"Marjorie Fleming." Then I knew that a miracle had happened. "My eldest girl is named after her." I might have guessed it; I believe I did.
"She"s the dearest creature in the world, but she hasn"t had the very best of times."
I said nothing, having nothing to say. I waited for her to go on, which presently she did do, dreamily, as she peeled her pear.
"Do you know that it was in this place--I suppose in this very room--perhaps at this very table, that her life was spoilt one Christmas Day."
"How--how spoilt?"
It seemed as if my tongue had shrivelled in my mouth.
"What is it that spoils a woman"s life?"
"How should I know?"
"I thought that everyone knew what spoils a woman"s life--even you cynical bachelors." Cynical bachelors! I was beginning to shiver as if each word she uttered was a piece of ice slipped down my back.
"Different people write it different ways, but it"s all summed up in the same word in the end--a lover."
"I thought that it was a lover who is supposed to make a woman"s life the perfect thing it ought to be."
"He either makes or mars it. In my sister"s case he--marred it."
"A woman"s life is not so easily spoilt."
"Hers was. All in a moment. It was years and years ago, but it"s with her still--that moment. I know, I know! Poor Marjorie! The whole of her life worth living is in the land of ghosts."
My heart stopped beating. The sap in my veins was dried. It seemed as if the world was slipping from me. All Marjorie"s life worth living was in the land of ghosts? Why, then, we were in the land of ghosts together!
"She told me the story once, and only once, but I"ve never forgotten it--never; a woman never does forget that kind of story, and I"m sure Marjorie never will. I know it"s just as present to her now as if it had only happened yesterday. Dear Marjorie! You don"t know what a dear sister my sister is. Although, in those days, she was only a young girl, she lived alone in London. Our father and mother died when we were children. She was full of dreams of becoming a great artist; they are gone now, with the other dreams. She had a lover, who was jealous of her artist friends. They had lovers" tiffs. They used often to come to this place. They came here together one Christmas Day, of all days in the year. And it is because of what happened on that Christmas Day that Ordino"s Restaurant has been to me a sort of legend, a shrine which had to be visited when occasion offered. They quarrelled.
Marjorie told me that she never could remember just how the quarrel began, and I believe her. Quarrels, especially between a man and a woman, spring out of nothing often and often. They grew furiously hot.
Suddenly, in his heat, he said something which no man ever ought to say to any woman, above all to the woman whom he loves. Marjorie stood up.
She laid on the table the locket he had just given her--a Christmas gift--with, in it, his portrait and hers. And she said, "I return you your locket. Presently, when I get home, I will return all that you have given me. I never wish to see you, or to hear from you, again."
And she went towards the entrance, he doing nothing to stop her. As she opened the door she saw him stand up and give the locket, her locket, to the woman who sat at the desk, as that woman is sitting now, and he said, in tones which he evidently intended that she should hear, "Madam, permit me to beg your acceptance of this locket. Since it is a.s.sociated with someone whom I wish I had never met, you will do me a great favour by relieving me of its custody." Marjorie waited to hear no more. She went out, alone, into the street, that Christmas Day, and she has never seen him since or heard if he is alive or dead."
I was speechless. I could only sit and stare at the ghosts who stared at me.
All at once "the woman who sat at the desk," as Mrs Heathcote had put it, came down from her place and stood beside us.
"Madam," she exclaimed, in what struck me, even then, as tones of singular agitation, "it is a miracle, a true miracle. You must forgive me, I could not help but listen; my parents have told me the story many and many a time. It all happened as you have said. It was to my mother the locket was given. She wished very much not to take it, but the young gentleman, he was very excited, and at last, to avoid a scene, my father said to her, "At least in your keeping it will be safe; worse might befall it than to be left in your hands. These foolish young people will make it up again. Presently they will return; you will be able to give back the locket to its proper owner." But they did not return, neither the one nor the other, never, not once! At last my mother died; the locket came to me. She wished that when I was in the desk I should always carry it as she had done, for she believed that, at last, there would arrive a day when one or the other would return and the locket would be restored. Madam, here is the locket. I entreat you to permit me to beg you to return it to your sister, to whom it properly belongs."
The speaker held out something which I vaguely recognised as the locket of that eventful Christmas Day, which I had purchased with such loving thought and tender carefulness, and of which I had rid myself in such a storm of rage. Mrs Heathcote stared alternately at it and at the woman who for so long had held it, as a sacred charge, in such safe keeping, as if its sudden appearance had robbed her of her power of speech. I was conscious that someone had come into the place. Instantly those two young persons--who were still instructing their dolls in the proper manner of eating a banana--tore off towards the door, crying, at the top of their voices,--
"Father! father! Oh, mother, here"s father!"
And all at once Mrs Heathcote went pushing past me, then I knew that she was in the arms of a man with a beard--I believe she was crying!--and exclaiming,--
"Robert, have you dropped from the skies?"
