"I shall be too busy to come till after then," I replied quietly, for I did not wish him to think that I was ready to jump at any invitation to Gladwyn. He seemed rather disconcerted at my coldness.
"Why, it is more than ten days to Christmas! I hope you do not mean to be stiff and unneighbourly, Miss Garston. I am afraid," with a decidedly quizzical look, "that pride is a serious defect of yours."
"Perhaps so; but, you see, I do not wish to be different from my neighbours," I replied quietly; but my speech was received by Mr.
Hamilton with a hearty laugh.
"Oh yes, you are right: we are a proud lot," he observed, as he rose to take leave. "Well, Miss Garston, after Christmas is over, we shall hope to see you for an evening; but any afternoon you are free they will be glad to see you. Etta makes excellent tea. What a craze five-o"clock tea is with you women! I have protested against it in vain: the girls are in majority against me." With this speech he took himself off. I was much relieved at this peaceable ending to our interview. Now he was gone I could scarcely believe that I had ventured on a joke with the formidable Mr. Hamilton, a joke which he had taken in excellent part. I began to feel less in awe of him: he certainly knew how to shake hands heartily, and I could recapitulate Lady Betty"s criticism on myself and apply it to him, for when Mr. Hamilton smiled he looked quite a different man,--years younger, and much better looking. Well, I was glad that he had such a good opinion of my common sense.
My hands were likely to be full of business until after Christmas. Mrs.
Marshall was growing gradually weaker, and Mr. Hamilton was doubtful whether she would last to see the New Year in. Her husband would be home on Christmas Eve; his work at Lewes would be finished by then, and he hoped to find work nearer home. Poor Mary told me this with tears in her eyes; her one prayer was that she might be spared to see Andrew again.
"He has been a good husband to me, and has kept out of the public-house for the sake of his wife and the children, and I cannot die easy until I have said good-bye to him," finished the poor woman; but when I repeated this to Mr. Hamilton he shook his head. "A few hours may take her off any day," he said; "it is only a wonder that she has lasted so long. I believe she is keeping herself alive by the sheer force of her longing to see her husband. Women are strange creatures, Miss Garston."
My new patient was likely to give me plenty of occupation. I found the poor little fellow, looking very forlorn and dull, lying in a dark corner of a large chilly garret, which was evidently shared by two or three brothers.
Mrs. Bell, who had left her washing-tub to accompany me upstairs, stood drying her arms on her ap.r.o.n, and talking in a high-pitched querulous voice. "No one can say I have not been unfortunate this year," she grumbled. "There"s Bell, he gets worse and worse. I fetched him myself out of the Man and Plough last Sat.u.r.day night, where he was drinking the money that was to buy the children bread. "Do you call yourself a man or a brute?" I says, but in my opinions it"s wronging the poor bruteses to compare them with such as him. "Work!" says he; "why don"t you work yourself?" when I am at that wash-tub from morning till night."
"And now poor Robin is adding to your trouble, Mrs. Bell," I observed, with a pitying look at the child"s white face and large wistful eyes.
"Ay, he has gone and done it now," she returned, with a touch of motherly feeling; "it was a slide those bad boys had made, and Robbie came down on it with his crutch under him. He is always in trouble, is Robbie, has had more illnesses than all the children put together; there is nothing Robin can"t take: whooping-cough,--why, he nearly whooped himself to death; measles and scarlet fever,--why, he was as nearly gone as possible, the doctor said. He has always been puny and weakly from a baby. But there"s Bell, now, makes more of a fuss over Rob than over the others; if there is anything that will keep him away from the Man and Plough, it is Rob asking him to take him out somewhere."
"Ay, father"s promised to sit with me this evening," observed Robin, in a faint little treble.
"Then we must make the room comfortable for father," I said quickly.
"Mrs. Bell, I must not hinder you any more; but if you could spare one of the girls to help me tidy up a little."
"Ay, Sally can come," she returned; "the place does look like a piggery.
You see, Tom and Ned and Willie sleep here along of Robin, and boys know naught about keeping a place tidy; Sally reds it up towards evening. But there, doctor said Robbie must have a fire, and I"ve clean forgotten it: I will send up Sally with some sticks and a lump or two of coal."
Mrs. Bell was not a bad sort of woman, certainly, but, like many of her cla.s.s, she was not a good manager; and when a woman has ten children, and a husband rather too fond of the Man and Plough, and is obliged to stand at her washing-tub for hours every day, one cannot expect to find the house in perfect order.
We had soon a bright little fire burning, which gave quite a cheery aspect to the large bare attic; the sloping roof and small window did not seem to matter so much. With Sally"s help I moved Robin"s little bed to a lighter part of the room, where the roof did not slope so much, and where the wintry sunlight could reach him. Robin seemed much pleased with this change of position, and when I had washed and made him comfortable he declared that he felt "first-rate."
