Three days later we struggled round the western end and tried to pick up our bearings. We had wasted three days to find ourselves in virtually the same spot we had started out from and the real mountains seemed as far away as ever. On we tramped, our travelling time curtailed by our increasing weariness from lack of proper nourishment. Two days later the last of our food and water was gone and we piled all our goods onto the smoother sledge, pulling it in tandem to conserve our strength.
I began to see things that weren"t there-houses, lakes, trees, camels, people- shimmering in the distance some feet above the desert floor, and beside me d.i.c.kon was hallucinating too. On the tenth day we put Growch on the sledge because he could move no further and lay there with his tongue hanging out like one dead.
d.i.c.kon and I now fell every dozen yards or so and our throats were so parched we couldn"t even curse each other. At last we both tripped and fell together and I just wanted to lie there forever and forget everything. I was conscious it was high noon already and I knew if we didn"t get up and seek shelter we should surely be dead before nightfall.
I rose to my knees and peered ahead, but all I could see was one of those fevered images again: a train of camels seeming to stride six feet above the sand and some half mile away. I collapsed, without even the energy to rouse d.i.c.kon, to offer a last prayer, and drifted off into unconsciousness.
But somewhere, somehow, I could swear I heard a dog barking. . . .
Chapter Twenty.Two.
...A dog barking. Cautiously I opened my eyes. Normally in the desert d.i.c.kon and I slept within feet of each other, but now all my hands encountered was a blanket. There was a dim light over to my right, it must be the moon. No stars.
And where was Growch? I was sure I had heard him a moment ago. I struggled to sit up, and there was a cold, wet nose against my cheek.
" "Ad a nice kip, then? Thought we"d lost you at one stage. Feel a bit better?"
"I don"t understand. . . . What"s happened? I-" And then, suddenly, it all came back to me. The desert, the vast, terrible, unforgiving desert. Sun, heat, thirst, hunger, hallucinations, death already rattling in my throat, the last thing a dog barking . . .
I sat up slowly, stretched, wiggled my fingers and toes. I seemed to be all in one piece, but I was dreadfully stiff, my throat was sore and my head ached.
"Wanna drink? On yer right. On the table. That"s it. Careful now, don" spill it."
Blessed, beautiful, clear cold water. The most wonderful liquid in the world. I drank it all, then burped luxuriously. I looked around me. I was obviously inside a house or hut, and the light I had thought the moon was a saucer oil lamp. I was on a pallet of sorts and it must be sometime at night. So, we had been rescued, but how and when? Where were we? And where was d.i.c.kon?
More than one question at a time flummoxed Growch. "I"ll tell yer, I"ll tell yer, but one at a time! d.i.c.kon? "Is lordship is around and about in the town somewheres, and-"
"Which town? What"s it called? Where is it?"
" "Ow the "ell does I know? A town"s a town ain"t it? Same as all towns. "Ouses, streets, people, dogs, food . . . We"re still in the desert, but they got plenty o"
water. Goats, chickens, camels. It was their camels as brought us in. I barked till I was "oa.r.s.e, managed to get over to the caravan, and they came back and picked you up."
"Oh, Growch! You saved our lives!" and I hugged him till he swore he couldn"t breathe and why did I have to be so soppy? All the while his tail was wagging like mad, so I knew he was secretly as pleased as could be.
"An" afore you ask, all yer belongings is snug as well."
I felt for my money belt and neck pouch: all safe.
"Short and long of it is, they brought us in-gave you camel"s milk out there, they did, an" you sicked it all up-" I was not surprised: the very thought of camel"s milk made me ill again. "-then they gave you water an" things an"
brought us "ere. Got two rooms, an" I kep" "is lordship away from all what is ours."
I stretched again, felt my headache lessening. "What time is it?"
"Middle evenin". Sun down, moon not yet up."
"I must have been asleep for-nine or ten hours, then?"
"An" the rest! Four days ago it was when they brought us in. There"s a woman been feedin" you slops an" things with a spoon."
"Four days!" I swung my legs over the edge of the bed, tried to stand up and fell back again. "By our Lady! I feel so weak!"
"Not surprised. Slops never did no one no good. Yer wants some good red meat inside of yer, like what I have." He smacked his chops. "Nuffin" like it.
Treated me real well they "as. Called me a "ero . . ."
"And so you are," I said, giving him another hug. "Be a dear and go and find d.i.c.kon for me?"
Two days later I was up and about again, with an urge to get going as soon as we could. It was now well past Middle Year, we had been travelling for over fifteen months, and now I had recovered from my ordeal I felt a renewal of hope and energy. But it seemed we should have to wait a little longer. The nearest town, at the foothills of the mountains we were seeking, was a good four-day journey away by camel train-the same one that had rescued us-and they were not due to leave for another two and a half weeks, and strongly advised us not to try it on our own.
They were a hospitable people, and their town was clean and prosperous.
