accept his goodwill.
But now, he realized that it was his negligence. It turned out that in front of him, she had lowered herself so much that she was as insignificant as a speck of dust, so tiny that it made his heart ache.
“Teacher Lu, you know now.” Su Yi smiled. Only she knew how painful and uncomfortable her heart was, she tried her best to appear nonchalant. “Then can I trouble you not to talk to me or treat me so well in the future?”
The better he treated her, the worse she’d feel. She’d sink into the tenderness he’d laid out for her, one step at a time, never to come out again.
If that was the case, it would be too sad. She shouldn’t live her life in memories and fantasies.
If it had been when she had just debuted, the girl who had a bright future ahead of her and was full of confidence in her future, the girl who was like a newborn calf that was not afraid of a tiger, perhaps she would have found the courage to pursue him.
She would work hard, she would work a thousand times harder to reach a position where she could stand shoulder to shoulder with him. She would make herself worthy of his status.
But now, her confidence and radiance had long been worn away. She didn’t even know what lay ahead and was covered in dirt.
It wasn’t that she didn’t like him. She just couldn’t accept the fact that she’d become the only stain in his life.
Lu Yubai had thought of countless reasons why she would try her best to distance herself from him every time they met, but he did not expect her to think this way. His heart ached so much that it twitched. Suddenly, he reached out and grabbed her waist, pulling her into his embrace with force.
The moment Su Yi was pulled into his embrace, she subconsciously wanted to push him away. However, the man’s embrace was so warm. Her eyes stung and tears flowed uncontrollably.
“You’re perfect. In my heart, you’ve always been the best.” Lu Yubai’s voice was a little hoa.r.s.e. He rested his chin on the top of the girl’s head and every word he said was filled with heartache. “The dirt is just dirt, I know it’s all fake. It’s all their slander against you. I know you’re very hardworking and have always tried very hard to live a good life, I know you’re very strong. Nothing can defeat
you.”
Su Yi’s shoulders started to shake uncontrollably. She wanted to leave but she was greedy for his warmth. She shook her head desperately. “I am not good, I am not good at all.”
Did he like her? Teacher Lu… Why would he like a good-for-nothing like her who had nothing he wanted?
“I’m sorry.” Lu Yubai let out a hoa.r.s.e sigh and patted her back gently. “I’m late. I’ll be by your side in the future.”
If it was possible, he would want to go back to when she had just debuted, when she was full of confidence and was shining brightly. He would want to be at the scene and see how youthful she was.
He’d missed too much, he’d never miss another day. He’d walk out of the lowlands with her and make her shine again.
Su Yi could not hold it in anymore, she sobbed softly in his arms, as if she wanted to vent all the suppression and criticism she had suffered in the past few years. Lu Yubai patted her back gently and frowned slightly. As he looked at the girl in his arms, his eyes sparkled with heartache and self-blame.
He had always thought that she was optimistic and cheerful, that no matter what difficulties she faced, she would be able to solve them. She was invincible. It was his negligence that made her so bitter.
She was still a girl. She had suffered such a heavy blow in the entertainment industry and had to bear it herself. How could she not be bitter and tired?
Su Yi cried for a long time before she finally stopped and wiped her tears, wanting to get out of his arms. She was too embarra.s.sed to look at him.
Lu Yubai grabbed her arm and refused to let her leave. He wiped her tears. “Teacher Su, look into my eyes.”
Su Yi did not know what he wanted to do, but she still looked into his eyes obediently. She could clearly see the heartache in his eyes. She bit her lips and sobbed again. She did not know why she was so weak, but when she heard his words, she could not help it.
All these years, no matter how tough it was, she had endured it all by herself. But what was going on? Was it because the moonlight tonight was too ambiguous and sad? Why did she fall into his hands?
“Don’t undervalue yourself in the future.” Lu Yubai looked at her seriously. “Especially in front of me, you can do whatever you want. Don’t suppress yourself and don’t make yourself suffer. If anyone bullies you, tell me. I’ll help you teach them a lesson, understand?”