A light shone on Nutty"s darkness.
"Oh, I say, did he hear what I said last night?"
"He did hear what you said last night."
Nutty"s mouth opened slowly.
"Oh!"
Elizabeth said nothing.
"But you could have explained that."
"How?"
"Oh, I don"t know-somehow or other." He appeared to think. "But you said it was you who sent him away."
"I did."
"Well, this beats me!"
Elizabeth"s strained patience reached the limit.
"Nutty, please!" she said. "Don"t let"s talk about it. It"s all over now."
"Yes, but-"
"Nutty, don"t! I can"t stand it. I"m raw all over. I"m hating myself. Please don"t make it worse."
Nutty looked at her face, and decided not to make it worse. But his anguish demanded some outlet. He found it in soliloquy.
"Just like this for the rest of our lives!" he murmured, taking in the farm-grounds and all that in them stood with one gla.s.sy stare of misery. "Nothing but ghastly bees and sweeping floors and fetching water till we die of old age! That is, if those blighters don"t put me in jail for getting that money out of them. How was I to know that it was obtaining money under false pretences? It simply seemed to me a darned good way of collecting a few dollars. I don"t see how I"m ever going to pay them back, so I suppose it"s prison for me all right."
Elizabeth had been trying not to listen to him, but without success.
"I"ll look after that, Nutty. I have a little money saved up, enough to pay off what you owe. I was saving it for something else, but never mind."
"Awfully good of you," said Nutty, but his voice sounded almost disappointed. He was in the frame of mind which resents alleviation of its gloom. He would have preferred at that moment to be allowed to round off the picture of the future which he was constructing in his mind with a reel or two showing himself brooding in a cell. After all, what difference did it make to a man of s.p.a.cious tastes whether he languished for the rest of his life in a jail or on a farm in the country? Jail, indeed, was almost preferable. You knew where you were when you were in prison. They didn"t spring things on you. Whereas life on a farm was nothing but one long succession of things sprung on you. Now that Lord Dawlish had gone, he supposed that Elizabeth would make him help her with the bees again. At this thought he groaned aloud. When he contemplated a lifetime at Flack"s, a lifetime of bee-dodging and carpet-beating and water-lugging, and reflected that, but for a few innocent words-words spoken, mark you, in a pure spirit of kindliness and brotherly love with the object of putting a bit of optimistic pep into sister!-he might have been in a position to touch a millionaire brother-in-law for the needful whenever he felt disposed, the iron entered into Nutty"s soul. A rotten, rotten world!
Nutty had the sort of mind that moves in circles. After contemplating for a time the rottenness of the world, he came back to the point from which he had started.
"I can"t understand it," he said. "I can"t believe it."
He kicked a small pebble that lay convenient to his foot.
"You say you sent him away. If he had legged it on his own account, because of what he heard me say, I could understand that. But why should you-"
It became evident to Elizabeth that, until some explanation of this point was offered to him, Nutty would drift about in her vicinity, moaning and shuffling his feet indefinitely.
"I sent him away because I loved him," she said, "and because, after what had happened, he could never be certain that I loved him. Can you understand that?"
"No," said Nutty, frankly, "I"m darned if I can! It sounds loony to me."
"You can"t see that it wouldn"t have been fair to him to marry him?"
"No."
The doubts which she was trying to crush increased the violence of their attack. It was not that she respected Nutty"s judgement in itself. It was that his view of what she had done chimed in so neatly with her own. She longed for someone to tell her that she had done right: someone who would bring back that feeling of certainty which she had had during her talk with Bill. And in these circ.u.mstances Nutty"s att.i.tude had more weight than on its merits it deserved. She wished she could cry. She had a feeling that if she once did that the right outlook would come back to her.
Nutty, meanwhile, had found another pebble and was kicking it sombrely. He was beginning to perceive something of the intricate and unfathomable workings of the feminine mind. He had always looked on Elizabeth as an ordinary good fellow, a girl whose mind worked in a more or less understandable way. She was not one of those hysterical women you read about in the works of the novelists; she was just a regular girl. And yet now, at the one moment of her life when everything depended on her acting sensibly, she had behaved in a way that made his head swim when he thought of it. What it amounted to was that you simply couldn"t understand women.
Into this tangle of silent sorrow came a hooting automobile. It drew up at the gate and a man jumped out.
24
The man who had alighted from the automobile was young and cheerful. He wore a flannel suit of a gay blue and a straw hat with a coloured ribbon, and he looked upon a world which, his manner seemed to indicate, had been constructed according to his own specifications through a single eyegla.s.s. When he spoke it became plain that his nationality was English.
Nutty regarded his beaming countenance with a lowering hostility. The indecency of anyone being cheerful at such a time struck him forcibly. He would have liked mankind to have preserved till further notice a hushed gloom. He glared at the young man.
Elizabeth, such was her absorption in her thoughts, was not even aware of his presence till he spoke to her.
"I beg your pardon, is this Flack"s?"
She looked up and met that sunny eyegla.s.s.
"This is Flack"s," she said.
"Thank you," said the young man.
The automobile, a stout, silent man at the helm, throbbed in the nervous way automobiles have when standing still, suggesting somehow that it were best to talk quick, as they can give you only a few minutes before dashing on to keep some other appointment. Either this or a natural volatility lent a breezy rapidity to the visitor"s speech. He looked at Elizabeth across the gate, which it had not occurred to her to open, as if she were just what he had expected her to be and a delight to his eyes, and burst into speech.
"My name"s Nichols-J. Nichols. I expect you remember getting a letter from me a week or two ago?"
The name struck Elizabeth as familiar. But he had gone on to identify himself before she could place it in her mind.
"Lawyer, don"t you know. Wrote you a letter telling you that your Uncle Ira Nutcombe had left all his money to Lord Dawlish."
"Oh, yes," said Elizabeth, and was about to invite him to pa.s.s the barrier, when he began to speak again.
"You know, I want to explain that letter. Wrote it on a sudden impulse, don"t you know. The more I have to do with the law, the more it seems to hit me that a lawyer oughtn"t to act on impulse. At the moment, you see, it seemed to me the decent thing to do-put you out of your misery, and so forth-stop your entertaining hopes never to be realized, what? and all that sort of thing. You see, it was like this: Bill-I mean Lord Dawlish-is a great pal of mine, a dear old chap. You ought to know him. Well, being in the know, you understand, through your uncle having deposited the will with us, I gave Bill the tip directly I heard of Mr Nutcombe"s death. I sent him a telephone message to come to the office, and I said: "Bill, old man, this old buster"-I beg your pardon, this old gentleman-"has left you all his money." Quite informal, don"t you know, and at the same time, in the same informal spirit, I wrote you the letter." He dammed the torrent for a moment. "By the way, of course you are Miss Elizabeth Boyd, what?"
"Yes."
The young man seemed relieved.
"I"m glad of that," he said. "Funny if you hadn"t been. You"d have wondered what on earth I was talking about."
In spite of her ident.i.ty, this was precisely what Elizabeth was doing. Her mind, still under a cloud, had been unable to understand one word of Mr Nichols"s discourse. Judging from his appearance, which was that of a bewildered hosepipe or a snake whose brain is being momentarily overtaxed, Nutty was in the same difficulty. He had joined the group at the gate, abandoning the pebble which he had been kicking in the background, and was now leaning on the top bar, a picture of silent perplexity.