Chapter 196.3: Emotionally Moved, Long Time No See
“It’s not that I want to compete with someone, it’s that someone wants to compete with me. I indeed don’t want to bicker with her, but she will definitely cling on to it and not let go. If the things she uses are better than mine, she will definitely chatter on and on, flaunting endlessly. That little smug appearance isn’t as interesting as her resenting look of jealousy. I’m purely just going to anger her.”
“You ah, really becoming more and more eccentric.” Luo Old Madam tapped her through the air. “Didn’t you say just now she was precious like gold, and can’t afford to be angered?”
Jing Wan revealed a wanton smile, “I suddenly remembered, fourth younger sister’s vitality is quite tenacious, else why every time when I think she won’t appear again to look for suffering, she would appear again with full of spirit.”
Luo Old Madam shook her head, a look of ‘unable to do anything about her’.
Li Hong Yuan’s heart on one hand was like as if incessantly getting scratched by a kitten, unbearably itchy, hating that he can’t disregard everything and have Jing Wan pulled into his embrace and ruthlessly ravage. And on the other hand, he was somewhat burning in jealousy. Wan Wan extravagantly dressing up wasn’t for his sake, so he wanted to have that person that made her ‘care’ this much minced and fed to the dogs.
Li Hong Yuan drank the tea, his gaze towards Jing Wan becoming increasingly serene, as if the tea in the cup was actually formed from Jing Wan’s soul, drinking little by little, incomparably delicious.
As such, when Jing Wan inadvertently met with Li Hong Yuan’s eyes, she was slightly startled. Jing Wan’s eyes s.h.i.+fted around somewhat, not daring to look directly at him. She kept feeling that he increasingly wanted to have her eaten into his stomach. She very much suspected whether or not he really would be able to endure until their wedding, and strangely recalled a certain someone’s size, her heart s.h.i.+vering. Her body right now was just fourteen, she’ll die! Why did these ancient people have such heavy taste? How were they able to put their mouths to it? However, she recalled in another place, that one that was even younger than her by a day, now even having a child already. Jing Wan increasingly felt unwell all over.
Don’t know as to what she thought of, but in a blink of an eye, her expression was somewhat changing indefinitely, absentmindedly lost in thought, to the point where even when Li Hong Yuan walked before her, she didn’t notice at all. Li Hong Yuan softly chuckled, and Jing Wan finally returned to her senses. Seeing the person before her, she subconsciously retreated two steps, and after realizing what she’d just thought of earlier, her face flushed red.
This reaction made Li Hong Yuan increasingly curious as to what she thought of. One has to know, in his perception, Jing Wan wasn’t someone that would easily be embarra.s.sed, especially during intimate interactions. It was mostly his intentional or otherwise teasing that would further stir up her heartstrings. However, in order to avoid her getting angry out of embarra.s.sment, he didn’t question either. “Let’s go.”
Jing Wan calmed herself, letting the heat on her face gradually fade away. Seeing how he was about to leave just like that, and Liu mama was still kneeling on the ground, also Jing Wan wasn’t sure whether or not there was shattered shards of the tea cup under her knees……… “w.a.n.gye……”
“En?”
“Rui Qinw.a.n.g’s servant, isn’t it more appropriate to hand over to Rui Qinw.a.n.g to handle?”
“Jing Wan is pleading for her?” Li Hong Yuan asked.
“No. Just, this is the Luo family’s place. Regardless of who lets her kneel here, for the Luo family, it all isn’t a good thing.”
That look of Liu mama’s that was like secretly appraising the worth of a commodity, not only angered Li Hong Yuan, it naturally also made Jing Wan displeased. Towards this kind of person, to even plea for leniency, it’s not like she was her mother.
If Jing Wan really was pleading for leniency for her, Li Hong Yuan won’t not agree, but the Wan Wan who expressed her true feelings made him further delighted. “In this world, there are always those that believe themselves to be infallible. This prince has never made anyone kneel. Jing Wan, you must remember, no matter how many little fish and shrimps you crush to death, it’s all meaningless. When a batch dies, there will just be even more, truly a waste of strength, far less satisfying than directly slaughtering a big fish, and can even eliminate the problems from the root.”
Jing Wan blanked. Li Hong Yuan, this man——-living Enma, wasn’t good to offend to begin with, and moreover, vicious and black-hearted, his intelligence exceeding the limit, his schemes and sophistication not lacking at all. Yet, he even had a perfect face, practically just an ultimate weapon, the destructive power as well as killing scale simply difficult to estimate.
Li Hong Yuan originally wanted to touch her face, but in the end, endured it, softly saying, “Don’t be scared.”
