"She is still rather pale, but otherwise seems quite well again. Of course she is dissatisfied since Stanley has left, and thinks she ought to be allowed to follow his example; but I finally persuaded her to remain there patiently, at least for the present. It is well that the poor have their sensibilities blunted early in life, for they are spared many sorrows that afflict those who are pampered by fortune and rendered morbidly sensitive by years of indulgence and prosperity."
A metallic ring had crept into her voice, hardening it, and although he could not distinctly see her countenance, he knew that the words came through set teeth.
"Salome, I hope that I misunderstand you."
"No; unfortunately, you thoroughly comprehend me. Dr. Grey, were you situated precisely as I find myself, do you suppose you would feel your degradation as little as I seem to do? Do you think you would relish the bread of charity as keenly as one, who, for courtesy"s sake, shall be nameless? Could you calmly stand by, and with utter _sang froid_ see your brothers and sisters--your own flesh and blood--drift on every chance wave, like some sodden crust or withered weed on a stormy, treacherous sea? Would not your family pride bleed and die, and your self-respect wail and shrivel and expire?"
"You have so grossly exaggerated and overcolored your picture that I recognize little likeness to reality."
"I neither gloze nor mask; I simply front the facts, which are, briefly, that you were nurtured in independence and trained to abhor the crumbs that fall from other people"s tables, while all heroic aspirations and proud chivalric dreams were fed by the milk that nourished you; whereas, I grew up in the wan, sickly atmosphere of penury; glad to grasp the crust that chance offered; taught to consider the bread of dependence precious as ambrosia; willing to forget family ties that were fraught only with humiliation and wretchedness; coveting bounty that I had not sufficient ambition to merit; and eager to live on charity, as long as it could be coaxed, hoodwinked, or scourged into supporting me comfortably. Yesterday I read a sentence that might have been written for me, so felicitously does it photograph me, "Temperament is a fate oftentimes, from whose jurisdiction its victims hardly escape, but do its bidding herein, be it murder or martyrdom. Virtues and crimes are mixed in one"s cup of nativity, with the lesser or larger margin of choice. _Blood is a destiny._" You, Ulpian Grey, are what you are because your father was a gentleman, and all your surroundings were luxurious and refined; and I, the miller"s child, am what you see me because my father was coa.r.s.e and brutal; because my body and soul struggled with staring starvation,--physical, mental, and moral. Be just, and remember these things when you are tempted to despise me as a pitiable, spiritless parasite."
"My little friend, you have most unnecessarily tortured yourself, and grieved and mortified me. Have I ever treated you with contempt or disrespect?"
"You evidently pity me, and compa.s.sion is about as welcome to my feelings as a vitriol bath to fresh wounds."
"Are you not conscious of having more than once acted in such a manner as to necessitate my compa.s.sion?"
She was silent for some moments; but as they entered the avenue, she said, impetuously,--
"I want you to respect me."
"If you respect yourself and merit my good opinion, I shall not withhold it. But of one thing let me a.s.sure you; my standard of womanly delicacy, n.o.bility, gentleness, and Christian faith is very exalted; and I cannot and will not lower it, even to meet the requirements of those who claim my friendship. Thoroughly cognizant of my opinions concerning several subjects, you have more than once, premeditatedly and obtrusively outraged them, and while I can and do most cordially overlook the offence, you should not deem it possible for me to entertain a very lofty estimate of the offender. When I came home you took such extraordinary pains to convince me that not a single n.o.ble aspiration actuated you that I confess you almost succeeded in your aim; but, Salome, I hope you are far more generous than you deign to prove yourself, and I promise you my earnest respect shall not lag behind,--shall promptly keep pace with your deserts. You can, if you so determine, make yourself an attractive, brilliant, n.o.ble woman; an ornament--and better still--a useful, honored member of society; but the faults of your character are grave, and only prayer and conscientious, persistent efforts can entirely correct them. I am neither so unreasonable nor so unjust as to hold you accountable for circ.u.mstances beyond your control; and, while I warmly sympathize with all your sorrows, I know that you are still sufficiently young to rectify the unfortunate warping that your nature received in its mournful early years. To ask me to respect you is as idle and useless and impotent as the soft murmur of this June breeze in the elm boughs above us; but you can command my perfect confidence and friendship solely on condition that you merit it. Salome, something very unusual has influenced you to-day, forcing you to throw aside the rubbish that you patiently piled over your better self until it was effectually concealed; and, if you are willing to be frank with me, I should be glad to know what has so healthfully affected you. I believe I can guess: has not little Jessie wooed and won her sister"s heart, melting all its icy selfishness and warming its holiest recesses?"
At this moment Stanley bounded down the steps to meet them, and, bending over to receive his kiss and embrace, Salome gladly evaded a reply. That night, after she had taught her brother his lessons for the next day and made him repeat the prayer learned in the dormitory of the Asylum,--when she had read Miss Jane to sleep and seen the doctor set out on his mission of mercy, she brightened the lamp-light in her own room, and, opening the parcel, drew out and commenced the dainty embroidery which she had promised should be completed at an early day.
The night was warm, but the sea-breeze sang a lullaby in the trees that peeped in at her window, and now and then a strong gust blew the flame almost to the top of the lamp-chimney. Stanley slept soundly in his trundle-bed, occasionally startling her by half-uttered exclamations, as in his dreams he chased rabbits or found partridge-eggs. Oblivious of pa.s.sing hours, and profoundly immersed in speculations concerning her future, the girl sewed on, working scallop after scallop, and flower after flower, in the gossamer cambric between her slender fingers. Stars that looked upon her early in the night had gone down into blue abysms below the horizon, and the midnight song of a mocking-bird, swinging in a lemon-tree beneath her window, had long since hushed itself with the chirp of crickets and gossip of the katydids.
