Chapter 383: Don’t Turn to the Dark Side
Mu Han was Mu Jingzhe’s only younger brother, so Mu Jingzhe treated him really well too. Therefore, under Li Zhaodi’s influence, the relations.h.i.+p between the siblings was really good. The better it was, the worse it felt right now.
Mu Jingzhe felt terrible after Mu Han ran away. When she saw the five kids and Ji Buw.a.n.g, her headache intensified.
The five kids hadn’t grown up yet. Everything else aside, they weren’t even 18 years old yet. Their personalities hadn’t even solidified. Although everything was fine now, what if their mentality changed after she died? If they still became villains, they would all die a horrible death.
Mu Jingzhe’s head hurt. She only had one thought now: Regardless of whether she died or not, she hoped that the five kids wouldn’t become villains again. “Little Dong, come over. I have something important to say.”
Shao Dong took a deep breath and stood in front of the hospital bed. Mu Jingzhe struggled to sit up. “Little Dong, Little Xi, Little Nan, Little Bei, and Xiao Wu, you have to remember not to become bad people in the future. Don’t casually harm others. You have to be good.
“Don’t turn to the dark side and harm others or even end your own life. You have to live well.”
If she could stop them from turning evil, it would be good if she brought them some warmth in their childhood. She only hoped that they would really remember this.
Mu Jingzhe was filled with worry. When Little Bei and Xiao Wu heard this, the tears that had finally stopped began falling right away.
“Mommy, don’t say such things! I’m afraid.”
“Mommy, you won’t die. You’ll get better!”
Shao Dong, Shao Xi, and Shao Nan didn’t cry. This was the first time Shao Dong was angry at Mu Jingzhe. “Mom, don’t make it sound like these are your last words. I don’t want to hear it. You haven’t even gone to see the doctor properly. I’ll be angry if you say that again.”
“That’s right. If someone has to die, it’ll be someone else. You won’t die.” Shao Xi’s expression was dark, and he was fuming.
Shao Nan pursed his lips. “It’s because the treatment facilities are so poor. As long as there are good doctors with good medical equipment, there are no illnesses that can’t be diagnosed. You just have to go to a good hospital. If there’s really no other way, there’s still me. I’ll study medicine and take care of you.
“I learn everything quickly. I’ll study medicine in the future and I’ll be able to master it soon and look after you.”
Shao Nan used to love learning and was very interested in physics and mathematics. He had also been conflicted about what to learn previously. Later on, he had felt that he should just learn whatever he could. He could learn everything well.
Learning was like eating and drinking to him. The more knowledge there was in his mind, the more secure and comfortable he felt.
However, he simply liked to learn and hadn’t thought anything of this until Mu Jingzhe had fallen sick.
There were clearly hospitals and doctors, but they couldn’t determine the cause of the illness. They couldn’t find anything. If there was better equipment and drugs, Mommy wouldn’t be in such pain.
He didn’t know what he would do if Mu Jingzhe pa.s.sed away from an illness because he had never thought that this day would come. Mu Jingzhe had promised not to leave them. His mother was a part of his life and world, and the possibility of a future where she wasn’t always with him had never occurred to him.
But now, he had suddenly been told that Mu Jingzhe was sick, that her life was in danger, and that she might even die.
How could this do? Mu Jingzhe couldn’t die. He didn’t dare imagine what life would be like without his mother.
He was no longer afraid of starving, as thanks to Shao Dong and the others, as well as his father, Shao Qihai, he’d likely never have to go hungry again in this lifetime. However, he couldn’t imagine what his days would be like without his mother.
Shao Nan even had an idea as a result. He wanted to study medicine and pharmaceutical science. As long as he was around, his mother would definitely not die.
This was the first time Shao Nan had such a strong thought. This was the first time he had such a clear goal: to take the career path of a doctor.
If he had started learning before, perhaps he wouldn’t be feeling so helpless and unable to do anything now.
As long as he studied, in the future, he would be able to protect his mother and siblings. He could also protect more people he cared about, such as his maternal grandparents and uncles.
Only by living could one last long. Living was everything.
Looking at Mu Jingzhe’s abnormally pale hands and face, Shao Nan couldn’t wait a second. “Mommy, I’ll go learn now. Stop saying those things. I don’t know about any other people. I only care about you guys.
“If you’ve been wronged or someone has dared to hurt you, I don’t care if they’re a good person or a bad person. I’ll definitely take revenge. If you don’t want me to become a bad person in the future, just stay alive and watch over me. I won’t listen to anyone else. I’ll only listen to you.”
Mu Jingzhe was originally shocked that Shao Nan would suddenly want to study medicine, but a second later, when she heard the last part, she was left speechless.
“…”
Why was this becoming more and more similar to the original plot? In the original plot, Shao Nan had created a colorless and odorless poison that could kill someone without leaving any traces. Indeed, he had only cared about his family then as well, so he had chosen to take revenge.
She had encouraged Shao Nan to learn so much about the law and taught him a lot. In the end, if she died, would everything have been in vain? Was the turning point of Shao Nan’s transformation his mother’s death?
The more she thought about it, the more she felt that it was entirely possible. Mu Jingzhe quickly pulled Shao Nan back. “Little Nan, don’t do anything rash.”
“Then survive and don’t say such nonsense.”
Mu Jingzhe: “…”
She didn’t want to say such nonsense either. Wasn’t it because she felt really afraid? She had told them the most important things first, in case she really died without leaving behind the most important words.
“Mommy, rest well. I’ll go ask now. I’ll start learning right away.” Shao Nan was very anxious and wished he could become a good doctor overnight.
Mu Jingzhe’s sick demeanor made him not dare delay even a second.
Shao Nan left after saying that. Shao Dong thought for a moment and said, “I’ll go learn too.” Now that he had some money, he might be able to invest in medical equipment.
After Shao Dong left, Xiao Wu took a deep breath. “I’ll go too.” He wanted to think of a way to ease his mother’s pain with music.
Shao Xi and Little Bei didn’t leave. They wanted to earn more money.
“Mommy, I’ll stay and take care of you.”
Mu Jingzhe nodded. “Alright.”
Ji Buw.a.n.g didn’t say much and only asked Uncle Li to prepare a nutritious breakfast. “Eat some food to replenish your energy.” Mu Jingzhe’s vitality was greatly damaged, and Shao Xi, Little Bei, and the rest hadn’t slept the entire night either.
Mu Jingzhe ate, wanting to recover her strength and vitality. As she looked at Ji Buw.a.n.g, who was eating silently, guilt welled up in her heart.
Previously, she had been busy with work and had focused all her attention on the children. Now that she had seen Ji Buw.a.n.g, she felt that she had let him down. Come to think of it, he had waited for her for a long time, refusing to heed her words when she had told him not to wait for her.
If she died, he would be sad for a long time. She only hoped that he wouldn’t take the path of a devoted man and he would welcome a new relations.h.i.+p… However, this was difficult because Ji Buw.a.n.g was different from ordinary people. He couldn’t see anyone’s face.
With his face blindness, dating was a problem. If she was gone, he wouldn’t be able to see a human face again, and his future would be blurry again.
She didn’t know if he could see her photo because she hadn’t asked before. If he could see it, she could maybe leave two photos behind for him?