Everywhere we went we were greeted with bows and smiles and clapping of hands, and though we couldn"t speak a word of their language, we managed very well with sign language and the occasional drawing. As they existed solely on the barter system, our money meant nothing to them, and they insisted on treating us as honored guests. Which was lucky, seeing we had nothing to barter with.
Under the town was a river system that kept their cisterns full, with enough also for their crops of fruit and vegetables and the watering of their stock: goats, chickens, ducks, camels. They even kept ponds stocked with fish that looked rather like carp. The only goods they needed from outside were rice, clay for pots, and cotton cloth, and these they traded for with their own produce, which included pickled eggs, a special spiced pancake and other delicacies, desert fox furs, and exquisite carvings fashioned from the soft stone they found roundabouts. Once a month they journeyed to do their bargaining, and we agreed to await the next caravan.
There was plenty for us to do, however-for me at least, that is. Our clothes, what was left of them, were a disgrace, and I had spent four or five days doing the best I could with my sewing kit, when we had an unexpected bonus.
Growch, investigating a tempting little b.i.t.c.h-what else?-had chased her into a store where cotton cloth awaited making up into the loose clothes the inhabitants preferred, and had been diverted by finding a huge nest of rats.
He had set about them in true Growch fashion, and the grateful owner of the store had come to me, counting out at least twenty on his fingers, bearing also a roll of cloth sufficient to clothe both d.i.c.kon and myself.
Only when all my tasks were done, which included tedious things like washing blankets and mending panniers, did I keep a promise I had made to myself some weeks past. We had found out that the monks who had fled the destruction of the temple in the desert had found this town in time for survival, and had built a small temple to give thanks for their deliverance.
This temple was now in the custody of one of the original monks, then a boy, now a blind old man of near a hundred. One of the village boys was his apprentice, and led him about the village with their begging bowls-always full-and a.s.sisted in leading the prayers.
One evening, when I knew the old monk and his acolyte would be dining, the sun tipping over the rim of the world had led to the lighting of the dried camel-dung fires for cooking and the last of the workers and herd"s boys came tramping home, I made my way down the deserted streets towards the temple, the sad stone remnant of what had been Ky-Lin clutched in my hands.
It was only a small edifice, this temple, built from desert stone and mud bricks, but inside the floor was flagged, the air smelt of incense and oil saucers burned in front of the stone altar. Someone had left a garland of wildflowers by the crossed knees of the little smiling Buddha.
I had thought I would feel like an interloper, not knowing the language either, but it felt entirely natural to stand in front of the idol and speak in my own tongue.
I looked up at the statue, who stared above my head the while with empty, slanted eyes and an eternal smile, then I knelt down, as I would in one of my own churches, shut my eyes, and folded my hands around the remains of Ky- Lin.
"Please forgive me for not knowing your customs and language, Sir, but I have a special request. In my hands are the remains of a true friend, counsellor and guide, whom You lent to us to help us on our journey. He no longer has life, as You can see, but his death was a tragic accident, and he would have been the first to forgive.
"He was one of Yours, a Ky-Lin, who was left on earth to work off some trifling sins he had committed. Well I thought they were trifling. . . . Whatever they were, I a.s.sure You they must have been more than cancelled out by his care of us. So, will You please take him back? He spoke of a place where all was perfect and at peace: we would call it Heaven. Please allow him in Yours.
Amen. Oh, and thanks for lending him to us. Amen again."
The Buddha had one gilded hand on his knee; the other was cupped on his chest. Reaching up as far as I could, I kissed the tiny stone that had been Ky- Lin and placed him gently in the cupped hand.
There: it was done. Ky-Lin could rest in peace.
I rose to my feet, bowed to the Buddha and backed out of the little temple. The idol seemed to be smiling more broadly than ever.
I had never ridden a camel before. It was extremely difficult to adjust to the rocking, swaying movement so far above the ground, and there was more than one moment when I definitely felt camel-sick. However, even the lap- held Growch agreed that it was better than walking, and in four days we were in a village in the foothills of the mountains where we said good-bye to our kind hosts, replenished our stores and set off in a direction of north by west.
At first we had an easy time of it; the tracks we followed led to other villages and small towns, where our money was accepted. We travelled easily into autumn, through reddening leaves, ripening fruit and the migration of small animals and birds: pint-size deer, foxes, squirrels; duck, swallows, swifts; the large b.u.t.terflies flirting their just-before-hibernating wings on clumps of pink and purple fleshy-leaved plants. Peasants brought in the last of their harvest, stored their fruits, pickled and salted their meats, and the bats were coming out earlier and earlier to catch the last of the midges that stung us so heartily during the day. So, were the bats eating us, I wondered?
As we climbed higher the air became more exhilarating, and the streams were ice cold from the snowy heights above. All this, and the plain but adequate fare we ate satisfied me well enough, but d.i.c.kon was always grumbling, comparing our food with the comparative luxury he had enjoyed on the caravan routes.
