"Talitha, Summer-there are only a few seconds left!" His voice was full of an imprisoned anguish. "Please . . ."
"I can"t! Stay a pig: I"ll care for you always, I promise!" and I flung away the knife, threw my arms around his neck and kissed him.
There was a tremendous bang! like a thunderbolt, a great blast of hot air, and I was toppled off the cairn. The moon and stars were blotted out and I lay stunned, conscious only of a huge tumult in the air, as if a storm had burst right over my head. I could hear Growch yelping with terror, but where was the Wimperling?
I sat up, my head spinning, and saw an extraordinary sight. The body of the flying pig was hurtling around the cairn like a burst bladder, every second getting smaller and smaller. Pony-size, man-size, hound-size, piglet-size, until at last it collapsed at my feet, a tiny bundle no bigger than my purse, and the moon appeared again.
Crawling forward I picked up the pathetic little bundle and held it to my breast, rocking back and forth and sobbing. Once again I had been asked to help, once again it had all gone wrong. At least I had never physically harmed any of the others, but there was my precious little flying pig burst into smithereens, and all I had left was a split piece of hide with the imprint of a face and a string of tail, four little hooves and two small pouches where his wings had been- "Look up! Look up . . . !" The voice came from the air, from the clouds that were now ma.s.sing to the west, from the Stones- The Stones! They were alight, they burned like candles. One after the other their tips started to glow with a greenish light as if they were tracking another great shadow that glowed itself with the same unearthly light as it swooped, banked and turned, dived in great loops from sky to earth and back again. The sky was full of light and there was a smell like the firecrackers I had once seen, and a beating sound like dozens of sheets flapping in a gale.
Again came the voice: "Look up! Look up!" but I could only hug the remains of the Wimperling, little cold pieces of leather, and cry. Growch crept to my feet from wherever he had been hiding, whimpering softly.
"Great G.o.ds! What was it? Where"s the pig? Are you all right? C"mon, let"s get back inside. . . ."
But even as he whined there was a sudden rush of air that had me flat on my back again and there, balancing precariously on the cairn above us, wings flapping to maintain balance, clawed feet gripping the shifting stones was a- Was a great dragon!
I think I fainted, for darkness rushed into my eyes and I felt my insides gurgling away in a spiral down some hole, like water draining away and out down a privy, and there was a peculiar ashy smell in my nostrils. Then everything steadied, I decided I had been seeing things because of the terror of the night, and cautiously opened one eye. . . .
It was still there.
The great wings were now quiet at its sides, and the scaly tail with the arrow- like tip was curled neatly around its clawed feet. The great nostrils were flared, as if questing my scent, the lips were slightly curved back above the pointed teeth, but the yellow eyes with the split pupils seemed to hold quite a benign gaze. I could see its hide rise and fall as it breathed.
I had never seen a dragon before, but it closely resembled the pictures I had seen, the descriptions I had read, so I knew what it was. Perhaps if I stayed perfectly still it would go away. It couldn"t be hungry, for it had obviously eaten the Wimperling. So I waited, scarcely daring to breathe, conscious of Growch trembling at my side.
It cleared its throat, rather like emptying a sack of stones.
"Well?" it said, in a gritty voice. "How do I look?"
I swallowed, surprised it could speak or that I could understand. But of course the ring on my finger . . . Come to think of it, why wasn"t it throbbing a warning? To my surprise it was still and warm. Perhaps after all, dragons didn"t eat maidens, in spite of what the legends said.
"Er . . . Very smart," I said, my voice a squeak. "Very . . . grand."
It stretched its great wings, one after the other, till I could see the moon shine faintly through the thin skin, like a lamp through horn shutters. "Still a bit creaky, but they haven"t dried properly yet," said the dragon. "Everything else seems to be stretching and adjusting quite nicely. Of course I shall have to take it in short bursts for a day or two, but-"
"What have you done with the Wimperling?" I blurted out. "He was my friend, and all he wanted was to return to his ancestors! He never harmed anyone, and-and . . . If you"ve swallowed him, could you possibly spit him out again? I have his skin here, and I could sew him up in it and give him a decent burial. And if you"re still hungry, I have some salt pork and vegetables left. . .
