Davis said, "Which is what"s going to bring it right here."
VII.
2004-2005.
When Davis was on board the plane to Germany, he could permit himself to hope that he was, however temporarily, out of immediate danger of death-not from the injury to his back, which, though painful in the extreme, he had known from the start would not claim his life, but from the reappearance of the Shadow. Until their backup arrived in a hurry of bootsteps and rattle of armor, he had been waiting for the sky to vomit the figure it had swallowed minutes (moments?) prior, for his blood to leap into the thing"s jagged mouth. The mature course of action had seemed to prepare for his imminent end, which he had attempted, only to find the effort beyond him. Whenever word of some acquaintance"s failure to return from the latest patrol had prompted Davis to picture his final seconds, he had envisioned his face growing calm, even peaceful, his lips shaping the syllables of a heartfelt Act of Contrition. However, between the channel of fire that had replaced his spine and the vertiginous sensation that he might plunge into the sky-not to mention, the Lieutenant"s continuing monologue to Manfred, the pungence of gunpowder mixed with the b.l.o.o.d.y reek of meat, the low moans coming from Han-Davis was unable to concentrate. Rather than any gesture of reconciliation towards the G.o.d with Whom he had not been concerned since his discovery of what lay beneath his prom date"s panties junior year, Davis"s attention had been snarled in the sound of the Shadow"s claws puncturing Lugo"s neck, the fountain of Weymouth"s blood over its arm and chest, the wet slap of his entrails. .h.i.tting the ground, the stretch of the thing"s mouth as it released its scream. Despite his back, which had drawn his vocal chords taut, once the reinforcements had arrived and a red-faced medic peppered him with questions while performing a quick a.s.sessment of him, Davis had strained to warn them of their danger. But all his insistence that they had to watch the sky had brought him was a sedative that pulled him into a vague, gray place.
Nor had his time at the Battalion Aid Station, then some larger facility (Camp Victory? with whatever they gave him, most of the details a variety of medical staff poured into his ears sluiced right back out again) caused him to feel any more secure. As the gray place loosened its hold on him and he stared up at the canvas roof of the BAS, Davis had wanted to demand what the f.u.c.k everyone was thinking. Didn"t they know the Shadow could slice through this material like it was cling film? Didn"t they understand it was waiting to descend on them right now, this very f.u.c.king minute? It would rip them to shreds; it would drink their f.u.c.king blood. At the presence of a corpsman beside him, he"d realized he was shouting-or as close to shouting as his voice could manage-but he"d been unable to restrain himself, which had led to calming ba.n.a.lities and more vague grayness. He had returned to something like consciousness inside a larger s.p.a.ce in the CSH, where the sight of the nearest wall trembling from the wind had drawn his stomach tight and sped a fresh round of protests from his mouth. When he struggled up out of the shot that outburst occasioned, Davis had found himself in a dim cavern whose curving sides rang with the din of enormous engines. His momentary impression that he was dead and this some unexpected, bare-bones afterlife was replaced by the recognition that he was on a transport out of Iraq-who knew to where? It didn"t matter. A flood of tears had rolled from his eyes as the dread coiling his guts had, if not fled, at least calmed.
At Landstuhl, in a solidly-built hospital with drab but st.u.r.dy walls and a firm ceiling, Davis was calmer. (As long as he did not dwell on the way the Shadow"s claws had split Pet.i.t"s armor, sliced the Lieutenant"s rifle in two.) That, and the surgeries required to relieve the pressure on his spine left him, to quote a song he"d never liked that much, comfortably numb.
Not until he was back in America, though, reclining in the late-Medieval luxury of Walter Reed, the width of an ocean and a continent separating him from Fallujah, did Davis feel anything like a sense of security. Even after his first round of conversations with the Lieutenant had offered him the dubious rea.s.surance that, if he were delusional, he was in good company, a cold comfort made chillier still by Lee, his meds approaching the proper levels, corroborating their narrative, Davis found it less difficult than he would have antic.i.p.ated to persuade himself that Remsnyder"s head leaping from his body on a jet of blood was seven thousand miles away. And while his pulse still quickened whenever his vision strayed to the rectangle of sky framed by the room"s lone window, he could almost pretend that this was a different sky. After all, hadn"t that been the subtext of all the stories he"d heard from other vets about earlier wars? Weird s.h.i.t happened, yes-sometimes, very bad weird s.h.i.t happened-but it took place over there, In Country, in another place where things didn"t work the same way they did in the good old U.S. of A. If you could keep that in mind, Davis judged, front-and-center in your consciousness, you might be able to live with the impossible.
