"Because I"m going to marry Rodney, okay?"
Her words stopped him cold. "What are you talking about?"
"Last night after the dance, he came by and we talked. We talked for a long time. He"s honest, he"s hardworking, he loves me, and he"s here. You"re not."
He stared at her, stunned by her announcement. "I don"t believe you."
She stared back, her face impa.s.sive. "Believe it," she said.
When Jeremy failed to say anything, she handed him the diary, then raised a hand in a brief wave and began to walk backward with him in her sights, much the way she had that day at the cemetery.
"Good-bye, Jeremy," she said before turning to get in her car.
Still frozen in shock, Jeremy heard the ignition turn over and saw her look over her shoulder as she began to back out. He strode forward to put his hand on the hood, trying to stop her. But as the car started to move, he let his fingers glide along the damp surface and finally took a small step back as the car slid into drive.
For an instant, Jeremy thought he caught the flash of tears in her eyes. But then he saw her look away, and he knew once and for all he wasn"t going to see her again.
He wanted to shout out, telling her to stop. He wanted to tell her that he could stay, that he wanted to stay, that if leaving meant losing her, then going home wasn"t worth it. But the words stayed trapped inside him, and ever so slowly, the car rolled by him, picking up speed as it made its way down the drive.
In the fog, Jeremy remained standing, watching until the car turned shadowlike and only the taillights were visible. And then it vanished completely, the sound of the engine fading into the woods.
Twenty.
The rest of the day pa.s.sed as if he were watching it through someone else"s eyes. Hurt and angry, he barely remembered following Alvin along the highway back toward Raleigh. More than once, he glanced in his rearview mirror, staring back over the black asphalt, watching the cars that followed in the distance, hoping that one of them was Lexie. She"d been perfectly clear in her desire to end the relationship, but even so, he felt a surge of adrenaline whenever he saw a car that resembled hers, and he would slow down to get a better look. Alvin, meanwhile, would move farther into the distance. Jeremy knew he should be paying attention to the road beyond the windshield; instead, he spent most of his time looking back.
After dropping off his rental car, he paced the terminal and made his way to the gate. Walking past crowded shops, veering around people who were scurrying his way, he wondered again why Lexie seemed so willing to give up everything they"d shared.
On the plane, his thoughts were interrupted when Alvin took a seat next to him.
"Thanks for making it so we could sit together," Alvin said, his voice dripping with sarcasm. He stored his bag in the overhead bin.
"Huh?" Jeremy said.
"The seats. I thought you were going to take care of them when you checked in. It"s a good thing I asked when I got my boarding pa.s.s. I was supposed to sit in the last row."
"Sorry," Jeremy said. "I guess I forgot."
"Yeah, I guess so," Alvin said, dropping into the seat next to him. He glanced at Jeremy. "You want to talk about it yet?"
Jeremy hesitated. "I"m not sure there"s anything to talk about."
"That"s what you said earlier. But I"ve heard it"s supposed to be good for you. Haven"t you been keeping up with the talk shows lately? Express your feelings, purge your guilt, seek and ye shall find?"
"Maybe later," he mumbled.
"Suit yourself," Alvin said. "If you don"t want to talk, fine. I"ll just take a nap." He leaned back in his seat and closed his eyes.
Jeremy stared out the window as Alvin slept for most of the flight.
In the cab he took from La Guardia, Jeremy was bombarded with noise and the hectic pace of the city: businessmen rushing past carrying briefcases, mothers towing small children while attempting to manage shopping bags, the smell of car exhaust, horns honking, and police sirens blaring. It was perfectly normal, a world he"d grown up in and had taken for granted; what surprised him was that as he looked out the car window, trying to orient himself to the reality of his life, he thought of Greenleaf and the utter silence he"d experienced there.
Back at his apartment building, his mailbox was stuffed with advertis.e.m.e.nts and bills; he grabbed it all and trudged up the stairs. Inside the apartment, everything was the same as he"d left it. Magazines lay strewn around the living room, his office was as cluttered as always, and there were still three bottles of Heineken in the refrigerator. After stowing his suitcase in his room, he opened a bottle of beer and carried his computer and satchel to his desk.
