"The fact is, she sat up too late last night, and I let her talk too much and over-exert herself." For I saw he was determined to come to the bottom of this.
"I think the nurse was to blame there," he returned, darting a quick, uneasy look at me. I knew what he was thinking: Miss Darrell"s speech, that Miss Garston always excited Gladys, must have come into his mind.
"If the nurse deserves blame she will take it meekly," I replied. "I know I was wrong to let her talk so much. I must enforce extra quiet to-day."
And then he said no more. I do not think he found it easy to give me the scolding that I deserved. And, after all, I had owned my fault.
I had just gone out in the pa.s.sage an hour later, to carry away a bowl of carnations that Gladys found too strong in the room, when I heard Uncle Max"s voice in the hall. The front door was open, and he had entered without ringing. I was glad of this. The door of the turret-room was closed, and Gladys would not hear his voice. I should manage to slip down without her noticing the fact.
So I busied myself in Lady Betty"s room until I heard the drawing-room door open and close again, and I knew Miss Darrell was coming in search of me. I went out to meet her, with Gladys"s empty luncheon-tray in my hands. I thought she looked rather cross and put out, as though her interview with Uncle Max had disappointed her.
"Mr. Cunliffe is in the drawing-room, and he would like to speak to you for a moment." she said, in a voice that showed me how unwilling she was to bring me the message. "I told him that you never cared to be disturbed in the morning, as you were so busy; but he was peremptory."
"I am never too busy to see Uncle Max: he knows that," I returned quickly. "Will you kindly allow me a few moments alone with him?" for she was actually preparing to follow me, but after this request she retired sulkily into her own room.
I found Max standing in the middle of the room, looking anxiously towards the door: the moment it closed behind me he put a thick white envelope in my hand.
"There it is, Ursula," he said nervously: "will you give it to her as soon as possible? I have been literally on thorns the last quarter of an hour. Miss Darrell would not take any of my hints that I wished to see you: so I was obliged at last to say that I could not wait another moment, and that I must ask her to fetch you at once."
"Poor Max! I can imagine your feelings; but I have it safe here," tapping my ap.r.o.n pocket. "But you must not go just yet." And I beckoned him across the room to the window that overlooked a stiff p.r.i.c.kly shrub.
He looked at me in some surprise. "We are alone, Ursula."
"Yes, I know: but the walls have ears in this house: one is never safe near the conservatory: there are too many doors. Tell me, Max, how have you got on with Miss Darrell this morning?"
"I was praying hard for patience all the time," he replied, half laughing. "It was maddening to see her sitting there so cool and crisp in her yellow tea-gown--well, what garment was it?" as I uttered a dissenting e.j.a.c.u.l.a.t.i.o.n: "something flimsy and aesthetic. I thought her smooth sentences would never stop."
"Did she notice any change in your manner to her?"
"I am afraid so, for I saw her look at me quite uneasily more than once.
I could not conceal that I was terribly bored. I have no wish to be discourteous to a lady, especially to one of my own church workers; but after what has pa.s.sed I find it very difficult to forgive her."
This was strong language on Max"s part. I could see that as a woman he could hardly tolerate her, but he could not bring himself to condemn her even to me. He hardly knew yet what he had to forgive: neither he nor Gladys had any real idea of the treachery that had separated them.
Max would not stay many minutes, he was so afraid of Miss Darrell coming into the room again. I did rather an imprudent thing after that. Max was going to the Maberleys", for the colonel was seriously ill, so I begged him to go the garden way, and I kept him for a moment under the window of the turret-room.
I saw him glance up eagerly, almost hungrily, but the blinds were partially down, and there was only a white curtain flapping in the summer breeze.
But an unerring instinct told me that the sound of Max"s voice would be a strong cordial to the invalid, it was so long since she had heard or seen him. As we sauntered under the oak-trees I knew Gladys would be watching us.
On my return to the room I found her sitting bolt upright in her arm-chair, grasping the arms; there were two spots of colour on her cheeks; she looked nervous and excited.
"I saw you walking with him, Ursula; he looked up, but I am glad he could not see me. Did--did he send me any message?" in a faltering voice.
"Yes, he sent you this." And I placed the thick packet on her lap. "Miss Hamilton,"--yes, it was her own name: he had written it. I saw her look at it, first incredulously, then with dawning hope in her eyes; but before her trembling hands could break the old-fashioned seal with which he had sealed it I had noiselessly left the room.
