Back to Iraq.
But the TV flickered on, and he quickly clicked through the various news channels, but they were showing nothing special. No breaking stories, no special reports, no relentless what-if-ing over pictures of some devastation or disaster.
"It"s not fair," Maggie said, and he could tell she was fighting tears. "She was supposed to have a full month. This is bulls.h.i.t."
"What happened?" Jules asked, as he went online to check Twitter. Often news came through via the Internet first. But Twitter was quiet, too.
"It"s stupid," Maggie told him fiercely. "There was some stupid car accident, and everyone"s okay, but one of the NCOs broke her legs and the other one hurt his back, and the really stupid part is that in the entire stupid Army, there"s apparently no one else who can do my mom"s job and-" She broke off as Jules heard the murmur of another voice. "I"m talking to Jules and ... Wait! Mom!"
But the phone was apparently s.n.a.t.c.hed out of the girl"s hands by her mother. "I am so sorry," Arlene said, her voice thick with her apology. "She shouldn"t have called you. This is completely inappropriate-"
"It"s okay," Jules said.
"No," Arlene said. "It is not."
He could hear Maggie in the background. "I was just calling him to see if he could give us a ride to the airport, so at least I can have an extra half hour with you instead of having a stupid taxi pick you up!"
"Oh, s.h.i.t," Jules realized. "Will and Dolphina went to New York." One of Dolphina"s many cousins was getting married in a little town just south of Buffalo called Hamburg.
"They must"ve turned off their phones for the ceremony," Arlene told him. "And even if they turn them on right away, they won"t get back here until tonight."
"I"ll drive you to the airport," Jules volunteered. "Because Maggie"s right. That way she can go, too, and be with you for as long as she possibly can."
"Thank you," Arlene said. "It"s too much, but ... Thank you."
"It"s not too much," Jules countered. "Maggie"s my friend. You"re my friend. Friends call friends when they need help."
"When have you ever called anyone for help?" Arlene asked.
Jules laughed. "Oh, sweetie, you have no idea. Remind me to tell you about the time I was on this G.o.dforsaken island in the middle of nowhere, and I actually called ...certain friends in very high places for some serious help. But let"s not get into it now. It"s not a story that works well in short form, plus I"d rather find out what"s going on with you. There"s really no one else in the entire U.S. Army who can do your job for a few more weeks, until your leave is up?"
Arlene sighed. "Of course there is. But unit cohesion suffers when new faces are brought in. And when unit cohesion suffers, soldiers-kids-die. I can"t-" Her voice broke, but she faltered only slightly before soldiering on. "I can"t let that happen. My CO called me directly and asked me to return early. In exchange, she"s going to try to see what she can do to get me home for good, as soon as possible."
Jules could hear Maggie clearly in the background. "How could you believe anything any of them tells you?"
"I have to go," Arlene spoke over the girl. "If only to help them through the transition." She sighed heavily again. "It"s particularly important because everyone"s favorite first lieutenant was killed in the same car accident. G.o.d, Maggie"s right about it being incredibly stupid. Despite all of the snipers and IEDs, Kevin died because a contractor in a semi got stung by some kind of wasp or a bee, and he swerved into oncoming traffic."
"I"m so sorry for the loss of your friend," Jules murmured. "And yeah, it can seem ridiculous. And even arbitrary. A car accident in a war zone ...?"
He heard Maggie say something, but this time her words were indiscernible. It was clear, though, that she had started to cry.
"I have to go back, Mag," Arlene told her daughter again. "I wish I didn"t have to. I wish I could say no ..."
"Have you told Jack?" Jules asked quietly.
"Yeah. He ran to the airport, to try to get a flight back to Boston. I don"t know if he got one, because his phone died en route, and ... He"s not going to make it anyway, because my flight"s at five-thirty."
"Tonight?" Jules asked, his voice betraying his surprise.
"Yes, tonight." Arlene was a little annoyed. "Didn"t Will tell me you work with Navy SEALs? They get a call and they go. Immediately. They don"t get any time at all to pack or say goodbye."
"Last time I checked, Arlene," Jules said evenly, "you weren"t a Navy SEAL."