Everything went-you couldn"t call it swimmingly-it went, anyway, until Davis began his rehabilitation, which consisted of: a) learning how to walk again and b) strength training for his newly-(re)educated legs. Of course, he had been in pain after the initial injury-though shock and fear had kept the hurt from overwhelming him-and his nerves had flared throughout his hospital stay-especially following his surgery-though a pharmacopeia had damped those sensations down to smoldering. Rehab was different. Rehab was a long, low-ceilinged room that smelled of sweat and industrial antiseptic, one end of which grazed a small herd of the kind of exercise machines you saw faded celebrities hawking on late-night TV, the center of which held a trio of parallel bars set too low, and the near end of which was home to a series of overlapping blue mats whose extensive cracks suggested an aerial view of a river basin. Rehab was slow stretches on the mats, then gripping onto the parallel bars while you tried to coax your right leg into moving forward; once you could lurch along the bars and back, rehab was time on one of the exercise machines, flat on your back, your legs bent, your feet pressed against a pair of pedals connected to a series of weights you raised by extending your legs. Rehab was about confronting pain, inviting it in, asking it to sit down and have a beer so the two of you could talk for a while. Rehab was not leaning on the heavy-duty opiates and their synthetic friends; it was remaining content with the over-the-counter options and ice-packs. It was the promise of a walk outside-an enticement that made Davis"s palms sweat and his mouth go dry.
When the surgeon had told Davis the operation had been a success, there appeared to be no permanent damage to his spinal cord, Davis had imagined himself, freed of his cast and its coterie of pulleys and counterweights, sitting up on his own and strolling out the front door. Actually, he"d been running in his fantasy. The reality, he quickly discovered, was that merely raising himself to a sitting position was an enterprise far more involved than he ever had appreciated, as was a range of action so automatic it existed below his being able to admit he"d never given it much thought. He supposed the therapists here were as good as you were going to find, but that didn"t make the routines they subjected him to-he subjected himself to-any easier or less painful.
It was during one of these sessions, his back feeling as if it had been sc.r.a.ped raw and the exposed tissue generously salted, that Davis had his first inkling that Fallujah was not a self-contained narrative, a short, grisly tale; rather, it was the opening chapter of a novel, one of those eight-hundred-page, Stephen-King specials. Lucy, Davis"s primary therapist, had him on what he had christened the Rack. His target was twenty leg presses; in a fit of bravado, he had promised her thirty. No doubt, Davis had known instances of greater pain, but those had been spikes on the graph. Though set at a lower level, this hurt was constant, and while Lucy had a.s.sured him that he would become used to it, so far, he hadn"t. The pain glared like the sun flaring off a window; it flooded his mind white, made focusing on anything else impossible. That Lucy was encouraging him, he knew from the tone of her voice, but he could not distinguish individual words. Already, his vision was blurred from the sweat streaming out of him, so when the blur fractured, became a kaleidoscope-jumble of color and geometry, he thought little of it, and raised his fingers to clear his eyes.
According to Lucy, Davis removed his hand from his face, paused, then fell off the machine on his right side, trembling and jerking. For what she called his seizure"s duration, which she clocked at three minutes fifteen seconds, Davis uttered no sound except for a gulping noise that made his therapist fear he was about to swallow his tongue.
To the Lieutenant, then to Lee and eventually Han, Davis would compare what he saw when the rehab room went far away to a wide-screen movie, one of those panoramic deals that was supposed to impart the sensation of flying over the Rockies, or holding on for dear life as a roller coaster whipped up and down its course. A surplus of detail crowded his vision. He was in the middle of a sandy street bordered by short buildings whose walls appeared to consist of sheets of long, dried gra.s.s framed with slender sticks. A dozen, two dozen women and children dressed in pastel robes and turbans ran frantically from one side of the street to the other as men wearing dark brown shirts and pants aimed Kalashnikovs at them. Some of the men were riding brown and white horses; some were stalking the street; some were emerging from alleys between the buildings, several of whose walls were releasing thick smoke. Davis estimated ten men. The sounds-it was as if the soundtrack to this film had been set to record the slightest vibration of air, which it played back at twice the normal level. Screams raked his eardrums. Sandals sc.r.a.ped the ground. Guns cracked; bullets thudded into skin. Horses whickered. Fire snapped. An immense thirst, worse than any he had known, possessed him. His throat was not dry; it was arid, as if it-as if he were composed of dust from which the last eyedropper of moisture had long been squeezed.