He stared at me, and for a moment I thought if he hadn"t been a dragon, he would have laughed.
"You want your little pig back?"
"Of course. I said he was my friend. Now I am alone, except for my dog. He- he"s somewhere about. . . ." Hiding, I thought, as I should have been.
"You offered me salt pork. . . . Pork is pig."
"Not-not like the Wimperling. He was different. He wasn"t a real pig. You want some? Wait a moment. . . ." and I dashed back inside and emerged with the cook pot and put it on the cairn. "I"m afraid it"s only warm. . . ." But there was no sign of the dragon. "Don"t go away! It"s here," I called out.
"So am I," said a small voice. "But I can"t reach it there," and a tiny slightly blurred piglet was at my feet, just the same size as the Wimperling when I first met him. I bent to scoop him into my arms, my heart beating joyously, but as my hands closed over him he was gone, only the sc.r.a.p of hide I had earlier cuddled in my fingers. Then I was angry. I shook my fist at the sky.
"I don"t care who or what you are!" I screamed. "You cheated me! Just eat your accursed stew, and I hope it chokes you. Where"s my Wimperling?"
A man stepped from the shadows behind the cairn, a tall man wearing a hooded cloak that was all jags and points. I could not see his face and my heart missed a couple of beats. I s.n.a.t.c.hed up my little sharp knife, the one I had thrown away only minutes ago, and held it in front of me.
"Keep away, or I"ll set my dog on you!"
"That arrant coward? He couldn"t-Ouch!"
Apparently Growch was less afraid of strangers than he was of dragons, for he darted from the shadows and gave the man"s ankle a swift and accurate nip before dashing back, barking fiercely.
"Mmmm . . ." said the stranger. "I could blunt all your teeth for that, Dog!" He addressed me. "I mean you no harm, so put that knife away. You weren"t so keen to use it five minutes ago, to help your friend."
So he had seen it all. I wondered where he had been hiding. I tried to peek under his hood, but he jerked his head away.
"Not yet. It takes time. . . ."
I didn"t know what he was talking about. Just then the rising wind caught the edge of his jagged cloak and a hand came out to pull it back. I stared in horror: the hand was like a claw, the fingers scaled like a chicken"s foot. What was this man? A monstrosity? A leper? He saw the look in my eyes.
"Sorry, Talitha-Summer. I had thought to spare you that. See . . ." and held out a hand, now a normal, everyday sort. "I told you it would take time. Better with a little more practice. And it"s all your fault, you know. . . . If you hadn"t kissed me-not once, but the magic three times-I would have appeared to you only in my dragon skin. As it is, I am now obliged to spend part of my life as a man." He sighed. "And yet it was that last kiss of yours that set me free. If you had but kissed me once there would have been a blurring at the edges every once in a while, human thoughts. Two kisses, a part-change now and again and a definite case of human conscience-which hampers a dragon, you know. But the magic three . . ."
"Wimperling?"
"The same. And different." He came forward and one hand reached out and clasped mine, warm and rea.s.suring. The other threw back the concealing hood and there, smiling down at me, was at one and the same time the handsomest and most forbidding face I had ever seen.
Dark skin and hair, high cheekbones, a wide mouth, a hooked nose, frowning brows, a determined chin. And the eyes? Dragon-yellow with lashes like a spider"s legs. Under the cloak he was naked; his hands, his feet, were manlike, but at elbow and knee, chest and belly, there was a creasing like the skin of a snake"s belly. Even as I looked the scaly parts shifted and man-skin took their place.
"You see what you have done?"
"Does it hurt?" I asked wonderingly. Down there, at his groin, he was all man, I noted, with a funny little stirring in my insides.
