I did not quite know what an execution meant; but from two harrowing novels, with whose distresses I was familiar, I knew that it indicated some direful process of legal torture and spoliation.
"Oh, uncle I--oh, sir!--you cannot allow this to happen. What will people say of me? And--and there is poor Milly--and _everything_! Think what it will be."
"It cannot be helped--_you_ cannot help it, Maud. Listen to me. There will be an execution here, I cannot say exactly how soon, but, I think, in a little more than a fortnight. I must provide for your comfort. You must leave. I have arranged that you shall join Milly, for the present, in France, till I have time to look about me. You had better, I think, write to your cousin, Lady Knollys. She, with all her oddities, has a heart. Can you say, Maud, that I have been kind?"
"You have never been anything but kind," I exclaimed.
"That I"ve been self-denying when you made me a generous offer?" he continued. "That I now act to spare you pain? You may tell her, not as a message from me, but as a fact, that I am seriously thinking of vacating my guardianship--that I feel I have done her an injustice, and that, so soon as my mind is a little less tortured, I shall endeavour to effect a reconciliation with her, and would wish ultimately to transfer the care of your person and education to _her_. You may say I have no longer an interest even in vindicating my name. My son has wrecked himself by a marriage. I forgot to tell you he stopped at Feltram, and this morning wrote to pray a parting interview. If I grant it, it shall be the last. I shall never see him or correspond with him more."
The old man seemed much overcome, and held his hankerchief to his eyes.
"He and his wife are, I understand, about to emigrate; the sooner the better," he resumed, bitterly. "Deeply, Maud, I regret having tolerated his suit to you, even for a moment. Had I thought it over, as I did the whole case last night, nothing could have induced me to permit it. But I have lived for so long like a monk in his cell, my wants and observation limited to the narrow compa.s.s of this chamber, that my knowledge of the world has died out with my youth and my hopes: and I did not, as I ought to have done, consider many objections. Therefore, dear Maud, on this one subject, I entreat, be silent; its discussion can effect nothing now. I was wrong, and frankly ask you to forget my mistake."
I had been on the point of writing to Lady Knollys on this odious subject, when, happily, it was set at rest by the disclosure of yesterday; and being so, I could have no difficulty in acceding to my uncle"s request. He was conceding so much that I could not withhold so trifling a concession in return.
"I hope Monica will continue to be kind to poor Milly after I am gone."
Here there were a few seconds of meditation.
"Maud, you will not, I think, refuse to convey the substance of what I have just said in a letter to Lady Knollys, and perhaps you would have no objection to let me see it when it is written. It will prevent the possibility of its containing any misconception of what I have just spoken: and, Maud, you won"t forget to say whether I have been kind. It would be a satisfaction to me to know that Monica was a.s.sured that I never either teased or bullied my young ward."
With these words he dismissed me; and forthwith I completed such a letter as would quite embody what he had said; and in my own glowing terms, being in high good-humour with Uncle Silas, recorded my estimate of his gentleness and good-nature; and when I submitted it to him, he expressed his admiration of what he was pleased to call my cleverness in so exactly conveying what he wished, and his grat.i.tude for the handsome terms in which I had spoken of my old guardian.
CHAPTER LIII
_AN ODD PROPOSAL_
As I and Mary Quince returned from our walk that day, and had entered the hall, I was surprised most disagreeably by Dudley"s emerging from the vestibule at the foot of the great staircase. He was, I suppose, in his travelling costume--a rather soiled white surtout, a great coloured m.u.f.fler in folds about his throat, his "chimney-pot" on, and his fur cap sticking out from his pocket. He had just descended, I suppose, from my uncle"s room. On seeing me he stepped back, and stood with his shoulders to the wall, like a mummy in a museum.
I pretended to have a few words to say to Mary before leaving the hall, in the hope that, as he seemed to wish to escape me, he would take the opportunity of getting quickly off the scene.
But he had changed his mind, it would seem, in the interval; for when I glanced in that direction again he had moved toward us, and stood in the hall with his hat in his hand. I must do him the justice to say he looked horribly dismal, sulky, and frightened.
"Ye"ll gi"e me a word, Miss--only a thing I ought to say--for your good; by ----, mind, it"s for _your_ good, Miss."
Dudley stood a little way off, viewing me, with his hat in both hands and a "glooming" countenance.
I detested the idea of either hearing or speaking to him; but I had no resolution to refuse, and only saying "I can"t imagine what you can wish to speak to me about," I approached him. "Wait there at the banister, Quince."
There was a fragrance of alcohol about the flushed face and gaudy m.u.f.fler of this odious cousin, which heightened the effect of his horribly dismal features. He was speaking, besides, a little thickly; but his manner was dejected, and he was treating me with an elaborate and discomfited respect which rea.s.sured me.
"I"m a bit up a tree, Miss," he said shuffling his feet on the oak floor.
"I behaved a d---- fool; but I baint one o" they sort. I"m a fellah as "ill fight his man, an" stan" up to "m fair, don"t ye see? An" _baint_ one o"
they sort--no, _dang_ it, I baint."