She laughed, just a little. "I know. And I"m sorry. I"m just ..."
"I get it," Jules said. "Caught between Iraq and a hard place. Let me talk to Maggie again."
The girl was sniffling as she got back on the phone. "I didn"t know that Kevin died."
"I think your mom probably didn"t tell you that on purpose," Jules told her. "Look, Mags, here"s what I"m going to do, okay? I"m going to pick you and your mother up at around three."
"That"s way too early," Maggie protested.
"No, because we"ll park, and we"ll go inside, all the way to the gate, with her," Jules said. "I have a pa.s.s that"ll get us into the airport, but you"re going to have to go through security, so travel light, okay? Don"t bring a jackknife or-"
"I"ve flown on a plane before, Jules," Maggie said in a p.r.i.c.kly tone that was so nearly identical to her mother"s that it was almost funny. Almost.
"Well, good," Jules said. "And don"t tell your mom, because I might not be able to get it to happen, but I"ll make a few calls, see if we can"t find out if Jack"s a pa.s.senger on a Boston-bound flight. Between you and me, I suspect he"s already in the air. It"s hard to imagine Jack Lloyd being thwarted by dead cell phone batteries."
She laughed at that, but it sounded watery.
"Anyway, do tell your mom this," Jules said. "After she boards her flight, I"ll take you home and you can hang with Robin. And if she doesn"t get in touch with your uncle Will, you are completely welcome to stay with us tonight, or really, as long as you need to."
"Thank you," Maggie said.
"See you in a few hours," Jules told her, but she was silent. "You okay?"
"Yeah," she said, and he could picture her squaring her narrow shoulders and lifting her chin. "I guess I gotta go help my mom pack."
Chapter Nineteen.
The afternoon was a blur.
When Maggie went into the bathroom to take a shower, Arlene used her daughter"s phone to call Lizzie"s cell, but got b.u.mped to voice mail. So she called the number in Maggie"s contact list for Milton, Mike.
Lizzie"s scary older brother.
Who picked up immediately. "Maggie? Is everything all right? Are you okay?"
"No," Arlene said, but then quickly said, "Yes. I mean, no, it"s not Maggie, and Maggie"s okay, but ..." She quickly explained how she"d first tried calling Lizzie, and then what had happened and how she was going back to Iraq.
He listened quietly, but she heard him sigh.
"I was hoping you could get word to Lizzie," Arlene said, "and then, maybe, both make a point to be somewhere close by for the next few days?"
"Of course," he said. "Look, I know how hard this must be for you, and I know you don"t trust me and that dinner you planned was really so that you could interrogate me-"
"She"s thirteen," Arlene said.
"You think I don"t know that?"
"I think it"ll be easy for you to forget."
"I won"t," he said. "I gave you my word."
"And I"m holding you to it," Arlene said. "Right now, she needs Lizzie. She needs to feel safe when she"s with Lizzie."
"I get it," he said. "I do. And look, I know you have e-mail over there, so why don"t you e-mail me." He rattled off a gmail address that included his name and the number of his street address-easy enough to remember. "You can ask me anything or check up on me or ... whatever."
"Thank you," Arlene said. "I will."
"I"d do anything for Maggie," he said. "And Lizzie really loves her, too. We got your back, Ms. Schroeder. We"ll be there for her. Come what may. s.h.i.t." He laughed his disgust. "Excuse me. But I knew that Moulin Rouge was going to somehow come back and bite me on the a.s.s. Maggie and Lizzie watched it, like, twice a week, for about four months. Which of course meant that if I wanted to use the computer, I had to watch it, too. Freaking Ewan McGregor ..."
From the bathroom, Arlene heard the sound of the shower going off. "Thank you. Again," she said.
"Stay alert out there," he said, adding right before he cut their connection. "Be safe."
Arlene set Maggie"s phone on the end table next to the sofa, near where her bags were packed and ready to go.
She caught a glimpse of herself in the mirror that hung next to the front door. Dressed in her BDUs, her pants tucked into the top of her boots, her jacket b.u.t.toned to her chin, with her hair tied neatly back, no makeup on her face ...
