"My paternal grandfather"s cousin twice removed-no, thrice times-told me sometimes men fell into the waters and drowned because of strong liquor,"
added Pisky, unhelpfully I thought, seeing there was nothing but his bowl for me to fall into.
I took refuge in indignation. "Well you lot didn"t try and stop me! You were all flat out and snoring like pigs, as I remember . . . And, after all, what harm did it do?"
"Why, none at all, none at all," came a voice from the doorway. "Old Tom"s got more than one secret tucked away in his noddle, and no one the wiser." And he came in, smelling of falling leaves and earth, in his hands a flat basket of mushrooms. "Mind you, there"s not all of it I understood: "tis a long time since you"ve used proper speech, aren"t it, my flower?"
At his last words something flashed into my mind and was gone again, as swift as a blink. "Proper speech?" I said. "And why did you call me your flower?"
"Manner of speaking," he said easily, and bent over the pot to stir it. "As to speechifying: well, I understand a lot of what the birds and the trees and the creatures says, being as I"ve lived here and abouts many, many years, but though I reckon you can understand me well enough, some of your words come out like a man with the runs, all anyhow and in a hurry. Now then, "tis breaking-fast time." And he held out his hand for my bowl. Thick gruel, nutty and sharp, with honey on mine, but none on Moglet"s. Corby had a strip of dried meat, Puddy found something to his satisfaction in the hearth, and a small gobbet of the same, squashed, satisfied both Pisky and the snails. I had a second helping.
When we were all satisfied, Tom squatted down on his heels and tickled Moglet under her chin. "Like to come a-mushrooming, then? We"ve some six hours of daylight, and-"
"We really should get on," I interrupted, getting to my feet. "Thank you all the same."
"-of those perhaps two, two and a half will be fine," he went on, as though I had not spoken. ""Twill rain heavy again tonight, but clear by midnight and wind"ll veer southeast for a day or two"s fine weather. So, there"s no point in you a-setting off till the morrow, to get wet again. "Sides, then I can put you on the road to another night"s shelter and a lift partways, if"n I can get my baskets full. So, how do you say you help a man out for an hour or so?"
I learnt a lot in those two hours, about both mushrooms and fungi. I learnt to recognize the poisonous ones, especially the most dangerous of all, Death- Cap, deadly even to touch; I learnt that the prettiest-Red-Cap, Yellow-Belly, Blue-Legs, Blood-Hose and Magpie, the latter little white stars on black-were harmless but tasted foul, but that some that looked disgusting, like the tattered Horn of Plenty, the wavy-wild Chanterelle and the Oyster, the dull Cob and the Green-Nut, can all be cooked or eaten raw. Tom also gathered some he would not show me-"Later, Flower, later" -and with Corby"s keen eyes and Puddy"s ground-level view we had two baskets full before it started to spit with rain. We must have covered at least four or five miles, but had circled and were within easy distance of the ruined cottage, so did not get too wet. Moglet and Pisky, left behind at their own request, had obviously been idling away the day in sleep for they were both lively and hungry when we returned; I pointed Moglet to a rather large and hairy spider with short legs- the sort that go plop! when they drop off a shelf-and told her to cull it for Puddy and Pisky, but she pretended she couldn"t see it: I think she was frightened of spiders. Tom set me to making oatcakes and getting a good blaze going, then fished around outside for a crock containing fat. He produced a large pan and some slices of smoked ham from a flank hung in the rafters and fried these up with a handful or two of mushrooms, including the raggedy Chanterelle we had picked and before long the insidious good smells were making us drool.
I fetched a jug of water from a stream some two hundred yards away and we feasted like kings, forcing me to say with a grin: "You were right: every much- needed time is best! I shall know how to find those mushrooms again and they will help our diet on-on the way . . ."
"Mind you, most of those we saw today you"ll only see in woods: a tree- mixture, with some oak and some birch thrown in, is best."
