Fargone Station
And her return address was:
Dr. Denys Nye
Administrator
Reseune Administrative Territory
Postal District 3
Cyteen Station
She wanted to put her own name on the letter, but uncle Denys said she would have to wait until she was grown up and had her own address. Besides, he said, if it was from the Administrator of Reseune to the Director of RESEUNEs.p.a.cE it looked like business and it would get right to maman"s desk without anybody waiting.
She was in favor of that.
She asked why their address was Cyteen Station when they lived on Cyteen, and he said mail didn"t go to planets without going through stations; and if you wanted to write to somebody on Earth the address was always Sol Station, but because there was Mars and the Moon you had to put Earth, then the name of the country.
Uncle Denys tried to explain what a country was and how they started.
That was why he got her the History of Earth History of Earth tape. She wanted to do that one again. It had a lot of really strange pictures. Some were scary. But she knew it was just tape. tape. She wanted to do that one again. It had a lot of really strange pictures. Some were scary. But she knew it was just tape.
She went to tapestudy. She studied biology and botany, and penmanship and history and civics this week. She got Excellent on her exams and uncle Denys gave her a nice holo that was a Terran bird. You turned it and the bird flapped his wings and flew. It came all the way from Earth. Uncle Giraud had got it in Novgorod.
But there was only Nelly for playschool. And it was boring doing the swings and the puzzlebars with just Nelly. So she didn"t go every day anymore. She got tired of going everywhere with Nelly, because Nelly worried about everything and Nelly was always worrying about her. So she told uncle Denys she could go to tapestudy by herself, and she could go to library by herself, because people knew her, and she was all right.
She took a lot of time getting back from tapestudy. Sometimes she stopped and fed the fish, because there was a Security guard right at the door and uncle Denys had said she could do that. Today she went down the tunnel because there had been a storm last night and you had to stay indoors for a few days.
So she got to thinking how she and maman had come this way once when she went to see ser Peterson. You took the elevator. Dr. Peterson was boring as Seely was; but that hall was where Justin"s office was.
Justin would be interesting, she thought. Maybe he would at least say h.e.l.lo. And so many people had Disappeared that she liked to check now and again to see if people were still there. It always made her feel safer when she found they were. So if she got a chance to see an old place, she liked to.
She took the lift up to the upstairs hall, and she walked the metal strips she remembered: that was nice too, like once upon a time, when maman had been down the hall in that very office; but it made her sad, too, and she stopped it and walked the center of the hall.
Justin"s office door was open. It was messy as the last time. And she was happy of a sudden, because Justin and Grant were both there.
"h.e.l.lo," she said.
They both looked at her. It was good to see someone she knew. She really hoped they would be glad to see her. There weren"t many people who would talk to her that weren"t uncle Denys"s.
But they didn"t say h.e.l.lo. Justin got up and looked unfriendly.
She felt lonely all of a sudden. She felt awfully lonely. "How are you?" she asked, because that was what you were supposed to say.
"Where"s your nurse?"
"Nelly"s home." She could say that now about uncle Denys"s place without it hurting. "Can I come in?"
"We"re working, Ari. Grant and I have business to do."
"Everybody"s working," she complained. "h.e.l.lo, Grant."
"h.e.l.lo, Ari," Grant said.
"Maman went to Fargone," she said. In case they hadn"t heard.
"I"m sorry," Justin said.
"I"m going to go there and live with her."
Justin got a funny look. A real funny look. Grant looked at her. And she was scared because they were upset, but she didn"t know why. She sat there looking up and wishing she knew what was wrong. Of a sudden she was real scared.
"Ari," Justin said, "you know you"re not supposed to be here."
"I can be here if I want. Uncle Denys doesn"t mind."
"Did uncle Denys say that?"
"Justin," Grant said. And gently: "Ari, who brought you here?"
"n.o.body. I brought myself." She pointed. "I came from tapestudy. I"m taking a shortcut."
"That"s nice," Justin said. "Look, Ari. I"ll bet you"re supposed to go straight home."
She shook her head. "No. I don"t have to. Uncle Denys is always late and Nelly won"t tell him." She kept getting this upset-feeling, no matter how she tried to be cheerful. It was not them being bad to her. It was not a mad either. She tried to figure out what it was, but Grant was worried about Justin and Justin was worried about her being there.
h.e.l.l with Them, maman would say. Meaning the Them that kept tilings messed up.
"I"m going," she said.
But she did it again the next day, sneaked up and popped sideways around the doorframe and said: "h.e.l.lo."
That scared them good. She laughed. And came out and was nice then. "h.e.l.lo."
"Ari, for G.o.d"s sake, go home!"
She liked that better. Justin was mad like maman"s mad. She liked that a lot better. He wasn"t being mean. Neither was Grant. She had got them and they were going to yell at her.
"I did Computers today," she said. "I can write a program."
"That"s nice, Ari. Go home!"
She laughed. And tucked her hands behind her and rocked and remembered not to. "Uncle Denys got me a fish tank. I"ve got guppies. One of them is pregnant."
"That"s awfully nice, Ari. Go home."
"I could bring you some of the babies."
"Ari, just go home."
"I have a hologram. It"s a bird. It flies." She pulled it out of her pocket and showed how it turned, and came inside to do it. "See?"
"That"s fascinating. Please. Go home."
"I"ll bet you haven"t got one."
