"Don"t worry," he said. "I won"t bite. Well, at least not in the way you"re afraid of." He chuckled at his own joke.
She didn"t find it funny. She had completely forgotten about Christian. So had I.
No matter what happened in our world, a few basic truths about vampires remained the same.
Moroi were alive; Strigoi were undead. Moroi were mortal; Strigoi were immortal. Moroi were born; Strigoi were made.
And there were two ways to make a Strigoi. Strigoi could forcibly turn humans, dhampirs, or Moroi with a single bite. Moroi tempted by the promise of immortality could become Strigoi by choice if they purposely killed another person while feeding. Doing that was considered dark and twisted, the greatest of all sins, both against the Moroi way of life and nature itself. Moroi who chose this dark path lost their ability to connect with elemental magic and other powers of the world. That was why they could no longer go into the sun.
This is what had happened to Christian"s parents. They were Strigoi.
Five
OR RATHER, THEY HAD BEEN Strigoi. A regiment of guardians had hunted them down and killed them. If rumors were true, Christian had witnessed it all when he was very young. And although he wasn"t Strigoi himself, some people thought he wasn"t far off, with the way he always wore black and kept to himself.
Strigoi or not, I didn"t trust him. He was a jerk, and I silently screamed at Lissa to get out of there-not that my screaming did much good. Stupid one-way bond.
"What are you doing here?" she asked.
"Taking in the sights, of course. That chair with the tarp on it is particularly lovely this time of year. Over there, we have an old box full of the writings of the blessed and crazy St. Vladimir.
And let"s not forget that beautiful table with no legs in the corner."
"Whatever." She rolled her eyes and moved toward the door, wanting to leave, but he blocked her way.
"Well, what about you?" he taunted. "Why are you up here? Don"t you have parties to go to or lives to destroy?"
Some of Lissa"s old spark returned. "Wow, that"s hilarious. Am I like a rite of pa.s.sage now? Go and see if you can p.i.s.s off Lissa to prove how cool you are? Some girl I don"t even know yelled at me today, and now I"ve got to deal with you? What does it take to be left alone?"
"Oh. So that"s why you"re up here. For a pity party."
"This isn"t a joke. I"m serious." I could tell Lissa was getting angry. It was trumping her earlier distress.
He shrugged and leaned casually against the sloping wall. "So am I. I love pity parties. I wish I"d brought the hats. What do you want to mope about first? How it"s going to take you a whole day to be popular and loved again? How you"ll have to wait a couple weeks before Hollister can ship out some new clothes? If you spring for rush shipping, it might not be so long."
"Let me leave," she said angrily, this time pushing him aside.
"Wait," he said, as she reached the door. The sarcasm disappeared from his voice. "What...um, what was it like?"
"What was what like?" she snapped.
"Being out there. Away from the Academy."
She hesitated for a moment before answering, caught off guard by what seemed like a genuine attempt at conversation. "It was great. No one knew who I was. I was just another face. Not Moroi. Not royal. Not anything." She looked down at the floor. "Everyone here thinks they know who I am."
"Yeah. It"s kind of hard to outlive your past," he said bitterly.
It occurred to Lissa at that moment-and me to by default-just how hard it might be to be Christian. Most of the time, people treated him like he didn"t exist. Like he was a ghost. They didn"t talk to or about him. They just didn"t notice him. The stigma of his parents" crime was too strong, casting its shadow onto the entire Ozera family.
Still, he"d p.i.s.sed her off, and she wasn"t about to feel sorry for him.
"Wait-is this your pity party now?"
He laughed, almost approvingly. "This room has been my pity party for a year now."
"Sorry," said Lissa snarkily. "I was coming here before I left. I"ve got a longer claim."
"Squatters" rights. Besides, I have to make sure I stay near the chapel as much as possible so people know I haven"t gone Strigoi...yet." Again, the bitter tone rang out.
"I used to always see you at ma.s.s. Is that the only reason you go? To look good?" Strigoi couldn"t enter holy ground. More of that sinning-against-the-world thing. "Sure," he said. "Why else go? For the good of your soul?"
"Whatever," said Lissa, who clearly had a different opinion. "I"ll leave you alone then."
"Wait," he said again. He didn"t seem to want her to go. "I"ll make you a deal. You can hang out here too if you tell me one thing."