"Well, I suppose we shall find plenty of woods: it"s safer travel that way, rather than trying the roads . . ." I hesitated: I still couldn"t remember, but the others had said-"I believe I told you all about us last night?"
He chuckled. "A goodly tale, and one to keep old Tom a-thinking on cold, dark nights!"
"It wasn"t just a tale, it was true, all of it! At least, so the others say," I amended. "I don"t really remember what I said . . ."
"Didn"t say as how it wasn"t true, just said it was the kind of tale to keep a man awake at night and wondering . . . You did say as you were a-looking for the party as those-pebbles, as you call "em-belong to, and thinks your way might lie southwestish: well, I think as you are travelling in the right direction. As for finding a wise man or a magician to help you on your ways-well, there"s plenty of magic still left in this old world and your direction is as good as any, especially as I heard tell a while back that a venerable sage lived near the sea thataways . . . But that, as I said, was a while ago, when the land was full of battle and surmise, and the beacons flared from down to hill-Why, what"s the matter, Flower?"
"Beacons," I murmured, feeling strangely uncomfortable. "I seem to recall something about beacons . . ."
"Memory is a thing that can play strange tricks: it seems yours is buried deep and will only be dug up piece by piece. Don"t try too hard, "twill all come in good time."
I was silent for a while, staring into the fire: ordinary pictures now. "How can we ever thank you?" I said at last. "Not only have you housed and fed us, but taken us at our word and kept our confidence . . ."
"And who else would there be to tell, youngling? "Sides, Tom"s always kept his own counsel since-Never mind . . . You"ve all been good company, and worth your keep, for Tom gets lonely, sometimes."
"Do you live here all the time?"
"Here? Why, bless me, no! Tom has homes all over the place: he has another ruined cot like this, an abandoned charcoal burner"s place, a hollow tree six feet across, a cavelet, even the corner of a derelict cell that once held an eremite-my home is everywhere and nowhere! Meadowland, ditch and hedgerow; pine forest, oak wood; heath, fen and bog, wherever my little darlings grow! And they may be found in the most unexpected places, too: halfway up a tree, under a t.u.r.d, in among the ashes of last week"s campfire . . .
And they all have their uses, wet or dry, oh yes!"
And for a moment he looked sly and crafty and I did not like him so much- but then, like sun in and out of cloud, he was his normal, jolly self again.
"And does he live off his mushrooms, you ask yourselves, and the answer is yes: he gathers them and he eats them and he markets them, too. Tom"s patch is a hundred miles all ways, give a league or two, and stretches north to where the hills begin and south to the great river; west to the farmlands and east- why, east as far as here, and lucky you are to find him this late, for winter comes and he should be working south now, to fetch up a moon or two hence in a snug little nest he knows."
"It sounds an interesting life," I ventured. "But don"t you ever get . . . well, lonely?"
For a moment his face darkened, shadowed, then again he laughed. "No, for I see those I sell to when I have a need for company-and there, my friends, is where you can help me out. I have three baskets of mushrooms here, including those dried, which I would be obliged if you would deliver on your way tomorrow. Then I can stay here a further two-three days and look for some old Tough-Trunks: haven"t seen any round here for a couple of years but they makes excellent eating, and if I try a couple of the larger clearings there might be a few left. They likes a bit of air and sun, see, but the shelter of the trees to run to if"n they wants. Left more"n a day or two "twill be too late, for they"re coming to the end of their season. Then, if I"m lucky, I can travel the way you go and pick up goods in pay to see me on my way. The folk I"ll send you to will travel the next day to sell in the town, for mushrooms is best fresh, and so they"ll carry you in comfort a mile or ten nearer your goal . . . How long is"t since you laughed, Flower?"
It seemed such an odd question, coming after all that talk of mushrooms, that I gaped.
"Laughed?"
"Aye, laughed. Rolled around on your belly and held your ribs till they ached, and howled with merriment and joy? Laughed till tears ran from your eyes and your ears hurt?"
