"Why do you not try to make things a little clearer?" I asked. "Could you not say a word to him as we walk home? Uncle Max is so good that I cannot bear him to be vexed about anything, and I know he is disappointed that you will not work in the school."
"Yes, I know; but you do not understand," she returned gently. "I should like to speak to him, if I dared, but I think my courage will fail; it is not so easy as you think." And then as we went downstairs she took my arm, and I could feel that her hand was very cold. "I wish he had not asked you to come: it shows he is hurt with me; but all the same I should have asked you myself."
Uncle Max took up his felt hat directly he saw us, and followed us silently into the entry; he did not speak as we went down the little garden together; and as we turned into the road leading to the vicarage it was Miss Hamilton who spoke first. She was still holding my arm, perhaps that gave her courage, and she looked across at Max, who was walking on my other side.
"Mr. Cunliffe, I am so sorry you were hurt with me the other night, when Etta spoke about the schools. I am not giving up work for my own pleasure; I loved it far too much; but there are reasons,"
I heard Max give a quick, impatient sigh in the darkness.
"So you always say, Miss Hamilton; you remember we have talked of this before. I have thought it my duty more than once to remonstrate with you about giving up your work, but one seems to talk in the dark; somehow you have never given me any very definite reasons,--headaches,--well, as though I did not know you well enough to be sure you are the last person to think of ailments."
"Yes, but one"s friends are over-careful; but still you are right; it is not only that. Mr. Cunliffe, I wish you would believe that I have good and sufficient reasons for what I do, even if I cannot explain them. It makes one unhappy to be misunderstood by one"s clergyman, and,"
hesitating a moment, "and one"s friends,"
"Friends are not left so completely in the dark," was the pointed answer.
"It is no use, Miss Hamilton. I find it impossible to understand you. I have no right to be hurt. No, of course not, no right at all,"--and here Max laughed unsteadily,--"but still, as a clergyman, I thought it could not be wrong to remonstrate when my best worker deserted her post."
There was no response to this, only Miss Hamilton"s hand lay a little heavily on my arm, as though she were tired. I though it best to be silent. No word of mine was needed. I could tell from Max"s voice and manner how bitterly he was hurt.
But when he next spoke it was on a different subject.
"I must beg your pardon, Miss Hamilton, for having wronged you in my thoughts about something else. I find your brother has forbidden you to attend evening service for the present. And no doubt he is right; but your cousin gave me to understand that you stayed away for a very different reason."
"What did Etta tell you?" she asked quickly. But before he could answer a dark figure seemed to emerge rather suddenly from the roadside. Miss Hamilton dropped my arm at once. "Is that you, Leah? Have my brother and Miss Darrell returned from Maplehurst?" And I detected an anxious note in her voice.
"Yes, ma"am," returned Leah civilly; "and Miss Darrell seemed anxious at your being out so late, because you would take cold, and master begged you would wrap up and walk very fast."
"Oh, I shall take no harm," returned Miss Hamilton impatiently.
"Good-night, Miss Garston, and thank you for a very happy evening.
Good-night, Mr. Cunliffe, and thank you, too. There is no need to come any farther: Leah will take care of me." And she waved her hand and moved away in the darkness.
"What a bugbear that woman is!" I observed, rather irritably, as we retraced our steps in the direction of the Man and Plough, the little inn that stood at the junction of the four roads. Everything looked dark and eerie in the faint starlight. Our footsteps seemed to strike sharply against the hard, white road; there was a suspicion of frost in the air.
When Max spoke, which was not for some minutes, he merely remarked that we should have a cold Christmas, and then he asked me if I would dine with him at the vicarage on Christmas Day. He and Mr. Tudor would be alone.
"Christmas will be here in less than a fortnight, Ursula," he went on, rather absently, but I knew he was not thinking of what he was saying.
And when we reached the White Cottage he followed me into the parlour, sat down before the fire, and stretched out his hands to the blaze, as though he were very cold.
I stood and watched him for a moment, and then I could bear it no longer.
"Oh, Max!" I exclaimed, "I wish you would tell me what makes you look so wretchedly ill to-night. Even Miss Hamilton noticed it. I am sure there is something the matter."
"Nonsense, child! What should be the matter?" But Max turned his face away as he spoke. "I told you that I had a headache; but that is nothing to make a fuss about. Mrs. Drabble shall make me a good strong cup of tea when I get home."