I had so much to do for my patient that I was obliged to let Sally tidy up the room in her usual scrambling way. The child had been sadly neglected by that time, and he was getting faint. I had to prepare some arrow-root for his dinner, and then hurry off to the Marshalls" before I had my own. I was obliged to omit my visit to Phoebe that day, and divide my time between Mrs. Marshall and Robin. When I had given Robin his tea, and had put a chair by the fire for father, I went off, feeling that I could leave him more comfortably. The eldest boy, Tom, a big, strapping lad of fourteen, who went to work, had promised to keep the other boys quiet, "that the little chap might not be disturbed," and as Robin again declared that he felt first-rate, if it weren"t for his arm, I hoped that he might be able to sleep.
"Father stopped with me ever so long, until the boys came to bed," were Robin"s first words the next morning; "and doctor came, and said we looked quite snug, and he is going to send father some books to read, and some papers, and father said he was more comfortable than downstairs, as I did not mind his pipe, and Tom has hung my linnet there," pointing to the window, "and if you open the cage, miss, you will see him hop all over the bedclothes, and chirp in the beautifullest way."
We had a great deal of cleaning to do that day. I shall never forget Lady Betty"s face when she came upstairs and saw me down on my knees at work in my corner of the room; for Sally was little, and the room was large, and I was obliged to go to her a.s.sistance.
"Good gracious, Miss Garston!" she said, in quite a shocked voice, "you do not mean to tell me that you consider it your duty to scrub floors?"
"Well, no," I returned, laughing, for really her consternation was ludicrous, "I should consider it a waste of strength, generally; but we never know what comes in a day"s work. Sally is so little that I am obliged to help her."
"Why can"t Mrs. Bell do it?" asked Lady Betty indignantly.
"Mrs. Bell has hardly time to cook the children"s dinner. Please don"t look so shocked. I don"t often scrub floors, and I have nearly finished now. What have you brought in that basket, little Red Riding-Hood?" for in her little crimson hood-like bonnet she did not look so unlike Red Riding-Hood.
"Oh, Giles asked Gladys to send some things for poor little Robin, and she packed them herself. There is a jar of beef-tea, and some jelly, and some new-laid eggs, and sponge-cakes, and a roll or two; and Gladys hopes you will let her know what Robin wants, for he used to be her little scholar, and she is so interested in him."
Of course I knew Lady Betty would chatter about me when she returned home, but I was rather vexed when Mr. Hamilton took me to task the next morning and gave me quite a lecture on the subject; he made me promise at last that I would never do anything of the kind again. I hardly know what made me so submissive. I think it was his threat of keeping any more patients from me, and then he seemed so thoroughly put out.
"It is such folly wearing yourself out like this, Miss Garston," he said angrily. "I wonder why women never will learn common sense. If you work under me I will thank you to obey my directions, and I do not choose my nurse to waste her time and strength in scrubbing floors. Yes, Robin boy, I am very angry with nurse; but there is no occasion for you to cry about it; and--why, good heavens! if you are not crying too, Miss Garston! Of course; there, I told you so; you have just knocked yourself up."
His tone so aggravated me that I plucked up a little spirit.
"I am not a bit knocked up,"--and, in rather a choky voice, "I am not crying; I never cry before people; only I am a little tired. I was up all last night with Mrs. Marshall, and you talk so much."
"Oh, very well," rather huffily; but he was in a bad humour that day. "I won"t talk any more to you. But I should like to know one thing: when are you going home?"
"In another hour; my head aches, rather, and I think I shall lie down."
"Of course your head aches; but there, you have given me a promise, so I will not say any more. Try what a good nap will do. I am going round by the Lockes", and I shall tell Phoebe not to expect you this afternoon. It won"t hurt her to miss you sometimes; it will teach her to value her blessings more, and people cannot sing when they have a headache." And he walked off without waiting for me to thank him for his thoughtfulness.
What did he mean by saying that I was crying, the ridiculous man, just because there were tears in my eyes? I certainly could not fancy myself crying because Mr. Hamilton scolded me!
I had a refreshing nap, and kept my dinner waiting, but I must own I was a little touched when Mrs. Barton produced a bottle of champagne which she said Mr. Hamilton had brought in his pocket and had desired that I was to have some directly I woke. "And I was to tell you, with his compliments, that his sister Gladys would sit with Robin all the afternoon, and that Lady Betty was at the Marshalls", and he was going again himself, and Phoebe Locke was better, and he hoped you would not stir out again to-day."
