Chapter 458: I Want Her to Never Know the Truth
Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios
While looking at Ji Buw.a.n.g’s injury, Mu Jingzhe could imagine how much it had hurt. “So when he left, it must have been very, very painful…” This was what made Mu Jingzhe’s heart ache the most. Besides, she hadn’t been awake to accompany him at the time.
Shao Qihai closed his eyes. “No, he probably fainted like you, so he shouldn’t have suffered much.”
“Really? If that’s true, then… that’s good.” Mu Jingzhe hadn’t expected herself to say such a thing. She even laughed.
She turned around and glanced at Shao Qihai. “This is the first time I realize that you’re quite good at comforting people, Shao Qihai.”
Although this comfort was sort of despairing.
As Shao Qihai looked at Mu Jingzhe’s smiling face, tears flowed uncontrollably.
He had a crying disorder, so he couldn’t bear to see others cry. This time, Mu Jingzhe wasn’t crying and was even smiling instead. However, he could see so much sorrow on her face. This was the first time he discovered that one could be crying while smiling.
Mu Jingzhe looked away when she saw Shao Qihai’s tears. “Is your problem getting worse? Why… The kids are still behind. Don’t let them see…”
How was he going to maintain the image of a man that shed blood but not tears? So useless.
Mu Jingzhe didn’t look at Shao Qihai. “I have to thank you. Thank you for saving me and Buw.a.n.g. Otherwise, it wouldn’t have been nice for him to be buried alone.”
Mu Jingzhe thanked him sincerely, but Shao Qihai felt that something was amiss. Why was she thanking him at a time like this? Besides, other than sincerity, he could hear regret in her tone.
Perhaps Mu Jingzhe would have been more willing to be buried with Ji Buw.a.n.g forever.
“Don’t say thank you at a time like this.” Shao Qihai felt that Mu Jingzhe seemed too calm.
Not only could Shao Qihai see that something was wrong with Mu Jingzhe, but Li Zhaodi and the rest could see it as well. She was too calm. Ridiculously calm. However, this calmness didn’t comfort them. Instead, it made them feel even more worried.
“Jingzhe, stop talking and laughing. Cry if you want to.” Li Zhaodi looked at Mu Jingzhe and couldn’t help but urge her.
A mother knew her daughter best. She knew how much pain Mu Jingzhe was in. She didn’t know how hard Mu Jingzhe had to work to suppress this kind of despair and discomfort. She would rather Mu Jingzhe cried and made a fuss about it.
Mu Jingzhe shook her head. “Mom, I can’t cry in front of him. If I cry, his soul in heaven will be even more upset when he sees this. He must be feeling terrible enough for going back on his word and leaving me behind.”
After seeing his maternal grandmother, he had said that the person who was left behind was too pitiful. He’d even wanted to die on the same day, month, and year, or perhaps leave later than her. If she cried, he would definitely feel even guiltier.
“I can’t cry. I won’t cry.” Mu Jingzhe only regretted yearning for a spectacular romance.
It was only today that she finally remembered that a spectacular romance seemed to always end in tragedy.
The relations.h.i.+p of couples who got together after a spectacular event turned into bland everyday life.
She had been insensible at the time and had said something she shouldn’t have. She had felt a yearning that she shouldn’t have.
She shouldn’t have made a fuss about wanting to go with Ji Buw.a.n.g. If Ji Buw.a.n.g had gone to his maternal grandmother’s house alone, he wouldn’t have been delayed by a day on the way. If he had returned a day earlier, he wouldn’t have had an accident and died.
She was the one who had gotten him into this mess and caused this to happen. She was the one who deserved to die.
“Ji Buw.a.n.g, you lost out…”
He had waited for her all these years, and in the end, he had died because of her. After finally surviving four years of living as a zombie, he was still gone just like that.
Seeing that Mu Jingzhe’s expression was strange, Shao Qihai looked at Shao Dong. Shao Dong glanced at Xiao Wu, who quickly stepped forward. “Mommy, let’s go back quickly.”
“No, Xiao Wu, you guys go back first. I’ll keep your uncle company for a while. He must have been very lonely when he was alone previously. I’ll accompany him for a while longer. You guys go back first.”
“Mommy…” Xiao Wu was worried that Mu Jingzhe would do something stupid.
“Just let me stay with him for a while.” Mu Jingzhe looked at Shao Qihai.
Shao Qihai paused for a moment before leading Xiao Wu out and closing the door. “Let her stay alone for a while. It’ll be good if she lets out those tears.”
“Jingzhe wouldn’t do something foolish, would she?” Li Zhaodi was afraid.
“Just pay attention to her. I don’t think so.” Shao Qihai shook his head.
In the room, when the two of them were gone, Mu Jingzhe leaned against Ji Buw.a.n.g and pressed her face against his. “In the past, when I kissed you, you would always wake up the fastest no matter what…”
However, there was no reaction this time.
Mu Jingzhe leaned against Ji Buw.a.n.g. “I still don’t think I can accept it. Ji Buw.a.n.g, can I take you far away?”
She wanted to take his corpse with her. Even though it was a corpse, she wanted Ji Buw.a.n.g to accompany her. However, she knew that was impossible.
This impossibility overwhelmed Mu Jingzhe with despair and helplessness.
“I’m so tired, Ji Buw.a.n.g. I lied to you about some things back then, but I’m not lying to you now. I’m really tired. I suddenly feel that this place is really bad.”
Li Zhaodi and the rest took turns watching Mu Jingzhe carefully, nervous that she would do something foolish inside. Mu Jingzhe didn’t do anything foolish, but she never came out. Later on, she even stopped moving.
Shao Dong realized that something was amiss and went in. He noticed that Mu Jingzhe was still breathing, but she seemed to have fainted while leaning against Ji Buw.a.n.g.
Mu Jingzhe was urgently sent back to the ward. The doctor checked on her and found nothing wrong. He said that she might be too tired and she should rest well.
However, after Mu Jingzhe fell asleep, she didn’t wake up even after a day. Shao Dong and the others couldn’t wake her up, and the doctor couldn’t do it even after using some external stimulation methods.
This was a huge problem. This time, after falling asleep, Mu Jingzhe no longer had the desire to live or wake up.
She was still alive, but she was completely lifeless.
Without a doubt, it was because when she had seen Ji Buw.a.n.g’s body, the stimulation had been too great, which had resulted in this problem.
“What if Jingzhe never wakes up again?” Li Zhaodi despaired.
Shao Dong and Shao Qihai had no choice. Seeing the dark night descend, Shao Qihai couldn’t help but go to the funeral home. He didn’t enter. He just watched from the outside, his hand subconsciously stroking the thing in his pocket.
“Ji Buw.a.n.g, your plan worked. You made Jingzhe see your corpse and say goodbye to you. You made her give up completely. It all seems to have worked too well. It feels as if her heart died completely with you.”
It had been Ji Buw.a.n.g’s idea for Shao Qihai to bring Mu Jingzhe to see him.
It wasn’t true that Ji Buw.a.n.g hadn’t left behind any last words. It was just that he hadn’t left any words behind for Mu Jingzhe.
His corpse hadn’t been cremated yet because he had wanted Mu Jingzhe to accept reality.
He hadn’t wanted to give Mu Jingzhe hope. He’d only wanted to shorten Mu Jingzhe’s pain. He’d wanted her to never know the truth about her survival.
Shao Qihai stood in the funeral home and didn’t go in to see Ji Buw.a.n.g.. However, the last image of Ji Buw.a.n.g and Mu Jingzhe under the closet involuntarily surfaced in his mind.