Jing Wan had seen the terrifying scene when he killed someone, and afterwards, he also said something similar. In this moment, Jing Wan really believed, even if he went against the entire world, he still won’t harm her. What to do, this kind of man, even if tainted with stains, seemingly still can very easily make one’s heart move. Once, twice, the heart raced, and as the number of times increased, perhaps she really will be moved.
In this moment, Jing Wan finally realized, her own heart wasn’t something that even if she wanted to guard with all her might, she’ll really be able to guard, somewhat scared, yet also somewhat excited. If one doesn’t try, although it will put an end to getting hurt, it will also make the days dull like water. And in the future, when one looks back, one’s memories will just be a sheet of white paper. After all, what truly will remain in the memories usually were all the profound things, just like how she won’t remember what she ate a few days ago, but towards her first intimate interaction with this man before her, she afraid all won’t forget even until death.
Then, why not just let it be, and just let nature take its course. Why not see whether or not this man really will make her heart move. After all, what’s the harm in tasting the different flavors of life brought about by love? ———–However, Jing Wan felt, based on everything Jin Qinw.a.n.g has done so far, whether or not she will be moved, it was very easy and also very difficult. The greatest barrier was nothing more than just those women. The ones in the past, she can disregard, but the ones in the future, will just have to see whether or not he’ll be able to guard against. Reasonably speaking, for frivolous and l.u.s.tful men, it was very difficult to return from that lifestyle, but in the months after she entered the capital, she also never heard any rumors of him stirring up some love affairs. Perhaps, the so called extreme pampering was just a kind of diversionary tactic.
Jing Wan was very clear, this was actually also her firmest bottom line, and also the boundary between being moved and completely falling for him. If it’s just being moved, then she can completely sever her feelings with rationality, but if it’s completely falling for him………………..
Her rationality right now perhaps was ‘if my lord is heartless, I will cease’. But when that time really comes, humans, more often than not, were irrational. If he really were to give her too high of an expectation, and then personally destroy it, perhaps she will drag him to die with her.
(T/N: Tbh a lot of times JW and LHY have the same mentality; they really are very much alike.)
However, thinking about these now was seemingly all excessive.
A few days ago, she was still thinking of just having him regarded as family, yet now, she was indulging herself. Such a rapid change, even Jing Wan herself was all unable to foresee. She looked to Li Hong Yuan, suddenly smiling, “w.a.n.gye, you’ve already won the first step, if this is your aim, then please continue working hard, this subject very much look forward to it.”
Jin Qinw.a.n.g’s every word and action, to say he didn’t have a purpose, Jing Wan naturally didn’t believe. Right now, she’ll just treat it all as him trying to pursue her.
Li Hong Yuan slightly raised his eyebrow. He seemingly understood a bit of something, yet also seemed to not understand. However, seeing Jing Wan’s bright smile, he very much wanted to just kiss her, but there were too many bothersome people present.
“w.a.n.gye, we should go now.”
Li Hong Yuan, as well as the masters of the Luo family, all left. As for Liu mama, she also slowly got up, but that heart alarming feeling didn’t disperse for a long time. If they were the little fish and shrimps, then their master naturally was that big fish. It’s the most satisfying to slaughter a big fish? What did this mean? Jin Qinw.a.n.g actually also………….
Liu mama staggered, nearly losing her footing. The stinging pain on her knees was just like as if her two legs were about to waste away. She bitterly smiled, how long has it been since she’s suffered like this? Didn’t let her kneel? That’s right, it was her that couldn’t endure and just kneeled down on her own, but the other party’s status was that honorable, without calling for her to get up, would she dare to get up?
Liu mama endured the pain, following after as quickly as possible. She didn’t forget, it was originally because of her that Jin Qinw.a.n.g wanted to go question their w.a.n.gye. It was also her fault. When in the Rui Qinw.a.n.g Manor, she was too used to being respected, so it was inevitable for her to give birth to some traits that a servant shouldn’t have. Moreover, the places she came in contact with year round were all the inner manor. Even if it was other families, knowing her ident.i.ty, they all respected her to some extent, so perhaps momentarily making her somewhat lose herself in complacency, actually forgetting that there were still many people that can easily crush her to death, and moreover, not at all different from crus.h.i.+ng an ant to death. When facing Jin Qinw.a.n.g, she should’ve been further clear of this bit, but in a moment of carelessness, she just committed a blunder. To say it was big, it actually wasn’t that big of a deal either, just her eyes were a bit wanton, but to say it was small, it was also possible for her to have just lost her life on the spot.
Also, Jin Qinw.a.n.g’s latter remarks, how should she say to her own w.a.n.gye?