"I know I don"t. Please, Ari, -"
"Why don"t you want me here?"
"Because your uncle is going to get mad."
"He won"t. He never knows."
"Ari," Grant said. She looked at him.
"You don"t want us to call call your uncle, do you?" She didn"t. It wasn"t very nice. She frowned at Grant. "Please," Justin said. "Ari." your uncle, do you?" She didn"t. It wasn"t very nice. She frowned at Grant. "Please," Justin said. "Ari."
He was halfway nice. And she was out of tricks. So she went outside, and looked back and smiled at him.
He was sort of a friend. He was her secret friend. She wasn"t going to make him mad. Or Grant. She would come by just a second every day. But they were gone the next day: the door was shut and locked. That worried her. She figured they had either figured out she was coming at the same time every day or they were truly Disappeared.
So she sneaked over on her way to tape the next morning and caught them. "h.e.l.lo!" she said. And scared them.
She saw they were mad, so she didn"t laugh at them too much. And she just waved them goodbye and went on.
She caught them now and again. When her guppy had babies she brought them some in a jar she had. Justin looked like that made him feel better about her. He said he would take care of them.
But when she took the lid off they were dead. She felt awful. "I guess they were in there too long," she said. "I guess they were," Justin said. He smelled nice when she leaned on the desk near him. A lot like Ollie. "I"m sorry, Ari."
That was nice anyway. It was the first time he had really been just Justin with her. Grant came and looked and he was sorry too.
Grant took the jar away. And Justin said, well, sometimes things died.
"I"ll bring you more," she said. She liked coming by the office. She thought about it a lot. She was leaning up by Justin"s desk now and he had stopped having that bad feeling. He was just Justin. And he patted her on the shoulder and said she had better go.
He had never been that nice since a long, long time ago. So she was winning. She thought he would be awfully nice to talk to, but she wasn"t going to push and make everything go wrong. Not with him and not with Grant. He was her friend. And when maman sent for her she would ask him and Grant if they wanted to go with her and Nelly.
Then she would have all the special people and she would be all right on the ship, because Justin was a CIT and he was grown-up and he would know how to do everything you had to do to get to Fargone.
She had a birthday coming. She had not even wanted a kids" party. Just the presents, thank you.
Even that hadn"t made her happy. Until now.
She skipped down the hall, playing step-on-the-metal-line. And got Nelly"s keycard out of her pocket and used it on the lift. Because she knew how Security worked.
xi "You d.a.m.n fool," Yanni yelled, and threw the papers at him. And Justin stood there, paralyzed in shock as the sheets of his last personal project settled on the carpet around them. "You d.a.m.ned fool! fool! What are you trying to do? We give you a chance, we do everything we f.u.c.king What are you trying to do? We give you a chance, we do everything we f.u.c.king can can to get you a chance, I sweat my to get you a chance, I sweat my a.s.s a.s.s off on my own f.u.c.king off on my own f.u.c.king time time working up critiques on this s.h.i.t you dream up to prove to a hardheaded juvenile-fixated working up critiques on this s.h.i.t you dream up to prove to a hardheaded juvenile-fixated fool fool that his brilliant junior study project was just that, a f.u.c.king that his brilliant junior study project was just that, a f.u.c.king junior study project junior study project that Ari Emory would have dismissed with a that Ari Emory would have dismissed with a Thanks, kid, but we tried that, Thanks, kid, but we tried that, if she hadn"t been interested in getting her hands on your juvenile body and f.u.c.king over your if she hadn"t been interested in getting her hands on your juvenile body and f.u.c.king over your father, father, son, son, which you"ve just done all by yourself, you d.a.m.ned fool! Get this s.h.i.t out of here! Get yourself back to your office, and you keep that kid out, you hear me?" which you"ve just done all by yourself, you d.a.m.ned fool! Get this s.h.i.t out of here! Get yourself back to your office, and you keep that kid out, you hear me?"
It hit him in the gut, and paralyzed him between wanting to kill Yanni and believing for a terrible moment that it was over, that a little girl"s spite had ruined him, and Jordan, and Grant.
But then he heard it all the way to the end and realized it was not entirely that, it was not doomsday.
It might as well be.
"What did she say?" he asked. "What did she say about it? The kid brought me a d.a.m.n jar of fish, Yanni, what am I going to do, throw her out of the office? I tried!" The kid brought me a d.a.m.n jar of fish, Yanni, what am I going to do, throw her out of the office? I tried!"
"Get out of here!"
"What did she say?" say?"
"She asked her uncle Denys to invite you to her f.u.c.king birthday birthday party. That"s all. That"s all. You"ve got yourself a party. That"s all. That"s all. You"ve got yourself a situation, situation, son. You"ve got yourself a real situation. Seems she"s been coming by the office a lot. Seems she"s been dodging Security through the upstairs, seems she"s been using her azi"s keycard to get up and down the lift, seems she"s just real attracted to you, son. What in h.e.l.l do you think you"re doing?" son. You"ve got yourself a real situation. Seems she"s been coming by the office a lot. Seems she"s been dodging Security through the upstairs, seems she"s been using her azi"s keycard to get up and down the lift, seems she"s just real attracted to you, son. What in h.e.l.l do you think you"re doing?"
"Is this a psych? Is that it? Denys asked you to run a psych and see what falls out?"
"Why didn"t you report it?"