"Changing? Not really. More uncomfortable, I suppose. Like struggling in the dark into an unfamiliar set of clothes that don"t fit and are inside out."
"How long can you stay? When did you know what you were meant to be?
When-when will you change back? Er . . . Do you want the stew?"
He laughed, a normal hearty man"s laugh. "How long can I stay? A few minutes more, I suppose. Until I start changing back into my real self and my dragon-body. When did I know I was meant to be a dragon? Almost as soon as I was hatched, but the piglet bit fazed me a little. I was sure again that night when we crossed the border and I set the forest on fire with dragon"s breath- " Of course! The question I had forgotten to ask at the time. "The stew? No, from now on my diet will be different. Here," and he lifted it down from the top of the cairn.
"Like what?" said Growch, already accepting the situation and sniffing around the stew pot. I tipped some out for him.
"Well, back east where my ancestors come from, there is a land called Cathay, and there-"
"And there they has those enticing little b.i.t.c.hes wiv the short legs and the fluffy tails!" said Growch, the stew temporarily forgotten. "That was the name they used: Cathay!"
"And men with yellow skins and a civilization that goes back a thousand years! You have a one-track-no, two-track mind, Dog: food and s.e.x. There are other things in life, you know. . . ."
"Not as important. Think about it, dragon-pig-man: reckon in some ways as I"m cleverer than you."
Sustenance and propagation, with the spice of fear to leaven it: he could be right.
But the Wimperling-dragon-man ignored him and took my hand. "Let"s walk a way. I don"t know how long I can stay like this. Trust me?" And we strolled towards the nearest Stones, an avenue shimmering softly in the moonlight, a soft green, nearly as bright as glowworms.
As we walked I became gradually aware of his hand still clasping mine, of the contact of skin to skin, and my whole body seemed to warm like a fire. There were tickly sensations on my groin, tingly ones in my b.r.e.a.s.t.s and I"m sure my face burned like fire. I had never realized that palm-to-palm contact could be so erotic, could engender such a feeling of intimacy.
He stopped and swung me round to face him. "Well, Talitha-Summer, this is journey"s end for us. Where will you go?"
"Wait a minute!" I didn"t want to say good-bye, and couldn"t think straight.
"You know my name, but what is yours? We called you the Wimperling, but that was a pet name, a piglet name."
He laughed. "In Cathay they will call me the One-who-beats-his-wings- against-the-clouds-and-lights-the-sky-with-fire, but that is a ceremonial name and you"d never be able to p.r.o.nounce it in their tongue. My shorter name is "Master-of-Many-Treasures," and that does have a Western equivalent: Jasper."
"Like the stone," I said. "Black and brown and yellow . . . I don"t want you to go!" Gauche, naive and true.
He didn"t laugh, just took both my hands in his.
"If I were only a man, my beautiful Talitha-Summer, I would stay."
But that made me angry and embarra.s.sed, and I pulled my hands away. "Now you are laughing at me! Don"t mock; I am fat and ugly, not in the slightest bit beautiful. . . ." I was close to tears.
"Dear girl, would I lie to you? Look, my love, look!" And in front of us was a mirror of clarity I couldn"t believe. I saw the reflection of the man-dragon beside a woman I didn"t recognize. Slim, straight-backed with a ma.s.s of tangled hair, a pretty girl with eyes like a deer, a clear skin, a straight nose and an expressive mouth-a woman I had never seen before.
"You"re lying! It"s some fiendish magic! I"m not-not like that!" I gestured at the image and it gestured back at me. "I"m ugly, fat, spotty. . . ."
"You were. When you rescued me you were all you said, but a year of wandering has worn away the fat your mother disguised you with. She didn"t want a pretty daughter to rival her, so she did the only thing she could, short of disfigurement: she fattened you up like a prize pig, so that only a pervert would prefer you. Now you are all you should be. Why do you think Matthew wanted to marry you? Gill leave all behind and run away with you? You"re beautiful, Summer-Talitha, and don"t ever forget it!"