He had all the information he"d acc.u.mulated in the past few days: his notes and copies of the articles, the digital camera containing the photographs he"d shot of the cemetery, the map, and the diary. As he began unpacking, a packet of postcards fell onto the desk, and it took him a moment to remember that he"d picked them up on his first day in town. The top postcard was a view of the town from the river. Removing the wrapper, he began to thumb through the rest of them. He found postcards depicting the town hall, a misty view of a blue heron standing in the shallows of Boone Creek, and sailboats congregating on a bl.u.s.tery afternoon. Halfway through the packet, he found himself pausing at a picture of the library.
He sat motionless, thinking of Lexie and realizing again that he loved her.
But that was over now, he reminded himself, and he continued shuffling through the postcards. He saw a strangely grainy photograph of Herbs and another of the town as viewed from Riker"s Hill. The final postcard was a picture of the downtown area of Boone Creek, and here he found himself pausing once more.
The postcard, a reproduction of an old black-and-white photo, captured the town circa 1950. In the foreground was the theater with well-dressed patrons waiting near the ticket window; in the background stood a decorated Christmas tree in the small green area just off the main street. On the sidewalks, couples could be seen peeking in windows decorated with garlands and lights, or strolling hand in hand. As Jeremy studied the picture, he found himself imagining how the holidays were celebrated in Boone Creek fifty years earlier. In place of boarded storefronts, he saw sidewalks crowded with women wearing scarves and men wearing hats and children pointing upward at an icicle hanging from a signpost.
As he looked, Jeremy found himself thinking about Mayor Gherkin. The postcard depicted not only Boone Creek"s way of life half a century before but also the way that Gherkin hoped the town could be again. It was a Norman Rockwell existence, albeit with a southern flair. He held the postcard for a long time, thinking about Lexie and wondering again what he was going to do about the story.
The meeting with the television producers was scheduled for Tuesday afternoon. Nate met Jeremy at his favorite steak house, Smith and Wollensky"s, beforehand. Nate was his buoyant self, excited to see Jeremy and relieved to have him back in town under his watchful eye. As soon as he sat down, he began talking about the footage that Alvin had shot, describing the images as fantastic, like "that haunted house in Amityville, but real," and a.s.suring him that the television executives would love them. For the most part, Jeremy sat in silence listening to Nate jabber on, but when he saw a dark-haired woman leaving the restaurant, her hair exactly the same length as Lexie"s, he felt a lump in his throat and suddenly excused himself to go to the restroom.
When he got back, Nate was perusing the menu. Jeremy added sweetener to the iced tea he"d ordered. He, too, scanned the menu and mentioned that he was thinking of having the swordfish. Nate looked up.
"But this is a steak house," he protested.
"I know. I"m in the mood for something lighter, though."
Nate"s hand absently traveled to his midsection, as if wondering whether to do the same thing. In the end, he frowned as he set the menu aside. "I gotta go with the strip steak," he said. "I"ve been thinking about it all morning. But where were we?"
"The meeting," Jeremy reminded him, and Nate leaned forward.
"So it"s not ghosts, right?" Nate said. "You mentioned on the phone that you saw the lights but had a pretty good idea of what they were."
"No," Jeremy said. "It"s not ghosts."
"What are they, then?"
Jeremy pulled out his notes and spent the next few minutes telling Nate what he"d learned, beginning with the legend and describing in detail his process of discovery. Even he could hear the monotone in his voice. As Nate listened, he nodded continually, but when he finished, Jeremy could see wrinkles of concern forming on Nate"s forehead.
"The paper mill?" he said. "I was hoping it was some sort of government tests or something like that. Like the military testing a new plane or something." He paused. "And you"re sure it"s not a military train? News folks love to expose anything about the military. Secret weapons programs, things like that. Or maybe you heard something out there that you couldn"t explain."
"Sorry," Jeremy said, his voice flat, "it"s just light that ricochets off the train. There weren"t any noises."