I could still only gape at him: I didn"t know what he meant. The only laughter I had seen was the wild cackling of our Mistress when something pleased her, and sometimes I had seen young men and girls from the village laughing in the fields at harvest, as they chased each other in and out the stocks of corn, teasing with chaff, dried milkweed or poppy-heads . . .
I didn"t know what it was to laugh.
I stretched my mouth as I had seen them do and gave an experimental "Ho- ho-ho, Ha-ha-ha" as I remembered the sound, but it didn"t seem quite right and certainly felt very silly. It had an unexpected effect on Tom, too, for it sent him off into paroxysms of giggles that sounded strange coming from a grown man.
"I don"t believe you know how!" he accused, and giggled again.
"Can"t remember," I said crossly. "What does it matter, anyway? I"m not missing anything."
"Don"t be too sure about that, then! All folks feels better after a good laugh: almost as good as a-Never mind: you"re too young. Like to try some of Tom"s magic?"
"You can do magic?" I gasped.
"Oh, not your old spells and suchlike, only the magic what"s in my little friends here," and he opened his pouch and took out some more mushrooms, a large red one with white spots on it and some tiny brown ones with a little k.n.o.b on top. "This one here, the big fellow, is what they call the Magic Mushroom. Why there are folks overseas who worship this one like a G.o.d on account of it gives them pleasant dreams if they take it in moderation, and kills their enemies for them taken in larger amounts: I reckon enough of "em died finding the right doses . . . I ain"t going to give you none of him "cos you has to think of size and weight and age and tolerance to make the dose right for dreams and wrong for t"other, but these little fellows-Fairies t.i.ts when they"re fresh and Mouse-Dugs dried-these fellows I can measure out for you and give you nothing more"n a good laugh or two. Not that they ain"t bad when taken too much, but I"ll only give you a tickle.
"Well? You looks doubtful: then I"ll take "em too, like the drink last night, but I"ll take twice as much . . ."
In the end he persuaded me, not so much from his words as from a mutter from Puddy: "Seen "em before: not poison in small quant.i.ties. No more than the number of my toes, mind . . ."
And that is exactly the number he gave me, lightly cooked in the fat remaining in the pan-juices: fourteen tiny little mushrooms. I tasted one: nothing special. I waited till he had eaten half his-double my quant.i.ty-before I started on the rest.
Then I waited for the laugh. Nothing.
He read my mind. "Oh, you has to linger awhile for them to work . . ."
"How did you come to know so much about mushrooms?" I asked curiously, while I waited.
That darkening of his face again. He seemed to hesitate, then shovelled the rest of his mushrooms into his mouth and drank the pan juices. When he looked at me he was smiling.
"A tale for a tale, then? "Tain"t much, when all"s said and done, not really . . .
"Well, see, once Tom loved a fair lady and they lived in a fine house in a town many miles from here. Now Tom had a good living then and they were both happy, this beautiful lady and he, and their happiness was crowned when she told him there was a child on the way. And as is the way with ladies in that condition she came to have strange tastes, wanting things out of season and difficult to come by. But Tom, he kept her satisfied, going miles out of his way for strawberries in April and brambles in June. Then came a time, and she was near her lying-in, when of all things she wanted mushrooms, some of those wood mushrooms that grow best near pines. And Tom knew where he had seen some, near to a clump of fir trees, so off he went and picked them and rushed back and tossed them in a pan and carried them in to her on a silver platter, and she cried with joy when she saw them and kissed her Tom and turned to scoop them to her mouth . . ."
He stopped, and I knew, oh I knew, what was to come next and tried to stop him, but he shook his head.
"Better out than in, Flower . . .
"I should have known that smell: smelt of sleep, smelt of death." Now there was no third-person Tom, it was himself . . . "They was Destroying-Angel, all white in their purity, all black in their intent, and my lady died in agony and the child with her. After that I was a little mad, I think, for they shut me away .
