"But I need her. She keeps me calm." The edge of panic in my voice was unmistakable.
"Fine," Alice groaned. "Hold her as still as you can and I"ll try to see around her." She sighed wearily, like she"d been asked to work overtime on a holiday. Jacob sighed, too, but brought Renesmee to me, and then retreated quickly from Alice"s glare.
Edward took a seat beside me and put his arms around Renesmee and me. He leaned forward and looked Renesmee very seriously in the eyes.
"Renesmee, someone special is coming to see you and your mother," he said in a solemn voice, as if he expected her to understand every word. Did she? She looked back at him with clear, grave eyes. "But he"s not like us, or even like Jacob. We have to be very careful with him. You shouldn"t tell him things the way you tell us."
Renesmee touched his face.
"Exactly," he said. "And he"s going to make you thirsty. But you mustn"t bite him. He won"t heal like Jacob."
"Can she understand you?" I whispered."She understands. You"ll be careful, won"t you, Renesmee? You"ll help us?"
Renesmee touched him again.
"No, I don"t care if you bite Jacob. That"s fine."
Jacob chuckled.
"Maybe you should leave, Jacob," Edward said coldly, glaring in his direction. Edward hadn"t forgiven Jacob, because he knew that no matter what happened now, I was going to be hurting. But I"d take the burn happily if that were the worst thing I"d face tonight.
"I told Charlie I"d be here," Jacob said. "He needs the moral support."
"Moral support," Edward scoffed. "As far as Charlie knows, you"re the most repulsive monster of us all."
"Repulsive?" Jake protested, and then he laughed quietly to himself.
I heard the tires turn off the highway onto the quiet, damp earth of the Cullens" drive, and my breathing spiked again. My heart ought to have been hammering. It made me anxious that my body didn"t have the right reactions.
I concentrated on the steady thrumming of Renesmee"s heart to calm myself. It worked pretty quickly.
"Well done, Bella," Jasper whispered in approval.
Edward tightened his arm over my shoulders.
"You"re sure?" I asked him.
"Positive. You can do anything." He smiled and kissed me.
It wasn"t precisely a peck on the lips, and my wild vampiric reactions took me off guard yet again. Edward"s lips were like a shot of some addictive chemical straight into my nervous system. I was instantly craving more. It took all my concentration to remember the baby in my arms.
Jasper felt my mood change. "Er, Edward, you might not want to distract her like that right now. She needs to be able to focus."
Edward pulled away. "Oops," he said.
I laughed. That had been my line from the very beginning, from the very first kiss.
"Later," I said, and antic.i.p.ation curled my stomach into a ball.
"Focus, Bella," Jasper urged."Right." I pushed the trembly feelings away. Charlie, that was the main thing now. Keep Charlie safe today. We would have all night...
"Bella."
"Sorry, Jasper."
Emmett laughed.
The sound of Charlie"s cruiser got closer and closer. The second of levity pa.s.sed, and everyone was still. I crossed my legs and practiced my blinks.
The car pulled in front of the house and idled for a few seconds. I wondered if Charlie was as nervous as I was. Then the engine cut off, and a door slammed. Three steps across the gra.s.s, and then eight echoing thuds against the wooden stairs. Four more echoing footsteps across the porch. Then silence. Charlie took two deep breaths.
Knock, knock, knock.
I inhaled for what might be the last time. Renesmee nestled deeper into my arms, hiding her face in my hair.
Carlisle answered the door. His stressed expression changed to one of welcome, like switching the channel on the TV.
"h.e.l.lo, Charlie," he said, looking appropriately abashed. After all, we were supposed to be in Atlanta at the Center for Disease Control. Charlie knew he"d been lied to.
"Carlisle," Charlie greeted him stiffly. "Where"s Bella?"
"Right here, Dad."
Ugh! My voice was so wrong. Plus, I"d used up some of my air supply. I gulped in a quick refill, glad that Charlie"s scent had not saturated the room yet.
Charlie"s blank expression told me how off my voice was. His eyes zeroed in on me and widened.
I read the emotions as they scrolled across his face.
Shock. Disbelief. Pain. Loss. Fear. Anger. Suspicion. More pain.
I bit my lip. It felt funny. My new teeth were sharper against my granite skin than my human teeth had been against my soft human lips.
"Is that you, Bella?" he whispered.
"Yep." I winced at my wind-chime voice. "Hi, Dad."
He took a deep breath to steady himself."Hey, Charlie," Jacob greeted him from the corner. "How"re things?"
Charlie glowered at Jacob once, shuddered at a memory, and then stared at me again.
Slowly, Charlie walked across the room until he was a few feet away from me. He darted an accusing glare at Edward, and then his eyes flickered back to me. The warmth of his body heat beat against me with each pulse of his heart.
"Bella?" he asked again.
I spoke in a lower voice, trying to keep the ring out of it. "It"s really me."
His jaw locked.
"I"m sorry, Dad," I said.
