"What matter?" said he. Lucia would have been very angry, and perhaps ought to have been so; for what business of Campbell"s was it whether her husband were kind to her or not? But there was a deep sadness, almost despair, in the tone, which disarmed her.
"Oh, Major Campbell, is it not a glorious thing to be a poet? And is it not a glorious thing to be a poet"s wife? Oh, for the sake of that--if I could but see him honoured, appreciated, famous, as he will be some day!
Though I think" (and she spoke with all a woman"s pride) "he is somewhat famous now, is he not?"
"Famous? Yes," answered Campbell, with an abstracted voice, and then rejoined quickly, "If you could but see that, what then?"
"Why then," said she, with a half smile (for she had nearly entrapped herself into an admission of what she was determined to conceal)--"why then, I should be still more what I am now, his devoted little wife, who cares for n.o.body and nothing but putting his study to rights, and bringing up his children."
"Happy children!" said he, after a pause, and half to himself, "who have such a mother to bring them up."
"Do you really think so? But flattery used not to be one of your sins.
Ah, I wish you could give me some advice about how I am to teach them."
"So it is she who has the work of education, not he!" thought Campbell to himself; and then answered gaily,--
"My dear madam, what can a confirmed old bachelor like me know about children?"
"Oh, don"t you know" (and she gave one of her pretty Irish laughs) "that it is the old maids who always write the children"s books, for the benefit of us poor ignorant married women? But" (and she spoke earnestly again) "we all know how wise and good you are. I did not know it in old times. I am afraid I used to torment you when I was young and foolish."
"Where on earth can Mellot and Mr. Vavasour be?" asked Campbell.
"Oh, never mind! Mr. Mellot has gone wandering down the glen with his apparatus, and my Elsley has gone wandering after him, and will find him in due time, with his head in a black bag, and a great bull just going to charge him from behind, like that hapless man in "Punch." I always tell Mr. Mellot that will be his end."
Campbell was deeply shocked to hear the light tone in which she talked of the pa.s.sionate temper of a man whom she so surely loved. How many outbursts of it there must have been; how many paroxysms of astonishment, shame, and grief,--perhaps, alas! counterbursts of anger-- ere that heart could have become thus proof against the ever-lowering thunder-storm!
"Well," he said, "all we can do is to walk down to the car, and let them follow; and, meanwhile, I will give you my wise opinion about this education question, whereof I know nothing."
"It will be all oracular to me, for I know nothing either;" and she put her arm through his, and walked on.
"Did you hurt yourself then? I am sure you are in pain."
"I? Never less free from it, with many thanks to you. What made you think so?"
"I heard you breathe so hard, and quite stamp your feet, I thought. I suppose it was fancy."
It was not fancy, nevertheless. Major Campbell was stamping down something; and succeeded too in crushing it.
They walked on toward the car, Valencia and Headley following them: ere they arrived at the place where they were to meet it, it was quite dark: but what was more important, the car was not there.
"The stupid man must have mistaken his orders, and gone home."
"Or let his horse go home of itself, while he was asleep inside. He was more than half tipsy when we started."
So spoke the Major, divining the exact truth. There was nothing to be done but to walk the four miles home, and let the two truants follow as they could.
"We shall have plenty of time for our educational lecture," said Lucia.
"Plenty of time to waste, then, my clear lady."
"Oh, I never talk with you five minutes--I do not know why--without feeling wiser and happier. I envy Valencia for having seen so much of you of late."
Little thought poor Lucia, as she spoke those innocent words, that within four yards of her, crouched behind the wall, his face and every limb writhing with mingled curiosity and rage, was none other but her husband.
He had given place to the devil: and the devil (for the "superst.i.tious"
and "old-world" notion which attributes such frenzies to the devil has not yet been superseded by a better one) had entered into him, and concentrated all the evil habits and pa.s.sions which he had indulged for years into one flaming h.e.l.l within him.
