Chapter 136.3: Violent Rage, Vomiting Blood
“It’s best for it to be cancelled, that is just a shameless vixen. In the past, you would listen to me for everything, but ever since you met her, you’ve become disobedient and unfilial, even becoming rebellious. Something as important as marriage, not letting me know anything, and just letting me prepare to go propose marriage, what position are you all putting me in? Also, with her status that low, how can she match with you? And today, one can also tell, she’s also easily jealous, unable to tolerate others in the slightest. This kind of daughter-in-law, I don’t dare to want. ——–Withdraw the engagement? What right do they have to withdraw the engagement, it should be us that’s withdrawing. What right do they have to nitpick my son? So what if my son has other women, men having three wives and four concubines, it’s been this way since ancient times. They even dare to withdraw the engagement, what do they take our Ding Duke Manor as?”
Right and left, it was just wanting to give Jing Wan a label of ‘easily jealous and not tolerating of others’. In the end, it was nothing more than wanting to cover up the things she did. Even if it’s to withdraw the engagement, she still needed to have the dirty water splashed onto Jing Wan.
In this moment, Sun Yi Lin really felt everything was unprecedentedly laughable, “This was the reason why you targeted Jing Wan? Am I your son or the puppet in your hands? Must one consider your feelings first on all things? I suddenly wonder, is it because my father is too frivolous, you’re unable to hold on to him, and I, this son, need to rely on you for everything, that’s why, it let you produce the misconception of a s.h.i.+ft in affections. You can’t tolerate me valuing anyone more than you? If I take a wife and have children, they will inevitably become the people I care about the most. When that time comes, mother, will you even resent your own grandson out of jealousy?”
The Ding d.u.c.h.ess’s complexion was deathly pale, don’t know whether it was because Sun Yi Lin’s words. .h.i.t the mark, making her not know how to retort, or because she was angered to the point of speechlessness.
Sun Yi Lin once again looked towards the verdant and lush flower bush before him, “Also, mother, you don’t need to continue deceiving yourself. The Luo family didn’t withdraw the engagement because of that child, but rather because of you. They’re not nitpicking me, but you. I already said, don’t have others treated as fools. Who would give that Shen family shu daughter backing, it’s truly too obvious. Mother, it was you that ruined my good marriage fate.” Sun Yi Lin just felt his eyes were painfully astringent, but he just wasn’t able to cry out. “I also feel, perhaps younger sister and I aren’t your real children, but rather carried back by you from elsewhere, and moreover, even your enemy’s children.”
“Sun Yi Lin——-” The Ding d.u.c.h.ess’s voice was exceptionally sharp, “How can you, how can you say such heart-wrenching words?” She two eyes reddening, just feeling bursts of seizing pain in her heart.
“Is this not the case? Else, why would you hate us this much, unable tolerate seeing us live well? I’ve only seen mothers, who for the sake of fulfilling their son’s wish, would spare no means, but never seen one, where just because their son expressed care towards his fiancee, the mother just schemed in every way possible to obstruct by any means necessary, and for the sake of sweeping her son’s fiancee’s face, not even consider for the son in the least. Mother, you feel I’m contradicting you, my words stabbing into you and killing your heart? But don’t you know, my heart right now is bleeding. It was you that used a knife to stab it again and again. Right now, it’s filled with thousands of cuts, hundreds of holes.”
Seemingly as if trying to prove his words, Sun Yi Lin covered his chest, his body staggering, and ‘pff’, directly sprayed a mouthful of blood.
“Yi Lin——-” This sudden turn of events made the Ding d.u.c.h.ess nearly lose her soul, where was there still any anger left. She hurriedly reached out to support him, “Where is everyone, someone come, where did you all die off to, quickly call the doctor.”
Sun Yi Lin steadied himself, brus.h.i.+ng aside the Ding d.u.c.h.ess’s hand, very indifferently wiped his lips. That dark red blood on his hand was particularly glaring to the eyes. “Younger sister is a daughter-in-law of the Luo family. If you’re the Luo family, how would you treat younger sister? You should thank Jing Wan, if not for her, younger sister afraid would’ve already been thrown into a corner by the entire Luo family. And if a bit more ruthless, even making younger brother-in-law directly divorce her is all possible. If such were to happen, it’ll probably be as directly asking for younger sister’s life.
Don’t say something like the Luo family wouldn’t dare, this kind of thing, either. So what if the Ding Duke Manor is a Duke’s Manor, did you really think we can single-handedly cover the skies? For Sir Luo to be able to sit onto the position of Head Minister of Appointments, his means naturally are no laughing matter. If he were to hardened his heart, he’ll definitely be able to tear a piece of flesh off the Ding Duke Manor, letting the Ding Duke Manor’s strength greatly weaken.
Younger sister is our blood relative, but as the people of her maiden home, never mind that we can’t help her, we even repeatedly become a burden to her. Her blood relatives don’t heartache for her, don’t care for her, and she, as a new bride, need to rely on her husband’s family’s younger sister-in-law to establish herself. And the one that cares for her the most is also this younger sister-in-law, but this younger sister-in-law of hers is instead viewed as an enemy by her own mother.
