"I knew Mrs. Fullerton would never repent her sacrifice."
"No, indeed; mother and I have never been so cosy in our lives. She sits in the verandah and laughs over my quarrels with Patrick: he is quite as cross-grained as ever, dear old fellow, but there is nothing that he will not do for me. We are making a rose-garden now. Do you remember that sunny corner by the terrace and sundial?--dear Charlie always wanted me to have a rose-garden there. We have trellis-work arches and a little arbour. Patrick and Hawkins are doing the work, but I fancy they cannot get on without me."
She stopped with a little laugh at her own conceit, and then went on:
"And I am so busy in other ways, Ursula. Every Monday I go to the mothers" meeting with Mrs. Trevor, and I have some of the old women at the almshouses besides,--I am so fond of those old women,--and I have just begun afternoons for tennis; people like these, and they come from such a distance. Mr. Manners declares the Rutherford Thursdays will soon be known all over the country."
"Bravo, Lesbia! you are taking your position n.o.bly, my dear; this is just what Charlie wanted to see you,--a brave sweet woman who would not let sorrow and disappointment spoil her own and other people"s lives." Then, as she blushed with pleasure at my words, I said carelessly, "Do you often see Mr. Manners?"
"Oh yes," she returned without hesitation,--"on my Thursdays, and at church, and at the vicarage: we are always meeting somewhere. He was Charlie"s friend, you know, and he is so nice and sympathising, and tells me so much about their school life and college life together. He was so fond of Charlie, and the undergraduates used to call them Damon and Pythias."
"To be sure: Charlie was always talking about Harcourt. He has grown very handsome, I have heard."
"Mother says so: he is certainly good-looking," she answered simply; "and then he is so kind. I feel almost ashamed at troubling him so much with our business and commissions, but he never seems to mind any amount of trouble. I have never met any one so unselfish."
I turned away my head to hide a smile. Lesbia was quite serious. She was too much absorbed in the memory of Charlie to read the secret of Harcourt Manners"s unselfishness: the kindly attentions of the young man, his solicitude and sympathy, had not yet awakened a suspicion of the truth.
One day Lesbia"s eyes would be opened, and she would be shocked and surprised to find the hold that Charlie"s friend had got over her heart.
Very likely she would dismiss him and lock herself up in her room and cry for hours; probably she would persist for some weeks in making herself and him exceedingly unhappy. But it would be all no use; the tie of sympathy would be too strong; he would have made himself too necessary to her. One day she would have to yield, and find her life"s happiness in thus yielding. Charlie"s white lily was too fair to be left to wither alone, and I knew Harcourt Manners would be worthy to win the prize.
I could see it all before it happened, while Lesbia talked in her serious way of Mr. Manners"s unselfishness. Presently, however, she changed the subject, and began questioning me eagerly about my work; and just then Jill joined us, and placed herself on the floor at my feet, with the firm intention, evidently, of listening to our remarks.
The conversation drifted round to Gladwyn presently. I could see Lesbia was a little curious about these friends of mine that I had mentioned casually in my letters.
"I can"t quite make out the relationship," she said, in a puzzled tone.
"You are always talking about this Gladys. Is she really so beautiful and fascinating? And who is Miss Darrell?"
"You had better ask me," interrupted Jill, quite rudely, "for Ursula is so absurdly infatuated about the whole family; she thinks them all quite perfect, with the exception of the double-faced lady, Miss Darrell; but they are very ordinary,--quite ordinary people, I a.s.sure you."
"Now, Jill, we do not want any of your impertinence. Lesbia would rather hear my description of my friends."
"On the contrary, she would prefer the opinion of an unprejudiced person," persisted Jill, with a voluble eloquence that took away my breath. "Listen to me, Lesbia. This Mr. Hamilton that Ursula is always talking about"--how I longed to box Jill"s pretty little ears! she had lovely ears, pink and sh.e.l.l-like, hidden under her black locks--"is an ugly, disagreeable-looking man."
"Oh!" from Lesbia, in rather a disappointed tone.
"He is quite old,--about five-and-thirty, they say,--and he has a long smooth-shaven face like a Jesuit. I don"t recollect seeing a Jesuit, though; but he is very like one all the same. He has dark eyes that stare somehow and seem to put you down, and he has a way of laughing at you civilly that makes you wild; and Ursula believes in him, and is quite meek in his presence, just because he is a doctor and orders her about."
"My dear Lesbia, I hope you are taking Jill"s measure with a grain of salt. Mr. Hamilton is not disagreeable, and he never orders me about."
Jill shook her head at me, and went on:
"Then there is the double-faced lady--but never mind her; we both hate her."
"You mean Miss Darrell, Mr. Hamilton"s cousin?"
"Yes, Witch Etta, as Lady Betty calls her. She is a dark-eyed, slim piece of elegance, utterly dependent on her clothes for beauty; she dresses perfectly, and makes herself out a good-looking woman, but she is not really good-looking; and she is always talking, and her talk is exciting, because there is always something behind her words, something mildly suggestive of volcanoes, or something equally pleasant and enlivening.
If she smiles, for instance, one seems to think one must find out the meaning of that."
"Who has taught you all this, Jill?" asked Lesbia, bewildered by this sarcasm.
"My mother-wit," returned Jill, utterly unabashed. "Well, then there is Gladys. Ah, now we are coming to the saddest part. Once upon a time there was a beautiful maiden, really a lovely creature,--oh, I grant you that, Ursula,--but she fell under the power of some wicked magician, male or female,--some folks say Witch Etta,--who changed her into a snow-maiden or an ice-maiden. If she were only alive, this Gladys would be most lovely and bewitching; but, you see, she is only a poor snow-maiden, very white and cold. If she gives you her hand, it quite freezes you; her kiss turns you to ice too; her smile is congealing. Ursula tries to thaw her sometimes, but it does no good. She is only Gladys, the snow-maiden."
