He came up for a moment to tell me that he was going home to breakfast; he looked quite fresh and brisk, and declared that he had had a capital night"s sleep.
"I am going to find some one to take your place while you go home and have a good seven hours" rest," he said, in his decided way. "I suppose you are aware that you have not slept for forty-eight hours? Kitty is going to make you some tea." And with this he took himself off.
I went into Phoebe"s room presently. Kitty told me that she was awake at last. As soon as she saw me she put up her hands as though to ward off my approach.
"Wait a moment," she said huskily. "You need not tell me; I know what you have come to say; I have no longer a sister: Susan is a saint in heaven."
For a moment I hesitated, afraid to speak. She had nerved herself to bear the worst, and I feared the revulsion of feeling would be too great. As I stood there silently looking down at her drawn, haggard face, I felt she would not have had strength to bear a fresh trial. If Susan had died Phoebe would not have long survived her.
"You are wrong," I said, very gently. "I have no bad news for you this morning. The inflammation has diminished. Susan breathes more easily: each breath is no longer acute agony."
"Do you mean that she is better?" staring at me incredulously.
"Most certainly she is better. The danger is over; but we must be very careful, for she will be ill for some time yet. Yes, indeed, Phoebe, you may believe me. Do you think I would deceive you? G.o.d has heard your prayers, and Susan is spared to you."
I never saw a human countenance so transformed as Phoebe"s was that moment; every feature seemed to quiver with ecstasy; she could not speak, only she folded her hands as though in prayer. Presently she looked up, and said, as simply as a child,--
"Oh, I am so happy! I never thought I should be happy again. You may leave me now, Miss Garston, for I want to thank G.o.d, for the first time in my life. I feel as though I must love Him now for giving Susan back to me." And then again she begged me to leave her.
Mr. Hamilton did not forget me. I had just put the sick-room in order when a respectable young woman made her appearance. She told me that her name was Carron, that she was a married woman and a friend of Miss Locke"s, and she would willingly take my place until evening.
I was thankful to accept this timely offer of help, and went home and enjoyed a deep dreamless sleep for some hours. When I woke it was evening. Jill was standing by my bedside with a tray in her hands.
The room was bright with firelight. Jill"s big eyes looked at me affectionately.
"How you have slept, Ursie dear! just like a baby! I have been in and out half-a-dozen times; but no, you never stirred. I told Mr. Hamilton so, when he inquired an hour ago. Now, you are to drink this coffee, and when you are quite awake I will give you his message."
"I am quite awake now," I returned, rubbing my eyes vigorously.
"Well, then, let me see. Oh, Miss Locke is going on well, and Mrs. Carron will stop with her until eight o"clock. Phoebe has been ill, and they sent for him; but it was only faintness and palpitation, and she is better now. He has been to see Elspeth, and she is poorly; but there is no need for you to trouble about her. Miss Darrell is sending her broth and jelly, and Peggy waits on her very nicely. Lady Betty and I went to see her to-day, and she was as comfortable and cheery as possible, and told us that she felt like a lady in that big bed downstairs. Mr.
Hamilton says she will not die just yet, but one of these days she will go off as quietly as a baby. She asked after you, Ursie, and sent you a power of love, and I hope it will do you good."
"And what have you been doing with yourself all day, Jill?" I asked, rather anxiously.
"Oh, lots of things," tossing back her thick locks. "Let me see. Lady Betty came to fetch me for a walk, and we met Mr. Tudor. He is all alone, poor man, and very dull without Mr. Cunliffe; he told us so: so Lady Betty brought him back to lunch. And Miss Darrell was so cross, and told poor Lady Betty that she was very forward to do such a thing; they had such a quarrel in the drawing-room about it. Mr. Tudor came in and found Lady Betty crying, so he made us come out in the garden, and we played a new sort of Aunt Sally. Mr. Tudor stuck up an old hat of Mr.
Hamilton"s,--at least we found out it was not an old one after all,--and we s...o...b..lled it, and Mr. Hamilton came out and helped us. After tea, we all told ghost-stories round the fire. Miss Darrell does not like them, so she went up to her room. Mr. Tudor had to see a sick man, but he came back to dinner; but I would not stay, for I thought you would be waking, Ursie, so Mr. Hamilton brought me home."
"Jill!" I asked desperately, "have they not written for you to join them at Hastings yet? I begin to think you have been idle long enough."
"Had you not better go to sleep again, Ursie dear?" returned Jill, marching off with my tray. But she made a little face at me as she went out of the door. "I shall get into trouble over this," I thought. "I really must write to Aunt Philippa." But I was spared the necessity, for the very next day Jill came to me at Miss Locke"s to tell me, with a very long face, that her mother had written to say that Miss Gillespie was coming the following week, and Jill was to pack up and join them at Hastings the very next day.
CHAPTER XXV
"THERE IS NO ONE LIKE DONALD"
Mrs. Carron very kindly took my place that I might be with Jill that last evening, and we spent it in Jill"s favourite fashion, talking in the firelight.