One of the men-not the nearest, who was walking the opposite direction from Davis"s position, but the next closest, whose horse had shied from the flames sprouting from a gra.s.s wall and so turned its rider in Davis"s direction-caught sight of Davis, his face contracting in confusion at what he saw. The man, who might have been in his early twenties, started to raise his rifle, and everything sped up, the movie fast-forwarded. There was-his vision wavered, and the man"s gun dipped, his eyes widening. Davis was next to him-he had half-scaled the horse and speared the hollow of the man"s throat with his right hand, whose fingers, he saw, were twice as long as they had been, tapered to a set of blades. He felt the man"s tissue part, the ends of his fingers (talons?) sc.r.a.pe bone. Blood washed over his palm, his wrist, and the sensation jolted him. His talons flicked to the left, and the man"s head tipped back like a tree falling away from its base. Blood misted the air, and before he realized what was happening, his mouth was clamped to the wound, full of hot, copper liquid. The taste was rain falling in the desert; in three mighty gulps, he had emptied the corpse and was springing over its fellows, into the midst of the brightly-robed women and children.
The immediate result of Davis"s three-minute hallucination was the sus-
pension of his physical therapy and an MRI of his brain. Asked by Lucy what he recalled of the experience, Davis had shaken his head and answered, "Nothing." It was the same response he gave to the new doctor who stopped into his room a week later and, without identifying himself as a psychiatrist, told Davis he was interested in the nightmares that had brought him screaming out of sleep six of the last seven nights. This was a rather substantial change in his nightly routine; taken together with his recent seizure, it seemed like cause for concern. Perhaps Davis could relate what he remembered of his nightmares?
How to tell this doctor that closing his eyes-an act he resisted for as long as could each night-brought him to that yellow-brown street; the lime, saffron, and orange cloth stretching as mothers hauled their children behind them; the dull muzzles of the Kalashnikovs coughing fire? How to describe the sensations that still lived in his skin, his muscles: the tearing of skin for his too-long fingers; the bounce of a heart in his hand the instant before he tore it from its setting; the eggsh.e.l.l crunch of bone between his jaws? Most of all, how to convey to this doctor, this shrink who was either an unskilled actor or not trying very hard, the concentrate of pleasure that was the rush of blood into his mouth, down his throat, the satisfaction of his terrific thirst so momentary it made the thirst that much worse? Although Davis had repeated his earlier disavowal and maintained it in the face of the doctor"s extended-and, to be fair, sympathetic-questions until the man left, a week"s worth of poor sleep made the wisdom of his decision appear less a foregone conclusion. What he had seen-what he had been part of the other week was too similar to the vision he"d had in the courtyard not to be related; the question was, how? Were Davis to summarize his personal horror ride to the psychiatrist-he would have to tell him about Fallujah first, of course-might the doctor have more success at understanding the connections between his driver"s-seat views of the Shadow"s activities?
Sure, Davis thought, right after he"s had you fitted for your straightjacket. The ironic thing was, how often had he argued the benefits of the Army"s psychiatric care with Lugo? It had been their running gag. Lugo would return from reading his e-mail with news of some guy stateside who"d lost it, shot his wife, himself, which would prompt Davis to say that it was a shame the guy hadn"t gotten help before it came to that. Help, Lugo would say, from who? The Army? Man, you must be joking. The Army don"t want nothing to do with no grunt can"t keep his s.h.i.t together. No, no, Davis would say, sure, they still had a ways to go, but the Army was changing. The kinds of combat-induced pathologies it used to pretend didn"t exist were much more likely to be treated early and effectively. (If Lee and Han were present, and/or Remsnyder, they"d ooh and aah over Davis"s vocabulary.) Oh yeah, Lugo would reply, if they don"t discharge your a.s.s right outta here, they"ll stick you at some bulls.h.i.t post where you won"t hurt anyone. No, no, Davis would say, that was a rumor. Oh yeah, Lugo would say, like the rumor about the guys who went to the doctor for help with their PTSD and were told they were suffering from a f.u.c.king pre-existing condition, so it wasn"t the Army"s problem? No, no, Davis would say, that was a few bad guys. Oh yeah, Lugo would say.