"But I had time to think, there in the darkness of soul, and when they finally let me out and I found the business sold and all moneys gone I didn"t care: it was the mushrooms that had taken from me all I held dear and by my own ignorance and I swore to spend the rest of my life learning about the little devils until I was always one jump ahead and could fair say I had beaten them at their own game. And so I have.
"So, old Tom"s a mushroom expert, you might say . . ."
"I"m sorry," I said.
"No need to be, no need. "Tis time past, and if there is one thing I did learn then it was to look to time present . . .
"And, talking of the present: how do you feel?"
Now he came to mention it, I was beginning to feel different, as if my stomach had a pleasant little fire chuckling away all warm inside it. The fire light seemed stronger too, making all colours brighter, but a little fuzzy round the edges.
Nice . . .
Then it happened. Tom got up to throw more wood on the fire, slipped, and for a moment, trying to regain his balance, stood on one leg like a heron, lanky and ungainly, arms flapping like wings, and such a comical look of surprise on his face that I felt a little tickle of amus.e.m.e.nt jerking my tummy, then another and another, till I was like a pot waiting to boil, bottom all covered with bubbles. I couldn"t help it: I came to the boil, slowly but surely.
Snorts, spasms, gasps all accompanied these completely new feelings till, with a painfulness that only those who laugh out loud but seldom could appreciate, merriment rose to the surface and, once there, wouldn"t stop, and I was boiling away like a pot of forgotten water, salted by the tears of laughter that coursed down my cheeks. At first I thought I was dying, for I could not laugh and breathe and cry at the same time and got the hiccoughs, but in the end everything sorted itself out, except that by that time my ribs ached and so did the bones at the back of my ears.
The trouble was that once started, I couldn"t stop: Moglet"s studied aversion and turned back and Corby"s offended stare only set me off worse than ever.
Tom poked me in the ribs: he too was laughing fit to burst, his arms hugging his ribs, knees up to his chin. "Tell-tell me: why-why do you wear that terribly tatty little flap of-of leather? Oh, dear me, what with a fringe of hair like a taggley pony and that flap of hide there"s nothing but eyes like post- holes to be seen-oh, dear me!-all across your face."
I giggled helplessly. ""Cos-"cos I look like a fright without! I"ve worn it ever since-ever since I could remember! Our Mistress made me, so I didn"t frighten the villagers to death! Got a face like a-like a cross between a pig and a snake without it . . . Oh, dear: how do you stop laughing? It hurts . . ." And I doubled up.
"How-how do you know what-what you look like, then?"
"Mistress showed me-in a mirror of polished metal . . . Ha! Ha! Ha! You should have seen me! Oh, dear, I shall die if I don"t stop this . . . Said I was too ugly to go abroad without a mask, so I made-tee-hee!-this. Ho! Ho! And if any ask-He! He!-I say I am marked bad with the "pox!"
"You don"t mind looking like that, then?"
"Can"t, can I? Always have, s"pose . . . Oh, mercy, mercy! Stop making me laugh!"
"What with that mask and walking around doubled up with that-stone-in your stomach, you look-you look much like a hobgoblin!"
"A hob-hobgoblin? Oh dear, yes, I must do! How-how hilarious! What a fright! Enough to scare the children, and the old folk from the chimney- corner . . . He-he-he . . ."
And thus was changed in my mind the hidden hurt of the day when our Mistress had found me trying to gaze at my reflection in a pail of water-just to see whether my fingers lied when they felt a straightish little nose, a wideish mouth and long lashes-and, muttering a few words, had shown me what a horror I really was, in that polished mirror of hers: jutting brow, little snake-like eyes downturned at the corners, a crooked nose, squashed like a pig"s, uneven, jagged teeth, and a drooling, loose mouth. The whole face, from brow down, was covered in skin-blemishes: blue scars, pocks and a web of red like a spider"s which had spread up from the red pebble in my navel like the plague . . . After that I had begged a piece of soft leather from her and hung it on a thong threaded through the top over my nose and across the rest of my face.
