"Nay, I should have thought nothing about it, but that it was just Phoebe"s way. Do you mean that you fretted about that, la.s.s? Oh," turning to me, for Phoebe was crying bitterly over the recollection, "I would not believe you, Miss Garston, when you said Phoebe was changed, for I said to myself, "Surely she will be up to her old tricks again soon"; but now I see you are right. Nay, never fret, my bonnie woman, for I loved you when you were as tiresome and cross-grained as possible. I think I cannot help loving yon," finished Susan simply, as she took her sister"s hand.
That was a happy evening that we spent in Phoebe"s room. When tea was over we read a few chapters, Kitty and I, and then I sang some of Phoebe"s favourite songs. When I had finished, I looked at them: Phoebe had fallen asleep with Susan"s hand still in hers: there was a look of peaceful rest on the worn gray face that made me whisper to Miss Locke,--
"The evil spirit is cast out at last, Susan."
"Ay," returned Susan quietly. "She is clothed and in her right mind, and I doubt not sitting at the feet of Him who has called her. I have got my Phoebe back again, thank G.o.d, as I have not seen her for many a long year."
CHAPTER XXVI
I HEAR ABOUT CAPTAIN HAMILTON
It was now more than five weeks since Gladys had left us, but during that time I had heard from her frequently.
Her letters were deeply interesting. She wrote freely, pouring out her thoughts on every subject without reserve. Somehow I felt, as I read them, that those letters gave as much pleasure to the writer as to the recipient; and I found afterwards that this was the case. Her consciousness of my sympathy with her made her open her heart more freely to me than to any other person. She delighted in telling me of the books she read, in describing the various effects of nature. Her descriptions were so powerful and graphic that they quite surprised me. She made me feel as though I were walking through the fir woods beside her, or standing on the sea-sh.o.r.e watching the white-crested waves rolling in and breaking into foam at our feet. A sort of dewy freshness seemed to stamp the pages. Gladys loved nature with all her heart; she revelled in the solemn grandeur of those woods, in the breadth and freedom of the ocean; it seemed to harmonise with her varying moods.
"I feel a different creature already," she wrote when she had been away a fortnight. "Without owning myself happy (but happiness, active or negative, will never come to me again), still I am calmer and more at peace,--away from the oppressive influences that surrounded me at home.
"I have made up my mind that the atmosphere of Gladwyn is fatal to my soul"s health. I seem to wither up like some sensitive plant in that blighting air; half-truths, misunderstandings, and jealousies have corroded our home peace. I am better away from it all, for here I can own myself ill and miserable, and no one blames or misapprehends my meaning: there are no harsh judgments under the guise of pity.
"These dear people are so truly charitable, they think no evil of a poor girl who is faithful to a brother"s memory: they are patient with my sad moods, they leave me free to follow out my wishes. I wander about as I will, I sketch or read, I sit idle; no one blames me; they are as good to me as you would be in their place.
"I shall stay away as long as possible, until I feel strong enough to take up my life again. You will not be vexed with me, my dear Ursula: you know how I have suffered; you of all others will sympathise with me.
Think of the relief it is to wake up in the morning and feel that no jarring influences will be at work that day; that no eyes will pry into my secret sorrow, or seek to penetrate my very thoughts; that I may look and speak as I like; that my words will not be twisted to serve other people"s purposes. Forgive me if I speak harshly, but indeed you do not know all yet. Your last letter made me a little sad, you speak so much of Giles. Do you really think I am hard upon him? The idea is painful to me.
"I like you to think well of him. He is a good man. I have always thoroughly respected him, but there is no sympathy between us. Of course it is more Etta"s fault than his: she has usurped my place, and Giles no longer needs me. Perhaps I am not kind to him, not sisterly or soft in my manners; but he treats me too much as a child. He never asks my opinion on any subject. We live under his protection, and he never grudges us money; he is generous in that way; but he never enters into our thoughts.
Lady Betty and I lead our own lives.
"You ask me why I do not write to him, my dear Ursula. Such a thought would never enter my head. Write to Giles! What should I say to him? How would such a letter ever get itself written? Do you suppose he would care for me as a correspondent? I should like you to ask him that question, if you dared. Giles"s face would be a study. I fancy I write that letter,--a marvellous composition of commonplace nothings. "My dear brother, I think you will like to hear our Bournemouth news," etc. I can imagine him tossing it aside as he opens his other letters: "Gladys has actually written to me. I suppose she wants another cheque. See what she says, Etta. You may read it aloud, if you like, while I finish my breakfast."
Now do not look incredulous. I once saw Lady Betty"s letter treated in this way, and all her poor little sentences pulled to pieces in Etta"s usual fashion. No, thank you, I will not write to Giles. I write to Lady Betty sometimes, but not often: that is why she comes to you for news. We are a queer household, Ursula. I am very fond of my dear little Lady Betty, but somehow I have never enjoyed writing to her since Etta one day handed to her one of my letters opened by mistake. Lady Betty has fancied the mistake has occurred more than once."
I put down this letter with a sigh; it was the only painful one I had received from Gladys. My remark about her writing to her brother had evidently upset her, but after this she did not speak much about Gladwyn, and by tacit consent we spoke little about any of her people except Lady Betty. When I mentioned Mr. Hamilton I did so casually, and only with reference to my own work. He was so mixed up with my daily life, I came so continually into contact with him, that it was impossible to avoid his name.
Gladys understood this, for she once replied,--
"I am really and honestly glad that you and Giles work so well together.
