Renesmee was the reason why, I was sure. Somehow I"d known from the very beginning that they would come for her. My subconscious had warned me before I"d known I was carrying her. It felt oddly expected now. As if I"d somehow always known that the Volturi would come to take my happiness from me.
But that still didn"t answer the question.
"Go back, Alice," Jasper pleaded. "Look for the trigger. Search."
Alice shook her head slowly, her shoulders sagging. "It came out of nowhere, Jazz. I wasn"t looking for them, or even for us. I was just looking for Irina. She wasn"t where I expected her to be..." Alice trailed off, her eyes drifting again. She stared at nothing for a long second.
And then her head jerked up, her eyes hard as flint. I heard Edward catch his breath.
"She decided to go to them," Alice said. "Irina decided to go to the Volturi. And then they will decide.... It"s as if they"re waiting for her. Like their decision was already made, and just waiting on her..."
It was silent again as we digested this. What would Irina tell the Volturi that would result in Alice"s appalling vision?
"Can we stop her?" Jasper asked.
"There"s no way. She"s almost there."
"What is she doing?" Carlisle was asking, but I wasn"t paying attention to the discussion now. All my focus was on the picture that was painstakingly coming together in my head.
I pictured Irina poised on the cliff, watching. What had she seen? A vampire and a werewolf who were best friends. I"d been focused on that image, one that would obviously explain her reaction. But that was not all that she"d seen. She"d also seen a child. An exquisitely beautiful child, showing off in the falling snow, clearly more than human...
Irina... the orphaned sisters... Carlisle had said that losing their mother to the Volturi"s justice had made Tanya, Kate, and Irina purists when it came to the law.
Just half a minute ago, Jasper had said the words himself: Not even when they were hunting the immortal children.... The immortal children-the unmentionable bane, the appalling taboo...
With Irina"s past, how could she apply any other reading to what she"d seen that day in the narrow field? She had not been close enough to hear Renesmee"s heart, to feel the heat radiating from her body. Renesmee"s rosy cheeks could have been a trick on our part for all she knew.
After all, the Cullens were in league with werewolves. From Irina"s point of view, maybe this meant nothing was beyond us....
Irina, wringing her hands in the snowy wilderness-not mourning Laurent, after all, but knowing it was her duty to turn the Cullens in, knowing what would happen to them if she did. Apparently her conscience had won out over the centuries of friendship.
And the Volturi"s response to this kind of infraction was so automatic, it was already decided.
I turned and draped myself over Renesmee"s sleeping body, covering her with my hair, burying my face in her curls.
"Think of what she saw that afternoon," I said in a low voice, interrupting whatever Emmett was beginning to say. "To someone who"d lost a mother because of the immortal children, what would Renesmee look like?"
Everything was silent again as the others caught up to where I was already.
"An immortal child," Carlisle whispered.
I felt Edward kneel beside me, wrap his arms over us both.
"But she"s wrong," I went on. "Renesmee isn"t like those other children. They were frozen, but she grows so much every day. They were out of control, but she never hurts Charlie or Sue or even shows them things that would upset them. She can control herself. She"s already smarter than most adults. There would be no reason..."
I babbled on, waiting for someone to exhale with relief, waiting for the icy tension in the room to relax as they realized I was right. The room just seemed to get colder.
Eventually my small voice trailed off into silence.
No one spoke for a long time.Then Edward whispered into my hair. "It"s not the kind of crime they hold a trial for, love," he said quietly. "Aro"s seen Irina"s proof in her thoughts. They come to destroy, not to be reasoned with."
"But they"re wrong," I said stubbornly.
"They won"t wait for us to show them that."
His voice was still quiet, gentle, velvet... and yet the pain and desolation in the sound was unavoidable. His voice was like Alice"s eyes before-like the inside of a tomb.
"What can we do?" I demanded.
Renesmee was so warm and perfect in my arms, dreaming peacefully. I"d worried so much about Renesmee"s speeding age-worried that she would only have little over a decade of life.... That terror seemed ironic now.
Little over a month...