How very kind and thoughtful of Mr. Hamilton! He had sent his sisters to look after my patients, that I might be able to enjoy my rest with a quiet conscience. I was sorry that he should think that I was so easily knocked up; but it was not over-fatigue, nor yet his scolding, that had brought the tears to my eyes. To-day was the second anniversary of Charlie"s death, and through that long, wakeful night, as I sat beside poor Mary"s bed, I was recalling the bitter hours when my darling went down deeper into the place of shadows,--when he fought away his young life, while Lesbia and I wept and prayed beside him. No wonder a word unnerved me; but I could not tell Mr. Hamilton this.
When we met the next day he asked me, rather curtly, if the headache had gone; but when I thanked him, somewhat shyly, for the medicine he had sent, he got rather red, and interrupted me with unusual abruptness.
"You have nothing for which to thank me," he said, in quite a repellent tone. "I am glad you obeyed orders and stopped at home; I was afraid you might be contumacious, as usual,"--which was rather ungracious of him, after the promise he had extracted from me.
I questioned Robin about Miss Hamilton"s visit; she had remained with the boy some hours, reading to him and amusing him, and, in Robin"s favourite language, "getting on first-rate; only, just as I was drinking my mugful of tea, parson comes, and Miss Hamilton she says she will be late, and gets up in a hurry, and--"
"Wait a minute, Robin: do you mean Mr. Cunliffe or Mr. Tudor?"
"Oh, the vicar, to be sure; and he seemed finely surprised to see Miss Hamilton there. "So you"ve come to see your old scholar," he says, smiling, and Miss Hamilton says, "Yes; but she must go now," and she drops her glove, and parson looks for it, but it was too dark, and for all his groping it could not be found. "I must just go without it," says Miss Hamilton; "but I have got my m.u.f.f, and it does not matter," and she says good-bye, and goes away. Parson found it, though," went on Robin garrulously. "When Sally lighted the candle he spies it at once, and puts it in his pocket. "Miss Hamilton will be fine and glad when you tell her it is found," I says to parson; but he just looks at me in an odd sort of way, and says, "Yes, Robin, certainly."--"And you won"t forget to give it to her, to-morrow, sir?" but he did not seem to hear me. "Good-night, my man," he said. "So Miss Hamilton did not think you were too old to be kissed." And he kissed me just in the same place as she did. What did you say, miss?"
"I did not say anything, Robin."
"Didn"t you, miss? I thought I heard you say "poor man," or something like that. Is not Miss Hamilton beautiful? I think she is almost as beautiful as my picture of the Virgin Mary. I asked parson if he did not think so, and he said yes. Do you think she will come again soon?"
"We shall see, Robbie dear." But, as I spoke, something told me that we should not see Miss Hamilton there again.
CHAPTER XIX
THE PICTURE IN GLADYS"S ROOM
The days flew rapidly by, and I was almost too busy to heed them as they pa.s.sed. Each morning I woke with fresh energy to my day"s work; the hours were so full of interest and varied employment that my evening rest came all too soon. I grew so fond of my patients, especially of poor little Robin, that I never left them willingly; and the knowledge that I was necessary to them, that they looked to me for relief and comfort, seemed to fill my life with sweetness.
As I said to myself daily, no one need complain that one"s existence is objectless, or altogether desolate, as long as there are sick bodies and sick souls to which one can minister. For "Give, and it shall be given unto you," is the Divine command, and sympathy and help bestowed on our suffering fellow-creatures shall be repaid into our bosoms a hundredfold.
I was right in my surmise: Miss Hamilton did not again visit her little scholar; but Lady Betty came almost daily, and was a great help in amusing the child. I was with him for an hour in the morning, and again in the late afternoon; but Mrs. Marshall took up the greater part of my time; she was growing more feeble every day, and needed my constant care.
Unless it were absolutely necessary, I was unwilling to sacrifice my night"s rest, or to draw too largely on my stock of strength; but I had fallen into the habit, during the last week or two, of going down to the cottage in the evening about eight or nine, and settling her comfortably for the night. I found these late visits were a great boon to her, and seemed to break the length of the long winter night, and so I did not regret my added trouble. Poor Phoebe had to be content with an hour s.n.a.t.c.hed from the busier portion of the day; but she was beginning to occupy herself now. I kept her constantly supplied with books; and Miss Locke a.s.sured me that she read them with avidity; her poor famished mind, deprived for so many years of its natural aliment, fastened almost greedily on the nourishment provided for it. From the moment I induced her to open a book her appet.i.te for reading returned, and she occupied herself in this manner for hours.
She never spoke to her sister about what she read, but when Kitty and she were alone she would keep the child entranced for an hour together by the stories she told her out of Miss Garston"s books.