"Yes," sprang from her lips, without a second"s hesitation. "You have seen Grif."
"I have seen Grif," he answered. "He is at the corner of the street now.
If I had attempted to speak to him he would have managed to avoid me; and because I knew that, I came here, hoping to find Aimee; but since Aimee is not here--"
"I can go," she interrupted him, all a-tremble with eagerness. "He will listen to me; he was fond of me, too, and I was fond of him. Oh! let me go now!"
That bright little scarlet shawl of Dolly"s lay upon the sofa, and she s.n.a.t.c.hed it up with shaking hands and threw it over her head and shoulders.
"If I can speak to him once, he will listen," she said; "and if he listens, Dolly will be saved. She won"t die if Grif comes back. She can"t die if Grif comes back. Oh, Dolly, my darling, you saved me, and I am going to try to save you."
She was out in the street in two minutes, standing on the pavement, looking up and down, and then she ran across to the other side. She kept close to the houses, so that she might be in their shadow, and a little sob broke from her as she hurried along,--a sob of joy and fear and excitement. At the end of the row of houses somebody was standing under the street lamp,--a man. Was it Grif,--or could Grif have gone even in this short time? Fate could never have been so cruel to him, to her, to them all, as to let him come so near and then go away without hearing that Dolly was lying at death"s portals, and no one could save her but himself and the tender power of the sweet, old, much-tried love. Oh, no, no! It was Grif indeed; for as she neared the place where he stood, she saw his face in the lamp-light,--a grief-worn, pallid face, changed and haggard and desperate,--a sight that made her cry out aloud.
He had not seen her or even heard her. He stood there looking toward the house she had left, and seeing, as it seemed, nothing else. Only the darkness had hidden her from him. His eyes were fixed upon the dim light that burned in Dolly"s window. She had not meant to speak until she stood close to him; but when she was within a few paces of him her excitement mastered her.
"Grif," she cried out; "Grif, is it you?"
And when he turned, with a great start, to look at her, she was upon him,--her hands outstretched, the light upon her face, the tears streaming down her cheeks,--sobbing aloud.
"Mollie," he answered, "is it _you?_" And she saw that he almost staggered.
She could not speak at first. She clung to his arm so tightly that he could scarcely have broken away from her if he had tried. But he did not try; it seemed as though her touch made him weak,--weaker than he had ever been before in his life. Beauty as she was, they had always thought her in some way like Dolly, and, just now, with Dolly"s gay little scarlet shawl slipping away from her face, with the great grief in her imploring eyes, with that innocent appealing trick of the clinging hands, she might almost have been Dolly"s self.
Try as he might, he could not regain his self-control. He was sheerly powerless before her.
"Mollie," he said, "what has brought you here? Why have you come?"
"I have come," she answered, "for Dolly"s sake!"
The vague fear he had felt at first caught hold upon him with all the fulness of its strength.
"For Dolly"s sake!" he echoed. "Nay, Dolly has done with me, and I with her." And though he tried to speak bitterly, he failed.
She was too fond of Dolly, and too full of grief to spare him after that. Unstrung as she was, her reproach burst forth from her without a softened touch. "Dolly has done with earth. Dolly"s life is over," she sobbed. "Do you know that she is dying? Yes, dying,--our own bright Dolly,--and you--_you_ have killed her!"
She had not thought how cruel it would sound, and the next instant she was full of terror at the effect of her own words. He broke loose from her,--_fell_ loose from her, one might better describe it, for it was his own weight rather than any effort which dragged him from her grasp.
He staggered and caught hold of the iron railings to save himself, and there hung, staring at her with a face like a dead man.
"My G.o.d!" he said,--not another word.
"You must not give way like that," she cried out, in a new fright. "Oh, how could I speak so! Aimee would have told you better. I did not mean to be so hard. You can save her if you will. She will not die, Grif, if you go to her. She only wants _you_. Grif,--Grif,--you look as if you could not understand what I am saying." And she wrung her hands.
And, indeed, it scarcely seemed as if he did understand, though at last he spoke.
"Where is she?" he said. "Not here? You say I must "go" to her."
"No, she is not here. She is at Lake Geneva. Miss MacDowlas took her there because she grew so weak, and she has grown weaker ever since, and three days ago they sent for Aimee to come to her, because--because they think she is going to die."
"And you say that _I_ have done this?"
"I ought n"t to have put it that way, it sounds so cruel, but--but she has never been like herself since the night you went away, and we have all known that it was her unhappiness that made her ill. She could not get over it, and though she tried to hide it, she was worn out. She loved you so."
He interrupted her.
