"686-543-5608. Got you clear, then, Lucy, on temporary. Personal name?"
"Stevens. Edward Stevens, owner and captain."
"Luck to you, Stevens, and a pleasant stay."
"Thank you, ma"am." He reached a trembling hand for the board, broke contact and shut down everything, put a lock on comp and on the log; and already in the back of his mind he was calculating, about the gold, about turning that with a little dock-side trade, a little deal off the manifest, very quiet, putting the profit into account, making it look right. There were ways. Dealers who would fake a bill. It might be good here. Might be the place he had hoped to find. And Dublin...
She was here.
He hauled himself out of the cushion and walked back to the access lift at the side of the lounge, opened the hatch below and got a waft of mortally cold air. He got a jacket from the locker, shrugged it on and patted his coveralls pocket to be sure he had the papers, then committed himself and took the lift down into the accessway, got out facing the short dingy corridor to the lock, and the yellow lighted gullet of the station access tube at the end. He shivered convulsively, zipped his jacket, and walked down and through the tube into the noise of the dock and the thumping of the machinery that was busy blowing out Lucy"s small systems.
Customs was there. Police were. A noisy horde of stationers beyond the customs barrier, a crowd, a riot. He stopped in the middle of the access ramp with the customs agents walking toward him-neat men in brown suits with foreign insignia. His expression betrayed shock an instant before he realized it and tried to ignore it all as he fumbled his papers out of his pocket. "I talked with the dockmaster"s office," he said, offering them. His heart beat double time as it did at such moments, while the crowd kept up the noise and commotion beyond the barricade. The senior officer looked over the forged papers and stamped them with a seal. "Your office is supposed to put my ship under seal," Sandor went on, trying not to look at the police who waited beyond, trying not to hara.s.s the agents at their duty. "Got no cargo this trip. They fouled me up at Viking. I"m bone tired and needing sleep. No crew, no pa.s.sengers, no arms, no drugs except ship"s use pharmaceuticals. I"m headed for the exchange office right now to get some cash."
"Carrying money?"
"Three thousand Union scrip aboard. Not on me. They promised me I could do the exchange papers later. After sleep."
"Items of value on your person?"
"None. Going to a sleepover. Going to get a station card."
"We"ll locate you on the card when we want you." The man looked up at him. It was the same face customs folk gave him everywhere, hardly welcoming. Sandor gave it back his best, earnest stare. The man handed the false papers back and Sandor stuffed them into his inside breast pocket, started down the ramp.
The police moved in. "Captain Stevens," one said.
He stopped, his heart jumping against his ribs.
"You"ll want to pick up a regulations sheet at the office," the officer said. "Our procedures are a little different here than Union-side.-Did they give you trouble clearing Viking, then?"
He stared, simply blank.
"Lt. Perez," the officer identified himself. "Alliance Security operations. Was it an understandable scheduling error? Or otherwise?"
He shook his head, confused in the crowd noise that echoed in the distant overhead. The question made no sense from a dock-side policeman. From Customs. From whatever they were. "I don"t know," he said. "I don"t know. I"m a marginer. It happens sometimes. Somebody didn"t have their papers straight. Or some bigger ship s.n.a.t.c.hed it. I don"t know."
The policeman nodded, once and slowly. It looked like dismissal. Sandor turned, hastened on through the barrier and toward the milling crowd, afraid, trying not to walk like a liberty-long drunk and trying to figure out why they chose his section of the dock to gather and what it all was.
"Hey, Captain," someone yelled as he met the crowd, "why did you do it?"
He looked that way, saw no one in particular, cast about again as he pushed his way through. Panic surged in him, wanting out, away from this place. Hands touched him; a camera bobbed over the shoulders of the crowd and he stared into the lens in one dim-witted moment of fright before ducking away from it "What route?" someone asked him. "You find some new null-point, Captain?"