Watching Nate, Jeremy could see the wheels turning. Nate, Jeremy had come to realize, had better instincts than his editors when it came to stories.
"It"s not much," he said. "Did you find out which version of the legend was true? Maybe there"s something you could do with the race angle."
Jeremy shook his head. "I haven"t been able to confirm that Hettie Doubilet even existed. Aside from the legends, I couldn"t find any record of her in any official doc.u.ments. And Watts Landing is long gone."
"Look, I don"t mean to be picky here, but you"ve got to pump up your delivery if you want this to work. If you"re not enthusiastic, they"re not going to be excited, either. Am I right or am I right? Of course, I"m right. But come on, be honest with me. You found something else, didn"t you?"
"What are you talking about?"
"Alvin," Nate said. "When he dropped off the videos, I asked him about the story just to get his impression, and he mentioned that you found something else that was interesting."
Jeremy"s expression didn"t falter. "He did?"
"His words, not mine," Nate said, looking pleased with himself. "He didn"t tell me what it was, though. He said that was up to you. Which must mean that it"s big."
Staring at Nate, he could practically feel the diary burning a hole through the fabric of his satchel. On the table, Nate fiddled with his fork, turning it over and back again, waiting.
"Well," Jeremy began, knowing his time to make his decision had finally run out.
When he didn"t continue, Nate leaned forward. "Yes?"
That evening, after the meeting was concluded, Jeremy sat alone in his apartment, absently watching the world outside. It had begun to snow, and the flakes were a swirling, hypnotic ma.s.s under the glow of the streetlamp.
The meeting had started out well; Nate had revved the producers up to such an extent that they were transfixed by the images they saw. Nate had done the best he could. Afterward, Jeremy told them about the legend, noting their growing interest as he spoke of Hettie Doubilet, and the painstaking way he"d approached the investigation. He interspersed the story of Boone Creek with other investigations into the mysterious, and more than once, he saw the executives glance at each other, clearly trying to figure out how to work him into the show.
But as he sat alone later that night, the diary in his lap, he knew he wouldn"t be working with them. His story-the mystery of Boone Creek"s cemetery-was akin to an exciting novel that petered out at the end. The solution was too simple, too pat, and he"d sensed their disappointment by the time he said good-bye. Nate had promised to keep in touch, as they did, but Jeremy knew there would be no further calls.
As for the diary, he"d kept that to himself, as he had with Nate earlier.
Later, he made a phone call to Mayor Gherkin. Jeremy"s proposal was simple: Boone Creek would no longer promise visitors on the Historic Homes Tour a chance to see ghosts in the cemetery. The word "haunted" would be removed from the brochure, as would any claims that the lights had anything to do with the supernatural. Instead, the legend"s history would be given full play, and visitors could be informed that they just might witness something spectacular. While some tourists might see the lights and wonder aloud if they were the ghosts from the legend, the volunteers who conducted the tours were told never to suggest as much. Finally, Jeremy asked the mayor to remove the T-shirts and cups from his department store downtown.
In exchange, Jeremy pomised he would never mention anything about Cedar Creek Cemetery on television, in his column, or in an independent article. He wouldn"t expose the mayor"s plan to turn the town into a ghostly version of Roswell, New Mexico, nor would he tell anyone in the town that the mayor had known the truth all along.
Mayor Gherkin accepted the offer. After hanging up, Jeremy called Alvin, whom he swore to secrecy.
Twenty-one.
In the days following Jeremy"s unsuccessful meeting with the producers, he focused his attention on trying to return to his previous routines. He spoke to his editor at Scientific American. Scientific American. Behind on his deadline and vaguely remembering something Nate had suggested to him, he agreed to do a column about the possible dangers of a low-carbohydrate diet. He spent hours on the Internet, scanning countless newspapers, looking for other stories that might be of interest. He was disappointed to learn that Clausen-with the help of a high-profile publicity firm in New York-had largely weathered the storm after Jeremy"s appearance on Behind on his deadline and vaguely remembering something Nate had suggested to him, he agreed to do a column about the possible dangers of a low-carbohydrate diet. He spent hours on the Internet, scanning countless newspapers, looking for other stories that might be of interest. He was disappointed to learn that Clausen-with the help of a high-profile publicity firm in New York-had largely weathered the storm after Jeremy"s appearance on Primetime Primetime and was still in negotiations for his own television show. The irony of the situation wasn"t lost on Jeremy, and he spent the rest of the day bemoaning the gullibility of true believers. and was still in negotiations for his own television show. The irony of the situation wasn"t lost on Jeremy, and he spent the rest of the day bemoaning the gullibility of true believers.