"What?" She glanced back at him.
He leaned forward. "Of all the rumors I heard about you today-and believe me, I heard plenty, even if no one actually told them to me-there was one that didn"t come up very much. They dissected everything else: why you left, what you did out there, why you came back, the specialization, what Rose said to Mia, blah, blah, blah. And in all of that, no one, no one ever questioned that stupid story that Rose told about there being all sorts of fringe humans who let you take blood."
She looked away, and I could feel her cheeks starting to burn. "It"s not stupid. Or a story."
He laughed softly. "I"ve lived with humans. My aunt and I stayed away after my parents...died.
It"s not that easy to find blood." When she didn"t answer, he laughed again. "It was Rose, wasn"t it? She fed you."
A renewed fear shot through both her and me. No one at school could know about that. Kirova and the guardians on the scene knew, but they"d kept that knowledge to themselves.
"Well. If that"s not friendship, I don"t know what it is," he said.
"You can"t tell anyone," she blurted out.
This was all we needed. As I"d just been reminded, feeders were vampire-bite addicts. We accepted that as part of life but still looked down on them for it. For anyone else-especially a dhampir-letting a Moroi take blood from you was almost, well, dirty. In fact, one of the kinkiest, practically p.o.r.nographic things a dhampir could do was let a Moroi drink blood during s.e.x.
Lissa and I hadn"t had s.e.x, of course, but we"d both known what others would think of me feeding her. "Don"t tell anyone," Lissa repeated.
He stuffed his hands in his coat pockets and sat down on one of the crates. "Who am I going to tell? Look, go grab the window seat. You can have it today and hang out for a while. If you"re not still afraid of me."
She hesitated, studying him. He looked dark and surly, lips curled in a sort of I"m-such-a-rebel smirk. But he didn"t look too dangerous. He didn"t look Strigoi. Gingerly, she sat back down in the window seat, unconsciously rubbing her arms against the cold.
Christian watched her, and a moment later, the air warmed up considerably.
Lissa met Christian"s eyes and smiled, surprised she"d never noticed how icy blue they were before. "You specialized in fire?"
He nodded and pulled up a broken chair. "Now we have luxury accommodations."
I snapped out of the vision.
"Rose? Rose?"
Blinking, I focused on Dimitri"s face. He was leaning toward me, his hands gripping my shoulders. I"d stopped walking; we stood in the middle of the quad separating the upper school buildings.
"Are you all right?"
"I...yeah. I was...I was with Lissa..." I put a hand to my forehead. I"d never had such a long or clear experience like that. "I was in her head."
"Her...head?"
"Yeah. It"s part of the bond." I didn"t really feel like elaborating.
"Is she all right?"
"Yeah, she"s..." I hesitated. Was she all right? Christian Ozera had just invited her to hang out with him. Not good. There was "coasting through the middle," and then there was turning to the dark side. But the feelings humming through our bond were no longer scared or upset. She was almost content, though still a little nervous. "She"s not in danger," I finally said. I hoped.
"Can you keep going?"
The hard, stoic warrior I"d met earlier was gone-just for a moment-and he actually looked concerned. Truly concerned. Feeling his eyes on me like that made something flutter inside of me-which was stupid, of course. I had no reason to get all goofy, just because the man was too good-looking for his own good. After all, he was an antisocial G.o.d, according to Mason. One who was supposedly going to leave me in all sorts of pain.
"Yeah. I"m fine."
I went into the gym"s dressing room and changed into the workout clothes someone had finally thought to give me after a day of practicing in jeans and a T-shirt. Gross. Lissa hanging out with Christian troubled me, but I shoved that thought away for later as my muscles informed me they did not want to go through any more exercise today.
So I suggested to Dimitri that maybe he should let me off this time.
He laughed, and I was pretty sure it was at me and not with me.
"Why is that funny?"
"Oh," he said, his smile dropping. "You were serious."
"Of course I was! Look, I"ve technically been awake for two days. Why do we have to start this training now? Let me go to bed," I whined. "It"s just one hour."
He crossed his arms and looked down at me. His earlier concern was gone. He was all business now. Tough love. "How do you feel right now? After the training you"ve done so far?"
"I hurt like h.e.l.l."
"You"ll feel worse tomorrow."
"So?" "So, better to jump in now while you still feel...not as bad."