Was this the limit, then? I"d had more happiness than most people ever experienced.
Was there some natural law that demanded equal shares of happiness and misery in the world? Was my joy overthrowing the balance? Was four months all I could have?
It was Emmett who answered my rhetorical question.
"We fight," he said calmly.
"We can"t win," Jasper growled. I could imagine how his face would look, how his body would curve protectively over Alice"s.
"Well, we can"t run. Not with Demetri around." Emmett made a disgusted noise, and I knew instinctively that he was not upset by the idea of the Volturi"s tracker but by the idea of running away. "And I don"t know that we can" t win," he said. "There are a few options to consider. We don"t have to fight alone."
My head snapped up at that. "We don"t have to sentence the Quileutes to death, either, Emmett!"
"Chill, Bella." His expression was no different from when he was contemplating fighting anacondas. Even the threat of annihilation couldn"t change Emmett"s perspective, his ability to thrill to a challenge. "I didn"t mean the pack. Be realistic, though-do you think Jacob or Sam is going to ignore an invasion? Even if it wasn"t about Nessie? Not to mention that, thanks to Irina, Aro knows about our alliance with the pack now, too. But I was thinking of our other friends."
Carlisle echoed me in a whisper. "Other friends we don"t have to sentence to death."
"Hey, we"ll let them decide," Emmett said in a placating tone. "I"m not saying they have to fight with us." I could see the plan refining itself in his head as he spoke. "If they"d just stand beside us, just long enough to make the Volturi hesitate. Bella"s right, after all. If we could force them to stop and listen. Though that might take away any reason for a fight..."
There was a hint of a smile on Emmett"s face now. I was surprised no one had hit him yet. I wanted to.
"Yes," Esme said eagerly. "That makes sense, Emmett. All we need is for the Volturi to pause for one moment. Just long enough to listen."
"We"d need quite a show of witnesses," Rosalie said harshly, her voice brittle as gla.s.s.
Esme nodded in agreement, as if she hadn"t heard the sarcasm in Rosalie"s tone. "We can ask that much of our friends. Just to witness."
"We"d do it for them," Emmett said.
"We"ll have to ask them just right," Alice murmured. I looked to see her eyes were a dark void again. "They"ll have to be shown very carefully."
"Shown?" Jasper asked.
Alice and Edward both looked down at Renesmee. Then Alice"s eyes glazed over.
"Tanya"s family," she said. "Siobhan"s coven. Amun"s. Some of the nomads-Garrett and Mary for certain. Maybe Alistair."
"What about Peter and Charlotte?" Jasper asked half fearfully, as if he hoped the answer was no, and his old brother could be spared from the coming carnage.
"Maybe."
"The Amazons?" Carlisle asked. "Kachiri, Zafrina, and Senna?"
Alice seemed too deep into her vision to answer at first; finally she shuddered, and her eyes flickered back to the present. She met Carlisle"s gaze for the tiniest part of a second, and then looked down.
"I can"t see."
"What was that?" Edward asked, his whisper a demand. "That part in the jungle. Are we going to look for them?"
"I can"t see," Alice repeated, not meeting his eyes. A flash of confusion crossed Edward"s face. "We"ll have to split up and hurry-before the snow sticks to the ground.
We have to round up whomever we can and get them here to show them." She zoned again. "Ask Eleazar. There is more to this than just an immortal child."
The silence was ominous for another long moment while Alice was in her trance. She blinked slowly when it was over, her eyes peculiarly opaque despite the fact that she was clearly in the present."There is so much. We have to hurry," she whispered.
"Alice?" Edward asked. "That was too fast-I didn"t understand. What was-?"
"I can"t see!" she exploded back at him. "Jacob"s almost here!"
Rosalie took a step toward the front door. "I"ll deal with-"
"No, let him come," Alice said quickly, her voice straining higher with each word. She grabbed Jasper"s hand and began pulling him toward the back door. "I"ll see better away from Nessie, too. I need to go. I need to really concentrate. I need to see everything I can. I have to go. Come on, Jasper, there"s no time to waste!"
