"I never shall--in the same way. There are reasons against it. The book will have to be written as the others were--on trains, on shipboard, in my own room late at night."
"Is it right to try to put two lifetimes into one?" she asked, and now she lifted her eyes to his.
Before, she had managed to avoid a direct meeting by those many and engaging little makeshifts girls have, of glancing at a man"s shoulder, his ear, his mouth--and off at the floor, the window--anywhere not to let him see clearly what she may be afraid he will see. And Georgiana was intensely afraid that if Dr. Jefferson Craig got one straight look with those keen eyes of his he would recognize that her whole aching, throbbing heart was betraying itself from between those lifted lashes.
But now, somehow, with her question she ventured to give him this one look. The interview might end at any moment; she must have one straight survey of his face, bent so near hers.
He gave it back, and until her glance dropped he did not speak. Then, very low, but very clearly, he said deliberately:
"When may I come?"
The room whirled. The lights from the sconces danced together and blurred. The floor lifted and sank away again. And Chester Crofton chose this moment--as if he were not after all really of that highly intelligent cla.s.s which knows when to pursue its own conversations and when to break into those of others--to call across the room:
"Oh, I beg pardon, Doctor Craig, but when did you say Jean might have something real to eat? Rosy says it"s to-morrow and I say it"s not yet at all."
Doctor Craig turned and answered, and turned back again. He was not of the composition of those who are balked of answers to their questions by ill-timed interruptions. But the little diversion gave Georgiana an instant"s chance to make herself ready to answer like a woman and not like a startled schoolgirl. So that when he repeated, his voice again dropped:
"When, Georgiana?"
She was able to reply as quietly as she could have wished: "Do you want to come, Doctor Craig?"
"I want to come. I have never wanted anything so much."
"Then--please do."
"Very soon? As soon as I can get away for a few hours? Perhaps next week? It is always difficult, but if I plan ahead sometimes I can manage to make almost the train I hope for."
She nodded. "Any train--anytime."
There was an instant"s silence. It seemed to her that she could hear one or two deep-drawn breaths from him. Then:
"Would you mind looking up just once more? I must go in a minute; I can"t even take you to your train."
But she answered, with an odd little trembling of the lips: "Please don"t ask me to. I"m--afraid!"
A low laugh replied to that. "So am I!" said Jefferson Craig.
He rose, and she rose with him. The others came around and he took leave of them. His handclasp was all that Georgiana had for farewell, for when she lifted her eyes she let them rest on his finely moulded chin. But she knew that in spite of his expressed fear it was not her round little chin he looked at, but the gleam of her dark eyes through their sheltering lashes, and that his hand gave hers a pressure which carried with it much meaning. It told her that which as yet she hardly dared believe.
Since the journey home was made up of changes of trains, no sleeper was possible, and Georgiana sat staring out of her car window while those about her slumbered. There was too much to think of for sleep, if she had wanted to sleep. She did not want to sleep, she wanted to live over and over again those five minutes with their incredible revelation. And as the wheels turned, the rhythm of their turning was set to one simple phrase, the one which had sent her world whirling upside down and made the stars leap out of their courses:
"When may I come?"
CHAPTER XXI
MESSAGES
Hope to reach Elmville at seven to-night.--E.C. JEFFERSON.
This was the first of them. When Georgiana received it she had been waiting eight days for this first word. She had known well enough that until Jeannette was entirely safe Doctor Craig would not leave her.
Georgiana had not minded that she had had no word. She had not really expected any. A man who was too busy to come would be too busy to write, and she wanted no makeshift letters. And she had not minded the delay in his coming; rather, she had welcomed it. To have time to think, to hug her half-frightened, wholly joyous knowledge to her heart, to go to sleep with it warm at her breast, and to wake with it knocking at the door of her consciousness--this was quite happiness enough for the immediate present.
Meanwhile, what pleasure to put the house in its most shining order, to plan daily little special dishes, lest he come upon her unawares; to sit and sew upon her clothing, shifting and turning her patchwork materials until she had worked out clever combinations which conveyed small hint of being make-overs!
For the first time in her life she said nothing to her father of her expectations. What was there to tell as yet? She could not bring herself to put into words the memory of that brief interview, in which so much had been said in so few simple phrases. And if Father Davy read--as it would have been strange if he had not--the signs of his daughter"s singing lightness of heart, he made no sign himself; he only waited, praying.
Georgiana received her first telegram at noon. She had flown for two wonderful hours about her kitchen, making ready, when the despatch was followed by another:
Unavoidably detained. Will plan to get away Thursday.
This was Tuesday. Georgiana put away her materials, and swept the house from attic to cellar, though it needed it no more than her glowing face needed colour. What did it matter? Let him be detained a week, a month, a year--he would come to her in the end. Now that she was sure of that, each day but enhanced the glorious hope of a meeting, that meeting the very thought of which was enough to take away her breath.
On Thursday came the message:
Cannot leave this week. Will advise by wire when possible.
No letter came to explain further these delays. Georgiana felt that she did not need one, yet admitted to herself that the ordinary course in such circ.u.mstances would be to send a letter, no matter of how few words. Toward the end of the following week a telegram again set a day and hour, and as before, another followed on its heels to negative it.
The last one added, "Deep regret," and therefore bore balm.
And then, after several more days, came a message which was all but a letter:
It seems impossible to arrange for absence at present. Will you not bring your father and come to my home on Wednesday? Will meet train arriving seven-fifteen. Journey will not hurt Mr. Warne, and visit here will interest him. Please do not refuse.
E. C. JEFFERSON.
Well! What girl ever had a suitor of this sort? one too busy to come or write, yet who, on the strength of a few words spoken in the presence of others, ventured to send for the lady of his choice to come to him, that he might speak those other words so necessary to the conclusion of the matter. Georgiana sat re-reading the slip of yellow paper, while her heart beat hard and painfully. For with the invitation had come instantly the bitter realization--they could not afford to go! Her recent trip on the occasion of Jeannette"s illness had taxed their always slender resources, and until the money should come in for the last bale of rugs sent away, there was only enough in the family treasury to keep them supplied with the necessities of life.
The time had come--undoubtedly it had--when she must confide in Father Davy. Not that he would be able to see any way out, but that she could not venture to refuse this urgent request without his approval.
Georgiana tucked away in her belt the last long telegram, and went to her father. He lay upon his couch, the blue veins on his delicate forehead showing with pitiful distinctness in the ray of November sunshine which chanced to fall upon him.
Georgiana knelt beside him. "Father Davy," she said, with her face carefully out of his sight, "I have a little story to tell you--just the outlines of one, for you to fill in. When I was in New York Mr.
Jefferson--Doctor Craig, you know,"--she had told him this part of the tale when she had first come home,--"asked me when--when he might come here."
She paused. Her father turned his head upon the crimson couch pillow, but he could not see her face.
"Yes, my dear?" he said, with a little smile touching his lips. "Well, that sounds natural enough. He knows he is always welcome here. When is he coming?"
"He isn"t coming. He can"t get away. He has tried three different times, and cancelled it each time. He seems to be very busy, too busy even to write."
"That is not strange; he must be a very busy man. Doubtless he will come when he can make time. I shall be glad to see Mr. Jefferson."
"But--you see--he wants us to come there."
"Us?"
"You and me. Father Davy--you understand, dear; don"t make me put it into words!"