And she had laughed even more when she had seen it.
But now it was I who was laughing, and far harder than she had ever done.
After that I fell suddenly asleep, exhausted by the strange thing called laughter, but the others told me in the morning that even in my dreams I had been giggling happily, though when I awoke I could not recall a single thing.
The Gathering: One- Three-
Four- Five- Six- Seven
The White Horse
The last sight we had of that extraordinary man, Thomas Herrilees Trundleweed, was of him bowing us exaggeratedly away, and then striking his head on a branch some seven feet up as he straightened, and being showered thus with last night"s raindrops. I had smothered a giggle against the back of my hand, remembering the release of the night before, but he was, by then, too far away to have heard anyway. I was still not sure whether I really liked him, in spite of his kindnesses, for he was too mercurial and fey to understand completely, but I had to admit we had been very well treated and were now better off with a route to follow for the next few miles, full stomachs, dry clothes, fur and feathers, the promise of a lift partways, a grounding in the art of mushrooming-and in the case of the latter, a further present.
That morning Tom had handed me a small package of the dried Mouse-Dugs, as he called them, enough for two adult dosings.
"Though I doubt if you"ll find any other that hasn"t laughed for seven years . .
." But when I had queried the specific number seven he had just winked and tapped the side of his nose. "It"s a number, just like any other, ain"t it? "Sides, old Tom listens to the trees and the birds, don"t forget." And that was all I could get out of him, try as I would.
We made fair progress, although the village we were aiming for was a good ten miles away, and arrived soon after noon. Tom"s contacts were an elderly couple, quiet and reserved, but ready enough with food and lodging once we had explained who we were; they said that it would be a waste of time to set out for the market till the following morning as it would take at least three hours at their donkey"s sedate pace. So I had to curb my natural impatience to get on, and spent the afternoon learning to weave simple baskets and carriers, which was their trade. I grew quite proficient after an hour or so, and by the time the light faded and rushes were lit I had managed a creditable back-carrier, which they gave to me, pointing out that my sack was almost threadbare. The broad top of the carrier meant that there was somewhere for Moglet to perch, so that only one shoulder-Corby"s-would be sore, and this I padded with a sc.r.a.p of leather.
We suppered from fresh bread, goat"s milk and cheese, and they parted with some eggs and a loaf for our journey, taking but one copper coin, so we bedded down in the lean-to shed at the side of the cottage with light hearts soon after eating, warned of an early start. They woke us before light as they had stock to feed and the little cart to load with their weavings and the mushrooms and me, and we eventually set off an hour before daybreak, to arrive at the market as early as possible. We slipped away before they came to the town proper, for though neither of them had made any comment about my friends, the woman especially had cast curious glances at my mask, and I judged it better not to risk us with the more open townsfolk.
So, considerably heartened, we set off again on our way south and west.
Before long the broad road on which we found ourselves became too well populated, and we took to the byways and woods again, only using the main thoroughfare very early or very late and in this fashion, lucky with our nightly lodgings-ruined hut, upturned wagon, barn and, once, church porch-we made another fifty miles or so.
Then our luck changed. The road we were following took in another and turned to run due southeast/northwest for many miles, and though we followed the left hand for many miles it soon became evident that we were bearing ever more easterly, and when I a.s.sisted Corby with his keener eyes to the top of the tallest tree around he came fluttering to earth with the news that there was no change in direction "as far as a crow can see." I was disheartened, for that meant either a detour to find another road, or crossing the present one and plunging into forest that looked far less hospitable than the one we had so recently left. A detour was too risky, so for the next day or two it was scratched arms and legs from briars, whipped head and shoulders from tangled branches and snappy twigs and a rapidly dwindling store of food.