"What kind of logic is that?" I retorted.
But I didn"t argue anymore as he led me into the weight room. He showed me the weights and reps he wanted me to do, then sprawled in a corner with a battered Western novel. Some G.o.d.
When I finished, he stood beside me and demonstrated a few cool-down stretches.
"How"d you end up as Lissa"s guardian?" I asked. "You weren"t here a few years ago. Were you even trained at this school?"
He didn"t answer right away. I got the feeling he didn"t talk about himself very often. "No. I attended the one in Siberia."
"Whoa. That"s got to be the only place worse than Montana."
A glint of something-maybe amus.e.m.e.nt-sparked in his eyes, but he didn"t acknowledge the joke. "After I graduated, I was a guardian for a Zeklos lord. He was killed recently." His smile dropped, his face grew dark. "They sent me here because they needed extras on campus. When the princess turned up, they a.s.signed me to her, since I"d already be around. Not that it matters until she leaves campus."
I thought about what he"d said before. Some Strigoi killed the guy he was supposed to have been guarding? "Did this lord die on your watch?"
"No. He was with his other guardian. I was away."
He fell silent, his mind obviously somewhere else. The Moroi expected a lot from us, but they did recognize that the guardians were-more or less-only human. So, guardians got pay and time off like you"d get in any other job. Some hard-core guardians-like my mom-refused vacations, vowing never to leave their Moroi"s sides. Looking at Dimitri now, I had a feeling he might very well turn into one of those. If he"d been away on legitimate leave, he could hardly blame himself for what happened to that guy. Still, he probably did anyway. I"d blame myself too if something happened to Lissa. "Hey," I said, suddenly wanting to cheer him up, "did you help come up with the plan to get us back? Because it was pretty good. Brute force and all that."
He arched an eyebrow curiously. Cool. I"d always wished I could do that. "You"re complimenting me on that?"
"Well, it was a h.e.l.l of a lot better than the last one they tried."
"Last one?"
"Yeah. In Chicago. With the pack of psi-hounds."
"This was the first time we found you. In Portland."
I sat up from my stretches and crossed my legs. "Um, I don"t think I imagined psi-hounds. Who else could have sent them? They only answer to Moroi. Maybe no one told you about it."
"Maybe," he said dismissively. I could tell by his face he didn"t believe that.
I returned to the novices" dorm after that. The Moroi students lived on the other side of the quad, closer to the commons. The living arrangements were partly based on convenience. Being here kept us novices closer to the gym and training grounds. But we also lived separately to accommodate the differences in Moroi and dhampir lifestyles. Their dorm had almost no windows, aside from tinted ones that dimmed sunlight. They also had a special section where feeders always stayed on hand. The novices" dorm was built in a more open way, allowing for more light.
I had my own room because there were so few novices, let alone girls. The room they"d given me was small and plain, with a twin bed and a desk with a computer. My few belongings had been spirited out of Portland and now sat in boxes around the room. I rummaged through them, pulling out a T-shirt to sleep in. I found a couple of pictures as I did, one of Lissa and me at a football game in Portland and another taken when I"d gone on vacation with her family, a year before the accident.
I set them on my desk and booted up the computer. Someone from tech support had helpfully given me a sheet with instructions for renewing my e-mail account and setting up a pa.s.sword. I did both, happy to discover no one had realized that this would serve as a way for me to communicate with Lissa. Too tired to write to her now, I was about to turn everything off when I noticed I already had a message. From Janine Hathaway. It was short: I"m glad you"re back. What you did was inexcusable.
"Love you too, Mom," I muttered, shutting it all down.
When I went to bed afterward, I pa.s.sed out before even hitting the pillow, and just as Dimitri had predicted, I felt ten times worse when I woke up the next morning. Lying there in bed, I reconsidered the perks of running away. Then I remembered getting my a.s.s kicked and figured the only way to prevent that from happening again was to go endure some more of it this morning.
My soreness made it all that much worse, but I survived the before-school practice with Dimitri and my subsequent cla.s.ses without pa.s.sing out or fainting.
At lunch, I dragged Lissa away from Natalie"s table early and gave her a Kirova-worthy lecture about Christian-particularly chastising her for letting him know about our blood arrangement.
If that got out, it"d kill both of us socially and I didn"t trust him not to tell.
Lissa had other concerns.