Miserable man! His torments were sevenfold: and if he had sinned, he was at least punished. Not merely by all which a husband has a right to feel in such a case, or fancies that he has a right; not merely by tortured vanity and self-conceit, by the agony of seeing any man preferred to him, which to a man of Elsley"s character was of itself unbearable;--not merely by the loss of trust in one whom he hail once trusted utterly:-- but, over and above all, and worst of all, by the feeling of shame, self-reproach, self-hatred, which haunts a jealous man, and which ought to haunt him; for few men lose the love of women who have once loved them, save by their own folly or baseness:--by the recollection that he had traded on her trust; that he had drugged his own conscience with the fancy that she must love him always, let him do what he would; and had neglected and insulted her affection, because he fancied, in his conceit, that it was inalienable. And with the loss of self-respect, came recklessness of it, and drove him on, as it has jealous men in all ages, to meannesses unspeakable, which have made them for centuries, poor wretches, the b.u.t.ts of worthless playwrights, and the scorn of their fellow-men.
Elsley had wandered, he hardly knew how or whither, for his calling to Mellot was the merest blind,--stumbling over rocks, bruising himself against tree-trunks, to this wall. He knew they must pa.s.s it. He waited for them, and had his reward. Blind with rage, he hardly waited for the sound of their footsteps to die away, before he had sprung into the road, and hurried up in the opposite direction,--anywhere, everywhere,-- to escape from them, and from self. Whipt by the furies, he fled along the road and up the vale, he cared not whither.
And what were Headley and Valencia, who of necessity had paired off together, doing all the while? They walked on silently side by side for ten minutes; then Frank said,--
"I have been impertinent, Miss St. Just, and I beg your pardon."
"No, you have not," said she, quite hastily. "You were right, too right,--has it not been proved within the last five minutes? My poor sister! What can be done to mend Mr. Vavasour"s temper? I wish you could talk to him, Mr. Headley."
"He is beyond my art. His age, and his talents, and his--his consciousness of them," said Frank, using the mildest term he could find, "would prevent so insignificant a person as me having any influence. But what I cannot do, G.o.d"s grace may."
"Can it change a man"s character, Mr. Headley? It may make good men better--but can it cure temper?"
"Major Campbell must have told you that it can do anything."
"Ah, yes: with men as wise, and strong, and n.o.ble as he is; but with such a weak, vain man--"
"Miss St. Just, I know one who is neither wise, nor strong, nor n.o.ble: but as weak and vain as any man; in whom G.o.d has conquered--as He may conquer yet in Mr. Vavasour--all which makes man cling to life."
"What all?" asked she, suspecting, and not wrongly, that he spoke of himself.
"All, I suppose, which it is good for them to have crushed. There are feelings which last on, in spite of all struggles to quench them--I suppose, because they ought to last; because, while they torture, they still enn.o.ble. Death will quench them: or if not, satisfy them: or if not, set them at rest somehow."
"Death?" answered she, in a startled tone.
"Yes. Our friend, Major Campbell"s friend, Death. We have been seeing a good deal of him together lately, and have come to the conclusion that he is the most useful, pleasant, and instructive of all friends."
"Oh, Mr. Headley, do not speak so! Are you in earnest?"
"So much in earnest, that I have resolved to go out as an army chaplain, to see in the war somewhat more of my new friend."
"Impossible! Mr. Headley; it will kill you!--All that horrible fever and cholera!"
"And what possible harm can it do me, if it does kill me, Miss St.
Just!"
"Mr. Headley, this is madness! I--we cannot allow you to throw away your life thus--so young, and--and such prospects before you! And there is nothing that my brother would not do for you, were it only for your heroism at Aberalva. There is not one of the family who does not love and respect you, and long to see all the world appreciating you as we do; and your poor mother--"
"I have told my mother all, Miss St. Just. And she has said "Go; it is your only hope." She has other sons to comfort her. Let us say no more of it. Had I thought that you would have disapproved of it, I would never have mentioned the thing."
"Disapprove of--your going to die? You shall not! And for me, too: for I guess all--all is my fault!"