One thing I learnt: staying in one place and going round and about with an expert gathering mushrooms was one thing; gathering them without one on the march was another. You only saw them if they were right in front of you, or at least in eye-reach, and then one had to stop, dislodge Corby, wake up Moglet in the carrying-basket, set down Pisky, where he moaned that he couldn"t see, and, if you were lucky, get away without disturbing Puddy in the side-pocket. Then, when you had examined the mushrooms they might turn out to be the wrong sort, or if they were the right kind there weren"t enough of them to justify cooking or, more often, they were a species I had not come across before.
We were down to our last handful of flour and a rind of cheese when we came to a small village. Here, in the forest, were signs of cultivation: trees had been lopped and felled for building and fuel and the scrub thinned down in the direction of a navigable river, unluckily flowing the wrong way for us, otherwise I might have risked trying to hire a boat, but here the only transport available seemed to be large working rafts, and I did not have the strength to pole one of those against the current. Leaving the others on a knoll overlooking the river I slipped down to the village and paid the usual stranger"s over-price for bread, cheese, apples and a hand of salt pork. This reduced our savings to two silver and two gold coins: these latter I was wary of changing, for the last time I had been short-changed and almost openly accused of being a thief, for obviously no one who looked as I did could possibly come by gold honestly.
I was anxious to rejoin the others as soon as I could because for the last few days, even as the trees had thinned and broadened into great stands of leaf- dropping beech and oak and the going had become easier, I had had the uneasy feeling that we were being followed. Not that there had been anything to see, merely a fleeting impression of something white through the trees to the left, the right; the half-heard sound of a footfall, m.u.f.fled by leaves, ahead, behind; a soft breathing in the night-hours; a feeling of loneliness, of an empty heart . . . None of the others had seen anything, although they too were uneasy.
However, today the sun was shining full on the knoll, they were safe and sound, and we ate till we were comfortable. Stomach full I felt decidedly soporific: after all, if we had an hour or so"s rest now, safe out of sight of the village, it would mean less time tonight in a possibly uncomfortable sleeping- place.
Unb.u.t.toning my jacket to the pleasant rays of the sun, I laid aside my mask and stretched out, pillowing my head on my cloak.
"We"ll stay here for a while," I told the others. "Moglet: you can keep half an eye open, can"t you?" For I could see that Corby and Puddy fancied some leaf- turning.
Closing my eyes I slipped effortlessly into dreamless sleep.
"Pig, pigs, pig-person! Wake up, Thing-" Moglet"s urgent mew in my right ear and I was struggling to open my eyes, to make some sense of what was happening. There was a rootling, grunting, scrunching noise, a strong, not unpleasant piggy smell and then Corby"s raucous croak: "Geroff! That"s mine, you big b.a.s.t.a.r.d! Find your own, you great vat of lard-" and then the sound of a stone striking the earth and a yelp from the crow. I leapt to my feet, the sun in my eyes, and squinted at a herd of swine grunting their way slowly along the fringes of the forest, and standing about six feet away the swineherd, another stone ready to follow the first.
s.n.a.t.c.hing up my mask with one hand and fumbling with the fastenings of my jacket with the other, I cursed Moglet for not waking me sooner.
"Fell asleep . . . wind in the wrong direction . . ." she whispered.
"Well-now-then," said the swineherd. "What-have-we-here?" Each word was slow, measured, calculating. He was a dirty-looking man, short and squat but powerful. He smelt of pig and frowsty nights of drink and even as I watched he took a flask from his pocket and offered it to me. I shook my head but he took a draught and replaced the stopper but not the flask. Instead he eyed me up and down and smiled. Not a nice smile: his mouth was too fat and he looked to have twice as many teeth as he should, yellow, sharp teeth with little pits in them. His skin, too, was pitted and the pits black; his nose was upturned, the nostrils sprouting black hairs like his ears, and his eyes were too small.