Before he and the Lieutenant-who had been abducted by a platoon of siblings, their spouses, and their kids for ten days in Florida-discussed the matter, Davis pa.s.sed his nightly struggles to stay awake wondering if the psychiatric ward was the worst place he might wind up. His only images of such places came from films like One Flew Over the Cuckoo"s Nest, Awakenings, and K-PAX, but based on those examples, he could expect to spend his days robed and slippered, possibly medicated, free to read what he wanted except during individual and group therapy sessions. If it wasn"t quite the career as a psychologist he"d envisioned, he"d at least be in some kind of proximity to the mental health field. Sure, it would be a scam, but didn"t the taxpayers of the U.S. of A. owe him recompense for shipping him to a place where the Shadow could just drop in and shred his life? The windows would be barred or meshed, the doors reinforced-you could almost fool yourself such a location would be safe.
However, with his second episode, it became clear that safe was one of those words that had been bayoneted, its meaning spilled on the floor. Davis had been approved to resume therapy with Lucy, who had been honestly happy to see him again. It was late in the day; what with the complete breakdown in his sleeping patterns, he wasn"t in optimal condition for another go-around on the Rack, but after so much time stuck in his head, terrified at what was in there with him, the prospect of a vigorous workout was something he was actually looking forward to. As before, gentle stretching preceded the main event, which Lucy told Davis he didn"t have to do but for which he had cavalierly a.s.sured her he was, if not completely able, at least ready and willing. With the second push of his feet against the pedals, pain ignited up his back, and his lack of sleep did not aid in his tolerating it. Each subsequent retraction and extension of his legs ratcheted the hurt up one more degree, until he was lying on a bed of fire.
This time.
VIII.
2:15 AM.
"My vision didn"t blur-it cracked, as if my knees levering up and down were an image on a TV screen and something smacked the gla.s.s. Everything spiderwebbed and fell away. What replaced it was movement-I was moving up, my arms beating down; there was this feeling that they were bigger, much bigger, that when I swept them down, they were gathering the air and piling it beneath them. I looked below me, and there were bodies-parts of bodies, organs-all over the place. There was less blood than there should have been. Seeing them scattered across the ground-it was like having a bird"s- eye view of some kind of bizarre design. Most of them were men, twenties and thirties; although there were two women and a couple-three kids. Almost everybody was wearing jeans and workboots, sweatshirts, baseball caps, except for a pair of guys dressed in khaki and I"m pretty sure cowboy hats."
"What the f.u.c.k?" Lee said.
"Cowboys," Han said.
"Texas Border Patrol," the Lieutenant said.
"So those other people were like, illegal immigrants?" Lee said.
The Lieutenant nodded.
Davis said, "I"ve never been to Texas, but the spot looked like what you see on TV. Sandy, full of rocks, some scrub brush and short trees. There was a muddy stream-you might call it a river, I guess, if that was what you were used to-in the near distance, and a group of hills further off. The sun was perched on top of the hills, setting, and that red ball made me beat me arms again and again, shrinking the scene below, raising me higher into the sky. There was-I felt full-more than full, gorged, but thirsty, still thirsty, that same, overpowering dryness I"d experienced the previous . . . time. The thirst was so strong, so compelling, I was a little surprised when I kept climbing. My flight was connected to the sun balanced on that hill, a kind of-not panic, exactly: it was more like urgency. I was moving, now. The air was thinning; my arms stretched even larger to scoop enough of it to keep me moving. The temperature had dropped-was dropping, plunging down. Something happened-my mouth was already closed, but it was as if it sealed somehow. Same thing with my nostrils; I mean, they closed themselves off. My eyes misted, then cleared. I pumped my arms harder than I had before. This time, I didn"t lose speed; I kept moving forward.