A tap on the facing of her open door finally aroused her, and she hastily attempted to hide her work, as Dr. Grey asked,--
"What keeps you up so late? Are you dressing a doll for Jessie?"
"What brings you home so early? Is your patient better?"
"Yes; in one sense he is certainly better; for, free from all pain, he rests with his G.o.d."
"What time is it?"
"Half-past three. Little Charles died about an hour ago, and, as I shall be very busy to-morrow, I came upstairs to ask if you will oblige me by going over to Mrs. Peterson"s and remaining with her until the neighbors a.s.semble in the morning. It is an unpleasant duty, and unless you are perfectly willing I will not request you to perform it."
"Certainly, sir; I will go at once. Why should I hesitate?"
"Come down as soon as you are ready, and I will make Harrison drive you over in my buggy. As it is only a mile I walked home."
When she stood before him, waiting for the servant to adjust some portion of the harness, Dr. Grey wrapped her shawl more closely around her, and said,--
"What new freak keeps you awake till four o"clock?"
"It is no freak, but the beginning of a settled purpose that reaches in numberless ramifications through all my coming years. It does not concern you, so ask me no more. Good-night. I suppose I ought to tender you my thanks for deeming me worthy of this melancholy mission; and if so, pray be pleased to accept them."
CHAPTER V.
"Jane, have you heard that we shall soon have some new neighbors at "Solitude"?"
"No; who is brave enough to settle there?"
"Mrs. Gerome, a widow, has purchased and refitted the house, preparatory to making it her home."
"Do you suppose she knows the history of its former owners?"
"Probably not, as she has never seen the place. The purchase was made some months since by her agent, who stated that she was in Europe."
"Ulpian, I am sorry that the house will again be occupied, for some mournful fatality seems to have attended all who ever resided there; and I have been told that the last proprietor changed the name from "Solitude" to "Bochim.""
"You must not indulge such superst.i.tious vagaries, my dear, wise Janet. The age of hobgoblins, haunted houses, and supernatural influences has pa.s.sed away with the marvels of alchemy and the weird myths of Rosicrucianism. Because many deaths have occurred at that place, and the residents were consequently plunged in gloom, you must not rashly impute eldritch influences to the atmosphere surrounding it. Knowing its ghostly celebrity, I have investigated the grounds of existing prejudice, and find that of the ten persons who have died there during the last fifteen years, three deaths were from hereditary consumption, one from dropsy, two from paralysis, one from epilepsy, one from brain-fever, one from drowning, and the last from a fall that broke the victim"s neck. Were these attributable to any local cause, the results would certainly not have proved so diverse."
"Call it superst.i.tion, or what you will, no amount of coaxing, argument, or ridicule, no imaginable inducement could prevail on me to live there,--even if the house were floored with gold and roofed with silver. It is the gloomiest-looking place this side of Golgotha, and I would as soon crawl into a coffin for an afternoon nap as spend a night there."
"Your imagination invests it with a degree of gloom which is advent.i.tious, and referable solely to painful a.s.sociations; for intrinsically the situation is picturesque and beautiful, and the grounds have been arranged with consummate taste. This morning I noticed a quant.i.ty of rare and very superb lilies cl.u.s.tered in a corner of the _parterre_."
"Pray, what called you there?"
"A workman engaged in repairing some portion of the roof, slipped on the slate and broke his arm; consequently, they sent for me."
"Just what he might have expected. I tell you something happens to everybody who ever sleeps there."
"Do you suppose there is a squad of malicious spirits hovering in ambush to swoop upon all new-comers, and not only fracture limbs, but scatter to right and left paralysis, epilepsy, and other diseases?
From your rueful countenance a stranger might infer that Pandora"s box had just been opened at "Bochim," and that the very air was thick with miasma and maledictions."
"Oh, laugh on if you choose at my old-fashioned whims and superst.i.tion; but, mark my words, that place will prove a curse to whoever buys it and settles there! Has Mrs. Gerome a family?"
"I believe I heard that she had no children, but I really know little about her except that she must be a woman of unusually refined and cultivated tastes, as the pictures, books, and various articles of vertu that have preceded her seem to indicate much critical and artistic ac.u.men. The entire building has been refitted in exceedingly handsome style, and the upholsterer who was arranging the furniture told me it had been purchased in Europe."
"When is Mrs. Gerome expected?"
"During the present week."
"What aged person is she?"
"Indeed, my dear, curious Janet, I have asked no questions and formed no conjectures; but I trust your baleful prognostications will find no fulfilment in her case."
"Ulpian, I had some very fashionable visitors to-day, who manifested an extraordinary interest in your past, present, and future. Mrs.
Channing and her two lovely daughters spent the morning here, and left an invitation for you to attend a party at their house next Thursday evening. Miss Adelaide went into ecstasies over that portrait in which you wore your uniform, and asked numberless questions about you; among others, whether you were still heart-whole, or whether you had suffered some great disappointment early in life which kept you a bachelor. What do you suppose she said when I told her that you had never had a love-sc.r.a.pe in your life?"
"Of course she impugned the statement, which, to a young lady framed for flirtations, must indeed have appeared incredible."