Tally was amazed that she was lying again, already. If she had only told the truth about herself in the first place, the Smokies would have known what to do with the pendant. They could have attached it to some migratory bird, and Dr. Cable would be on her way to South America instead of in the library overseeing the destruction of the Smoke.
But Tally knew she couldn"t tell the truth, not now. David would never trust her again, not after she"d destroyed his home, his family. She"d already lost Peris, Shay, and her new home. She couldn"t bear to lose David as well.
And what good would a confession do now? David would be left alone, and so would she, when they most needed each other.
His hands ran across her face. "You still amaze me, Tally."
She felt herself shudder, the words twisting in her like a knife.
In that moment, Tally made a deal with herself. Eventually she would have to tell David what she had unwittingly done. Not now, but someday. When she"d made things better, fixed part of what she had destroyed, maybe then he would understand. "We"ll go after them," she said. "Rescue them."
"Who? My parents?"
"They came from my city, right? So that"s where they"ll take them. And Shay and Croy, too. We"ll rescue them all."
David laughed bitterly. "Us two? Against a bunch of Specials?"
"They won"t expect us."
"But how will we find them? I"ve never been inside a city, but I hear they"re pretty big. More than a million people."
Tally took a slow breath, once again remembering her first trip out to Dr. Cable"s office. The low, dirt-colored buildings at the edge of the city, past the greenbelt and among the factories. The huge, misshapen hill nearby. "I know where they"ll be."
"You what?" David pulled away from their embrace.
"I"ve been there. Special Circ.u.mstances headquarters."
There was a moment of silence. "I thought they were secret. Most of the kids who come out here don"t even believe in them."
She went on, quietly horrified that another lie was coming into her head with such ease. "A while ago I pulled a really bad trick, the kind that gets you special attention." She rested her head against David again, glad that she couldn"t see his trusting expression. "I snuck into New Pretty Town. That"s where you live right after the operation, having fun all the time."
"I"ve heard of it. And uglies aren"t allowed in, right?"
"Yeah. It"s a pretty serious trick. Anyway, I wore this mask and crashed a party. They almost caught me, so I grabbed a bungee jacket."
"Which is?"
"Like a hoverboard, but you wear it. It was invented for escaping tall buildings in a fire, but new pretties use it mostly for goofing around. So I grabbed one, pulled a fire alarm, and jumped off the roof. It freaked a lot of people out."
"Right. Shay told me the whole story on our way to the Smoke, saying you were the coolest ugly in the world," he said. "But all I was thinking was that things must bereally boring in the city."
"Yeah, I guess so."
"But you got caught? Shay didn"t mention that."
The lie took form as she spoke, pulling on as many strands of truth as it could reach. "Yeah, I thought I"d gotten away, but they found my DNA or something. A few days later they took me to Special Circ.u.mstances, introduced me to this scary woman. I think she was in charge there. It was the first time I"d ever seen Specials."
"Are they really that bad up close?"
She nodded in the dark. "They"re beautiful, absolutely. But in a cruel, horrible way. The first time"s the worst. They only wanted to scare me, though. They warned me I"d be in big trouble if I ever got caught again. Or if I ever told anyone. That"s why I never mentioned it to Shay."
"That explains a lot."
"About what?"
"About you. You always seemed to know how dangerous it was here in the Smoke. Somehow, you understood what the cities were really like, even before my parents told you the truth about the operation. You were the only runaway I ever met who really got it."
Tally nodded. That much was true. "I get it."
"And you still want to go back there for my parents and Shay? To risk getting caught? To risk your mind?"
A sob broke in her voice. "I have to."To make it up to you.
David held her tighter, tried to kiss her. She had to turn her face away, tears finally coming.
"Tally, you are amazing."
Ruin
They didn"t leave the cave until the next morning.
Tally squinted in the dawn light, eyes scanning the sky for a fleet of hovercars suddenly rising above the trees. But they hadn"t heard any sound of a search all night. Maybe now that the Smoke was destroyed, catching the last few runaways wasn"t worth the trouble.
David"s hoverboard had spent the night hidden in the cave, and hadn"t had any sunlight for a whole day now, but it had just enough charge to get them back up the mountain. They rode to the river. Tally"s stomach rumbled after a whole day without food, but the first thing she needed was water. Her mouth was so dry, she could hardly talk.
David knelt at the bank and dipped his head under the icy water. Tally shivered at the sight. Without a blanket or shoes, she"d frozen in the cave all night long, even huddled in David"s arms. She needed warm food in her before she could face anything colder than the morning breeze.
"What if the Smoke"s still occupied?" she asked. "Where will we get food?"
"You said they put prisoners in the rabbit pen? Where"d the rabbits go?"
"All over."
"Exactly. They should be everywhere by now. And they aren"t hard to catch."
She grimaced. "Well, okay. As long as we cook them."
David laughed. "Of course."
"I"ve never actually started a fire," she admitted.
"Don"t worry. You"re a natural." He stepped onto his board and held out his hand.
Riding double was something Tally had never done before, and she found herself glad she was with David and not just anyone. She stood in front of him, bodies touching, her arms out, his hands around her waist. They negotiated the turns without words, Tally shifting her weight gradually, waiting for David to follow her lead. As they slowly got the hang of it, their bodies began to move together, threading the board down the familiar path as one.
