Elizabeth sheds a single tear as she hastily wipes it off and pulled herself together. She forced a smile on her face as she tries to turn the awkward situation around.
"Shen, I"m sorry... It"s late I should head back."
Yun Shen was frozen on the spot as he couldn"t answer the girl"s question early. He watched as the girl slowly makes it was pa.s.sed him. His mind was all baffled as he ponders on the situation. He clenched his chest as he tries his best to understand everything.
Why did I kiss her?
Why did my heart aching when she asked her such cold question?
Why is it so hard to tell her the truth?
A man like him who hardly indulges himself in such fantasy such as love was having a hard time expressing himself. He thought people normally do such an act (kissing) because of this so-called love. But why did she not understand his true intention?
Before Elizabeth could take another step further away from the man, she was startled when Yun Shen suddenly hugged her from behind. She wished to turn around to face him but couldn"t since he was firmly hugging her and not allowing her to make a single move.
"Shen..."
"Be quiet, listen to me..."
Yun Shen couldn"t face the girl at all, he couldn"t bear to see her looking coldly at him. The expression she made when she asked him such question early shattered his heart. His mind was all muddle as he tries to arrange his thoughts together on how to explain everything to the girl.
"Listen... why did you think I ask you to marry me?"
Elizabeth was baffled why Yun Shen suddenly asked such questions. Didn"t he already explain to her last time it was all because of Little Yan? Could there be another reason for it?
"Didn"t you say it was all because of Little Yan?"
"Don"t you like her?"
Her whole body shivered to hear the man"s low voice whispering to her ears. His cold breath gave such a strange sensation all over her body.
"Of course I do, I like Little Yan a lot."
"So, if you like Little Yan, why won"t you marry me?"
Elizabeth was really peeved that Yun Shen mentions the word marry again. Wasn"t it obvious because she didn"t want to be his mistress? She already knew she loves someone.
"Shen, why are you throwing your own happiness so easily?"
Yun Shen was confused and loosen his grip on the girl as he twisted her around to face him.
"But I"m not..."
"Huh?"
Elizabeth"s face said it all. Did she by chance misunderstand Yun Shen? But she was sure she loves someone already? She even confirmed it twice...
"Li Zi, if you"re not ready to marry me its fine… Then go out with me?"
"Shen, I don"t wish to be, one of those types of girl..." Elizabeth automatically rejected his offer of being his girlfriend, as she does not wish to be in a relationship which was only for show.
"No, I mean the type of girlfriend I"ll bring to my parents to meet. The type of girlfriend whom I"ll someday bring to the altar and make my vows with. The type of girlfriend who I hope to spend my life with..."
Elizabeth"s eyes were fixed on the man who was trying his best to confess his feelings to the girl. Every word he spoke of was like cupid arrows piercing into her heart. She didn"t know whether she should be happy about it or not.
Could the girl Shen like all this time be her?
Was she the girl that gave him such strange feelings?
"You mean, you asked me to marry you because you wish to spend the rest of your life with me?"
Yun Shen nodded lightly as he continued to explain himself. "Li Zi, I don"t know how to explain myself but a day without you is like torture to me. I never thought such a feeling would exist... I know it"s hard to believe but I wish for you to stay by my side. I don"t know why it"s just hard to explain."
Elizabeth clenched her hand into a fist as she placed it in front of her chest. Her eyes were all teary after hearing the man"s words. However, her heart was in a mess right now. She like him a lot but will he be able to accept her once he finds out the truth. She looked at the man in front of her bitterly as she bit her lip in disgust of herself.
To think finally a man has accepted her for who she is but the "her" was only a mask. She was not true to the man and fooled his heart. How can a man accept a girl like her who played around with his feelings? She has too many secrets at the moment and hearing the man"s confession made her realize she was not ready to be with him.
"Shen, I"m not what you think I am..." Her tears rolled down her face as she clenched her fist tightly towards her chest. Her heart was aching so much for all the lies she has made.
Yun Shen tightly hugged the girl seeing how distressed she was. He wondered what she meant when she said she was not who he thinks she is. Who could she be then? The fact he has already investigate her background he was sure he knows everything about her. Then suddenly, he recalled something Jackie mentioned to him last time when they were on the phone.
"Jackie: Shen, I"ll let you know in advance since I care for you both. But I"m sorry to tell you but she won"t accept your feelings. Even if you tell her you"re willing to marry her she won"t be ready for that. If you truly love her, love her for who she is. Win her trust in order for you to win her love."
He now realized that the girl must really be someone else. As he thought about the idea of the girl being someone else, it suddenly pops into his mind if whether he can accept the real her or not. Will he be able to accept the truth of her ident.i.ty? Right now, even he couldn"t answer the question?
But one thing he was sure, he wants to be with her...
"Then, let me get to know you... Starting today, share your burdens, secret, your past, everything with you. Day by day, sooner or later, I"ll know if I can accept the real you. And I hope you"ll be able to let me in..."
Elizabeth looked up and saw the sincerity within his eyes. He was really willing to go that far for her.
"Shen..."
Yun Shen caresses her face as he wipes the tears on her face. "Since today is the first day, tell me now... Tell me something about the real you."
"I..."
He noticed the girl was reluctant at the moment. He could only sigh as he took a deep breath and hugged her. "If your not ready, you don"t have to force yourself. I can always wait..."
Elizabeth looked down feeling defeated that she was unable to tell the man something about her.
"It"s getting late, you should head home." Yun Shen embraces her tightly for the last time before letting her go as he planted a kiss on her head. Whilst he was hugging the girl, he senses a familiar aroma on her which he smelled earlier.
Could it be a coincidence?
After Yun Shen releases her, she hurriedly went back to the car without looking back at him. Her heart was racing with her as she headed back to where the car was. When she saw the car, she hastily went inside and order the driver to bring her back to the city.
At the back of the car, the girl"s tears continued to fall as her heart continuously ache from the news she just received.
What was she to do?
"Jackie you b*tch how could you do this to me? All this time you…"
She was angry with the girl but realize Jackie has been honest with her all the time. Not a day Jackie has not to mention Shen might have feelings for her. It was only her who found it too impossible since she confirmed he like someone already twice. It was her fault for not asking him specific questions. If she had asked him about the girl"s career or what she does in life it could have made things clearer for her. But it was too late…
Despite all the pain she felt, there was a slight joy in her heart. "He kissed me… My first kiss."
Oh, how she wished to scream in delight when the man kissed her earlier. But back then she was confused about its meaning. Now that she knows of its true meaning, how she wishes to kiss him back…
As her mind continues to wander, she thought of something strange…
"Did he by chance left when I left earlier as well? If he did, what reason did he tell them?"
As the tears on her face dry up, she suddenly felt a strange feeling. A feeling she normally felt when she has done something against her father. Like she has caused him such great pain.