I began to feel that Gladys had been away a long time, and to wish for her return. I was much disappointed, then, on receiving a letter from her about a fortnight after Elspeth"s death, telling me that Colonel Maberley had made up his mind to spend Easter in Paris, and that she had promised to accompany them.
"I shall be sorry to be so long without your companionship," she wrote.
"I miss you more than I can say; but I am sure that it is far better for me to remain away as long as possible: the change is certainly doing me good. I am quite strong and well: they spoil me dreadfully, but I think this sort of treatment suits me best."
It was a long letter, and seemed to be written in a more cheerful mood than usual. There was a charming description of a trip they had taken, with little graceful touches of humour here and there.
I handed the letter silently to Max when he called the next day. I thought that it would be no harm to show it to him. He took it to the window, and was so busy reading it that I had half finished a letter I was writing to Jill before he at last laid it down on my desk.
"Thank you for letting me see it," he said quietly: "it has been a great pleasure. Somehow, as I read it, it seemed as though the old Gladys Hamilton had written it,--not the one we know now. Indeed, she seems much better."
"Yes, and we must make up our minds to do without her," I answered, with a sigh.
"And we shall do so most willingly," he returned, with a sort of tacit rebuke to my selfishness, "if we know the change is benefiting her." And then, with a change of tone, "What a beautiful handwriting hers is, Ursula!--so firm and clear, so characteristic of the writer. Does she often write you such long, interesting letters? You are much to be envied, my dear. Well, well, the day"s work is waiting for me." And with that he went off, without saying another word.
My next visitor was Mr. Hamilton. He came to tell me of an accident case.
A young labourer had fallen off a scaffolding, and a compound fracture of the right arm had been the result. He was also badly shaken and bruised, and was altogether in a miserable plight.
I promised, of course, to go to him at once; but he told me that there was no immediate hurry; he had attended to the arm and left him very comfortable, and he would do well for the next hour or two; and, as Mr.
Hamilton seemed inclined to linger for a little chat, I could not refuse to oblige him.
"It is just as well that this piece of work has come to me," I said presently, "for I was feeling terribly idle. Since Elspeth"s death I have not had a single case, and have employed my leisure in writing long letters to my relations and taking country rambles with Tinker."
"That is right," he returned heartily. "I am sure we worked you far too hard at one time."
"It did not hurt me, and I should not care to be idle for long.--Yes, I have heard from Gladys," for his eyes fell on the open letter that lay beside us. "I am rather disappointed that I shall not see her before I go away."
"Are you going away, then?" he asked, very quickly, and I thought the news did not seem to please him.
"Not for three weeks. I hope my patient will be getting on by that time, and will be able to spare me: at any rate, I can give his mother a lesson or two. You know my cousin is to be married, and I have promised to help Aunt Philippa."
"How long do you think you will be away?" he demanded, with a touch of his old abruptness.
"For a fortnight. I could not arrange for less. Sara is making such a point of it."
"A whole fortnight! I am afraid you are terribly idle, after all, Miss Garston. You are growing tired of this humdrum place. You are yearning for "the leeks and cuc.u.mbers of Egypt,"" with a grim smile.
"You are wrong," I returned, with more earnestness than the occasion warranted. "I feel a strange reluctance to re-enter Vanity Fair. The splendours of a gay wedding are not to my taste. Sara tells me that her reception after the ceremony will be attended by about two hundred guests. To me the idea is simply barbarous. I expect I shall be heartily glad to get back to Heathfield."
I was surprised to see how pleased Mr. Hamilton looked at this speech. I had been thinking of my work and my quiet little parlour, not of Gladwyn, when I spoke; but he seemed to accept it as a personal compliment.
"I a.s.sure you that we shall welcome you back most gladly," he returned.
"The place will not seem like itself without our busy village nurse.
Well, you have worked hard enough for six months: you deserve a holiday.
I should like to see you in your b.u.t.terfly garb, Miss Garston. I fancy, however, that I should not recognise you."
With a sudden pang I remembered Elspeth"s words. He does not think that such home attire will become me. I thought he preferred me in my usual nun"s garb of black serge.
"Oh," I said, petulantly and foolishly, "I must own that I shall look rather like a crow dressed up in peac.o.c.k"s feathers in the grand gown Sara has chosen for me"; but I was a little taken aback, and felt inclined to laugh, when he asked me, with an air of interest, what it was like in colour and material.
"Sara wished it to be red plush," I replied demurely; "but I refused to wear it; so she has waived that in favour of a dark green velvet. I think it is absolutely wicked to make Uncle Brian pay for such a dress; but it seems that Sara will get her own way, so I must put up with all they choose to give me."
"That is hardly spoken graciously. If your uncle be rich, why should he not please himself in buying you a velvet gown? I think the fair bride-elect has good taste. You will look very well in dark-green velvet: light tints would not suit you at all; red would be too gay."
He spoke with such gravity and decision that I thought it best not to contradict him. I even repressed my inclination to laugh: if he liked to be dogmatic on the subject of my dress, I would not hinder him. The next moment, however, he dismissed the matter.
"I agree with you in disliking gay weddings. The idea is singularly repugnant to me. Because two people elect to join hands for the journey of life, is there any adequate reason why all their idle acquaintances should accompany them with cymbals and prancings and all sorts of fooleries just at the most solemn moment of their life?"