It worked, as long as they went slowly, but Tally kept her ears open for sounds of pursuit. If a hovercar appeared, a full-speed escape was going to be tricky.
They smelled the Smoke long before they saw it.
From high up the mountain, the buildings had the look of a burned-out campfire, smoking, crumbling, blackened through and through. Nothing moved in the compound, except a few pieces of paper stirred by the wind.
"Looks like it burned all night," Tally said.
David nodded, speechless. Tally grasped his hand, wondering what it was like to see your childhood home reduced to a smoking ruin.
"I"m so sorry, David," she said.
"We have to go down. I need to see if my parents..." He swallowed the words.
Tally searched for signs of anyone remaining in the Smoke. It seemed entirely deserted, but there might be a few Specials in hiding, waiting for stragglers to reappear. "We should wait."
"I can"t. My parents" house is on the other side of the ridge. Maybe the Specials didn"t see it."
"If they missed it, Maddy and Az will still be there."
"But what if they ran?"
"Then we"ll find them. In the meantime, let"s not get caught ourselves."
David sighed. "All right."
Tally held his hand tight. They unfolded the hoverboard and waited as the sun climbed, watching for any sign of a human being below. Occasionally, the embers of the fires flared to life in the breeze, the last standing columns of wood collapsing one by one, crumbling into ash.
A few animals rummaged for food, and Tally watched in silent horror as a stray rabbit was taken by a wolf, the short struggle leaving only a patch of blood and fur. This was what was left of nature, raw and wild, only hours after the Smoke had fallen.
"Ready to go down?" David asked after an hour.
"No," Tally said. "But I never will be."
They approached slowly, ready to turn and fly if any Specials appeared. But when they reached the edge of town, Tally felt her anxiety turn to something worse: a horrible certainty that no one remained there.
Her home was gone, replaced by nothing but charred wreckage.
At the rabbit pen, footprints showed where groups of Smokies had been moved in and out through the gates, a whole community turned into cattle. A few rabbits still hopped around on the dirt.
"Well, at least we won"t starve," David said.
"I guess not," Tally said, although the sight of the Smoke had stilled her hunger. She wondered how David always managed to think practical thoughts, no matter what horrors were in front of him. "Hey, what"s that?"
At one corner of the pen, just outside the fence, cl.u.s.ters of little shapes lay on the ground.
They edged the board closer, David squinting through a drifting wall of smoke. "It looks like...shoes."
Tally blinked. He was right. She lowered the board and jumped off, running to the spot.
Tally looked around in amazement. Around her were scattered twenty or so pairs of shoes, in all sizes.
She fell to her knees to look closer. The laces were still tied, as if the shoes had been kicked off by people whose hands were bound behind them....
"Croy recognized me," she murmured.
"What?"
Tally turned to David. "When I escaped, I flew right over the pen. Croy must have seen it was me. He knew I didn"t have shoes. We joked about it."
She imagined the Smokies, helplessly awaiting their fate, making one last gesture of defiance. Croy would have kicked his own shoes off, then whispered to whomever he could: "Tally"s free, and barefoot." They"d left her with a score of pairs to pick from, the only way they could help the one Smokey they"d seen escape.
"They knew I"d come back here." Her voice faltered. What they didn"t know was who had betrayed them.
She picked a pair that looked about the right size, with grippy soles for hoverboarding, and pulled them on. They fit, even better than the ones the rangers had given her.
Jumping back on the board, Tally had to hide the pained expression on her face. This is what it would be like from now on. Every gesture of kindness from her victims would only make her feel worse. "Okay, let"s go."
The hoverpath wound through the smoking camp, over what streets remained between the charred ruins.
Beside a long building, now little more than a ridge of blackened rubble, David pulled the board to a halt.
"I was afraid of this."
Tally tried to picture what had stood there. Her knowledge of the Smoke had evaporated, the familiar streets reduced to an unrecognizable sprawl of ash and embers.
Then she saw a few blackened pages fluttering in the wind. The library.
"They didn"t take the books out before they...," she cried. "But why?"
"They don"t want people to know what it was like before the operation. They want to keep you hating yourselves. Otherwise, it"s too easy to get used to ugly faces,normal faces."
Tally turned around to look into David"s eyes. "Some of them, anyway."
He smiled sadly.
Then a thought crossed her mind. "The Boss was running away with some old magazines. Maybe he escaped."
"On foot?" David sounded dubious.
"I hope so." She leaned, and the board slid toward the edge of town.
A blotch of pepper still marked the ground where she had fought the Special. Tally jumped off, trying to remember exactly where the Boss had escaped into the forest.
"If he got away, he must be long gone," David said.
Tally pushed her way into the brush, looking for signs of a struggle. The morning sun was streaming through the leaves, and a trail of broken bushes cut into the forest. The Boss had been none too graceful, leaving a path like a charging elephant.
She found the duffel bag half-hidden, shoved under a moss-covered fallen tree. Zipping it open, Tally saw that the magazines were still there, each one lovingly wrapped in its own plastic cover. She slung the bag over her shoulder, glad to have salvaged something from the library, a small victory over Dr. Cable.