A LITTLE TRUNK
It was a journey of only a few hours to the dock where the party were to take ship, the sailing being set for early afternoon. Before it seemed possible they had left the train and were being conveyed by motor to the pier. It was at the first whiff of salt-water fragrance that Georgiana felt a sudden onset of dread of the sailing of the great ship. And when she caught sight of the four black funnels rising above the ma.s.s of smaller smokestacks and masts and spars which lifted beyond the dingy buildings of the pier, she experienced an unexpected and disconcerting longing to run away--back to her home.
Her father"s face rose before her as she had seen it that morning, pale and worn, the inner brightness of the undaunted spirit shining through the thinnest of veils. What if anything should happen to that beloved face, so that she should never set eyes on it again? The thought shook her with a throb of pain.
They were on the pier, they were ascending the gangway, they were on one of the lower decks and entering the elevator which was to lift them past many intermediate decks to that one, next the highest of all, where their quarters lay. And when they came out upon that upper deck Georgiana was dimly conscious that they were a party to attract attention, even among many people evidently of the same cla.s.s. Any party to which Aunt Olivia and Jeannette belonged, she felt, must necessarily expect to be noticed. Of her own contribution to the party"s distinction she was entirely unaware.
But now that she was actually on shipboard, where during the last fortnight she had so many times imagined herself, Georgiana found to her distress that she could not for a moment banish the thought, the image itself, of that gentle, suffering face at home. Not that she wanted to forget it--not that; but she did want, now that her decision was made, to be able to appreciate what a happy occasion it was and how fortunate the circ.u.mstances which had brought about her presence here, the last place in the world she had expected ever to be in.
She entered the stateroom which she was to share with her cousins, and was amazed at the size and comfort of it. It was half filled with flowers and baskets of fruit and other offerings sent for the girls, with two boxes addressed to herself. Both Stuart and Mr. Jefferson had sent her flowers. As she examined them a hurried steward appeared with a third box, which proved to be also for her--a small box, which had come not from a city florist, like the others, but by mail.
It had been put up by unskilled hands, as its crushed shape and damp exterior clearly showed. She opened it, wondering, and found a little bunch of garden flowers, sadly wilted, their limp stems protruding from the moistened newspaper in which they were wrapped. She searched for a card, and found it. In a hand she knew well, a little cramped, a little wavering, but full of character, she read these words: "Blessing her, praying for her, loving her."
Georgiana"s heart gave a great leap of fear. What were those lines, what the context? She knew them--knew them well. She had never heard her father quote them, and never read with him the lines from which they came. Did he know them, use them with intent, not imagining she would place them? As she well remembered, they were from "Enoch Arden," and she had spoken them herself, in a dramatized version of that pathetic poem, the last winter of her college life. And they ran thus:
When you shall see her, tell her that I died Blessing her, praying for her, loving her.
At the moment she was alone in the stateroom, the two girls having been an instant before summoned by their brother to meet some friends who had come on board to see them off. She stood staring at the touching little bunch of faded bloom, knowing just how tender had been the thought of her which had prompted the effort. It had not occurred to Mr.
Warne that there was any other way of sending flowers to ships than by mailing them from one"s own garden. As for the words, she knew well enough that he had not dreamed of disturbing her content by quoting them, yet--she could but feel that the reason why they came to his mind when he was searching there for a bit of tender sentiment to send with his parting gift was the thought of his own possible end being not far away. And if he, too, were thinking of that----
With a fast-beating heart Georgiana stood staring out of the open porthole at the scene of activity outside. Far below her she could see the gangway over which she had come on board. In less than an hour--the party had arrived early--that gangway would be withdrawn, the water would slowly widen between pier and ship, and there would be no turning back. Could she go--could she bear to go--and take the chance? Were her fears only the natural forebodings of the unaccustomed traveler, or was there a real reason why she should never have allowed herself to be persuaded to leave one whose hold on life was so frail, the only being in the world to whom she was closely bound? She closed her eyes and tried to think....
Mrs. Thomas Crofton, turning from a group of friends at the touch of her niece"s hand upon hers, would have drawn the girl into the circle and presented her with genuine pride in her, but the low voice in her ear deterred her:
"Aunt Olivia, please forgive me, but I must ask you to come away with me just for five minutes. Please----"
In a temporarily forsaken angle of the deck Georgiana laid her case before her aunt, speaking with rapid, shaken words, but none the less determinedly. Mrs. Crofton listened with an astonished face and with lips which protested even before they had the chance to speak.
"I know just how dreadful it will seem to you all--that I shouldn"t have known my duty long ago. But I see it now--oh, so plainly! And it"s not only my duty, it"s my love that takes me back. I can"t stop to tell you how I feel about leaving you all when you"ve been so kind, so wonderful to me. I can tell you that another time. But the thing now for me is to get off this ship before it sails. I must!"
"But, Georgiana, my dear child----"
"Oh, please don"t try to keep me, Aunt Olivia! My mind is made up. I can"t tell you how it hurts to do it, but I don"t dare to leave my father. If anything happened to him I could never forgive myself--never. He isn"t well. It would do no good to take me with you now. I should be so miserable I should spoil it all for you."
"Georgiana, listen." The calmly poised woman of the world held the clinging hand in a firm, warm grasp, the low voice spoke evenly. "Many people feel just as you do, dear, on the eve of sailing. Some are made actually ill, even quite old travelers. But they know that it is pure hysteria and they fight it off, and afterward they are able to laugh at their fears. My dear, you are quite mistaken about there being any danger threatening your father. He is in the best of hands, and he himself would be sadly disappointed----"
It was of no use. Mrs. Crofton took her niece to her stateroom, and, sending for Jeannette and Rosalie, even for Uncle Thomas, tried in vain to shake her.