"No," he responded, reasonably enough, "I"ve merely dropped in from the overland route. I made up my mind I"d get at you somehow by Christmas Day, and I have. But before I was allowed to go to you, where I supposed you to be, I was made to come here. For some mysterious reason of her own that sister of yours, before she went anywhere else, insisted on visiting Ordino"s Restaurant; for an explanation, if you want one, I can only refer you to Marjorie."
Marjorie! Behind him was a woman whose face, whose form, whose everything I knew. It seemed that "the woman who sat at the desk"
recognised her also. She held out the locket.
"Madam, allow me to have the happiness to return to you your locket.
That it is yours I am sure because of your portrait which is in it. You have scarcely altered at all since the day it was taken."
I s.n.a.t.c.hed it from her.
"Give it to me!" I stormed. "Since, through all these years, it has been held in such safe keeping, Marjorie, won"t you take your locket back again?"
She had never moved her eyes from off my face, just as I had kept mine on hers. She moved a little forward. And--then I had her in my arms and her cheek was next to mine, and the locket was in her hand, and--we both of us were crying--I admit it.... Oh, yes, it was a miracle of grace and healing, since by the grace of G.o.d the open wound was healed. For us--for Marjorie and me--the life worth living is no longer in the land of ghosts. We are living it now, together; dear wife! together.
And it is universally admitted that we are the best customers Ordino"s Restaurant has. Those two young persons have been there again and again since then, with their dolls, whom they are still instructing in the proper manner of eating a banana. I should be afraid to estimate how many bananas they have themselves consumed in the process of instruction.
And to think that that Christmas miracle all came about because that child intruded herself into my apartments--actually!--with a view of showing me how to make a fire!
In itself, was that not a miracle too?
OUR MUSICAL COMEDY
"I forbid you to do it!"
Of course when George said that, with such an air, and in such a tone, I should have been perfectly justified in making an end of everything.
The idea of his actually ordering me, when we had been engaged scarcely any time at all, was really too much. But I remembered what was due to myself and--I think!--behaved beautifully. I was merely crushing.
"You will remember, if you please, that, at present, I am not your wife. And may I ask if you propose to speak to me like that when I am?"
"I trust that whenever I see you contemplating a false step I shall always use my influence to endeavour to persuade you not to take it."
"Persuasion is one thing--ordering is quite another."
It all began with the private theatricals in aid of the parochial charities. Almost for the first time since I had been in the place people seemed to have found out my existence. It was the rector"s son--Frank Spencer--who was the actual discoverer. I really believe it was that fact which George did not like. Mr Spencer came and said that they were going to have theatricals and would I take part in them? I told him that I had never acted in my life. He declared that they could not do without me. I explained that I did not see how that could be, since I had not had the least experience, and, indeed, doubted if I should not make a complete spectacle of myself and spoil everything. He replied that it was ridiculous to talk like that--which I thought was rather rude of him, since he was sure that I should make a first-rate actress--though I could not even guess what made him sure; and everybody was certain that the whole thing would be an utter failure without me--then look how the parochial charities would suffer!
I confess that I did not understand why everybody should take that view; though, on the other hand, I did not want the charities to languish on my account, and--well, I may as well own it--I rather liked the idea. I thought it was not half a bad one. Because I never had acted was no reason why I never should; at any rate, it occurred to me that it would be capital fun to try.
So when I informed Mr Spencer that I would consider the matter, I fancy that I rather conveyed the impression that my consideration might have a favourable issue.
Then the trouble began. George objected. When I wrote and told him that I was thinking of taking part in an amateur dramatic performance in aid of some most deserving charities, which were much in need of help, he sent me back a letter which rather surprised me. In the course of it he observed that there was a great deal too much of that sort of thing about--if that were so then certainly hitherto none of it had come my way; that not seldom amateur theatricals were but a cloak for something about which the less said the better--what he meant I had not the least idea; that they were generally exhibitions of incompetent vanity--which was not exactly a pleasant remark to make; that he could not understand how any sane person could wish to be connected with proceedings which, as a rule, were merely the outcome of a desire for vulgar notoriety. He concluded by remarking that while he had not the slightest desire to bias my judgment, of which, as I was aware, he had the highest opinion, at the same time he hoped that I would consider very carefully what he had said before arriving at a final decision.
Two days afterwards I met Mr Spencer, and he overpersuaded me. It is not to be denied that he had a most persuasive manner, and was, decidedly, not bad-looking; though, of course, that had nothing to do with it. It was the moving fashion in which he depicted the lamentable condition of the Coal Club, and the Clothing Club, and the Soup Kitchen, and that kind of thing, which induced me to promise to do all that I could for the Good Cause.
Still, when later Mr Spencer informed me that it was suggested that _A Pair of Knickerbockers_ should be one of the pieces, and I had read it, and understood that it was proposed I should play Mrs Melrose to his Mr Melrose, I admit that I was taken aback. It was at this point that George came on the scene. When he heard, there was quite a storm.
"Do you actually propose to appear upon the public stage attired in a pair of knickerbockers?"
"Do you call the a.s.sembly Room at the "Lion" the public stage?" I asked.
"I do, since anyone will be admitted who chooses to pay at the door."