"Are you okay?" he demanded.
"Really and truly great," I promised. "Healthy as a horse."
That was it for my oxygen.
"Jake told me this was... necessary. That you were dying." He said the words like he didn"t believe them one bit.
I steeled myself, focused on Renesmee"s warm weight, leaned into Edward for support, and took a deep breath.
Charlie"s scent was a fistful of flames, punching straight down my throat. But it was so much more than pain. It was a hot stabbing of desire, too. Charlie smelled more delicious than anything I"d ever imagined. As appealing as the anonymous hikers had been on the hunt, Charlie was doubly tempting. And he was just a few feet away, leaking mouthwatering heat and moisture into the dry air.
But I wasn"t hunting now. And this was my father.
Edward squeezed my shoulders sympathetically, and Jacob shot an apologetic glance at me across the room.
I tried to collect myself and ignore the pain and longing of the thirst. Charlie was waiting for my answer.
"Jacob was telling you the truth."
"That makes one of you," Charlie growled.
I hoped Charlie could see past the changes in my new face to read the remorse there.
Under my hair, Renesmee sniffed as Charlie"s scent registered with her, too. I tightened my grip on her.Charlie saw my anxious glance down and followed it. "Oh," he said, and all the anger fell off his face, leaving only shock behind. "This is her. The orphan Jacob said you"re adopting."
"My niece," Edward lied smoothly. He must have decided that the resemblance between Renesmee and him was too p.r.o.nounced to be ignored. Best to claim they were related from the beginning.
"I thought you"d lost your family," Charlie said, accusation returning to his voice.
"I lost my parents. My older brother was adopted, like me. I never saw him after that.
But the courts located me when he and his wife died in a car accident, leaving their only child without any other family."
Edward was so good at this. His voice was even, with just the right amount of innocence. I needed practice so that I could do that.
Renesmee peeked out from under my hair, sniffing again. She glanced shyly at Charlie from under her long lashes, then hid again.
"She"s... she"s, well, she"s a beauty."
"Yes," Edward agreed.
"Kind of a big responsibility, though. You two are just getting started."
"What else could we do?" Edward brushed his fingers lightly over her cheek. I saw him touch her lips for just a moment-a reminder. "Would you have refused her?"
"Hmph. Well." He shook his head absently. "Jake says you call her Nessie?"
"No, we don"t," I said, my voice too sharp and piercing. "Her name is Renesmee."
Charlie refocused on me. "How do you feel about this? Maybe Carlisle and Esme could -"
"She"s mine," I interrupted. "I want her."
Charlie frowned. "You gonna make me a grandpa so young?"
Edward smiled. "Carlisle is a grandfather, too."
Charlie shot an incredulous glance at Carlisle, still standing by the front door; he looked like Zeus"s younger, better-looking brother.
Charlie snorted and then laughed. "I guess that does sort of make me feel better." His eyes strayed back to Renesmee. "She sure is something to look at." His warm breath blew lightly across the s.p.a.ce between us.Renesmee leaned toward the smell, shaking off my hair and looking him full in the face for the first time. Charlie gasped.
I knew what he was seeing. My eyes-his eyes-copied exactly into her perfect face.
Charlie started hyperventilating. His lips trembled, and I could read the numbers he mouthed. He was counting backward, trying to fit nine months into one. Trying to put it together but not able to force the evidence right in front of him to make any sense.
Jacob got up and came over to pat Charlie on the back. He leaned in to whisper something in Charlie"s ear; only Charlie didn"t know we could all hear.
"Need to know, Charlie. It"s okay. I promise."
Charlie swallowed and nodded. And then his eyes blazed as he took a step closer to Edward with his fists tightly clenched.
"I don"t want to know everything, but I"m done with the lies!"
"I"m sorry," Edward said calmly, "but you need to know the public story more than you need to know the truth. If you"re going to be part of this secret, the public story is the one that counts. It"s to protect Bella and Renesmee as well as the rest of us. Can you go along with the lies for them?"
The room was full of statues. I crossed my ankles.
Charlie huffed once and then turned his glare on me. "You might"ve given me some warning, kid."
"Would it really have made this any easier?"
He frowned, and then he knelt on the floor in front of me. I could see the movement of the blood in his neck under his skin. I could feel the warm vibration of it.
So could Renesmee. She smiled and reached one pink palm out to him. I held her back.
She pushed her other hand against my neck, thirst, curiosity, and Charlie"s face in her thoughts. There was a subtle edge to the message that made me think that she"d understood Edward"s words perfectly; she acknowledged thirst, but overrode it in the same thought.
"Whoa," Charlie gasped, his eyes on her perfect teeth. "How old is she?"
"Um ..."
"Three months," Edward said, and then added slowly, "rather, she"s the size of a three- month-old, more or less. She"s younger in some ways, more mature in others."
Very deliberately, Renesmee waved at him.
Charlie blinked spastically.Jacob elbowed him. "Told you she was special, didn"t I?"