"Oh!" I said, somewhat taken aback. "You don"t think that I might break out again?"
"I should think it is unlikely; but if you did, we could easily have you put away for a time. The great advantage would be that Miriam could always get a divorce on the ground of insanity of partner, whenever she wished it."
"Is that a ground for divorce in Upsidonia?"
"Yes; the pa.s.sing of that law has been a great boon. People under suspicion of weak intellect have become much more marriageable than they were before."
"I shouldn"t like to begin married life with the idea of a divorce hanging over me."
"I don"t say that Miriam would allow herself to count on a divorce at present; and if I were you I should not tell her that you have suffered from brain trouble."
"I won"t," I said.
"No; and I won"t, either. But one never knows what may happen in married life, and it would be a comfort to know that Miriam would not be tied to you for life if you turned out badly."
"Well, supposing we leave it at that," I said. "I think you"re wrong about my brain trouble, but if your idea comforts you at all, keep it by all means; but keep it to yourself."
CHAPTER XVII
It is not customary, at least in England, to undertake the responsibilities of married life without a probability of being able to carry them out, and at the time I had come into Upsidonia I had not been in what is called a position to marry. In that country my position was quite satisfactory in this respect, but I did not propose to spend the rest of my life in Upsidonia.
So I now had to think seriously about acquiring that independence which would sweeten the existence that I looked forward to, with dear Miriam as my life-long companion. I was as happy as a king in her garden, but having achieved the step of being invited into it, I now looked forward eagerly to the next step, which was to get out of Upsidonia by the way I had come, and to take her with me.
She was quite ready to go, after our marriage. Indeed, the Highlands, where it was supposed that we should settle down, was so cut off from communication with the rest of Upsidonia that a separation was taken for granted, both by herself and her family.[30]
"Tell me about the sort of house we shall live in," said Miriam, as we sat together on a seat in her garden, under the shade of a sweet-smelling lime.
"My dear," I said, "we shall be able to live in any sort of house we want to. It is delightful to think of. All the beautiful places in the world are open to us, and we need be tied to none of them."
"I don"t want more than one house," said Miriam. "I can"t get it out of my head, in spite of everything you have told me, that more than one would be a bother. Besides, you wouldn"t know which to call your home."
"Quite right," I said. "Even with us, more than one house might quite well be a bother; and to enjoy your possessions you want to have them all around you."
"I suppose I _shall_ get to enjoy possessions," she said dubiously. "But I don"t want too many of them, John dear."
"You shall have just as many, or just as few, as you please. We shall enjoy ourselves immensely in acquiring them."
"Do you think we shall? I shall try and like what you like. But it is a little difficult."
"You shall have some beautiful frocks, Miriam. I know you will like that."
She laughed. "How wicked it sounds!" she said. "Don"t tell mother that I shall like having beautiful frocks. Are you _sure_ that other girls--other married women--won"t look down on me if I am well-dressed?
I shouldn"t like to be looked down upon, for _your_ sake."
"My dear, get all that out of your head. The more you spend the less likely you are to be looked down upon."
"It sounds so funny. But it sounds rather nice too. Of course, it isn"t really _wrong_ to like spending money, rather, if everybody else does it."
"Not a bit. Not if you"ve got it to spend. And we _shall_ have. I am going to see about that. Well, shall we live in the country?"
"That would be rather nice, John. In a dear little house with a pretty garden, and no labour-saving appliances."
"I don"t think you will want to live in a little house when you get to England. I thought, perhaps, we might find some very delightful old-fashioned country house, in a beautiful part of the country, with a few thousand acres of land, good shooting, and a model home farm, which I could tackle myself."
"Do you know anything about farming?"
"Not much; but I should rather like to try it."
"Isn"t it rather dangerous? Mightn"t you make a lot of money over it?"
"I think I could escape the danger. How would you like an old red-brick house, with a moat, and beautiful carving and plastering and all that sort of thing inside? I know of one near where I was born that we might be able to get."
"Is it in a village, with nice people in it?"
"It is near a charming village, which would belong to us. There aren"t any other big houses very near."
"Would the other people call on us, and be friendly?"
"Oh, yes. There are a lot of good houses all about. The neighbours would all call on us."
"Yes, the rich neighbours. But the people in the village? Would the vicar"s wife call on us, if we lived in a house like that?"
"I expect she would, if the vicar has a wife, of which I am not sure."
"And the labourers" wives--would they call?"
"Probably not. No, I don"t think the labourers" wives would call."
"Then shouldn"t we feel rather out of it?"
"You could call on them if you wanted to. They would be very pleased to see you. _Any_ body would be pleased to see you."
"Dear old boy!" she said affectionately. "You think far too much of me.
But I like you to. Somehow I don"t think I should like to live in a house like that, John. For one thing, I shouldn"t like to be always going to see people who wouldn"t come and see me. Couldn"t we live somewhere among our own sort of people--the people who are well-off, and _yet_ well-educated, that you told me about--well, like _we_ should be?"
"You don"t want to live in London, do you?"
"That"s where you live, isn"t it?"
"Only because my work makes it convenient."
"But you wouldn"t give up your work?"
"I should give up some of it, that I do at present. I don"t say I should give up _all_ work."