He shook his head. "Nothing like that. I just came through Wesson"s and Tripoint." He kept walking, terrified at the stationers who had come to stare at him. Someone thrust a mike in his face.
"You know the whole station"s been following your com for five hours, Captain? Did you know that?"
"No." He stared helplessly, realizing-his face... his face recorded, made public, with Lucy"s name and number. "I"m tired," he said, but the microphone persisted, thrust toward him.
"You"re Captain Edward Stevens, right? From Wyatt"s Star? What"s the tie with Dublin? She, you said. Personal?"
"Right." A small voice, a tremulous voice. His knees were shaking. "Excuse me."
"How long have you been out?" The mike followed him, persistent "You have any special trouble running solo, Captain?"
"A month or so. I don"t know. I haven"t comped it yet. No. I don"t know."
"You"re meeting someone of Reilly"s Dublin, you said."
"I didn"t say. It"s personal." He hesitated, searched desperately for a way of escape that would get him to the offices. Blue dock. That was where he had to go. Stations were universal in that arrangement, if not in their interiors. He was on green. It could not be far. He tried to recall the docks from years ago-he had been eleven-with Ross and Mitri by him- "What"s her name, Captain? Is there more to it?"
"Excuse me, please. I"m tired. I just want to get to the bank. I didn"t do anything."
"You cleared Viking to Pell in a month in a ship that size, solo? What kind of rig is she?"
"Excuse me. Please."
"You don"t call what you did remarkable?"
"I call it stupid. Please."
He shoved his way through, with people surging all about him, his heart hammering in panic. People-people as far as he could see. And of a sudden...
She was there. Allison Reilly was straight in front of him, wide-eyed as the rest of the crowd.
He shoved his way past the startled curious and at the last moment kept his hands off her-stood swaying on his feet and seeing the anger on her face.
"You"re crazy," she said. "You"re outright crazy."
"I told you I"d see you here. I"m tired. Can we talk... when I get back from the bank?"
She took his elbow and guided him through the crowd. The microphone caught up with him again; the newswoman shouted questions he half heard and Allison Reilly ignored them, pulled him across the dock to the line of bars-toward a ma.s.s of quieter folk, a line of s.p.a.cers. Fewer and fewer of the stationer crowd pursued them; and then none: the s.p.a.cer line closed about them with sullen and forbidding stares turned toward the intruding stationers. He paid no attention then where she aimed him-headed through the dark doorway of a bar and fell into a chair at the nearest available table. He slumped down over his folded arms on the surface in blessed quiet and tried to come out of it when someone shook him by the shoulder.
Allison Reilly put a drink into his hand. He sipped at it and gagged, because he had expected a stiff drink and got fruit juice and sugar froth. But it was food. It helped, and he looked up fuzzily into Allison"s face while he drank. A ring of other faces had gathered, male and female, s.p.a.cers ringing the table, silver-clad, white, green and gold and motley insystemers, just staring-all manner of patches, all the same silent observation.
"Sandwich," someone said, and he looked left as a male hand set a plate in front of him. He disposed of as much of it as he could in several graceless bites, then stuffed the rest, napkin-wrapped, into his jacket pocket, a survival habit and one which suddenly embarra.s.sed him in the face of all these people who knew what the odds were and what kind of poverty would drive a man to push a ship like that. Dublin knew what he had done. Someone on Dublin had talked, and they knew he had done it straight through, stringing the jumps, the only way the likes of Lucy could possibly have tailed Dublin. They would arrest him soon; someone would talk it over with some official in station central, and they would start running checks and talking to merchanters all over this station, some one of whom might have a memory jogged: his now-notorious ship, his face, his voice carried all over station on open vid. He could not deal quietly, take that fourteen thousand gold off the ship, deal as he was accustomed to deal, quietly, on the docks. Not now. He was dead scared. Allison Reilly was there, and the look on her face was what he had wanted, but he was up against the real cost of it now, and he found it too much.