Ten minutes before the hour of sailing, Rosalie, rushing about the deck in search of Miles Channing, finally discovered him and burst out under her breath with the appalling news:
"Georgiana"s going back! She"s got the idea somehow that her father mayn"t live till she comes home. We can"t do a thing with her. Oh, do come and see if you can"t show her how absurd it is to do such a thing!"
"Going back!" Miles Channing seized Rosalie"s arm. "Where is she? Why, she can"t go back; the ship"s all but casting off. What on earth is the matter with her? She"s too sensible a girl to lose her head at the last minute. Good heavens! We won"t let her go; we"ll keep her in her stateroom till it"s too late. Take me there--quick!"
They dashed along the narrow pa.s.sageways, until, coming from the Croftons" suite, they encountered Georgiana pale but quiet, Jeannette flushed scarlet and in tears, and Mrs. Crofton evidently sorely exasperated, but keeping herself well in hand.
Channing walked straight up to Georgiana. "Will you give me five minutes?" he asked.
She shook her head with a faint smile. "It"s no use, Mr. Channing. I shall not change my mind again. I should have known it in the first place, and there mayn"t be five minutes to spare. I must be in sight of the gangway."
"I"ll take you there," he said, and glanced at the others in a way which clearly said: "Give me my chance." They understood and let him lead Georgiana on ahead toward the place she sought.
He was a clever man and an experienced one in the ways of women, even though his years among them were not yet many. He realized that argument was of little use; there was only one weapon left with which to fight the girl"s determination, and it was one he was not loath to use, though he had not meant to speak so plainly until quite different surroundings invited.
"This is a hard blow to my hopes," he said very low, as they stood where they could watch the manoeuvres of the officers and men who were in charge of the embarkation of pa.s.sengers. "I can"t tell you what this voyage with you has meant to me; I don"t know how to give it up. Now, please listen. Won"t you do this? Come across with us, and then, when you are actually over--it"s only a five-day crossing, you know--if you still feel you must go back, we"ll not try to prevent you. You"ll be away then only a fortnight, and nothing in the world can go wrong at your home in that little time. And meanwhile we shall have had this voyage together--Georgiana?"
His voice with its meaning inflections would have been very hard to resist, if the girl had not by now set her teeth upon her determination.
Having suffered already so much humiliation for the sake of her sudden conviction, her pride would not have let her change again, though a voice from the skies had then and there a.s.sured her that all was and would be well with her father. So once more she shook her head and moved toward the gangway. Behind her, ready to follow her if must be, a deckhand waited with her luggage. The Croftons, their faces showing much concern, had remained in the background waiting for a signal from Channing that he had or had not prevailed.
"If you go ash.o.r.e," threatened Channing, "I shall go with you. And the ship will sail without me."
This roused her to speech. "No, no; don"t even say such a thing--just to frighten me. Good-bye, Mr. Channing, and--I"m truly very, very sorry."
"I mean it," he urged hotly. "The whole thing is nothing to me without you; you know that perfectly well."
"I should never forgive you," she said, turning to look once into his eyes, as if to convince him of the reality of her prohibition; and he saw there all the spirit he had reckoned with, and saw, too, such a world of possibilities for one who could arouse that intense and purposeful nature, that he was swept off his feet.
"But you will forgive me if I come back by the next ship," he said quickly.
"No. Not if you come a day sooner than you intended."
Once more their glances met, like blows; then Georgiana moved rapidly toward the gangway, where the sailor in charge was beckoning. The Croftons, one and all, hurried forward, and the retreating traveler suffered their embraces.
"My child, you are forcing us to leave you here alone to look after yourself, after our promising to take every care of you," mourned Mrs.
Crofton. "I shall be most uneasy about you."
"No, no, dear Aunt Olivia, you mustn"t be. I am a perfectly independent person, and I can take myself home without a particle of trouble.
Good-bye--and please, please forgive me, all of you!"
She was off at last, with Jeannette"s hot tears on her cheek, Rosalie"s reproachful and all but angry final speech, "I didn"t think you"d actually do it, Georgiana Warne!" ringing in her ears; and Chester"s explosive, derisive prediction following her, "By thunder, but you"ll be a sorry girl when it"s too late. I can tell you that!"--to make her feel that n.o.body really understood or sympathized with her.
It was Uncle Thomas who applied the one touch of balm to his niece"s sore heart:
"David Warne is a rich man, my dear girl, to have you," he said gently, as he kissed her. "Don"t feel too badly over disappointing us; it"s all right. Take good care of yourself going home, and give my love to your father."
She smiled bravely back at him as she ran down the gangway with half a score of belated visitors to the ship. In a moment she was only one of the crowd of people who were watching the huge bulk of the liner draw almost imperceptibly away from the pier. Through blurred vision she looked up to the spot where they were all waving at her and smiling--thank heaven, they were smiling, as it was obviously their duty to do, no matter what their feelings.
When their faces had become indistinguishable, and the great ship had backed far out into the waters, and was headed toward the Atlantic, Georgiana turned to a porter at her elbow. "No," she said, "I didn"t sail. Yes, this trunk is mine; it"s to go back."
Somehow, as she followed the man through the long, dingy building, the thing which drove home the ache in her heart was the sight of the little, aristocratic-looking, leather-covered steamer trunk, Uncle Thomas"s gift, packed with so many high hopes, now riding alone on a great truck. Of all the baggage which that truck had borne to the lading of the ship, hers was the only little, lonely piece to come back!
CHAPTER XVII
REACTION