"I suppose they wish to express their sympathy," I returned.
"Sympathy should wear a quieter garb. These folks come to church to show their fine feathers and make a fuss; they do not care a jot for the solemnity of the service; and yet to me it is as awful in its way as the burial service. "Till death us do part,"--can any one, man or woman, say these words lightly and not bring down a doom upon himself?" He spoke with suppressed excitement, walking up and down the room: one could see how strongly he felt his words. Was he thinking of Mrs. Carrick? I wondered. He gave a slight shudder, as though some unwelcome thought obtruded itself, and then he turned to me with a forced smile.
"I am boring you, I am afraid. I get horribly excited over the shams of conventionality. What were we talking about? Oh, I remember: Gladys"s letter. Yes, she has written to Lady Betty, but not such a volume as that," glancing at the closely written sheets. "You are her chief correspondent, I believe; but she told us her plans. For my part, I am glad that she should enjoy this trip to Paris. Really, the Maberleys are most kind. I sent her a cheque to add to her amus.e.m.e.nts, for of course all girls like shopping."
How generous he was to his sisters! with all his faults of manner, he seemed to grudge them nothing. But all the same I knew Gladys would have valued a few kind words from him far more than the cheque; but perhaps he had written to her as well. But he seemed rather surprised when I asked him the question.
"Oh no; I never write to my sisters: they would not care for a letter from me. Etta offered to enclose it in a letter she had just finished to Gladys, so that saved all trouble. By the bye, Miss Garston, I hope you will come up to Gladwyn one evening before you leave Heathfield. I do not see why we are to be deserted in this fashion."
Neither did I, if he put it in this way: reluctant as I was to spend an evening there in Gladys"s absence, it certainly was not quite kind either to him or to Lady Betty to refuse. He seemed to antic.i.p.ate a refusal, however, for he said hastily,--
"Never mind answering me now. Etta shall write to you in proper form, and you shall fix your own evening. Now I have hindered you sufficiently, so I will take my leave,"--which he did, but I heard him some time afterwards talking to Nathaniel in the porch.
A few days after this I received a civil little note from Miss Darrell, pressing me to spend a long evening with them, and begging me to bring my prettiest songs.
I made the rather lame excuse that I was much engaged with my new patient, and fixed the latest day that I could,--the very last evening before I was to leave for London. Mr. Hamilton met me a few hours afterwards, and asked me rather drily what my numerous engagements could be.
"You are the most unsociable of your s.e.x," he added, when I had no answer to make to this. "I shall take care that you are properly punished, for neither Cunliffe nor Tudor shall be asked to meet you. Etta was sure you would like one or both to come, but I put my veto on it at once."
"Then you were very disagreeable," I returned laughingly. "I wanted Uncle Max very much." But he only shook his head at me good-humouredly, and scolded me for my want of amiability.
I determined, when the evening came, that he should not find fault with me in any way. I was rather in holiday mood; my patient was going on well, and his mother was a neat, capable body, and might be trusted to look after him. No other cases had come to me, and I might leave Heathfield with a clear conscience. Uncle Max would miss me, but an old college friend was coming to stay at the vicarage, so I could be better spared. I had seen a great deal of Mr. Tudor lately. I often met him in the village, and he always turned back and walked with me: he met me on this occasion, and walked to the gates of Gladwyn. Indeed, he detained me for some minutes in the road, trying to extract particulars about the wedding.
"Miss Jocelyn is to be bridesmaid, then?" describing a circle with his stick in the dust.
"Yes. Poor Sara is afraid that she will be quite overshadowed by Jill"s bigness; she has made her promise not to stand quite close. They have got a match for her. Grace Underley is as tall as Jill, and very fair. Sara calls them her night and morning bridesmaids."
"I think I shall be in London on the fourteenth. I thought, Miss Garston, that there was a prejudice to weddings in May."
"Yes; but Sara laughs at the idea, and Colonel Ferguson says it is all nonsense. I did not know you were coming to town so soon."
"Some of my people will be up then," he said absently. "Perhaps I shall have a peep at you all; but of course"--rather hastily--"I shall not call at Hyde Park Gate until the wedding is over."
I wished he would not call then. What was the good of feeding his boyish fancy? it would soon die a natural death, if he would only be wise. Poor Mr. Tudor! I began to be afraid that he was very much in earnest after all: there was a grave expression on his face as he turned away. Perhaps he knew, as I did, that our big awkward Jill would develop into a splendid woman; that one of these days Jocelyn Garston would be far more admired than her sister; that the ugly duckling would soon change into a swan. There were times even now when Jill looked positively handsome, if only her short black locks would grow, and if she would leave off hunching her shoulders.
"I should like Lawrence Tudor to have my Jill, if he were only rich; but there is no hope for him now, poor fellow!" I said to myself, as I walked up the gravel walk towards the house.
Gladwyn looked its best this evening. The shady little lawns that surrounded the house looked cool and inviting; the birds were singing merrily from the avenue of young oaks; the air was sweet with the scent of May-blossoms and wall-flowers: great bunches of them were placed in the hall.
Thornton, who admitted me, said that Leah would be waiting for me in the blue room, as Miss Darrell"s room was called; so I went up at once.