"I"m not inclined to be a pensioner on my wife," he said.
She opened her lips to speak; she was within an ace of telling him that, if this and that went well, he would have so a.s.sured and recognized a position that none could throw stones at him. Her words died away in face of the peremptory finality of his words and the bitter anger on his face. She sat silent and forlorn, wondering what had become of her resolve and her inspiration.
"In my place you would feel as I do," he said a moment later. His tone was milder. "You can"t deny it," he insisted. "Look me in the face and deny it if you can. I know you too well."
For some minutes longer she sat still. Then she got up with a desolate air. Everything seemed over; the great offer, with its great scene, had come to very little. Anticlimax, foe to emotion! She remembered how the scene in the Long Gallery had gone. So much better, so much better! But Harry dominated her--and he had stopped the scene. Without attempting to bid him any farewell she moved toward the door slowly and drearily.
She was arrested by his voice--a new voice, very good-natured, rather chaffing.
"Are you doing anything particular to-night?" he asked.
She turned round; he was smiling at her in an open but friendly amus.e.m.e.nt.
"No," she murmured. "I"m going back home, I suppose."
"To Blent?" he asked quickly.
"No, to our house. Mina"s there and----" Her face was puzzled; she left her sentence unfinished.
"Well, I"ve got nothing to do. Let"s have dinner and go somewhere together?"
Their eyes met. Gradually Cecily"s lightened into a sparkle as her lips bent and her white teeth showed a little. She was almost laughing outright as she answered readily, without so much as a show of hesitation or a hint of surprise, "Yes."
Nothing else can be so ample as a monosyllable is sometimes. If it had been Harry"s object to escape from a tragic or sensational situation he had achieved it triumphantly. The question was no longer who should have Blent, but where they should have dinner. Nothing in his manner showed that he had risked and succeeded in a hazardous experiment; he had brought her down to the level of common-sense--that is, to his own view of things; incidentally he had secured what he hoped would prove a very pleasant evening. Finally he meant to have one more word with her on the matter of her visit before they parted. His plan was very clear in his head. By the end of the evening she would have forgotten the exalted mood which had led her into absurdity; she would listen to a few wise and weighty words--such as he would have at command. Then the ludicrous episode would be over and done with forever; to its likeness, superficially at least rather strong, to that other scene in which he had been chief actor his mind did not advert.
A very pleasant evening it proved; so that it prolonged itself, naturally as it were and without express arrangement, beyond dinner and the play, and embraced in its many hours a little supper and a long drive in a cab to those distant regions where Cecily"s house was situated. There was no more talk of Blent; there was some of Harry"s new life, its features and its plans; there was a good deal about nothing in particular; and there was not much of any sort as they drove along in the cab at one o"clock in the morning.
But Harry"s purpose was not forgotten. He bade the cabman wait and followed Cecily into the house. He looked round it with lively interest and curiosity.
"So this is where you came from!" he exclaimed with a compa.s.sionate smile. "You do want something to make up for this!"
She laughed as she took off her hat and sank into a chair. "Yes, this is--home," she said.
"Have you had a pleasant evening?" he demanded.
"You know I have."
"Are you feeling friendly to me?"
Now came the att.i.tude; she threw herself into it and smiled.
"That"s what I wanted," he went on. "Now I can say what I have to say."
She sat still, waiting to hear him. There was now no sign of uneasiness about her. She smiled luxuriously, and her eyes were resting on his face with evident pleasure. They were together again as they had been in the Long Gallery; the same contentment possessed her. The inner feeling had its outward effect. There came on him the same admiration, the same sense that she commanded his loyalty. When she had come to his rooms that afternoon he had found it easy to rebuke and to rule her. His intent for the evening had been the same; he had sought to bring her to a more friendly mind chiefly that she might accept with greater readiness the chastening of cool common-sense, and a rebuke from the decent pride which her proposal had outraged. Harry was amazed to find himself suddenly at a loss, looking at the girl, hardly knowing how to speak to her.
"Well?" she said. Where now was the tremulous excitement? She was magnificently at her ease and commanded him to speak, if he had anything to say. If not, let him hold his peace.
But he was proud and obstinate too. They came to a conflict there in the little room--the forgotten cab waiting outside, the forgotten Mina beginning to stir in her bed as voices dimly reached her ears and she awoke to the question--where was Cecily?
"If we"re to be friends," Harry began, "I must hear no more of what you said this afternoon. You asked me to be a pensioner, you proposed yourself to be----"
He did not finish. The word was not handy, or he wished to spare her.
She showed no signs of receiving mercy.
"Very well," she said, smiling. "If you knew everything, you wouldn"t talk like that. I suppose you"ve no idea what it cost me?"
"What it cost you?"
She broke into a scornful laugh. "You know what it really meant. Still you"ve only a scolding for me! How funny that you see one half and not the other! But you"ve given me a very pleasant evening, Cousin Harry."
"You must leave my life alone," he insisted brusquely.
"Oh, yes, for the future. I"ve nothing left to offer, have I? I have been--refused!" She seemed to exult in the abandonment of her candor.
He looked at her angrily, almost dangerously. For a pa.s.sing moment she had a sensation of that physical fear from which no moral courage can wholly redeem the weak in body. But she showed none of it; her pose was unchanged; only the hand on which her head rested shook a little. And she began to laugh. "You look as if you were going to hit me," she said.
"Oh, you do talk nonsense!" he groaned. But she was too much for him; he laughed too. She had spoken with such a grand security. "If you tell me to walk out of the door I shall go."
"Well, in five minutes. It"s very late."
"Oh, we weren"t bred in Bayswater," he reminded her.
"I was--in Chelsea."
"So you say. I think in heaven--no, Olympus--really."
"Have you said what you wanted to say, Cousin Harry?"
"I suppose you hadn"t the least idea what you were doing?"
"I was as cool as you were when you gave me Blent."
"You"re cool enough now, anyhow," he admitted, in admiration of her parry.
"Quite, thanks." The hand behind her head trembled sorely. His eyes were on her, and a confusion threatened to overwhelm the composure of which she boasted.
"I gave you Blent because it was yours."
"What I offered you is mine."
"By G.o.d, no. Never yours to give till you"ve lost it!"
With an effort she kept her pose. His words hummed through her head.
"Did you say that to Janie Iver?" she mustered coolness to ask him mockingly.
He thrust away the taunt with a motion of his hand; one of Gainsborough"s gimcracks fell smashed on the floor. Cecily laughed, glad of the excuse to seem at her ease.