Little by little, he was getting himself back on track. Or, at least, he thought he was. Though he still thought of Lexie frequently, wondering whether she was busy preparing for her marriage to Rodney, he did his best to force those thoughts out of his mind. They were just too painful. Instead, he tried to resume the life he"d been living before he met Lexie. On Friday night, he went out to a nightclub. It didn"t go particularly well. Instead of mingling and trying to catch the attention of the women standing nearby, he sat at the bar nursing a single beer for most of the night, leaving long before he normally would have. The next day, he visited his family in Queens, but seeing his brothers and their wives playing with their kids only made him wish again for something that could never be.
By Monday noon, as another winter storm was settling in, he"d convinced himself that it was really over. She hadn"t called and neither had he. At times, those few days with Lexie seemed like nothing more than the mirage he"d been investigating. It couldn"t have been real, he told himself, but as he sat at his desk, he found himself thumbing through the postcards again, finally pinning the one of the library on the wall behind the desk.
He ordered lunch from the Chinese restaurant down the block for the third time in a week, then leaned back in his chair, wondering about the choices he"d made. For an instant, he wondered if Lexie would be eating at the same time he was, but the thought was interrupted by the buzz of the intercom.
He grabbed his wallet and headed toward the door. Through the static of the intercom, he heard a female voice.
"It"s open. Come on up."
He riffled through his bills, pulled out a twenty, and reached for the door just as he heard the knock.
"That was fast," he said. "Usually it takes . . ."
His voice trailed off as the door opened and he saw who was standing before him.
In the silence, he and his visitor stared at each other before Doris finally smiled.
"Surprise," she said.
He blinked. "Doris?"
She stamped the snow off her shoes. "It"s a blizzard out there," she said, "and it"s so icy I wasn"t sure I was going to make it. The taxi was sliding all over the road."
He continued to stare, trying to make sense of her sudden appearance.
She slipped her handbag from her shoulder and met his gaze. "Are you going to make me wait out in the hallway, or are you going to invite me in?"
"Yeah . . . of course. Please . . . ," he said, motioning her inside.
Doris moved past him and set her bag on the end table near the door. She glanced around his apartment and removed her jacket. "This is nice," she said, walking around the living room. "It"s bigger than I thought it would be. But the stairs were a killer. You really need to get the elevator fixed."
"Yeah . . . I know."
She paused at the window. "But the city is beautiful, even in the storm. And so . . . busy. I can see why some people would want to live here."
"What are you doing here?"
"I came to talk to you, of course."
"About Lexie?"
She didn"t answer right away. Instead, she sighed, then said evenly, "Among other things." When his brow furrowed, she shrugged. "You wouldn"t happen to have any tea, would you? I"m still a little chilly."
"But . . ."
"We"ve got a lot to talk about," she said, her voice holding steady. "I know you have questions, but it"s going to take a while. So how about some tea?"
Jeremy went into the small kitchen and heated a cup of water in the microwave. After adding a tea bag, he carried the cup back to the living room, where he found Doris sitting on the couch. He handed her the cup, and she took a sip almost immediately.
"I"m sorry that I didn"t call. I know I should have. You must be pretty shocked. But I wanted to talk to you in person."
"How did you know where I live?"
"I talked to your friend Alvin. He told me."
"You talked to Alvin?"
"Yesterday," she said. "He had given his phone number to Rachel, so I called him, and he was kind enough to give me your address. I wish I"d had the chance to meet him while he was in Boone Creek. He seemed like a perfect gentleman."