She was ready for war.
As she gazed into her own eyes, they welled with tears. And for those few brief moments, before Maggie emerged from the bathroom, Arlene allowed herself to acknowledge the dreadful fact-a terrible possibility-that this might be it for her.
When she said goodbye to her daughter at the airport, it might be for the very last time.
She might never come home again.
But there were tens of thousands of servicemen and -women out there, just like her, who had said goodbye to their sons and daughters, their husbands and wives, their mothers and fathers and families, uncertain as to their own futures. That was always the case when one served one"s country.
And until she came home safely-and even if, G.o.d forbid, she didn"t-she would carry her love for Maggie and Jack and Will and, yes, even Dolphina with her, wherever she went, securely in her heart.
Arlene squared her shoulders and quickly brushed her tears away as the bathroom door opened. She even managed to smile at Maggie, whose own eyes were red.
"Ready?" she asked her daughter, who nodded.
Maggie hefted the larger of Arlene"s bags, and together, they went out to the street, to wait for Jules.
Chapter Twenty.
Jack sat clutching the armrests in the airplane as it touched down at Logan Airport in Boston.
It was five minutes after five, and Arlene"s flight was scheduled to leave in twenty-five minutes-if it hadn"t already left early.
He was sitting in the back of the plane, which meant the entire full flight would have to empty before he could start his sprint through the terminal.
He knew that Arlene was flying out through World Airlines. She was taking a flight to New York City, where she"d transfer to another that would go first to Germany.
As the plane taxied to the gate, the intercom clicked on, and Jack focused, hoping to hear which gate that New York flight would be leaving from. But instead, the pilot spoke. "Ladies and gentlemen welcome to Boston where the temperature is a balmy sixty-four degrees. Please remain seated until we get to the gate. And even then, once we arrive, please remain seated and leave the aisle clear until pa.s.senger Jack Lloyd deplanes. See, his fiancee is shipping out to Iraq, and if he hurries to gate forty-two, he"ll have just enough time to kiss her goodbye."
There was a murmur among the pa.s.sengers, as Jack closed his eyes and blessed Jules Ca.s.sidy-this had the FBI agent"s name written all over it.
But then the plane was at the gate, and his seatbelt was off and he was on his feet. As he dashed up the aisle, someone began to clap, and the whole plane was applauding like some ridiculous Hollywood romantic comedy.
The flight attendants were smiling at him, and then he was through the door and running full speed up the ramp.
Chapter Twenty-one.
Arlene sat in the now nearly empty waiting area by gate forty-two, with Maggie on her lap.
"I love you," she told her daughter, who nodded as she clung to Arlene"s neck. "But I need you to get off of me now, because I have to give you something."
Maggie wiped her eyes as she slid into the neighboring seat to let Arlene reach into her pants pocket. She pulled out the necklace she"d found on Maggie"s dresser. It was long enough to be hidden beneath the neckline of her shirts. And onto it Arlene had put the ring that Jack had brought over to Will"s apartment, that very first night he"d rocketed back into her life.
"I don"t want to wear this over there," Arlene told Maggie. "So I was hoping that you would wear it for me until I get back."
Maggie"s eyes widened. "What if I lose it?"
"You won"t," Arlene said as she slipped it around her daughter"s slender neck. "You"ll be careful with it. I know you will."
Maggie lifted the ring to look at the diamond as it flashed in the waning afternoon light shining in through the big terminal windows. "I will be careful with it," she promised.
Over at the gate, Jules was deep in discussion with the World Airlines attendant, who was shaking her head. No doubt they"d held the gate for as long as they could. It was time to go.
Jules took out his phone and dialed it, but it was more than apparent now that not only had Jack"s phone given up the ghost, but that he wasn"t going to make it. Arlene was going to have to say her goodbyes to him via e-mail.
She stood up, and Maggie threw herself into her arms and hugged her tightly. "Be careful of land mines and mortars and snipers and IEDs and truck drivers who are afraid of bees."
Oh, G.o.d, now her daughter had yet one more thing to worry about. "I will," Arlene promised. "You be careful of truck drivers who are afraid of bees, too, okay?"