I reached out my hand to touch the reflection and it vanished, but not before I had seen the Unicorn"s ring on my finger reflected back at me. So, it was true.
"Look at me," said the dragon-man, the Wimperling, Jasper. "Look into my eyes. You will see the same picture."
It was so. Dark though it was, I could see myself in the pupils of his eyes, a different Summer. I shivered. Instantly he put his cloak around both of us and pulled me towards him, so I could feel the heat of his body.
"Too much to comprehend all in one day? Don"t worry: tomorrow you will be used to being beautiful. And now I must go: it will take me many days and nights to-"
"Don"t! Please don"t leave me. . . ."
"I must, girl. From now on our paths lie in different directions. Go back to Matthew, who will love and care for you, take the dragon gold to a big city and find a man you fancy, travel to-"
"I want you," I said. "Just you. Kiss me, please. . . ." and I reached up and pulled his head down to mine, my hands cupped around his head. Suddenly he responded, he pulled me close, as close as a second skin, and his mouth came down on mine. It was a fierce, hot, possessive kiss that had my whole being fused into his and my body melting like sun-kissed ice into his warmth.
Then, oh then, we were no longer standing, we were lying and-and I don"t know what happened. There was a pain like knives and a sharp joy that made me cry out- And then I was pinned to the ground by a huge scaly beast and I cried out in horror and scrambled away, my revulsion as strong as the attraction I had felt only moments since.
"You see," said the dragon, in his different, gritty voice. "It didn"t work. For a moment, perhaps, but you would not like my real self. Don"t hurt yourself wishing it were any different."
I swallowed. "But for a moment, back there, you forgot the dragon bit completely. We were both human beings." I felt sore and bruised inside.
He was silent for a moment, shifting restlessly. "Perhaps," he said finally: "but it shouldn"t have happened. It gave me a taste for . . . Never mind. Forget it. Forget me. Bury your remembrances with that sc.r.a.p of hide you kept. Go and live the life you were meant to lead.
"And now: stand clear!"
He flapped his great wings once, twice, as a warning and I scrambled back to safety, watching from behind one of the Stones. He flapped his wings again, faster and faster, and it was like being caught in a gale. Bits of scrub and heather flew past my ears till I covered them with my hands and shut my eyes for safety. There came a roaring sound that I heard through my hands and a great whoosh!, a smell of cinders, my hair nearly parted from my scalp and I tumbled head over heels.
Once I righted myself and opened my eyes, my dragon was gone. A burned patch of ground showed where he had taken off and in the sky was a great shadow like a huge bat that circled and swooped and filled the air with the deep throb of wings. To my right-the east-the Stones had started to glow again, a long avenue of them, like a pointer.
The shadow swooped once more towards the earth then shot up like an arrow till it was almost out of sight, then it steadied and hovered for a moment before heading due east, following the direction the Stones indicated, head and tail out straight, wings flapping slowly. I watched until its silhouette crossed the moon, then went wearily back to the ruined farmhouse.
I wasn"t even annoyed to see Growch with his head inside the now-empty cook pot. I was too tired. His voice sounded hollow.
"I saw you! Doing naughties, you was!"
"Naughties? What do you mean?" But even as I said it I realized what it must have looked like to an inquisitive dog. Was that what had happened?
"You know . . . you didn"t do naughties with the knight or the merchant with the cat and the warm fires: why with him?" He pulled his head out of the pot a trifle guiltily and his ears were clogged with juice. "Sort of fell over it did; din"
want to waste it. . . . Why don" we go to that nice place for a while? Likes you, he does, and it"s too cold to stay outside all winter. Just for a coupla months . .
"Matthew?" I was deadly tired, confused, bereft, couldn"t think straight. I must have time to sort myself out, and better the known than the unknown.
"Yes, why not?"
Chapter Thirty.Two.