"Ahead, I saw the thing I"d seen in the courtyard-a huge shape, big as a house. Pointed at the ends, fat in the middle. Dark-maybe dark purple, maybe not-and shiny. The moment it came into view, this surge of . . . I don"t know what to call it. Honestly, I want to say it was a cross between the way you feel when you put your bag down on your old bed and, "Mommy," that little kid feeling, except that neither of those is completely right. My arms were condensing, growing substantial. I was heading towards the middle. As I drew closer, its surface rippled, like water moving out from where a stone strikes it. At the center of the ripple, a kind of pucker opened into the thing. That was my destination."
"And?" Lee said.
"Lucy emptied her Gatorade on me and brought me out of it."
"You have got to be f.u.c.king kidding me," Lee said.
"Afraid not," Davis said.
"How long was this one?" the Lieutenant asked.
"Almost five minutes."
"It took her that long to toss her Gatorade on you?" Lee said.
"There was some kind of commotion at the same time, a couple of guys got into a fight. She tried to find help; when she couldn"t, she doused me."
Lee shook his head.
"And you have since confirmed the existence of this object," the Lieutenant said.
"Yes, sir," Davis said. "It took some doing. The thing"s d.a.m.ned near impossible to see, and while no one would come out and say so to me, I"m pretty sure it doesn"t show up on radar, either. The couple of pictures we got were more dumb luck than anything."
" "We"?" Lee said.
"I . . . "
The Lieutenant said, "I put Mr. Davis in touch with a friend of mine in Intelligence."
"Oh," Lee said. "Wait-s.h.i.t: you mean the CIA"s involved?"
"Relax," Davis said.
"Because I swear to G.o.d," Lee said, "those stupid motherf.u.c.kers would f.u.c.k up getting toast out of the toaster and blame us for their burned fingers."
"It"s under control," the Lieutenant said. "This is our party. No one else has been invited."
"Doesn"t mean they won"t show up," Lee said. "Stupid a.s.sholes with their f.u.c.king sungla.s.ses and their, "We"re so scary." Oooh." He turned his head and spat.
Davis stole a look at the sky. Stars were winking out and in as something pa.s.sed in front of them. His heart jumped, his hand was on his stake before he identified the shape as some kind of bird. The Lieutenant had noticed his movement; his hand over his stake, he said, "Everything all right, Davis?"
"Fine," Davis said. "Bird."
"What?" Lee said.
"Bird," Han said.
"Oh," Lee said. "So. I have a question."
"Go ahead," the Lieutenant said.
"The whole daylight thing," Lee said, "the having to be back in its coffin before sunset-what"s up with that?"
"It does seem . . . atypical, doesn"t it?" the Lieutenant said. "Vampires are traditionally creatures of the night."
"Actually, sir," Lee said, "that"s not exactly true. The original Dracula-you know, in the book-he could go out in daylight; he just lost his powers."
"Lee," the Lieutenant said, "you are a font of information. Is this what our monster is trying to avoid?"
"I don"t know," Lee said. "Could be."
"I don"t think so," Davis said. "It"s not as if daylight makes its teeth any sharper."
"Then what is it?" Lee said.
"Beats me," Davis said. "Don"t we need daylight to make Vitamin D? Maybe it"s the same, uses the sun to manufacture some kind of vital substance."
"Not bad," the Lieutenant said.
"For something you pulled out of your a.s.s," Lee said.
"Hey-you asked," Davis said.
"Perhaps it"s time for some review," the Lieutenant said. "Can we agree on that? Good.
"We have this thing-this vampire," holding up a hand to Davis, "that spends its nights in an orbiting coffin. At dawn or thereabouts, it departs said refuge in search of blood, which it apparently obtains from a single source."
"Us," Han said.
"Us," the Lieutenant said. "It glides down into the atmosphere on the lookout for likely victims-of likely groups of victims, since it prefers to feed on large numbers of people at the same time. Possibly, it burns through its food quickly."
"It"s always thirsty," Davis said. "No matter how much it drinks, it"s never enough."
"Yeah," Lee said, "I felt it, too."
"So did we all," the Lieutenant said. "It looks to satisfy its thirst at locations where its actions will draw little to no attention. These include remote areas such as the U.S.-Mexico border, the Sahara and Gobi, and the Andes. It also likes conflict zones, whether Iraq, Darfur, or the Congo. How it locates these sites is unknown. We estimate that it visits between four and seven of them per day. That we have been able to determine, there does not appear to be an underlying pattern to its selection of either target areas or individuals within those areas. The vampire"s exact level of intelligence is another unknown. It possesses considerable abilities as a predator, not least of them its speed, reaction time, and strength. Nor should we forget its teeth and," a rap of the artificial leg, "claws."