We all could hear Jacob on the stairs. Alice yanked, impatient, on Jasper"s hand. He followed quickly, confusion in his eyes just like Edward"s. They darted out the door into the silver night.
"Hurry!" she called back to us. "You have to find them all!"
"Find what?" Jacob asked, shutting the front door behind himself. "Where"d Alice go?"
No one answered; we all just stared.
Jacob shook the wet from his hair and pulled his arms through the sleeves of his t-shirt, his eyes on Renesmee. "Hey, Bells! I thought you guys would"ve gone home by now...
He looked up to me finally, blinked, and then stared. I watched his expression as the room"s atmosphere finally touched him. He glanced down, eyes wide, at the wet spot on the floor, the scattered roses, the fragments of crystal. His fingers quivered.
"What?" he asked flatly. "What happened?"
I couldn"t think where to begin. No one else found the words, either.
Jacob crossed the room in three long strides and dropped to his knees beside Renesmee and me. I could feel the heat shaking off his body as tremors rolled down his arms to his shaking hands.
"Is she okay?" he demanded, touching her forehead, tilting his head as he listened to her heart. "Don"t mess with me, Bella, please!"
"Nothing"s wrong with Renesmee," I choked out, the words breaking in strange places.
"Then who?"
"All of us, Jacob," I whispered. And it was there in my voice, too-the sound of the inside of a grave. "It"s over. We"ve all been sentenced to die."
29. DEFECTION.
We sat there all night long, statues of horror and grief, and Alice never came back.
We were all at our limits-frenzied into absolute stillness. Carlisle had barely been able to move his lips to explain it all to Jacob. The retelling seemed to make it worse; even Emmett stood silent and still from then on.
It wasn"t until the sun rose and I knew that Renesmee would soon be stirring under my hands that I wondered for the first time what could possibly be taking Alice so long. I"d hoped to know more before I was faced with my daughter"s curiosity. To have some answers. Some tiny, tiny portion of hope so that I could smile and keep the truth from terrifying her, too.
My face felt permanently set into the fixed mask it had worn all night. I wasn"t sure I had the ability to smile anymore.
Jacob was snoring in the corner, a mountain of fur on the floor, twitching anxiously in his sleep. Sam knew everything-the wolves were readying themselves for what was coming. Not that this preparation would do anything but get them killed with the rest of my family.
The sunlight broke through the back windows, sparkling on Edward"s skin. My eyes had not moved from his since Alice"s departure. We"d stared at each other all night, staring at what neither of us could live through losing: the other. I saw my reflection glimmer in his agonized eyes as the sun touched my own skin.
His eyebrows moved an infinitesimal bit, then his lips.
"Alice," he said.
The sound of his voice was like ice cracking as it melted. All of us fractured a little, softened a little. Moved again.
"She"s been gone a long time," Rosalie murmured, surprised.
"Where could she be?" Emmett wondered, taking a step toward the door.
Esme put a hand on her arm. "We don"t want to disturb ..."
"She"s never taken so long before," Edward said. New worry splintered the mask his face had become. His features were alive again, his eyes suddenly wide with fresh fear, extra panic. "Carlisle, you don"t think-something preemptive? Would Alice have had time to see if they sent someone for her?"
Aro"s translucent-skinned face filled my head. Aro, who had seen into all the corners of Alice"s mind, who knew everything she was capable of- Emmett cussed loud enough that Jacob lurched to his feet with a growl. In the yard, his growl was echoed by his pack. My family was already a blur of action."Stay with Renesmee!" I all but shrieked at Jacob as I sprinted through the door.
I was still stronger than the rest of them, and I used that strength to push myself forward. I overtook Esme in a few bounds, and Rosalie in just a few strides more. I raced through the thick forest until I was right behind Edward and Carlisle.
"Would they have been able to surprise her?" Carlisle asked, his voice as even as if he were standing motionless rather than running at full speed.
"I don"t see how," Edward answered. "But Aro knows her better than anyone else.
Better than I do."
"Is this a trap?" Emmett called from behind us.