Dudley delivered his puzzling harangue with a good deal of undertoned vehemence, and was strangely agitated. He, too, had got an unpleasant way of avoiding my eye, and glancing along the floor from corner to corner as he spoke, which gave him a very hang-dog air.
He was twisting his fingers in his great sandy whisker, and pulling it roughly enough to drag his cheek about by that savage purchase; and with his other hand he was crushing and rubbing his hat against his knee.
"The old boy above there be half crazed, I think; he don"t mean half as he says thof, not he. But I"m in a bad fix anyhow--a regular sell it"s been, and I can"t get a tizzy out of him. So, ye see, I"m up a tree, Miss; and he sich a one, he"ll make it a wuss mull if I let him. He"s as sharp wi" me as one o" them lawyer chaps, dang "em, and he"s a lot of I O"s and rubb.i.t.c.h o"
mine; and Bryerly writes to me he can"t gi"e me my legacy, "cause he"s got a notice from Archer and Sleigh a warnin" him not to gi"e me as much as a bob; for I signed it away to governor, he says--which I believe"s a lie. I may a" signed some writing--"appen I did--when I was a bit cut one night.
But that"s no way to catch a gentleman, and "twon"t stand. There"s justice to be had, and "twon"t _stand_, I say; and I"m not in "is hands that way.
Thof I may be a bit up the spout, too, I don"t deny; only I baint agoin"
the whole hog all at once. I"m none o" they sort. He"ll find I baint."
Here Mary Quince coughed demurely from the foot of the stair, to remind me that the conversation was protracted.
"I don"t very well understand," I said gravely; "and I am now going upstairs."
"Don"t jest a minute, Miss; it"s only a word, ye see. We"ll be goin" t"
Australia, Sary Mangles, an" me, aboard the _Seamew_, on the 5th. I"m for Liverpool to-night, and she"ll meet me there, an"--an", please G.o.d Almighty, ye"ll never see me more; an I"d rather gi"e ye a lift, Maud, before I go: an" I tell ye what, if ye"ll just gi"e me your written promise ye"ll gi"e me that twenty thousand ye were offering to gi"e the Governor, I"ll take ye cleverly out o" Bartram, and put ye wi" your cousin Knollys, or anywhere ye like best."
"Take me from Bartram--for twenty thousand pounds! Take me away from my guardian! You seem to forget, sir," my indignation rising as I spoke, "that I can visit my cousin, Lady Knollys, whenever I please."
"Well, that is as it may be," he said, with a sulky deliberation, sc.r.a.ping about a little bit of paper that lay on the floor with the toe of his boot.
"It _is_ as it may be, and that is as I say, sir; and considering how you have treated me--your mean, treacherous, and infamous suit, and your cruel treason to your poor wife, I am amazed at your effrontery."
I turned to leave him, being, in truth, in one of my pa.s.sions.
"Don"t ye be a flying" out," he said peremptorily, and catching me roughly by the wrist," I baint a-going to vex ye. What a mouth you be, as can"t see your way! Can"t ye speak wi" common sense, like a woman--dang it--for once, and not keep brawling like a brat--can"t ye see what I"m saying? I"ll take ye out o" all this, and put ye wi" your cousin, or wheresoever you list, if ye"ll gi"e me what I say."
He was, for the first time, looking me in the face, but with contracted eyes, and a countenance very much agitated.
"Money?" said I, with a prompt disdain.
"Ay, money--twenty thousand pounds--_there_. On or off?" he replied, with an unpleasant sort of effort.
"You ask my promise for twenty thousand pounds, and you shan"t have it."
My cheeks were flaming, and I stamped on the ground as I spoke.
If he had known how to appeal to my better feelings, I am sure I should have done, perhaps not quite that, all at once at least, but something handsome, to a.s.sist him. But this application was so shabby and insolent!
What could he take me for? That I should suppose his placing me with Cousin Monica const.i.tuted her my guardian? Why, he must fancy me the merest baby.
There was a kind of stupid cunning in this that disgusted my good-nature and outraged my self-importance.
"You won"t gi"e me that, then?" he said, looking down again, with a frown, and working his mouth and cheeks about as I could fancy a man rolling a piece of tobacco in his jaw.
"Certainly _not_, sir," I replied.
"_Take_ it, then," he replied, still looking down, very black and discontented.
I joined Mary Quince, extremely angry. As I pa.s.sed under the carved oak arch of the vestibule, I saw his figure in the deepening twilight. The picture remains in its murky halo fixed in memory. Standing where he last spoke in the centre of the hall, not looking after me, but downward, and, as well as I could see, with the countenance of a man who has lost a game, and a ruinous wager too--that is black and desperate. I did not utter a syllable on the way up. When I reached my room, I began to reconsider the interview more at my leisure. I was, such were my ruminations, to have agreed at once to his preposterous offer, and to have been driven, while he smirked and grimaced behind my back at his acquaintances, through Feltram in his dog-cart to Elverston; and then, to the just indignation of my uncle, to have been delivered up to Lady Knolly"s guardianship, and to have handed my driver, as I alighted, the handsome fare of 20.000_l_. It required the impudence of Tony Lumpkin, without either his fun or his shrewdness, to have conceived such a prodigious practical joke.