"n.o.body asked you to come," I said crossly one day, when he had been whining all day about not being allowed extra money to buy some more rice wine. "You"re here because you wanted to be, remember?"
"And you"re not being reasonable," he said, dodging the issue. "A man needs a bit of relaxation now and again, a sip or two of wine."
"You"ve already had a sip or four," I said. "And you said not yesterday that it was p.i.s.s water, rotgut."
"Depends on the vintage . . ."
"This stuff doesn"t have any vintage. They make it all the year round."
"I only want a nip. Set me up for the evening."
I flung him a coin. "Buy yourself a measure then. But only a small one, otherwise you won"t be fit to go on."
I was right. That afternoon"s trek was a complete waste of time. He swayed from side to side of the road, fell over twice, and when I went to help him up he made a grab at me.
"C"mon Summer: gi"e us a kiss!"
I kicked him where it hurt, and when he doubled up pushed him into a ditch and marched on for a half mile without him. By then, as I could see he wasn"t following, I retrieved my steps, my temper near at boiling point, especially when I found him still in the ditch, snoring his head off. I was strongly tempted to leave him where he was and travel on alone, but common sense told me I couldn"t manage the baggage on my own.
We climbed higher and higher, but the mountains we were aiming for, our last barrier, called on the maps Ky-Lin had explained to me the "Sleeping Giants," still seemed many miles away. Travelling during the day was still pleasant, but the nights were increasingly chill and we needed extra clothes plus the blankets to keep warm, especially if we spent nights in the open. A couple of times we slept under both blankets together, d.i.c.kon and I, but his behavior on these occasions worried and annoyed me. On both these times after I had dozed off, I awoke to find his hands where they shouldn"t be.
At first I thought he was searching my person for money, but the intimate movement of his hands on my b.r.e.a.s.t.s and thighs persuaded me otherwise. I could not believe it was a personal thing, rather that he had been robbed of his usual visits to houses of pleasure, but in any case I found it highly embarra.s.sing.
After all we had travelled together in enforced intimacy for many months, and in all that time, especially with all our differences, there had never been any hint of s.e.xual familiarity. As it was, on both occasions I had turned away as if in my sleep, wrapping myself up tight so there was no way he could attempt anything further.
I tried to enlist Growch"s help, but his views on s.e.x being what they were-the more the merrier, whoever or whatever it was-I received little encouragement, until I slanted my argument towards the money I was carrying.
"I don"t like him searching me like that when I"m asleep. Just think what would happen if he ran off with all our money!"
Growch knew what money meant: it meant food.
"Right, then. I"ll see "e don" touch you nowheres from now on. Sleep between you both, I will."
Which worked much better, especially as my dog by now smelt so high that d.i.c.kon and I slept back-to-back by choice. It was either that or holding our noses all night.
We came to the last village before the snow line of the mountains we planned to cross to our goal. I consulted the best of the maps. It showed a route that wandered away in the lee of the mountains to the east for what looked like a week"s journey, before finding a gap into the valley beyond. There was another trail, however. This led almost due north from where we were now and, looking up, I could see, or believed I could see, past a thick stand of coniferous forest, the gap I was seeking, the first in the three-peaked range.
This reminded me of the illusion/dream the old man in the market had engendered in me, when I had imagined I was a dragon flying through that very gap.
But when the villagers realized our intent there was an indrawing of breath, a lowering of lids, a shaking of heads.
"What"s the matter with them? There"s a trail that starts off that way. I can see it leading up to the forest."
d.i.c.kon shook his head. "They seem to be afraid of something up there."
"What?"
"How the h.e.l.l do I know? Look at that old fool in the corner: he"s been jabbering away for five minutes now, but I can"t understand a word he"s saying. Can you?"
"N . . . no. Not exactly. But he"s making signs as well." I felt uneasy, not least because the ring on my finger felt uncomfortable, as if it was too tight. I went over to the villager and squatted in front of him watching his dirt-ingrained hands expressing alarm and dismay. Making signs that I didn"t understand- oh, what I wouldn"t have done for Ky-Lin"s comforting presence!-I motioned him to slow down, hoping this would make him more intelligible. It didn"t, but one of the brighter of his friends understood what I wanted and came to join us.
It went something like this-all in sign language, whether with hands, eyes, expression, body language, or sheer acting and mime.
Why can"t we go that way?
Huge men up there. Giants.
No giants now.
Yes. They also eat people.
Cannibals?
They eat anything. Prefer meat.
Have you seen them?
Heard them howling.
Wolves?
No. Human voice.
How do you know they are human?
When they howl we leave them food at the edge of the forest.
How do you know they aren"t animals?
Footprints.
What sort of print?
In snow.
Show me.
And that was the most puzzling of all. They drew in the dirt the outline of a foot, but it was no ordinary one. In general it followed the shape of a human foot, but it was two or three times as large. I drew one smaller, but they rubbed that out and drew an even larger one. What was worse, this foot had eight toes, with sharp long nails, if their drawings were to be believed.