CHAPTER XLII
DOWN THE PEMBERLEY ROAD
Three-quarters of an hour had elapsed before I ventured into the room again; but at the first sound of my footsteps Gladys looked up, and called to me in a voice changed and broken with happiness.
"Ursula, dear Ursula, come here." And as I knelt down beside her and put my arms round her she laid her cheek against my shoulder: it was wet with tears.
"Ursula, I am so happy. Do you know that he loves me, that he has loved me all through these years? You must not see what he says; it is only for my eyes; it is too sweet and sacred to be repeated; but I never dreamt that any one could care for me like that."
I kissed her without speaking; there seemed a lump in my throat just then. I did not often repine, but the yearning sense of pain was strong on me. When would this cruel silence between me and Giles be broken? But Gladys, wrapt in her own blissful thoughts, did not notice my emotion.
"He says that there is much that he can only tell me by word of mouth, and that he dare not trust to a letter explanations for his silence, and much that I shall have to tell him in return; for we shall need each other"s help in making everything clear.
"He seems to reproach himself bitterly, and asks my pardon over and over again for misunderstanding me so. He says my giving up my work was the first blow to his hopes, and then he had been told that I cared for my cousin Claude. He believed until this morning that I was in love with him; and it was your going to him--oh, my darling! how good you have been to me and him!--that gave him courage to write this letter, Ursula."
And here she cried a little. "Was it Etta who told him this falsehood about, Claude? How could she he so wicked and cruel?"
"Do not think about her to-day, my dearest," I returned soothingly. "Her punishment will be great some day. We will not sit in judgment on her just now. She cannot touch your happiness again, thank heaven!"
"No," with a sigh; "but, as Max says, it is difficult to forgive the person who is the chief source of all our trouble. He did say that, and then he reproached himself again for uncharitableness, and added that he ought to have known me better.
"He does not seem quite certain yet that I can care for him, and he begs for just one word to put him out of his suspense, to tell him if I can ever love him well enough to be his wife. I don"t want him to wait long for my answer, Ursula: he has suffered too much already. I think I could write a few words that would satisfy him, if I could only trust Chatty to take them."
"You had better wait until to-morrow morning and intrust your letter to the "five-o"clock carrier."" And as my meaning dawned on her her doubtful expression changed into a smile. "Do wait, Gladys," I continued coaxingly. "It is very selfish of me, perhaps, but I should like to give that letter to Max."
"You may have your wish, then, for I was half afraid of sending it by Chatty. I have grown so nervous, Ursula, that I start at a shadow. I can trust you better than myself. Well, I will write it, and then it will be safe in your hands."
I went away again after this, and left her alone in the quiet shady room.
I fought rather a battle with myself as I paced up and down Lady Betty"s s.p.a.cious chamber. Why need I think of my own troubles? why could I not keep down this pain? I would think only of Gladys"s and of my dear Max"s happiness, and I dashed away hot tears that would keep blinding me as I remembered the chilly greeting of the morning. And yet once--but no; I would not recall that bitter-sweet memory. I left Gladys alone for an hour: when I went back she was leaning wearily against the cushions of her chair, the closely-written sheets still open on her lap, as though she needed the evidence of sight and touch to remind her that it was not part of her dream.
"Have you written your letter, Gladys?"
"Yes," with a blush; "but it is very short, only a few words. He will understand that I am weak and cannot exert myself much. Will you read it, Ursula, and tell me if it will do?"
I thought it better to set her mind at rest, so I took it without demur.
The pretty, clear handwriting was rather tremulous: he would be sorry to see that.
"My dear Mr. Cunliffe,"--it said,--"Your letter has made me very happy.
I wish I could answer it as it ought to be answered; but I know you will not misunderstand the reason why I say so little.
"I have been very ill, and am still very weak, and my hand trembles too much when I try to write; but I am not ungrateful for all the kind things you say; it makes me very happy to know you feel like that, even though I do not deserve it.
"You must not blame yourself so much for misunderstanding me: we have both been deceived; I know that now. It was wrong of me to give up my work; but Etta told me that people were saying unkind things of me, and I was a coward and listened to her: so you see I was to blame too.
"I have not answered your question yet, but I think I will do so by signing myself,
"Yours, always and for ever,
"Gladys."