"Allison," he said, when she sat down in the other chair and leaned on her arms looking at him, "I want to talk to you. Somewhere else."
"Come on," she said. "You come with me."
He pushed the chair back and tried to get up... needed her arm when he tried to walk, to keep his balance in station"s too-heavy gravity. Some s.p.a.cer muttered a ribald and ancient joke, about a man just off a solo run, and it was true, at least as far as the mind went, but the rest of him was dead.
He walked, a miserable blur of lights and moving bodies-the dock"s wide echoing chill and light and then a doorway, a confusion of bizarre wallpaper and a desk and a clerk-a sleepover, a carpeted hall in either direction from here... He leaned on the counter with his head propped on his hand while Allison straightened out the details and the finances. Then she took his arm again and led him down a corridor.
"Keep them out of here," she yelled back at someone, who said all right and left; she carded a door open and put him through, into a sleepover room with a wide white bed.
He turned around then and tried to put his arms around her. She shoved him in the middle of his chest and he nearly fell down. "Idiot," she said to him, which was not the welcome he had hoped for, but what he reckoned now he deserved. He stood there paralyzed in his misery and his mental state until she pulled him over to the bed and pushed him down onto it. She started working at his clothes with rough, abrupt movements as if she were still furious. "Roll over," she hissed at him, and pulled at his shoulder and threw the covers over him.
And he fell asleep.
Chapter V.
He woke, aware of bare smooth skin next to his own, of a warm arm about him, and turned, blinked in confusion. She was still here, in the room"s artificial twilight. "Allison," he said hoa.r.s.ely, hoa.r.s.e because his voice like the rest of him was not in the best of form. He stroked her hair and woke her without really meaning to ruin her sleep.
"Huh," she said, looking up at him. "About time." But when he tried with her, there was nothing he could do. He lay there in wretched embarra.s.sment and thinking that at this point she would probably get up and get dressed and walk out of his life forever, about the time he had just spent most of it.
"What could you expect?" she said, and patted his face and took his hand and carried it against her mouth, all of which so bewildered him that he simply lay there staring into her eyes and expecting her to follow that statement with something direly cutting.
She did not. "I"m sorry," he said finally. I"m really sorry."
"There"s tomorrow. A few more days. What are you going to do, Stevens? Is it worth the handful of days you bought with this stunt?"
He thought about it. For a moment he found it even hard to breathe. It really deserved laughing about, the whole situation, because there was something funny in it. He managed at least to shrug. "So, well, maybe. But I think I"m done after this, Reilly. I don"t think I can do it again."
"You"re absolutely out of your mind."
He found a grin possible, which at least kept up his image. "I don"t make a habit of it."
"Why"d you do it?"
"Why not?"
She frowned. Scowled. She shook her head after a moment, got up on her elbow, looking down at him, traced the old scar on his side, a gentle touch. "What are you going to tell your company?"
He lay there, stared at the ceiling with his head on his arms, considered the question and truth and lies, grinned finally and shrugged with what he hoped was monumental unconcern. "I don"t know. I"ll think of something good."
A fist landed on his ribs. "I"ll bet you will. No cargo. No clearance. You jumped out of Viking on the wrong heading. What are they going to do to you, Stevens?"
"Actually," he said, "it"s a minor problem." He shut his eyes, still with a smile painted on his face and a weariness sitting on his chest that seemed the acc.u.mulation of years. "I"ll talk my way out of it, never fear." And after a moment: "Why don"t we try it again, Reilly? I think it might work."
It did, oddly enough-and that, he thought, lying there with Allison Reilly tangled with him and content, was because he had started thinking again how to con his way through, and about saving his skin and Lucy"s, which got his blood moving again, however tired and sore he was. He was remarkably placid in contemplating his ruin, which he figured he could at least postpone until Allison Reilly had put out of Pell Station aboard Dublin some few days hence. And there was the gold: he had that. If by some miracle no one had known his face, he might get himself papers, get himself cargo-go back to Voyager without routing through Viking, a chancy set of jumps, then come in with appropriate stamps on his papers to satisfy Viking-if Dublin had not reported that message about his change of destination...