"If she is dying for me," he said, hoa.r.s.ely, "she must have loved me, and if she has loved me through all this,--G.o.d help us both!"
"How could you go away and leave her all alone after all those years?"
demanded Mollie. "We cannot understand it. No one knows but Aimee, and Dolly has told her that you were not to blame. Why did you go?"
"_You_ do not know?" he said. "You should know, Mollie, of all others. _You_ were with her when she played that miserable coquette"s trick,--that pitiful trick, so unlike herself,--you were with her that night when she let Gowan keep her away from me, when I waited for her coming hour after hour. I saw you with them when he was bidding her goodnight."
They had hidden their secret well all these months, but it was to be hidden no longer now. It flashed upon her like an electric shock. She remembered a hundred things,--a hundred little mysteries she had met and been puzzled by, in Aimee"s manner; she remembered all she had heard, and all she had wondered at, and her heart seemed turned to stone. The flush of weeping died out of her face, her hands fell and hung down at her side, her tears were gone; nothing seemed left to her but blank horror.
"Was it because she did not come that night, that you left her to die?"
she asked, in a labored voice. "Was it because you saw her with Ralph Gowan--was it because you found out that she had been with him, that you went away and let her break her heart? Tell me!"
He answered her, "Yes."
"Then," she said, turning to face him, still cold, and almost rigid, "it is _I_ who have killed her, and not you."
"You!" he exclaimed.
She did not wait to choose her words, or try to soften the story of her own humiliation.
"If she dies," she said, "she has died for me."
And without further preface she told him all. How she had let Gerald Chandos flatter and gain power over her, until the climax of her folly had been the wild, wilful escapade of that miserable long-past day.
How Ralph Gowan had discovered her romantic secret, and revealed it to Dolly. How they had followed and rescued her; even how Dolly had awakened her from her dangerous dream with that light touch, and had drawn her away from the brink of an abyss, with her loving, girlish hands; and she ended with an outburst of anguish.
"Why did n"t she tell you?" she said. "For my sake she did not want the rest to know; but why did not she tell you? I cannot understand."
"She tried to tell me," he said, in an agony of self-reproach, as he began to see what he had done,--"she tried to tell me, and I would not hear her."
All his bygone sufferings--and, Heaven knows, he had suffered bitterly and heavily enough--sank into insignificance before the misery of this hour. To know how true and pure of heart she had been; to know how faithful, unselfish, sweet; to remember how she had met him with a tender little cry of joy, with outstretched, innocent hands, that he had thrust aside; to remember the old golden days in which she had so clung to him, and brightened his life; to think how he had left her lying upon the sofa that night, her white face drooping piteously against the cus.h.i.+ons; to have all come back to him and know that he only was to blame; to know it all too late. Nay, a whole life of future bliss could never quite efface the memory of such a pa.s.sion of remorse and pain.
"Oh, my G.o.d!" he prayed, "have mercy upon me!" And then he turned upon Mollie. "Tell me where to go to; tell me, and let me go. I must go to her now without a moment"s waiting. My poor, faithful little girl,--my pretty Dolly! Dying,--dying! No, I don"t believe it,--I won"t. She cannot die yet. Fate has been cruel enough to us, but it cannot be so cruel as that. Love will _make_ her live."
He dashed down Mollie"s directions in desperate, feverish haste upon a leaf of his memorandum-book, and then he bade her good-by.
"G.o.d bless you, dear!" he said. "Perhaps you have saved us both. I am going to her now. Pray for me."
"I ought rather to pray for myself," she said; "but for me you would never have been separated. I have done it all."
And a few minutes after he had gone, Ralph Gowan, who had awaited her return before the window, turned to see her enter the room like a spirit and fling herself down before him, looking white and shaken and pale.
"I have found it all out now," she cried. "I have found it all out. I have done all this, Mr. Gowan; it is through me her heart is broken, and if she dies, I shall have caused her death, as surely as if I had killed her with my own hand. Oh, save me from thinking she will die,--help me to think she will live,--help me!"
There was no one else to help her, and the blind terror of the thought was so great that she must have help, or die. To have so injured Dolly, whom she so loved,--to have, by her own deed, brought that dread shadow of Death upon Dolly, who had saved her! Her heart seemed crushed. If Aimee had been there; but Aimee was not, so she stretched out her hands to the man she had so innocently loved. And as she so knelt before him,--so fair, in the childlike _abandon_ of her grief, so guileless and trusting in her sudden, sweet appeal, so helpless against the world, even against herself,--his man"s heart was touched and stirred as it had never been before,--as even Dolly herself had not stirred it.
"My poor child!" he said, taking her hands and drawing her nearer to himself. "My poor, pretty Mollie, come to me."