swirl , swirl, swirl.
Inside the world of darkness, various scene restlessly reflected in front of me and then vanished.
This, memory.
My memory of the old world.
The swell of magical power, it will recovered into my mind as I go through the phase of evolution .... my fragments.
Those memories, have already returned to about 80%.
Probably, if I go through revolution once again, I will be able to salvage the rest of my memories.
.... however.
I want to remember, I want to take it back.
If I was asked if I thought about it from the depth of my heart.
then surely, I will nod my head in consent.
The time I spent my life when I was still alive.
Born in a normal house that you can find everywhere, attend an average high school.
Surrounded by gentle parents and a cute little sister, going through the day happily just like what every other person do normally.
It was so ordinary, that’s why that time was something I think as precious.
That was my life.
Until that day, until that time.
The scene where my little sister dead, *fwop* come out resurfaced from inside the dark.
Himuro mayu. My, only and sole little sister.
She died right in front of me.
..... no.
She was killed.
Since both of our parents were working, from since long ago I often take care of mayu.
Therefore, she was very attached to me.
That day too, me and her were going to town to go shopping.
After treating her to something lavishly, I remembered that time the money I got from my part time job was blown away
however ........ however.
That thing happened on the way back home.
Wearing her newly bought hairpin on her head, mayu walked in front of me with good humour.
That time when she, was approaching the street corner.
The figure of a person then suddenly appeared, stabbed mayu right on her chest.
From the story that I heard after that, the man who stab mayu was someone who just done a market robbery or perhaps bank robbery, and it seems that he was in the middle of a desperate run away.
Over there, he thought that mayu who suddenly appeared in front of him was a police or someone like that, without looking closely at his target he swung his knife.
She was killed. My little sister got killed.
Perhaps the place she got stabbed was so bad, it was an instant death.
Without even able to say any parting word, my little sister died.
Her appearance, is overlapped with the half crow girl that followed me for some time, she was similar to Misha.
That girl was also like that. Right in front of me, without saying any parting world, she died.
it"s too quick. The thing called『death』, it was truly something that came so fast.
The day that come after that .... was terrible.
father who once a person who zealously doing his work seriously, got into drinking.
Mom who was gentle and good at taking care of us, became crippled.
And then, sometime after that.
As if they were following after mayu"s shadow, both of them died in traffic accident.
The previous me, thought, that the reason why I cannot kill something that was like a human was because, 『I never know what death is』
However, looking at it after my memories come back.
There was a mistake, I realize that it was the exact opposite.
I knew too much about death.
My parents, my little sister, I lost to many people who were precious to me.
Every time my memories returned, even the sadness and fear of those things also resurrected.
...... also.
Surely, the last thing that I lost in my memories, is my own ----
My eyes, opened.
My body, was lied on the bed.
I woke up only half of my body, then I looked at my surroundings.
..... it was unfamiliar room.
Though quite some time has already pa.s.sed since I came to nee-san"s castle and stayed here, but most of the time I secluded myself inside the library, I didn"t quite understand the structure inside the castle.
Anyway, it was a castle that"s stupidly big. there"s so much places that I wouldn"t know.
As my gaze wandered around, the room"s door opened.
Very slowly, as if she was hesitating.
slowly, nee-san showed her face from the door.
... ... hina ?
with that frail tone, she called my name.
Surely, she wept her eyes out. her eyes were red, it still looked moist.
nee ......... san
As I mutter that, she, with nervous behaviour entered the room.
From her face that usually looked like a doll, right now the 『fear』was clearly all over her face.
...... As expected, it was very hard on her.
This girl, nee-san was always alone.
That"s why she was gentle towards me, even pointing a 『love』to the level of extreme.
However.
Why ?
If she wished over something that"s beautiful, there are more than enough candidates outside.
However, nee-san chose me.
She only chose me.
The reason for that was because I wasn’t scared of nee-san.
To love but sorrowful, it was because I didn"t possess any feat toward her.
That"s why, nee-san put me by her side.
Didn"t fear herself who was a demon lord, the me who can laugh besides her
.... but you know, nee-san.
It"s already no good.
I ended up realizing it. The things that I mustn"t realize.
Also, after I realized that thing even once, I wouldn"t able to turn back.
nee-san.
I love you.
you who the only one who lend me your hand in this work, I love you from the deepest part of my heart
also, nee-san.
I hate you.
The me who already got back portion of my memories, the me who know how fragile life is.
In front of me who knew the sadness of losing someone, for you who is able to s.n.a.t.c.h away other people"s life calmly, I hate you from the deepest part of my heart.
That"s why
For you who I owe a great debt of grat.i.tude, before I hurt you even more than this.
For you who I hate as much I love you, if I don"t want to make you cry anymore.
I held back the hand of that girl who took a step forward.
Without looking at her face, I said. (ED Note: wow tough love)
I will ..... separate, from your side.