She was a little quiet and subdued, full of regret at leaving me, and more affectionate than ever.
"I have never been so happy in my life," she said, in rather a melancholy voice. "When I get to Hastings, my visit here will seem like a dream, it has been so nice, somehow; you are such a dear old thing, Ursula, and I am so fond of Lady Betty, I shall ask mother to invite her in the holidays."
"And there is no one else you will regret, Jill?" I asked, anxious to sound her on one point.
"Oh yes; I am sorry to bid good-bye to Mr. Tudor. He has been such fun lately. I really do think he is quite the nicest young man I know."
"Do you know many young men, my dear?" was my apparently innocent remark; but Jill was not deceived by this smooth speech.
"Of course I do," in a scornful voice; "they come to see Sara, and I hate them so, flimsy stuck-up creatures, with their white ties and absurd little moustaches. Each one is more stupid and vapid than the other. And Sara must think so too; for she smiles on them all alike."
"You are terribly hard on the young men of your generation, Jill; I daresay I should think them very harmless and pleasant." But she shook her head vigorously.
"Why cannot they be natural, and say good-natured things, like Mr. Tudor?
He is real, and not make-believe, pretending that he is too bored to live at all. One would think there was no truth anywhere, nothing but tinsel and sham, to listen to them. That is why I like Mr. Tudor: he has the ring of the true metal about him. Even Miss Darrell agrees with me there."
"Do you discuss Mr. Tudor with Miss Darrell?"
"Why not?" opening her eyes widely. "I like to talk about my friends, and I feel Mr. Tudor is a real friend. She was so interested,--really interested, I mean, without any humbug,--at least, pretence," for here I held up my finger at Jill. "She wanted to know if you liked him too, and I said, "Oh yes, so much; he was a great favourite of yours," and she seemed pleased to hear it."
"You silly child! I wish you would leave me and my likes and dislikes out of your conversations with Miss Darrell."
"Well, do you know, I try to do so, because I know how you hate her,--at least, dislike her: that is a more ladylike term,--you are so horribly particular, Ursula; but somehow your name always gets in, and I never know how, and there is no keeping you out. Sometimes she makes me dreadfully angry about you, and sometimes she says nice things; but there, we will not talk about the double-faced lady to-night. I understand her less than ever."
We glided into more serious subjects after this. I made Jill promise to be more patient with her life, and work from a greater sense of duty, and I begged her most earnestly to fight against discontent, and exorcise this youthful demon of hers, and again she promised to do her best.
"I feel better about things, somehow: you have done me good, Ursie; you always do. I must make mother understand that I am nearly a woman, and that I do not intend to waste my time any longer dreaming childish dreams. I suppose mother is really fond of me, though she does find fault with me continually, and is always praising Sara." Jill went on talking in this way for some time, and then we went upstairs together.
I was rather provoked to find Mr. Tudor at the station the next morning.
I suppose my steady look abashed him, for he muttered something about Smith"s bookstall, as though I should be deceived by such a flimsy excuse. After all, Mr. Tudor was not better than other young men; in spite of Jill"s praises, he was capable of this mild subterfuge to get his own way.
Jill was so honestly and childishly pleased to see him that I ought to have been disarmed. She went off with him to the bookstall, while I looked after her luggage, and they stood there chattering and laughing until I joined them, and then Mr. Tudor grew suddenly quiet.
As the train came up, I heard him ask Jill how long they were to stay at Hastings, and if they would be at Hyde Park Gate before Easter.
"I shall be up in town then," he remarked carelessly, "to see some of my people."
"Oh yes, and you must come and see us," she returned cheerfully.
"Good-bye, Mr. Tudor. I am so sorry to leave Heathfield."
But, after all, Jill"s last look was for me: as she leaned out of the carriage, waving her hand, she did not even glance at the young man who was standing silent and gloomy beside me. I felt rather sorry for the poor boy, as he turned away quite sadly.
"I must go down to the schools: good-bye, Miss Garston," he said hurriedly. One would have thought he had to make up for lost time, as he strode through the station and up the long road. Had Jill really taken his fancy, I wondered? had her big eyes and quaint speeches bewitched him? Mr. Tudor was a gentleman, and we all liked him; but what would Uncle Brian and Aunt Philippa say if a needy, good-looking young curate were suddenly to present himself as a lover for their daughter Jocelyn?
Why, Jill would be rich some day,--poor Ralph was dead, and she and Sara would be co-heiresses. Her parents would expect her to make a grand match.
I shook my head gravely over poor Lawrence"s prospects as I took my way slowly up the hill. I was rather glad when his broad shoulders were out of sight; I should be sorry if any disappointment were to cloud his cheery nature.
I missed Jill a great deal at first, but in my heart I was not sorry to get rid of the responsibility; a lively girl of sixteen, with strong individuality and marked precocity, is likely to be a formidable charge; but Mrs. Barton lamented her absence in no measured terms.