I was too angry with Jill to say a word. Lesbia looked more mystified than ever.
"If she be so cold and sad, how can Ursula be so fond of her?" she demanded, in her practical way. But Jill took no notice, but rattled on:
"Little brown Betsy--I beg her pardon--Lady Betty, is the best of all: she is really human. Gladys is only half alive. Lady Betty laughs and talks and pouts; she wrinkles up like an old woman when she is cross, and has lovely dimples when she smiles. She is not pretty, but she is quaint, and interesting, and childlike. I am very fond of Lady Betty," finished Jill, with a benevolent nod.
I proceeded to annotate Jill"s mischievous remarks with much severity.
I left Mr. Hamilton alone, with the exception of a brief sentence; I a.s.sured Lesbia that he was not ugly, but only peculiar-looking, and that he was an intellectual, earnest-minded man who had known much trouble.
Jill made a wry face, but did not dare to contradict me.
"As for his sister Gladys," I went on, "she is simply a most beautiful girl, whose health has failed a little from a great shock"; here Jill and Lesbia both looked curious, but I showed no intention of enlightening them. "She is a little too sad and quiet for Jill"s taste," I continued, "and she is also somewhat reserved in manner, but when she likes a person thoroughly she is charming."
I went on a little longer in this strain, until I had thoroughly vindicated my favourite from Jill"s aspersion.
"You are very fond of her, Ursula: your eyes soften as you talk of her.
I should like to see this wonderful Gladys."
"You must see her one day," I rejoined; and then the gong sounded, and Lesbia jumped up in a fright, because she said she would keep her mother waiting, and Jill hurried off to her room to dress.
We had what Jill called a picnic dinner in Uncle Brian"s study. Every one enjoyed it but Clayton, who seemed rather put out by the disorganised state of the house, and who was always getting helplessly wedged in between the escritoire and the table. We would have much rather waited on ourselves, and we wished Mrs. Martin had forgone the usual number of courses. When it was over we all went into the long drawing-room, and Jill played soft s.n.a.t.c.hes of Chopin, while Sara and Colonel Ferguson whispered together on the dark balcony.
Mrs. Fullerton and Lesbia joined us later on, and then Colonel Ferguson took his leave. I thought Sara looked a little quiet and subdued when she joined us; her gay chatter had died away, her eyes were a little plaintive. When we had said good-night, and Jill and I were pa.s.sing down the corridor hand in hand, we could hear voices from Aunt Philippa"s room. Through the half-opened door I caught a glimpse of Sara: she was kneeling by her mother"s chair, with her head on Aunt Philippa"s shoulder. Was she bidding a tearful regret to her old happy life? I wondered; was she looking forward with natural shrinking and a little fear to the new responsibility that awaited her on the morrow? It was the mother who was talking; one could imagine how her heart would yearn over her child to-night,--what fond prayers would be uttered for the girl.
Aunt Philippa was a loving mother: worldliness had not touched the ingrained warmth of her nature.
I am glad to remember how brightly the sun shone on Sara"s wedding-day.
There was not a cloud in the sky. When I woke, the birds were singing in Hyde Park, and Jill in her white wrapper was looking at me with bright, excited eyes.
"It is such a lovely morning!" she exclaimed rapturously. "Actually Sara is asleep! Fancy sleeping under such circ.u.mstances! She and mother are going to have breakfast together in the schoolroom. Do be quick and dress, Ursula; father is always so early, you know."
Uncle Brian was reading his paper as usual when I entered the study. Miss Gillespie was pouring out coffee. Jill was fidgeting about the room, until her father called her to order, and then she sat down to the table.
I do not think any of us enjoyed our breakfast. Uncle Brian certainly looked dull; Jill was too excited to eat; poor Miss Gillespie had tears in her eyes; she poured out tea and coffee with cold shaking hands.
"Lilian Gillespie, from her devoted friend Maurice Compton," came into my head: no wonder the thought of marriage-bells and bridal finery made her sad. I am afraid I should have shut myself up in my own room, and refused to mingle with the crowd, under these circ.u.mstances. I quite understood the feeling of sympathy that made Jill stoop down and kiss the smooth brown hair as she pa.s.sed the governess"s chair: it was a sort of affectionate homage to misfortune patiently borne.
I went up to the schoolroom when breakfast was over. Aunt Philippa looked as though she had not slept: there was a jaded look about her eyes. Sara, on the contrary, looked fresh and smiling; she was just going to put herself in her maid"s hands; but she tripped back in her pretty muslin dressing-gown and rose-coloured ribbons to kiss me and ask me to look after Jill"s toilet.
"Every one is so busy, and mother and Draper will be attending to me.
Do, please, Ursie dear, see that she puts on her bonnet straight." And of course I promised to do my best.
As it happened, Jill was very tractable and obedient. I think her beautiful bridesmaid"s dress rather impressed her. I saw a look of awe in her eyes as she regarded herself, and then she dropped a mocking courtesy to her own image.
"I am Jocelyn to-day, remember that, Ursula. I don"t look a bit like Jill. Jocelyn Adelaide Garston, bridesmaid."
"You look charming, Jill--I mean Jocelyn."
"Oh, how horrid it sounds from your lips, Ursie! I like my own funny little name best from you. Now come and let me finish you." And Jill, in spite of her fine dress, would persist in waiting on me. She was very voluble in her expression of admiration when I had finished, but I did not seem to recognise "Nurse Ursula" in the elegantly-dressed woman that I saw reflected in the pier-gla.s.s. "Fine feathers make fine birds," I said to myself.