I’ve always thought, you were sensible, genuinely open-minded and magnanimous, similarly able to see the situation clearly, a qualifying matriarch of the household, and also a qualifying virtuous wife. I also thought, towards younger sister, you still very much doted on, and also thought, you’ve always loved me the most————–yet, turns out, the one you care about the most is yourself. You don’t allow others to ignore you, don’t allow others to disobey you, if from the start, it’s something that can’t be controlled by you, then so be it, for instance, my father, the Empress, and so on. But for those that you can control, for instance myself and younger sister, once we cross your bottom line, you will go mad, losing your rationality, disregarding all consequences, only wanting to satisfy yourself.”
Seemingly all the unbearable things were all exposed, exposed under the bright sunlight. The Ding d.u.c.h.ess tightly clenched her teeth, fixedly staring at Sun Yi Lin, seemingly the act of him vomiting blood just now was also completely forgotten, “Unfilial son……….”
Sun Yi Lin pretended not to hear, “Since you can’t tolerate my care towards others to surpa.s.s you, and for better or worse, you’re my mother, giving birth to me and raising me for more than ten years, then what harm is there in granting your wish. In this lifetime, I will never take a wife, so you won’t need to worry about me extending my elbows outwards, having a wife and not wanting the mother. ———-These plants and flowers, if you want to burn, then just burn them.”
After saying this, Sun Yi Lin directly headed out without even turning back his head.
The Ding d.u.c.h.ess watched Sun Yi Lin’s departing figure, only feeling the heaven and earth spinning, fainting just like that. Her body went limp, and she just directly collapsed onto the ground.
“Madam………”
The servants’ startled cries made Sun Yi Lin pause his steps. Touching his face, he ultimately turned back, quickly returning and having the Ding d.u.c.h.ess lifted horizontally, sending her back into the room. He didn’t urgently call for the doctor. The doctor that the Ding d.u.c.h.ess called for him probably will arrive soon. In the end, he used this time to clean himself up, also applying medicine to his face.
Compared to Chen Zheng Min, Sun Yi Lin was clearly more mature, his mental fort.i.tude also much stronger, but at the same time, this also meant that his nature was even harder to alter, and for the things he’s decided, it was also very hard to turn around.
After the Ding d.u.c.h.ess got treated by the doctor with the acupuncture needle, she very quickly woke up. Seeing Sun Yi Lin to the side, she uncontrollably began crying, “Yi Lin……….”
Sun Yi Lin’s face didn’t have any ripples, faintly giving the Ding d.u.c.h.ess a glance, “Since you’re awake, then just go back and rest.”
The Ding d.u.c.h.ess saw Sun Yi Lin about to leave again, “Yi Lin, are you really intending on becoming estranged with me to this degree for the sake of a vixen?”
Sun Yi Lin fixedly stared at her, “I merely admire Luo third miss, so she’s a vixen? Then, in the past, during that period of time when father had feelings for mother, was mother also a vixen? Don’t make the last bit of sentiments between us as mother and son disappear too, don’t make me not want to return to this home anymore, don’t make me not want to call you mother anymore……..”
Why to this point was she still unable to wake up to reality? Does she not know that this Ding d.u.c.h.ess position of hers is already in imminent danger? Nine times out of ten, it will only be the name that remains, with the reality gone! Doesn’t she know that the true troubles still have yet to come?
He for the most part can be certain, the Shen family will insist that the child is his. People of the enemy faction will use this opportunity to tarnish him without sparing any effort, reducing his influence among scholars. The Empress, perhaps, for the sake of saving him, will just have his mother completely thrown out. But that way, it similarly will damage the Ding Duke Manor’s reputation. The best way was still to have the blame pushed onto the Shen family. But, if that Miss Shen were to do something like committing suicide, even if it’s just for show, the public opinion will also lean towards the Shen family. After all, people are inherently partial to the weak.
Also the Luo family. There still exist a trace of possibility of remedying this engagement, and that is, for his mother to no longer exist in the Ding Duke Manor. That possibility really wasn’t big. This matter with the Shen family, even if thoroughly exposed to the world, revealed to the heavens, at most, it was just getting denounced by others. Aside from this, he really was unable to have her dragged down from this position.
This shred of hope was actually the same as not having any.
Sun Yi Lin just felt the two sides of his temple pulsing in pain. Everything was all very smooth, yet seemingly also in complete disorder. However, the only thing he was certain of was that he didn’t want to go take care of the engagement that quickly. To delay a day was a day counted. That way, he can still lie to himself that Jing Wan was still his fiancee.
The Ding d.u.c.h.ess saw him carrying exhaustion, sorrow, and even despair on his face. She ultimately heartached. Did she really do wrong? “Yi Lin………”
“If father asks, just say it was I that lost the jade pendant. Everything else, I’ll take care of.”
T/N: There’s something that Jing Wan said to Sun Yi Jia in a that’s very important. When it comes to the rear court, it’s never about how smart, resourceful or scheming a person is, those are just methods those at the bottom need to use to survive. For those at the top of the food chain with absolute power, those things aren’t needed. Just like how Jing Wan said, for her to be able to live unrestrainedly in the Luo family rear court, it isn’t because she’s smart or scheming, but because she has the backing of the two with the highest authority in the family.