He could find out. Allison might know. Would tell him. And maybe, the irrepressible thought occurred to him, he could claim some tie to Dublin for the benefit of Pell authorities, use that supposed connection for a reference, at least enough for dock charges. She might do it for him. He thought of that, lying there with her arms about him, in a bed she had paid for, that he might work one remarkable scam and get himself a stake charged to Dublin"s account, which would solve all his problems but Viking and, with the gold, get him a real set of papers.
He turned his head and looked at her, into eyes which suddenly opened, dark and deep and warm at the moment; and his gut knotted up at what he was thinking to do, which was to beg; or to cheat her; and neither was palatable. She hugged him close and he fell to kissing her, which was another pleasure he had discovered different with Allison Reilly.
It was hardly fair, he thought, that he himself had fallen into such hands as Allison"s, who could con him in ways he had never visited on his most deserving victims. She was having herself a good time, not even maliciously, while he was paying all he had for it.
And it was finished if she knew, in all senses. She might not, even then, turn him in; but she would know... and hate him; and that was, at the moment, as bad as station police.
"Actually," he said during a lull, "actually I"ll tell you the truth. I"m not in trouble. It"s all covered, my shifting to Pell."
"Oh?" She stiffened, leaned back and looked at him. "How?"
"Because I"ve got an account to shift here. I"m a small enough operator the combine gives me quite a bit of leeway. All they ask is that I make a profit for them. They let me come and go where I can do that. Wyatt"s can"t be figuring down to the last degree where to have me break off an operation: that"s my decision to make. You made Pell sound good. I heard the rumors. And you just tipped the balance."
"Huh." There was a sober look on her face. "Not me at all, was it?"
"I could have taken my time getting here. I wanted to see you. That part"s so."
The sober look became a thinking look, a different, colder one. "Well, then, I guess you will get out of it all, won"t you?"
"I will. No question."
"Huh," she said again. She rolled for the edge of the bed and he caught her wrist, stopping her.
"Where are you going?"
"Can"t stay any longer. I have duty."
"What did I say?"
"You didn"t say anything. I just have my watch coming up."
"It was something. What was it?"
Her face grew distressed. She jerked at his hand without success. "Let go."
"Not until you tell me what I said."
"If you put a mark on me, Stevens, you"ll regret it You want to think that through?"
"I"m trying to talk to you. I told you the truth."
"I don"t think you know the truth from your backside. You didn"t tell me the truth and I"ll bet you didn"t tell it to customs out there."
His heart slammed against his ribs, harder and harder. "So does Dublin tell the whole truth to customs? Don"t ask me to believe that"
"Sure. I figure there are all kinds of reasons someone would give me one story and customs another; but maybe only one reason a ship would dog us the way you have, and I don"t like the smell of it. You never have answered me straight, not once, and I gave you your chance. Now maybe you can break my arm and maybe you even figure you can kill me to shut me up, but, mister, I"ve got several hundred cousins who know who I"m with and where and you"ll find yourself taking a slow voyage on Dublin if you don"t let me out of here right quick."
"Is that why you stayed? To ask questions?"
"What do you expect?"
He stared at her with more pain than he had felt since Ross died, let go her arm so suddenly she almost rolled off her edge of the bed; and she sat there rubbing her wrist and glaring at him. He had no wish to be looked at. "Go on," he said. "I"m not stopping you."
"Don"t tell me I"ve hurt your feelings."
"Impossible. Go on, get out of here and let me sleep."
"It"s my room. I paid the bill."
That hurt I"ll take care of it I"ll put the fifty in Dublin"s account. And the fifty before that. Just take yourself off. No worry about the cash."