Easier said than done. It was the beginning of November now, and we were all of three or four hundred miles from the town where Matthew lived, north and east. It took us two weeks to get anywhere near a decent, well-traveled road, and those people we met were usually traveling south as we had done the year before, so we were heading against the flow of traffic. Company and lifts were few and far between and I was burdened with all the baggage, now there was no Wimperling, and what I would have expected to travel before-ten or twelve miles a day-was now only five or six: less if we were delayed by rain.
For the weather had changed with the waning of the moon: cold, bl.u.s.tery, with frequent rain showers. We seldom saw the sun and then only fitfully, and too pale and far away to heat us. To ease my burdens I made a pole sleigh-two poles lashed together in a vee-shape, the tattered blanket acting as receptacle for the rest of the goods-but the majority of the roads were so rutted and stony that the sleigh either kept twisting out of my hands, or the ends wore away and the poles had to be renewed.
Thanks to a couple of good lifts, by the end of November we were over halfway, but every day now saw worsening weather, and at night sometimes, if the wind came from the hills, we could hear wolves on the high slopes howling their hunger. Mostly we slept in what shelter we could find by the way-an isolated farmhouse, a barn, a shepherd"s croft-but sometimes I paid for the use of a village stable or a place beside a tavern fire. Careful as I was, the cost of food and lodgings was so high in winter that almost half the dragon gold had gone when disaster struck us.
One night in a tavern I had been paying in advance for a meal when my frozen fingers spilled the rest of the gold from my purse onto the earthen floor. I scooped it up as quickly as I could, but three unkempt men at a corner table were nodding and winking at one another slyly as I did so. That night I slept but little, although the men had long gone into the dark, and in the morning my fears were justified.
Growch and I had scarcely made a couple of miles out of the village when the three men leapt out from the bushes at the side of the road, kicked and punched me till I was dazed, s.n.a.t.c.hed my purse, pulled my bundle apart and flung Growch into the undergrowth when he tried to bite them. They were just pulling up my skirts, determined to make the most of me, when there was the sound of a wagon approaching and they fled, taking with them my blanket, food, cooking things and my other dress.
The carter who came to my rescue was from the village I had just left, and he was kind enough to help me gather together what little I had left and give the dog and me a lift back. I was in a sorry state: my head and arms and face bruised and swollen and my clothes torn, but poor Growch was worse off, with a broken front leg. The tavern-keeper"s wife gave me water to wash in, needle and thread to mend my torn skirt and sleeve and a crust of bread and rind of cheese for the journey and I made complaint to the village mayor, but as the thieves had not been local men there was nothing they could do, and I was hurried on my way with sympathy but little else, lest I became a burden on the parish.
Once out of the village I bound up Growch"s leg, using hazel twigs wrapped with torn strips from my shift, and poulticing it with herbs from the wayside to keep down the swelling and aid the healing, using the knowledge I had and the feel of the ring of my finger to choose the best. Of course now I would have to carry him, so I discarded any nonessentials, leaving me a small parcel to strap to my back, and my hands free for Growch.
By nightfall, hungry and depressed, I reached a tumbledown hut just off the road. As I walked through the scrub towards it I saw various articles strewn by the way: a man"s belt, a rusty knife, a tattered blanket-surely that last was mine? I shrank back into the undergrowth ready to run, but Growch sniffed, wrinkled his nose and demanded to be put down. My ring was quiet, but cold, so I let him hobble forward on three legs to investigate further.
He came back a few minutes later. "We"re not dossin" down there tonight, that"s for sure. They"s all dead an" it stinks to high heaven."
I crept forward, but even before I reached the hut I was gagging, and had to hold my cloak across my face. There, huddled on the earth floor, were the men who had robbed us only this morning, dead and smelling as though they had been that way for weeks. The contorted bodies lay in postures of extreme agony, mouths agape on swollen tongues and bitten lips, arms and legs twisted in some private torture, a noisome liquid oozing from great suppurating blisters on their blackened skin. Surely even the plague could not strike so quickly and devastatingly?