Max"s manner was just a trifle testy, but I was not going to be repelled after this fashion. On the contrary, I put my hand on his shoulder and obliged him to look at me.
"It is not only a headache. You are unhappy about something; as though I do not see that. Max, you know we have always been like brother and sister, and I want you to tell me what has grieved you."
That touched him, as I knew it would, for he had dearly loved his sister.
"I wish your mother were here now," he returned, in a moved voice. "I wish poor Emmie were here: there were not many women like her. One could have trusted her with anything."
"I think I am to be trusted too, Max."
"Yes, yes, you are like her, Ursula. You have got just the same quiet way. Your voice always reminds me of hers. She was a dear, good sister to me, more like a mother than a sister. I think if she had lived she would have been a great comfort to me now, Ursula."
"I know I am not so good as my mother, but I should like to be a comfort to you in her place."
I suppose Max"s ear detected the suppressed pain in my voice, for as he looked at me his manner changed; the old affectionate smile came to his lips, and he put his hands lightly on me, as though to keep me near him.
"You have been a comfort to me, my dear. You and I have always understood each other. I think you are as good as gold, Ursula."
"Then why not trust me, Max? Why not tell me what makes you so unhappy?"
"Little she-bear," he said, still smiling, "you must not begin to growl at me after this fashion, because I am somewhat hipped and want a change.
There is no need to be anxious about me. A man in my position must have his own and other people"s difficulties to bear. No, no, my dear, you have a wise head, but you are too young to take my burdens on your shoulders. What should you know about an old bachelor"s worries?"
"An old bachelor," I returned indignantly, "when you know you are young and handsome, Max! How can you talk such nonsense?"
I could see he was amused at this.
"You must not expect me to believe that; a man is no judge of his own looks: but I never thought much about such things myself. I detest the notion of a handsome parson. There, we will dismiss the subject of your humble servant. I want to ask you a favour, Ursula." And then I knew that all my coaxing had been in vain, and that he did not mean to tell me what troubled him and made him look so pinched and worn.
But, in spite of this preface, he kept me waiting for a long time, while he sat silently looking into the fire and stroking his brown beard.
"Ursula," he began at last, still gazing into the red cavern of coals, as though he saw visions there, "I want you and Miss Hamilton to be great friends. I am sure that she has taken to you, and she likes few people, and it will be very good for her to be with you."
Max"s speech took me somewhat by surprise. I had not expected him to mention Miss Hamilton"s name.
"She is not happy," he went on, "and she is more lonely than other girls of her age. Miss Elizabeth is a nice bright little thing, but, as Lawrence says, she wants ballast; she is a child compared to Gladys,--Miss Hamilton, I mean." And here Max stammered a little nervously.
"No, you are right, she is not happy," I returned quietly; "she gives me the impression that she has known some great trouble."
"Every one has his troubles," he replied evasively. "Most people indulge in the luxury of a private skeleton. Now I have often thought that Miss Hamilton and her sister would have been far happier without Miss Darrell; she has rather a peculiar temper, and I have often fancied that she has misrepresented things. It is always difficult to understand women, even the best of them," with a smothered sigh, "but I confess Miss Darrell is rather a problem to me."
"I am not surprised to hear you say that," I returned quickly: "you are just the sort of man, Max, to be hoodwinked by any designing person. I am less charitable than you, and women are sharper in these matters. I have already found out that Miss Darrell makes Miss Hamilton miserable."
"Gently, gently, Ursula," in quite a shocked voice; "there is no need to put things quite so strongly: you are rather hasty, my dear. Miss Darrell may be a little too managing, and perhaps jealous and exacting; but I think she is very fond of her cousins."
"Indeed!" rather drily, for I did not agree with Max in the least; he was always ready to believe the best of every one.
"Hamilton, too, is really devoted to his sisters, but they do not understand him. I believe Miss Hamilton is very proud of her brother, but she does not confide in him. He has often told me, in quite a pained way, how reserved they are with him. I believe Miss Darrell is far more his _confidante_ than his sisters."
"No doubt," I returned, quite convinced in my own mind that this was the case.
"So you must see yourself how much Miss Hamilton needs a friend," he went on hurriedly. "I want you to be very good to her, Ursula; perhaps you may think it a little strange if I say that I think it will be as much your duty to befriend Miss Hamilton as to minister to Phoebe Locke."
"I wonder who is speaking strongly now, Max."
"But if it be the truth," he pleaded, a little anxiously.