He will be a good friend to you, I know, for when he forms a favourable opinion of a person he is slow to change it, and Giles is one who, with all his faults, will go through fire and water for his friends. I like to hear of him in this way, for you always put him in the best light, and though you may not believe it after all my hard speeches, I am sufficiently proud of my brother to wish him to be properly appreciated."
And after this I mentioned him less reluctantly.
Max came back about ten days after Jill had left us. I found him waiting for me one evening when I got back to the cottage. As usual, he greeted me most affectionately, only he laughed when I made him turn to the light that I might see how he looked.
"Well, what is your opinion, Ursula, my dear? I hope you have noticed the gray hairs in my beard. I saw them there this morning."
"You are rather tanned by the cold winds. I suppose Torquay has done you good; but your eyes have not lost their tired look, Max: you are not a bit rested."
"I believe I want more work: too much rest would kill me with ennui,"
stretching out his arms with a sort of weary gesture. "I walked a great deal at Torquay; I was out in the air all day; but it did not seem to be what I wanted: I was terribly bored. Tudor is glad to get me back. The fellow actually seems dull. Have you any idea what has gone wrong with him, Ursula?" But I prudently turned a deaf ear to this question, and he did not follow it up; and a moment afterwards he mentioned that he had been at Gladwyn, and that Miss Darrell had given him a good account of Miss Hamilton.
"I had no idea that she was away until this afternoon. Her departure was rather sudden, was it not?"
I think he was glad when I gave him Gladys"s message; but he looked rather grave when I told him how much she was enjoying her freedom.
"She seems a different creature; those Maberleys are so good to her; they pet her, and yet leave her uncontrolled to follow her own wishes. I am more at rest about her there."
"A girl ought to be happy in her own home," he returned, somewhat moodily. "I think Miss Hamilton has indulged her sadness long enough.
Perhaps there are other reasons for her being better. I suppose she has not heard--?" And here he stopped rather awkwardly.
"Do you mean whether she has heard anything of Eric? Oh no, Max."
"No, I was not meaning that," looking at me rather astonished. "Of course we know the poor boy is dead. I was only wondering if she had had an Indian letter lately. Well, it is none of my affair, and I cannot wait to hear more now. Good-night, little she-bear; I am off." And he actually was off, in spite of my calling him quite loudly in the porch, for I wanted him to tell me what he meant. Had Gladys any special correspondent in India? I wondered if I might venture to question Lady Betty.
As it very often happens, she played quite innocently into my hands, for the very next day she came to tell me that she had had a letter from Gladys.
"It was a very short one," she grumbled. "Only she had an Indian letter to answer, and that took up her time, so that was a pretty good excuse for once."
"Has Gladys any special friend in India?"
"Only Claude!--I mean our cousin, Claude Hamilton. Have you not often heard us talk of him? How strange! Why, he used to stay with us for months at a time, and he and Gladys were great friends: they correspond.
He is Captain Hamilton now; his regiment was ordered to India just at the time poor dear Eric disappeared; he was awfully shocked about that, I remember. Etta wrote and told him all about it; he was a great favourite of hers. We none of us thought him handsome except Etta; he was a nice-looking fellow, but nothing else."
"And you and Gladys are fond of him?"
"Oh yes." But here Lady Betty looked a little queer.
"Gladys writes to him most: she has always been his correspondent.
Now and then I get a letter written to me. You see, he has no one else belonging to him, now his mother is dead. Aunt Agnes died about two years ago, and he never had brothers or sisters, so he adopted us."
"Uncle Max knew him, of course?"
"To be sure. Mr. Cunliffe knew all our people. Claude was a favourite of his, too. I think every one liked him; he was so straightforward, and never did anything mean. I think he will make a splendid officer; he has had fever lately, and we rather expect he is coming home on sick-leave.
Etta hopes so."
"Gladys has never spoken of her cousin to me."
"That is because you two are always talking about other things,--poor Eric, for example. Gladys likes to talk about Claude, of course: he is her own cousin." And Lady Betty"s manner was just a little defiant, as though I had accused Gladys of some indiscretion. I heard her mutter, "They find plenty of fault with her about that," but I took no notice.
I had satisfied my curiosity, and I knew now why Max fancied an Indian letter would raise Gladys"s spirits; but all the same he might have spoken out. Max had no business to be so mysterious with me.
I heard Captain Hamilton"s name again shortly afterwards. I was calling at Gladwyn one afternoon. I was loath to do so in Gladys"s absence, but I dared not discontinue my visits entirely, for fear of Miss Darrell"s remarks. To my surprise, I found her _tete-a-tete_ with Uncle Max. She welcomed me with a great show of cordiality; but before I had been five minutes in the room I found out that my visit was inopportune, though Max seemed unfeignedly pleased to see me, and she had repeated his words in almost parrot-like fashion. "Oh yes, I am so glad to see you, Miss Garston! it is so good of you to call when dear Gladys is away! Of course I know she is the attraction: we all know that, do we not?" smiling sweetly upon me. "She has been away more than five weeks now,--dear, dear! how time flies!--really five weeks, and this is your first call."
"You know how Miss Locke"s illness has engrossed me," I remonstrated.
"I never pretend to mere conventional calls."
"No, indeed. You have a code of your own, have you not? Your niece is fortunate, Mr. Cunliffe. She makes her own laws, while we poor inferior mortals are obliged to conform to the world"s dictates. I wish I were strong-minded like you. It must be such a pleasure to be free and despise _les convenances_. People are so artificial, are they not?"
"Ursula is not artificial, at any rate," returned Max, with a benevolent glance. It had struck me as I entered the room that he looked rather bored and ill at ease, but Miss Darrell was in high spirits, and looked almost handsome. I never saw her better dressed.