"Not to mention that mind thing," Lee said.
"Yes," the Lieutenant said. "Whether by accident or design, the vampire"s appearance is accompanied by a telepathic jolt that momentarily disorients its intended victims, rendering them easier prey. For those who survive the meeting," a nod at them, "a link remains that may be activated by persistent, p.r.o.nounced stress, whether physical or mental. The result of this activation is a period of clairvoyance, during which the lucky individual rides along for the vampire"s current activities. Whether the vampire usually has equal access to our perceptions during this time is unclear; our combined accounts suggest it does not.
"However, there are exceptions."
IX.
2005.
"I know how we can kill it," Davis said. "At least, I think I do-how we can get it to come to a place where we can kill it."
Lee put his Big Mac on his tray and looked out the restaurant window. The Lieutenant paused in the act of dipping his fries into a tub of barbecue sauce. Han continued chewing his McNugget but nodded twice.
"The other day-two days ago, Wednesday-I got to it."
"What do you mean?" the Lieutenant said.
"It was coming in for a landing, and I made it mess up."
"Bulls.h.i.t," Lee said. He did not shift his gaze from the window. His face was flushed.
"How?" the Lieutenant said.
"I was having a bad day, worse than the usual bad day. Things at Home Depot-the manager"s okay, but the a.s.sistant manager"s a raging a.s.shole. Anyway, I decided a workout might help. I"d bought these Kung Fu DVDs-"
"Kung Fu," the Lieutenant said.
Davis shrugged. "Seemed more interesting than running a treadmill."
Through a mouthful of McNugget, Han said, "Bruce Lee."
"Yeah," Davis said. "I put the first disc on. To start with, everything"s fine. I"m taking it easy, staying well below the danger level. My back"s starting to ache, the way it always does, but that"s okay, I can live with it. As long as I keep the situation in low gear, I can continue with my tiger style."
"Did it help?" the Lieutenant asked.
"My worse-than-bad day? Not really. But it was something to do, you know?"
The Lieutenant nodded. Lee stared at the traffic edging up the road in front of the McDonald"s. Han bit another McNugget.
"This time, there was no warning. My back"s feeling like someone"s st.i.tching it with a hot needle, then I"m dropping out of heavy cloud cover. Below, a squat hill pushes up from dense jungle. A group of men are sitting around the top of the hill. They"re wearing fatigues, carrying Kalashnikovs. I think I"m somewhere in South America: maybe these guys are FARQ; maybe they"re some of Chavez"s boys.
"I"ve been through the drill enough to know what"s on the way: a ringside seat for blood and carnage. It"s reached the point, when one of these incidents overtakes me, I don"t freak out. The emotion that grips me is dread, sickness at what"s coming. But this happens so fast, there isn"t time for any of that. Instead, anger-the anger that usually shows up a couple of hours later, when I"m still trying to get the taste of blood out of my mouth, still trying to convince myself that I"m not the one who"s so thirsty-for once, that anger arrives on time and loaded for bear. It"s like the fire that"s crackling on my back finds its way into my veins and ignites me.
"What"s funny is, the anger makes my connection to the thing even more intense. The wind is pressing my face, rushing over my arms-my wings-I"m aware of currents in the air, places where it"s thicker, thinner, and I twitch my nerves to adjust for it. There"s one guy standing off from the rest, closer to the treeline, though not so much I-the thing won"t be able to take him. I can practically see the route to him, a steep dive with a sharp turn at the very end that"ll let the thing knife through him. He"s sporting a bush hat, which he"s pushed back on his head. His shirt"s open, T-shirt dark with sweat. He"s holding his weapon self-consciously, trying to looking like a bada.s.s, and it"s this, more than the smoothness of his skin, the couple of whiskers on his chin, that makes it clear he isn"t even eighteen. It-I-we jackknife into the dive, and thirsty, Christ, thirsty isn"t the word: this is dryness that reaches right through to your f.u.c.king soul. I"ve never understood what makes the thing tick-what drives it-so well.